When my math class finally got out, I realized how little I learned. I jotted down some messy notes before I got too distracted going through all the 'what-ifs' with this Axel. Every once in a while, he'd turn around or fake a stretch to turn around and when we'd make eye contact (which was just about each time), he'd wink or stick out his tongue, and I'd smile like a little girl who saw a puppy for the first time.
"Look about earlier," I said when Axel waited for me outside of class.
"Forget it, I just wanted to see if you'd miss me." Axel gave a cruel smile and I got red again.
"Asshole!" I shouted and he chuckled, which only made me angrier.
"Relax, obviously you did. But you want to know a secret?" he leaned in real close; I could feel his warm breath exhaling on my ear. "I missed you too." He stood up straight and I was still blushing, trying to figure out how he could make me so nervous, angry, and shy all within two minutes.
"I never said I missed you," I tried to brush past him, all these new emotions scaring me and I wanted to return back to my simple-minded ways.
"But, I've missed you so much." Axel said and I stopped walking.
"What do you mean?"
"You're seriously asking? I thought, I thought maybe we could have had coffee and catch up and get to know each other." Axel smiled down at me, since he's much taller, and I started walking again.
"You wish." Again, my insides were hating me for being an ass, but I couldn't help it; it's like I was stuck in an asshole of a robot unable to control my tongue.
"Roxas?" Axel looked so hurt and I hated pitiful it was.
"Look, I'm just tired, ok?"
"I'm sorry. I just thought you'd miss me, I mean, you were staring at me."
"You were staring at me too!" I argued back.
"Yeah, cause I could feel your fucking eyes on me!" He pointed to his chest and I became so frustrated, any nerves I had with him disappeared.
"Fine then I won't make that mistake again!" I sped up and dashed for Sora's car as I could hear him shouting my name behind me. I got in the driver seat to go anywhere while I waited for Sora's class to get out.
I drove around for ten minutes, just trying to avoid that useless redhead until Sora texted me and I had to pick him up.
"I didn't know you wanted to drive." Sora chirped when he got in.
"Yeah I was bored." I sighed, not entirely false. Sora spent most of the way home describing one of his classes to me, and when I pulled into our parking spot, I began to feel guilty all over again.
"Can we talk?" I asked, knowing it wouldn't be long before I regretted asking. Any small question I had always got an hour long answer from my overly-willing twin.
"Sure Roxas, of course. About what?"
"About, being confused." I sighed, sitting on my bed and Sora sat on his, each of us facing each other.
"What are you confused about? Math?" Sora perked his head to the side to guess.
"No, it's about," I hesitated, wondering if I really wanted to start this with someone who, if I started, wouldn't ever let this rest.
"Come on Roxas, you'll feel better if you get it off your chest." Sora always had a way of sounding right, just by sounding so confident.
"It's about Axel, ok?" I rushed.
"Oh, I see," Sora hide his smile behind nimble hands.
"Oh shut up." I threw a pillow at him as he giggled.
"Roxy has a crush!" Sora shouted and even though we were home alone, I got nervous.
"Hey! Shut up!" I threw my last pillow at him and he stuck his tongue out at me.
"It's adorable!" He smiled and I relaxed a bit. His smile always had a way of doing that to me.
"Look, don't tell Cloud, or anyone."
"I wont, I promise. Besides, I have one too."
"Really? Already?"
"Oh please, like I couldn't ask you the same two questions!" Sora threw a pillow back at me and I caught it with a shrug of a smile.
"Guess you're right. Alright, who's your guy?"
Sora blinked innocently and wrapped his own arms around himself. "Remember that boy Riku?"
"Yeah, you two used to hang out a lot back in high school."
"Yeah, till he graduated. I didn't see him at all last year, but I have him in my writing class. And well, I've had this rush of nerves since our very first day,"
"Like time stood still and you wanted to throw up?" That's the best way I could describe my feelings around Axel.
"Kinda. But not like you're sick and want to throw up, more like I just don't know how to react so I get all nervous and I just get flustered and wish I knew what to do."
