When the doorbell rang, my heart jumped and I loved this new sensation that drove me to run towards the source of the sound.
"Axel!" I jumped up and into his shocked arms.
"Hey, it's nice to know I was this missed." He held me and rocked us side to side.
"I'm so happy to see you." I inhaled his cologne, sweet but not too strong.
"I'm happy to hold you." He slowed the rocking and I could feel the friction between our jeans starting to excite me.
"Lets go!" I grabbed a sweater and rushed out the door. "So which one's yours?" I asked, looking around to all the cars parked on the street.
"This one," He pointed to a big black motorcycle and my eyes lit up. Cloud used to take me on his precious motorcycle before Sora and I had our licenses, but the idea of clinging to Axel made me more eager than ever.
"This is amazing." I said, getting on behind him.
"Just make sure to hold on real tight," He turned to tell me.
"Oh no problem." I gripped his middle as tightly as I could and lowered my face onto his back as he leaned into the machine, traveling at a fast pace to rush to the restaurant we were supposed to meet Sora and Riku at.
"How was that?" Axel swung a long leg over the motorcycle and I fantasized about how flexible he is.
"Awesome." I took the hand he extended for me and I let him guide me inside when we saw Sora and Riku sitting at a half circled table.
"Whats up?" Axel asked Riku, who stood up out of the booth to give him a half hug.
"Not much, you?"
"Same ol, same ol." Axel sat down next to Riku, but Sora made them move so that they were on the ends so he could sit next to me.
"So how long have you two been together?" Axel asked Sora, who kicked his legs under the table as he blushed.
"This is our first date," Riku explained, pulling Sora close to him and I smiled in the way my twin seemed so perfectly content.
"Nice. I'm surprised that Demyx is still going out with Zexion." Axel had a sly smile and Riku laughed along.
"Is that the emo kid with the long bangs?"
"Yep. I mean, Demyx loves him, but I just don't see how someone with ADHD like Demyx can stand someone as robotic as Zexion."
"I guess they balance each other out." Riku shrugged and Axel nodded along. I reached over him for a menu and began looking at the menu, half in English, half in Chinese.
"I cant even read half the shit on here!" I gave up and let the menu fall on the table.
"Well Riku said they have good food here!" Sora defended his love.
"Here," Axel picked up my menu and scooted closer to me. "What do you want?"
"I don't know what they have." I rolled my eyes.
"Ok, well lets calm down and figure that out." Axel said in a way that, if it were anyone else, it would have just pissed me off more. But for some reason, I took his words to heart.
"Ok." I agreed, leaning into him as an excuse to see better.
"Something with chicken, pork, or fish?" He asked me and I shrugged.
"I'll take whatever you get."
Axel smiled and Sora tilted his head like the inner child he really is.
"You speak Chinese?"
"No, but there are symbols by each item and a key at the bottom of the menu that is in English."
"Way to make me feel stupid." I blurted.
"I'm sorry, I was just trying to help." Axel put his hand on my shoulder and to my own surprise, I moved closer to him on my own.
"Do you live with your parents?" Sora asked, always loving the act of getting to know people more.
"Uh, I used to in another city, but I moved here when they passed, so not anymore."
"Oh, I'm so sorry!" Sora put his hands over his mouth and Axel waved it off with his hand.
"It's ok. Riku was one of my first friends here, so I'm glad he remembers how I used to love this place." Axel looked around to absorb the atmosphere as if he hadn't been able to in a long time.
"Did you go to high school with us?" Sora asked, holding Riku's hand and I wished I could do the same with Axel.
"No, I didn't move here till about two years ago, so I finished high school with my cousin and then I ultimately moved here to try to find a job and support myself."
"How old were you?" Now I asked and I felt sorry for hearing his sad story after the way I treated him the other day.
"I was fourteen when my mom died and seventeen when my dad died, and nineteen when I moved here." Axel took a sip of water that was on the table when we got here.
I did the simple math; he was twenty one? Damn, I hit the jackpot.
"I used to visit here all the time because I had family here, but once my dad passed, I felt like I just needed to break away." Axel said simply and I wondered how hard he had worked to make it to college.
"What's the name of where you used to live?" I tried to keep the subject from getting too touchy, and he gave me the weirdest look, it made me forget what I had actually asked.
"Twilight Town." He said, after he stared me down for a little while.
"How far is it from here?" Sora asked and again Axel looked at us funny.
