"Admit what?"
"That you love me too. You have feelings for me."
She clenches her jaw. She shakes her head, in anger. "I never wanted to have any feelings for you."
"But you did, you do."
"It was supposed to be something without any strings attached. But, it wasn't. I am not the type of person who feels that way. I do not want to feel that way. I could not afford to trust you. I could not let myself get to close."
"That is why you pushed me away? You were afraid I would hurt you?"
"I wanted to know that you would always be in my life. I knew that if I let things get out of hand, it would end badly."
"You don't know that."
"I want to do what is best for Zafirah. It is selfish to start a new relationship, right now. Even if I wanted to."
"Because?"
"It takes focus away from her. We can't afford to do that."
"Ziva, would you stop being so hard on yourself, all of the time? Stop pushing me away. I'm not going anywhere."
"What do you want me to say?"
"I just want the truth."
"I don't want to fight with you, about this, not in front of her."
"She's asleep."
"Tony."
"Just tell me the truth, and I will leave you alone. I will stop badgering you. I swear."
"I love you. That does not mean that I want to be with you. That does not mean that I can be with you."
"Why do you have to be so stubborn?"
She shrugs.
"Clearly, I've ticked you off. I think you should go for a run."
"Go for a run? Are you trying to get rid of me now?"
"You need to get rid of some of that anger, before you snap at me, or Zafirah."
"Fine," she throws her hands up in defeat.
As she exits the building a car pulls up to the curb. The owner gets out, and moves towards her.
"Whoa, where do you think you're going?"
"For a run," she answers through clenched teeth.
"What are you running from, Ziver?"
"I am not running from anything. I am just..."
He cuts her off, "You're running from something."
"Why does it matter?"
"You can't run from them. No matter how hard things get, you can't run from them."
"It's not them I'm running from, it's him."
"He said something stupid?" Gibbs assumes.
"As usual."
"Learn to deal with it. Running every time he makes you mad isn't going to work."
"I don't run every time he makes me mad."
Gibbs points to the three cement steps coming out of her building. She follows him over to them. He takes a seat. She stands in front of him, with her arms crossed. He points to the spot beside him.
"Take a seat," he insists.
She nods, and sits down next to him.
"What's going on with you?"
"That is a loaded question."
"Still deserves an answer."
"I am having a hard time, adjusting to all of this. Everything has changed, and I am not sure how to handle it. Tony thinks that it would be best for us to move in together. He thinks that is what is best for Zafirah. And he says all theses things, and..."
"What do you think?"
"I hate to admit it, but I think that he's right. I think that it would be best for her, if we were in the same house. It is less chaos, and she gets to see the both of us every day. I am just afraid that we can't make it work. I am afraid that if I spend every waking moment with him that I will never stop arguing with him. That isn't good for anyone."
"How is she doing?"
"She's clingy. She's needy."
"She's a baby," he points out.
"He thinks that I should take time off to be with her."
"You disagree?"
"I don't know what I'm doing. He's better at it than I am. He's a natural, which completely surprised me."
"From what I hear, you do a pretty good job with her."
"It is not the same."
"You have to do what needs to be done."
"How am I supposed to juggle all of this, and not..."
He cuts her off, "You need to ask for help. You are not in this alone."
"This is a mess. I have a baby. A toddler, who I didn't know even existed. My partner is her father. The partner that I trust to have my back. And he says things, and I just don't know how to respond because..."
"You're afraid? You are afraid that no matter how hard you try things can never work out?"
She simply nods.
"How are you going to know, if you never try?"
"I..."
"It is better to live with the regret of doing something, than living with the regret of not doing something, because at least you know that you tried."
"What are you doing here?"
"I came to visit."
"You came to visit me? On our day off?"
"I didn't really come for you."
"Oh?"
"I thought that the two of you might benefit from a couple hours, toddler free."
"You are going to watch her?"
"Sure. I have watched kids before."
"She's a handful."
"The two of you need some adult time, don't you think?"
"What are you going to do with her, while we're gone?"
"What does she like to do?"
"Go to the zoo, or the park, or build with her blocks, and then knock them down."
"I can handle that."
"Are you sure?"
"Yep," he gets up, and heads towards the entrance of the building, "Come on."
