Sarah was pacing in the sterile white room.
So many questions. So few answers.
The only thing that didn't have changed around here seemed to be James Lester.
How could this be the future? What else didn't they know about the anomalies?
Well, they did know now…
Oh, this was confusing and making her head ache. Feeling tired and exhausted she sat down on the bed. Her head cradled in her hands.
What was she supposed to do now? The woman felt alone and lost, she longed to see Becker who she thought of being her only friend at the moment, but was it really her Becker?
The door opened and Becker stood on the threshold. Hands in pockets unable to decide whether to enter or not. He was afraid that his hands would reach out to touch her when he stepped nearer because he felt as that he needed the proof that this was no dream.
Lose Dinosaurs were usually the only ones who could make him feel this nervous.
"Hey." Her voice made him wince.
"Hi." For two seconds they just stared at each other before Becker dropped his eyes to the floor.
The bed sheets crackled as Sarah stood up to step nearer: "Are you okay?"
Too close, he thought. She was too close!
He would have loved to put more space between them but he didn't know how to do it without slighting her. She was so beautiful!
Becker's tongue was heavy. It felt too heavy to speak with. His throat tightened and he felt like suffocating. Deeply sighing Sarah and went back to sit on the bed.
"Becker what's wrong?" Her voice was loud and full of frustration. "There are so many things I don't understand!" He could hear her tearing up and he silently prayed that she wouldn't cry.
"Why are you so strange? Where are the others? Lester seems to be the only normal person around here…er you know how I mean that." He did, but he couldn't tell her anything.
Something drew him nearer so he sat down next to her, only an arm length space between them.
His eyes were glued to the floor. He saw the moisture in the corners of her eyes.
And now? What are you going to tell her?
Shit, I shouldn't have come here!
His body still wanted to scoot even closer and touch her. He wanted to make sure that she was really here next to him.
Sarah's tongue licked over her red lips. Red full lips that waited to be kissed. The soldier breathed through his mouth. His head inclined towards her as if she had a magnet in her pocket. He swallowed feeling light. Sarah sniffed.
Suddenly he pulled back and looked around being confused. He sucked in the air sharply and balled his hands to fists. His nails were digging painfully into his soft flesh.
An image of Jess flickered in front of his eyes.
The Captain cleared his throat and leaned away.
"Well…see, you…you can't meet anyone, because it would reveal too much about the future to you. We are not allowed to intervene with it!"
Then she scooped closer, raising goose bumps on his body as she brushed his arm.
"Makes sense." She nodded and thought about it for a second. "What about the work? Did it change much?"
"Sarah I can't tell you, but no, it hasn't." She nodded staring at the floor.
There was a moment of silence before she raised her voice again, snorting: "This is so…ts…You know I always imagined the future to be well…to…"
She grabbed his hand all of a sudden and Becker's muscles stiffened.
Oh no please don't! he prayed.
It was no dream. This was real. His heartbeat raced, pounding hard against his ribcage.
As she spoke she looked from their hands up to his face:
"Becker, I actually always hoped there'd be a chance that we…"
Becker couldn't hear her anymore. He saw her lips move but there was no sound. His breathing was so ridiculously loud to him. Her smell seemed to take him in.
She caught him of guard as he suddenly tasted her. Her smooth red full lips met his and there was nothing he could do about it.
Jessica! He tried to think about Jess.
But it wasn't like kissing Jessica. This kiss was rough. Like a dinosaur hunt.
Jess' was sweet and innocent.
Becker wasn't able to push her away. His blood rushed from his head south right into his groin.
Oh holy crap!
He jumped off the bed as if he'd been bitten. "Sarah…I…we…" The soldier ran his hands over his face and through his hair. Closing his eyes he tried to calm down to find the right words.
"Becker, did I do something wrong? I always thought you'd…" Oh god I have to go!
He raised his hand:
"No, you didn't do anything wrong." The voice in his head screamed: You did everything wrong! "We…" Leave now! "Look, I can't tell you but we're good it's nothing to do with you, trust me, everything is fine!" The way she sat there in front of him, insecure with broken hopes made him say: "I…I'll come back later!" But he didn't knew if it would be the right thing to do. She nodded.
"Okay, and maybe then you could take me somewhere else? I hate the medical wing!" She looked around making a face. " I am not fond of staying here longer than I have to."
"I'll see what I can do!" He quickly said and rushed out of the door.
There he leaned against the wall, closing his eyes.
Pain shot through him, desperation and lust.
Get a grip! He scolded himself. Becker struggled to put the soldier masked back on.
Captain Becker couldn't allow anyone to see him like this, he had to get to the armory very very quickly. Maybe he'd shoot something.
His head was still fogged and dizzy. What the hell? How did that happen? Why didn't he saw that coming?
As he rounded a corner he paused. Jessica was walking right towards him but she was looking at the papers in her hand. Did he have time to escape her?
As she noticed a movement she looked up. Too late!
She froze as well. She looked weary and hesitated before she walked slowly closer.
They took a step after another, moving slowly towards each other.
"Hey."
"Hey. How are you?" She asked.
The soldier nodded. Jessica swallowed the lump in her throat as she took a closer look at his face.
Cheeks flushed and red colour at one corner of his mouth.
She forced herself to breath evenly.
It's nothing. It's…what is it?
The young inexperienced woman didn't know how to react or what to feel.
"I…er…I just went to see Sarah." I can see that.
Anger suddenly flashed through her and something else.
"Yes, how is she?"
"Confused, she didn't know anomalies lead to the future and she can't understand where everyone from her team is, well you know, I'm the only one who's left from them."
Disappointment.
Maybe she was to be jealous, but how could she compete with a 'dead' woman? And if Becker rather wanted to be with her, than…well…she couldn't do anything against that, could she!
It hit Jessica in the face.
"Yes, I understand that. Although Emily can understand her better than anyone else, I suppose."
Captain Becker. Army soldier. An emotional retard but still ambitious, strong and frightening.
"She hates the medical wing and asked me to take her somewhere else."
She didn't know how to fight for him! Small little fragile baby Jessica. She felt as small as ever.
She figured that she could never persuade him to stay with her if he didn't want to.
She wasn't strong enough for that and didn't even know how to do that.
"Lester doesn't want to leave her unguarded." And me neither.
"I know. It's just…I feel sorry for her!" He pressed the words.
"So you'll think of something?"
"I think…maybe…" I wish you wouldn't.
Her heart itched and stung like she'd been bitten by a snake. No chance!
Her eyes scrutinized the floor.
"Jessica?"
"Mh?"