Jasper and I were locked in a passionate kiss, he was pressing against me firmly and I could feel his engorged erection pressing against my leg. He smiled down at me then continued to kiss me.
He kissed a line from my lips down to my jaw and to my throat where he stopped letting his lips linger there for a while. He was testing himself, seeing just how far he could go. I whimpered a little in those long moments of nothing wanting him to kiss me again.
I was so focused on him kissing me that I didn't know what he was doing until I felt two of his vampire fingers grazing my clit before plunging them inside me. I screamed out in pleasure and thrashed around on the bed.
Jasper groaned and continued to move his fingers in and out of me at a slow steady rhythm. The only sound was my moans, screams, and his occasionally groan or him whispering something dirty into my ear.
I woke up on the bed breathing heavily; my robe clung to me with my arousal juices. I instantly shot up and looked around. Had he heard? What had I said?
"Jasper?" I called out. There was no answer; I slid off the bed being careful to avoid having my robe ride up. I looked around the room; Jasper was nowhere to be seen. I walked down the short hall and opened the bathroom door. He wasn't in there either.
"Jasper?" I called out again, stepping out of the bathroom. I looked over to the door. I walked over to it; there was a note on the door. In Jasper's flawless writing, it read: Dear Bella, I'll be gone for a while, don't do anything stupid.
I sighed and walked back to the bed. I sat down and sighed again. What was there to do? And what is with all the sighing? I don't think I've ever sighed so much in my life. Maybe it was because I was away from the love of my life and the fact that his brother, who happens to have less control then everyone else, kidnapped me! Or was it the fact that I had just had the best most erotic dream and Edward was not in it. I pushed those thoughts out of my head; the Cullen's would find me, I just had to be patient. I looked around the empty room. The only company I had was the furniture. I wish there was something to do. I looked directly in front of my and instantly felt stupid, there was a TV right there! I turned it on and flipped to some random channel, and stopped. I watched, what seemed like an opening song for some modeling show. I didn't really feel like channel surfing so I just watched. Different words kept showing up on the screen I saw the words: fierce beauty, fabulous strut, and fresh personality. Then there came girls' pictures with their names next to it and another recording of them, I saw: Kyle, she had long blonde hair, after there was Cassandra, she had shoulder length brown hair and her eyes were a little wide apart. Next was Bre, she had huge brownish black hair and dark skin. Next I saw Jayla, a girl with short black hair wearing a tube top that made he look as if she was naked. After Jayla, Nik appeared; she also had large hair and lighter skin. A girl name Coryn was next with her shoulder length brown hair. Next was Nicole who had long black hair and a pale face, if I didn't know any better I'd say she was a vampire. Ebony was next with her hair was pulled back into a ponytail. The next girl, who looked like a boy, was named Kim. Subsequently there was a girl named Sarah whose teeth, frankly, needed to be worked on. After her came Diane and she was a plus size women. Next was Ashley, her hair was blonde. I thought of Rosalie. Lastly came Lisa who I hated instantly by the look on her face, she had short wavy brown hair and her eyes were wide apart. The song was over and on screen there a city at night a cars were rushing by, I could tell it was speeded up for the sake of the show. I continued to watch a little bored. Was there a point to this show? What were they even doing anyway? I mean what is this show? I watched the screen and three episodes later, I was hooked and was singing along.
Wanna be a Top!!!
(narunaunana-narunaunana)
Wanna be a Top!!!
(narunaunana-narunaunana)
Wanna be a Top!!!
(narunaunana-narunaunana)
(narunaunana-narunaunana)
Wanna be a Top!!!
After four hours of nothing but the television set to keep me company, I was informed of everything and anything. I knew the names of different designers, photographers, models, types of makeup, cosmetics lines etc. I knew exactly how and when to use words like 'giggdy' and 'that's what she said' I laughed out loud – also called lol – as I thought about it. Now I really needed to join a chartroom so I could use my new vocabulary. I leaned back and breathed deeply through my nose, I smiled slightly as I listened to the girls talk shit about each other. Whoa, Bella what is with the swearing? Apparently, I had more words in my new vocabulary. Edward would have a fucking cow if he heard me cuss. Whoops another swear. I thought to myself.
