Break- Shinedown
So this is the 14th chapter... wow. Days are gonna skip quickly. FYI: Dream sequence. And M for safety.
Oh and to acropolis21. Thanks for the constructive criticism. :) I am inexperienced in sex and death. Half of the information came from a friend. But that thing about all my grammar and punctuation well I suppose I could go back but I just don't have the time. I write 2-3 chaps as soon as I can so this way when things get to busy and all I have is a moment I can post. Thanks for your compliments and Ill try to keep them in mind.
3 days have passed by with Freddie and Sam staying with Carly and Spencer. Freddie feeling numb inside, just going through the motions. Not really doing anything but just a lot of thinking. Just filling a space. At night came restless sleep.
"Mom. I'm home." "Mom? Where are you?"
"In here Fredward."
He walked to the living room,"Mom?"
She was sitting on the couch. Her eyes sunk in with deep dark circles with her skin pale as ever. "Whats wrong mom?"
"Freddie. I'm dying."
"What are you talking about?"
She handed him a syringe. "This is my day of death."
"Come on, Mom lets get you to the hospital."
She coughed "Freddie!" grabbing him. She wheezed. "It's no good. By the time we get there I'll be dead."
"Why did you do it mom?"
"You don't need me anymore Freddie. I can see it. I'm going to join your father. Be with him. At last" Her wheezing increased. "Freddie. Take. Care. Of Sam. She needs you." She said as the life drained from her face.
Freddie held his mothers hand and openly wept until she turned into dust on the couch.
"She left a note." Said a voice. He jumped at the sound of her. Bells he thought.
"Alice? How did you get in here?"
"Its on your bed." Ignoring why the girl from the falls was here, he dashed to his room and found the note.
" 'Don't worry about me anymore Freddie. I'm happy now. I am proud to call you my son. Remember Freddie. I love you. Mom'" the note read
"Let go of the mystery and retrace all the steps where you've been and forget all the history and start over again." Alice said
"What did you do Alice!" He asked.
She giggled. "I just gave her closure." POOF she was gone.
"Alice!" Freddie awoke jumping off the couch with a start. He ran across the hall but still afraid of what he'd see. This would be the first time he's seen it in a bit over a week. He unlocked the door and turned on a switch. The room smelled of stale cleaning supplies. Suppose the Hazmat cleaning crew sanitized the place, He thought. The living room looked just as he left it. He walked to his room and sat on his bed appreciating the lack of letter. Pondering what Alice had to do with this. Why was that damn dream so vivid.
"I have to get through this. It's up to me now." He thought.
2 weeks later. SPOV
After the funeral where it was really only Carly, Spencer, Gibby, Freddie, and myself, everyone returned to school and most things started to go back to normal. Freddie had gotten a job at the Groovy Smoothie. He alone lived in the empty apartment. He'd received a letter from a lawyer about the will. 'Everything belongs to Fredward Benson.' and there was a large sum placed in an account for him. Somewhere Spencer was mentioned in it about looking after him if need be.
As for me I slept. In or out of school. I was constantly feeling tired and needed to pee. My headaches got worse. To make matters worse I was freaking out because my period didn't come yet. Which at first I thought was just because of the whole time/ body schedule being all messed up. But it's been two weeks.
"Carly help me?" I asked after telling her whats going on with me.
"How could you be...Ohmygosh. Does Freddie know?"
"What? No. I don't want him to worry if its nothing. He's got a better outlook for college. I can't take that from him."
"Well than what do you want me to tell you? Do I look like a doctor?"
"Carly! I don't want to walk into a store get a test all by myself. It'll make me look like a whore. Please!" I begged.
"Sam. You need to tell him."
"Why?"
"I could think of three good reasons. One, because if your preggo he's number one on the list of Daddy. Two, your dating him. And ugh three, you had sex with him!"
"Carly please! Just help me get the test and if its positive I'll tell him."
"And not when you start to show. Right away."
"Yes."
"Fine."