"It's about eight hours from Radiant Garden." He took another sip of water.
We made small talk about classes when the food finally came.
"The fuck is this?" I asked, using chop sticks to hold up some weird noodle shit.
"It's pad-thai." Axel said, digging right in.
"So this is Thai food?" Sora asked and Riku nodded.
"Can you use chop sticks?" Axel asked me, and I shook my head disappointed; that was the only utensil they had.
"Here," Axel picked some of my food up with his chop sticks and held it up to my mouth. "Open," He said and I stared at him funny. I allowed my mouth to open as he fed me, and part of me was really embarrassed, but most of me was in bliss.
"What about you Sora?" Riku turned to Sora, who shook his head as well. "Alright," Riku followed Axel's lead as Sora grinned in appreciation and munched approvingly.
"Woops," Axel accidently let some noodles hang off of my mouth. He looked at Sora and Riku, who were so wrapped up in Riku trying to teach Sora how to hold the chop sticks right, and then he turned back to me. He leaned in, and with his tongue, he swooped the noodles into his own mouth, chewing with a smile as I sat there motionless. I blinked heavily, wanting to rewind time and freeze.
"What?" Axel asked after I stared at him awkwardly for a full minute.
"N, nothing." I blushed and Sora turned to us.
"What's going on?"
"I think they just kissed?" Riku guessed with excitement.
"*gasp* Did you really?" Sora tugged on my arm, bringing me back to reality.
"No," I said honestly.
"Not yet," Axel smiled and Riku high fived him and Sora pouted.
"Riku!" Sora put his hands on his hips.
"Oh I'm sorry," And then Riku did it. He leaned in and stole the words about to come from Sora's mouth by introducing his lips to Sora's. I sat there, bug-eyed, as Sora went from growling to absolutely speechless. When Riku pulled back, Sora looked much like I did when Axel picked up the noodles. Sora's eyes were as blue and as wide as I had ever seen them, and his face looked like he just landed in another universe.
"Congrats Riku, I've never seen him so quiet." I laughed and Riku chuckled.
"It's my job to steal Sora's breath away," Riku held Sora's hand, who blushed into Riku's arms and chest for a tight hug. I smiled, loving how perfect those two are for each other and how happy they both seemed.
After we ate we saw a movie, an action movie that Riku picked out that we all enjoyed, and then Axel asked me for some coffee and desert while Riku went back to our place with Sora.
"Sure," I said, hoping to get to know more about him since we were alone. We arrived at a local coffee shop and took a small table.
"You hungry?" Axel asked me as he stared at the menu from his chair.
"No," I said, starting to shy away after a whole day of being social.
"You want to share a coffee?" He turned to me and I nodded. "I'll be back," He stood up and went to the counter, where that blonde with the Mohawk was working.
"Hey Axe!" The blonde high fived him and Axel smiled.
"Hey Demyx. I'll take my usual." Axel pulled out his wallet and handed Demyx cash.
"I'll bring it to you, give me a minute," The blonde went into a back room and Axel sat down again.
"You come here often?" I asked the obvious.
"Yeah, my best friend works here." Axel smiled, crossing his arms as he leaned back into his chair.
"So what's your major?" I asked, trying to think of a topic that would be interesting but not awkward.
"Chemistry. I've always liked science and I love blowing things up," Axel grinned. "You?"
"I'm a Literature major." I confessed.
"Nice. So you're a first year, aren't you?"
"Yeah," I blushed.
"I'm a third year." Axel said when the blonde came up to us with a coffee in hand. Damn, a third year, that's impressive for a freshman like me.
"Here Axe, your caramel macchiato. Oh, who's this?" Demyx asked looking at me.
"This is Roxas," Axel said and Demyx's eyes lit up.
"This is Roxas? You don't say? How you doing?" Demyx stuck out his hand and I felt really awkward. Had Axel mentioned me to him before?
"I'm ok." I blushed violently.
"Well, I got to get back to work. Catch you round, Roxas." Demyx winked at me and I waved lightly.
"Did you tell him about me?" I asked Axel.
"Of course I did." Axel laughed at me as if my question were stupid.
"Oh," I said, a bit confused.
"Why? Is that bad?" Axel looked at me like he was the confused one.
"No, I just, I didn't know." I looked away and things got really quiet.
"Do you want to try it?" Axel extended the cup towards me after some long silence and I took it.