After my Top Model marathon, I decided to take a nap. Unfortunately, my mind started to wander and I frowned slightly as I recalled my dream. I remembered waking up in a pool of my own arousal. I wanted my dream to be real but I just wish it had been Edward not Jasper.
My fingers skimmed down my body tightly trailing circles around my left breast and I moaned out lightly. I used my other hand to move lower, I widened my legs so I could reach in-between them. My fingers tangled into the curls before finding their way to my heaven. I stroked my lower lips lightly, afraid that if I did what Jasper did to me in my dream I would break my barrier. I lightly moved to where my wetness was gathering and hesitantly pressed against it. Instead of using my amateur fingers in there, I just stroked myself. I teased my clit lightly, not liking it. I wasn't actually going to give myself that release I needed. I wanted my first orgasm to be with somebody, not on a bed in a hotel by my own hands. I lightly touched everything and anything I could without actually sticking my fingers in anything. I pulled away and adjusted my robe; I stuck my fingers in my mouth and licked them slightly. God how did people like this? I made sure they were clean before pulling them out, almost gagging. Well maybe it's better if it isn't mine. I smiled and jumped up from my spot on the bed to go clean myself off in the bathroom.
I sighed realizing I still was so far away from my dear, dear Edward. I loved him and being away from him was hard. I was so used to being around him all the time. I wonder what they were saying back home… that I got tired of Edward and ran off with his brother; that Jasper and I were cheating on Edward and Alice; that I just had enough of Forks and ran off with Jasper. Every possible scenario I thought of turned out just to end with me and Jasper up to no good here in… well I still didn't know where…. I am so stupid! I sat back down, grabbed the remote, and started looking for the weather channel or maybe a news report. Maybe I could find my way out of here, or maybe all I needed was to find out where I was and they would come and get me! A strong hand ripped the remote from mine, another hand landing on my shoulder. I jumped and almost let out a scream. I turned to face the hands owner and was relieved when I saw it was Jasper.
"What are you doing?" Jasper asked. I hadn't heard him come in. But of course, since he was a vampire I'd be lucky if I had seen him come in.
"Nothing," I said trembling. The T.V. was on some reality show but before I could see what it was the TV went black. Well there goes my plan, I should have known. I thought to myself looking back at Jasper.
"Really?" Jasper asked with a slight sly smile, he inhaled deeply and looked down at well…. don't make me say it.....before looking back up at me "Doesn't smell like it."
"Well I don't know what you're talking about," I said, a little worried; I didn't want him thinking I was some sort of sex-deprived virgin who knew how to get herself off. I took a small step back and asked, "What did you do today?"
"I should be asking you that," he chuckled.
"That's not an answer," I pried.
"I went to the store," he laughed. What the hell is so funny?
"What store?"
"A store."
"What did you buy?" I asked getting frustrated with Jasper. Honestly, you could at least tell me something. He turned around and picked up a large black bag. He pulled out a thin rectangular object that was a shade of blue. He handed it to me and I realized it was a laptop. I took it from him and sat down. I lifted up the screen and started it up.
"Don't bother trying to join any chartroom or site like that," he said with a smile before he went into the bathroom, "They're all blocked. I want you to order your self some clothes, unless you prefer to walk around half naked," he said tossing me a credit card. I picked it up off the floor as soon as I heard the shower start up. I ran my fingers through my hair before actually logging on. I waited a few minutes then opened a Mozilla Firefox and looked up 'women's clothing' I smiled to myself as soon as I saw the link titled: Victoria's Secret: Lingerie and Women's Clothing, Accessories & more. I clicked on it. If I were going to be having these kinds of naughty thoughts then I should dress naughty…No, no, and no. Stop it! I told myself, it's only because there is no other online undergarment store. Surprisingly their website wasn't cheap and sleazy like most people would think, it was actually very decent. I clicked on: sleep+lounge. I noticed on the credit card – which I assumed was Alice's – there was a note from Jasper, I read it before continuing:
Dear Bella,
Don't think this is the actual address where we are. Incase don't remember, I'm a vampire. Here is the shipping address you are to use when you order your clothing.