"Yeah, that's how I felt." I agreed.
"Well, turns out, Riku felt the same way, so, we have a date, tomorrow!" Sora squealed with excitement.
"What? Damn, a date already?" I was jealous of my younger twin passing me up. Sora nodded, holding one of my pillows up to his face.
"Mhm! I'm so excited, I don't know what to wear! He's just so adorable!" Sora hugged my pillow tight and I smiled.
"So are you Sky," I used an old family nickname that my mom said I used to call Sora when I was too little to pronounce 'Sora'.
"Aww, Roxy!" Sora used my old nickname. "Oh my gosh! You should invite Axel on the date with Riku and I!" Sora's face lit up.
"I don't know Sky, I mean, wouldn't you want your privacy with him?" I tried to think of excuses to avoid an awkward moment with Axel, especially since our last moment together was less than ideal.
"Nonsense, we're twins and I want you with me on my first date. It'll be a double date!" Sora fisted the air in triumph.
"Sky, I haven't even asked him yet, he could say no."
"He wont." Sora waved off the idea.
"How do you know?" I asked in all my curiousness.
"I could tell by the way he looks at you. He really likes you Roxy, and I can tell by your hesitation, that you really like him, enough to want to make sure it's real." Sora winked at me and raced downstairs when he could hear Cloud open the front door.
"Cloud! You're home!" Sora exclaimed like we hadn't seen him in months, although that's how it often felt.
"Yea, but I have work in four hours, so it's dinner, nap, then I'm off." Cloud walked past me, not even looking at me.
"Welcome home," I rolled my eyes at him.
"Quite being an ass." He headed up the stairs and Sora yelled up to him.
"You two be nice! Don't worry Roxas, I'm sure he's just tired." Sora always had a way of staying positive.
"Whatever, lets just make dinner before he bitches again." I went into the kitchen to find something edible to keep him from killing me.
"Alright, I'll see you two in a couple days," Cloud headed for the door while Sora and I were making dinner.
"Wait, I thought you were going to eat with us!" Sora tried to stop him.
"I meant dinner with Leon, don't worry about feeding me. I'll be back on the weekend." Cloud opened the door and I could see Sora's joy being crushed. When Cloud shut the door, I dropped what I was doing to hug him.
"It's ok Sky, it's like you said, he's just tired and busy." I sighed, trying to help him stay positive because it was my only chance to keep myself positive.
"Yeah, you're right," I could hear the sadness in his voice.
"More for us!" I said, not knowing where this peppiness was coming from, but wishing Sora would take charge in that department.
"Yeah! Now we don't have to clean up as fast or do the dishes right away!" Sora smiled and I smiled back.
"We can pick out outfits for your date tomorrow."
"Our date," Sora stuck out a finger to correct me.
"Yeah, maybe." I shrugged, secretly wishing he was right.
Author's Note: Sorry, I don't really have much to say right now cause I've been studying for HOURS today for my midterm exam, which I have in 20 minutes, so I should hurry up and post this .
To boxthissideup: haha yea, I know right? Roxas just needs to accept that Axel is sexy, I mean, it cant be that hard, right? Lol Yeah I really want to go to Canada because again, I LOVE HOCKEY ^_^ hehehe. Hmm, as weird as it may sound: Rice. I LOVE sticky rice! I was in Thailand for almost 2 weeks, and all I ate was straight up plain sticky rice. I never got tired of it, 3 times a day lol. Thanks for asking!
To Moonstar100: I saw that you posted on another one of my stories! Thanks for reading, and I really hope you enjoy my writing =) I feel like I can relate too, so I'm glad you have that same feeling. I post once a day, and since this is a short story, it'll go by WAY too fast =( But hey, there's much more KH yaoi on the way that I'm working on ^_^
To 18plusforme: YES! I LOVE Roxas' frustrated face because I feel like I have those moments a lot . hehehe and yea, Axel's just a sexy beast lmao. Hahaha yeah, barely anyone knows I'm into yaoi, and even only an elite few know I write it lol. I totally understand. Cant wait to read it!
Thanks for reading!
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