So that Friday afternoon Carly went in to the furthest Walgreen's from our home, wearing a hoodie, and big glasses, while I waited outside, like a big chicken. Sure in most cases the role is reversed but when something like this is freaking you out... you tend to be a big chicken!
"You get it?" I asked as she walked out.
"Yeah. 3 of them. Where to now?"
"My house. Mom won't notice anything."
Longest three minutes of my life.
Pregnant
Pregnant
Pregnant
all three test read. "This is not how its supposed to be."
"Oh Sam." Carly said embracing me in a hug. "I'm here for you."
"Oh God. How do I tell him" I cried. "I think I'm gonna be sick." I broke myself from her hug and hurled into the toilet. Like a good friend she held my hair.
"Sam your just going to have to tell him. You can't keep this a secret. And you know if you run away again... he'll find you."
"Your right." I sniffled. "It's all on me. I can't erase it because it's with me every day. The strangest feeling that never goes away. Now I have to face it and I can't walk away. But I still don't know how."
"We'll think of a something."
1 more week passed. (Friday-At school)
"Whats going on Sam? You've been abnormally distant."
"Nothing Freddie. I've been busy with Carly, er, shopping."
"Oh. Well I was thinking we could do something tonight." his eyebrows raising slightly.
"Sounds great. See you at your place around 7?" shoving books into my locker.
"Sounds perfect." he said wrapping his arms around my waist from behind. As nice as It felt I was completely uncomfortable with him touching my tummy at the moment. He doesn't know whats going on inside there. Doesn't understand how I could possibly feel. I faked a smile and gave him a quick kiss before running to my last class.
I have to tell him before we have sex. I need to tell him asap. I thought. I'll tell him tonight. I can do that. Right? But the more I tried to figure out the words to tell him, the worse it sounded. So Freddie I don't know how to tell you I'm pregnant. - There's something you should know - I'm with child. - By the way you're a father.-
"So What are we doing tonight." He asked as we sat on the couch.
"Can't we just cuddle." I said
"Bad day?"
"Just a bit."
"Want to talk about it?"
"Not now."
"Alrighty..." He tried to stand up and pulled me with him. "I made dinner."
I smiled "You made me dinner?"
He smiled brilliantly. I would have taken him on the kitchen floor if I hadn't made myself a promise to tell him before. We'll eat. I'll tell him. Then he has the option. If he doesn't want to help with the baby I'm not going to make him.
So I ate slowly savoring the taste of his very meaty and cheesy lasagna. Waiting for the perfect moment. I offered to help clean but he wouldn't let me and told me to go watch tv. It was nice but I knew there was something wrong. He was trying to hard. But when he was done, he came up behind me and rubbed my neck. It felt soo good. He circled his thumbs, used the palms of his hands and began to release the tension that had built up over the week.
"I know what your doing."
"Whats that? "He replied
"Its not gonna happen."
"I'm not asking for anything." he said breathing on my neck.
"I have..." he kissed my neck gently sucking. "I need-" What was it? I thought as his tongue touched my skin. "No" I tried to say. "I can't." Oh man. I thought as the adrenaline pumped through my veins. My hands snaked their way up around his neck and he jumped over the back of the couch, putting his lips to mine. He was pulling of my shirt as I quickly tried to undo his belt. He stood up pulling me with him and carried my bridal style to his bedroom. Where he tossed me on the bed and finished stripping. Hard to say who was naked faster.
His hand massaged my breast as he sucked and kissed my neck. But he completely took me by surprise when he went and sucked on my nipple. His tongue tracing it.
"Oh God." as I tightened, he seemed to be pleased now that he teased me enough to move on to entering. I bit my lip as he slid and out of me. "Oh Freddie." I yelped in pleasure. I looked up at him as he finished. Sickened by the thought that I broke my promise.
So beautiful I thought, as he laid next to me kissed me once more before trying to get his heart rate back to normal.
"Freddie."
"Yeah."
"I'm pregnant."
Yes I sorta ripped that off of that J-LO Movie...the back-up plan. But in my defense... its a good movie... and what teenager wouldn't be scared to say she's pregnant?