I skipped reading the address at this very moment. And ordered some clothes, I opened a Microsoft Word Document and made a list of everything I bought. I went to different websites ranging from Forever 21 to Wal-Mart. I was surprised that I actually enjoyed shopping online and actually bought some clothes Alice might approve of. After a few minutes and a few different websites, this is what I had:
Undergarments:
Cotton Mayfair pajama tank top and shorts ($39.), 2 lace flyaway baby doll ($48, $35.), strappy-back baby doll ($35.), Very Sexy® Dots & lace baby doll ($58.), Lace-trim satin slip ($28.), Very Sexy® Crochet lace baby doll ($88.),Pleated swingy slip ($58.), Sexy Little Things® Retro garter slip ($68.), Satin & lace slip ($68.), Very Sexy® Trapeze slip ($78.), Signature Cotton Graphic print sleep shirt ($20.)
Jeans:
Crafted Skinny Flare Jeans ($29.99), 2 Crafted Skinny Jeans ($34.99, $24.99), Crafted Slouch Jeans ($34.99), Crafted Straight Jeans ($29.99), Soul Cal Beach Linen Trouser ($24.99), G-Star Midge Bell Cut Jeans ($79.99), Bench Apollo Jean ($39.99), Crafted Straight Jeans ($34.99)
Shirts:
Rosette Trim Bubble Hem Top ($17.80), Jannice Chiffon Top ($22.80), Colorblock Bubble Hem Tunic ($17.80), Millie Ruffle Front Top ($13.80),Draped Front Bubble Hem Top ($19.80), Harper Floral Chiffon Top ($17.80), Pleated Collar Silk Top ($19.80)
Dresses:
Doreen Crochet Ruffle Top ($17.80), Colorblock Knit Dress ($15.80), Banded Strap Knit Dress ($17.80), Silky Origami Dress ($19.80), Chiffon Party Dress ($24.80), Ruffle Tiered Dress ($34.00), Melody Lace Dress ($24.80), Dotted Zip-Up Dress ($34.80), Diane Von Furstenberg ($290.00)
Shoes:
Alexander McQueen Satin panel pumps ($885.), Halston Peep toe ankle boots ($2,325), Bally Ermana leather boot ($795), 1HUND(RED) Artist #100 The Edge ($55.), 1HUND(RED) Artist #100 The Edge ($43.49), 1HUND(RED) Artist #100 The Edge ($65.)
I was wondering to myself, after all my speeches to Alice, why in the world would I buy such expensive clothes. Well its really quite simple, if this is Alice's credit card and if she just so happens to start checking the bills noticing that balance due is going up. Then she would look at the purchases, realize that she hadn't made the purchases and then track it by looking up where the purchases where sent to. I lied to myself about all this and more. I told myself that the only reason I bought all the sexy lingerie was to get Alice's attention.
I entered the address and credit card number in each little box and made it so they were all overnighters. I smiled at the thought of actually getting some decent clothing while I was here. I noticed the shower had stopped and I looked up. Jasper was hooking up a printer; he came over to me and hooked it into the back of the laptop. I smiled and hit 'Ctrl' and 'p' so I could print my 'receipt' well more of Jasper's receipt. I heard the printer start working on printing it out so I jumped up, closed the Microsoft Word Document,and deleted the history. I trotted off to the bathroom and laughed mentally. Jasper was in for a real surprise.
"Oh Jasper," I called over my shoulder before stepping into the bathroom and closing the door, "That paper printing is for you, its sort of a receipt." I laughed to myself, but just as I was about to close the door, sealing myself in the bathroom. I heard Jasper call out
"I intend to see some of these." Bella, Bella, Bella I thought as I started the shower. What kind of shit have you gotten yourself into? Again with the swearing!
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I let the water run down my body, breathing in through my mouth as it tried to run into my nose. I concentrated on just showering, trying to divert my attention from everything else. I ran my hands over my arms and legs, rubbing the soap into my skin. I don't know how long I'd been in here, but I figured it was about time to get out. I didn't want to though; I wanted to be in here, away from everything else. I let the warm water run down my legs for about five more minutes before turning it off. I almost repeat almost whimpered at the loss of feeling. How was I going to get to sleep tonight? Last night I slept because I was exhausted after being kidnapped and hearing Jasper's life story. But tonight, I didn't know how I was going to cope. I was so used to Edward's cold body against my human one, that I wondered how in the world I was going to sleep without him? I could ask Jasper to sleep with me, but the way my mind just phrased it, I decided that wasn't such a good idea, especially after my dream. I wonder when the clothes will arrive; I really need to get out of this robe. I pulled it over my shoulders and wrapped it tightly around me. I dried my hair with a towel from the towel rack and wiped some of the fog off the mirror. I smiled to myself, what is with all the smiling? Honestly, Bella you're away from the love of your life, kidnapped by his own brother and you're walking around smiling sporadically? I mentally screamed at myself. I mean, really, if I thought about it, I would think I was going crazy! I shook my head and smiled again, I swear I will try to smile less. If I was going crazy, I sure as hell picked a great time to do it. This reminded me, I need to use my new vocabulary! I walked out of the bathroom feeling confident, but my self-esteem went down a few notches when I saw Jasper standing there, watching me. I blushed furiously, and almost ran back into the bathroom to avoid his powerful gaze. His eyes were honey golden, so I knew that he must have gone hunting while he was out. I also knew I couldn't hide anything from him; he could feel what I felt. I smiled at him and walked towards the bed. As I passed by him, he stiffened a little then relaxed; how was he learning how to control himself so well? I guess I should have more faith in Jasper, after all that's why I'm here. Isn't it? Right? Wait, why am I here? I was about to ask Jasper, when I was hit with a wave of sleepiness, making me fall asleep.
Jasper's POV
A Few Days Ago
Bella and Edward were upstairs feeling passionate towards each other. And it was killing me, I swear if one of them doesn't have a fucking orgasm, I'm gonna die. Alice gave me an encouraging smile and stroked my hand. I tried to smile back at her but couldn't control the frown that came. I, well honestly, we all listened as Edward told Bella, once again, that he couldn't do more, not yet. How does Bella fall for this shit? I mean come fucking on! I stood up and listened more carefully as Bella said it was okay, but we both knew it wasn't. I could feel the feelings of rejection and self-pity pouring out of her in waves along with some leftover lust. I can't believe these human women, well all women in general. Just because a man doesn't want/can't sleep with you it doesn't mean… well actually it probably does mean that they are rejecting you. I shook my head and sent Edward some thoughts…..You know she really wants you and you're just getting her all worked up for nothing. You both have no clue what you're doing to each other and definitely have no clue what you're fucking doing to my own damn emotions!
"Sorry," Edward whispered from upstairs, of course Bella couldn't hear but we – as in us vampires – could. I could tell the apology was somehow to everyone including Bella, everyone else must have been thinking generally along the same thoughts. The house was filled with so many emotions from sadness to empathy to not giving a care. You'd think I wouldn't give two shits either but I fucking did! I mean they get me so hot and horny with all their hormones; then they just go their own separate ways. What can I do? I was so fucking hard sometimes. I had a different past from everyone else and a different power. While Edward would complain about everyone's thoughts, I had to feel the emotions that went with them, while if some person wanted to kill himself Edward would probably know why but I would feel why. I would be affected by that and probably some small portion of me would want to kill myself too. I tried to block out the emotions coming off everyone but I just couldn't. Unfortunately, it's not something you can just turn off. Alice was feeling sorry for me and she was also feeling sorry for Bella and pissed at Edward. That one made me smile but it was almost instantly replaced with a frown. Emmett and Rosalie were about to do…. well you know! God all the hormones! All the lust! At least some people were actually going to sleep together! I tried to concentrate on Alice; she wanted my help planning a trip for the both of us. But yet again with all the emotions going haywire in this house, I couldn't keep focused. I needed to do something, anything. I couldn't stand it much longer, all the lust then rejection. It was driving me mad. And I started feeling for Bella. I decided I had to do something then, I just couldn't decide what. Alice looked at me and gave me a questioning look, I could tell and feel that she was wondering what I was planning.
At first, I thought I just wanted to do something to help Bella to ease my suffering but the more I reflected on it the more I realized I was just a small part of the reason. I tried to think about exactly why I wanted to help and I came up with few things 1) Edward had no clue what he was doing and would end of permanently damaging Bella's emotions. 2) there was something special about Bella and I just had to figure out and finally 3) I could feel it, I knew that Alice trusted Edward more then she trusted me. I would have been overall fine with it but its not just Alice and Dickward who didn't trust me, it's EVERYONE in this goddamn house! I JUST HAD to do something but I didn't know what; all I knew was that I had to be careful about it too.