"Good?" Axel asked. I nodded. We made light chat about homework and about our majors when I felt like all the emotions I let show were getting to me.
"You ok?" Axel asked me, the pained look on my face unable to hide anymore.
"Yeah," I said, not able to look him in the eye. I didn't want to admit that I was thinking about that boy from my past, and I didn't want to love again, because I didn't want to hurt again.
"Roxas, whats wrong?" Axel leaned forward.
"Nothing." I leaned back.
"Roxas, don't lie to me," Axel put his hand across the table, silently asking for mine, but I just stared at it. I was closing up and fast, and if he didn't take me home soon, my inner jerk would come out because its all I knew how to act when I got uncomfortable.
"Ok." Axel said, leaning back again.
"I want to go home," I whispered and he nodded. We left the coffee shop, our hands in our pockets, when we turned a corner towards Axel's motorcycle. Before we made it, he pushed me up against a wall.
"What the fuck?" I yelled.
"Kiss me," Axel froze my head between his palms.
"What?" I squirmed. I may have had a crush on him, but I hated being forced to do anything.
"Kiss me," He leaned in close, our foreheads touching and my eyes closed themselves. I wanted a kiss, but not like this.
"Let me go," I tried to break free but he grabbed my wrists and pinned them.
"Just fucking kiss me!" He yelled and I got scared, shaking as he trapped me. "Roxas, I, I'm sorry." He let go of me and took a step back.
"I want to go home," I sniffled and he nodded.
"Ok," he turned away and we got on his motorcycle. I didn't hold onto him nearly as tight as I did before, just enough to keep me from falling off.
Once we got to my house I hopped off and dashed for the door.
"Roxas, wait!" Axel chased after me and grabbed my wrist.
"Let me go!" I tugged and Axel held me tightly.
"Just listen!" He snapped and I went quiet with fear. "I, I'm sorry about earlier. I just, I missed you so much Roxas. I miss everything about you. I miss your smile, I miss your touch, I miss your lips," He cupped my face but I swatted his hand away.
"You…you said you missed my lips?" I felt so lost.
"Yeah. I did. I've missed you so much." He lifted his hand again, but I backed up.
"How can you miss what you never had?" I asked mainly to myself, aloud.
"Roxas, are you feeling ok?"
"Are YOU feeling ok? How can you miss my lips when we've never kissed?"
"What are you talking about?" Axel's eyebrows turned inward.
"What are YOU talking about? You aren't making any sense!" I was so lost I was getting angry.
"Roxy, calm down."
"Don't call me that! Only Sora calls me that! How, how do you know that Sora calls me that?" I put my hands on my head, tearing at my hair.
"Roxas, you're scaring me." Axel put his hands on my arms but I shook them off.
"I'm scaring you? You're not making any sense."
"Roxas, what am I saying that's confusing you?" Axel put his hands over his heart.
"You're saying that we kissed. You're calling me by a private family nickname. I don't know whats going on." I stared at my shoes, trying to think.
"Yeah, cause we have kissed. And I used to call you Roxy all the time." Axel tried to put his hand on my face but I smacked it hard.
"When?" I yelled and he held his hand, more hurt than I'd ever seen anyone.
"When, when we lived in Twilight Town. When we'd watch the sun-set nearly every day." Axel rubbed his stinging hand with watering eyes as I stood there frozen.
"What?" I barely mumbled.
"You, you mean, you don't remember me?" Axel inhaled deep, like he was trying to keep something inside him; something like tears.
"Who?"
"Roxas?" Axel clenched his shirt, as if he were tugging at his own heart. "You did forget about me." His eyes widened and then it hit me. Like a wave losing me further in the current of the tide, I felt swallowed by emotions and memories I stored up. Like a dam being let lose, all of those suppressed parts of me came back in one overwhelming moment.
"You! You're him! You're the boy I loved!" I fell to my knees, not knowing how I could have missed it. All those fuzzy puzzle pieces fit so perfectly into my memory of that little red-headed boy holding me and trying to comfort me. Of his pure emerald eyes being the only source of hope and love I knew.
"You really do remember me this time? I'm so flattered!" He yelled, like he was stuck on that one question and I looked up with watering eyes.
"I didn't mean to forget!" I cried and he shook his head, heading for his motorcycle.
"Wait! Axel!" I yelled and my voice cracked over his name. He stopped but he didn't turn around. "Where are you going?" I asked, crying hysterically that he'd leave me just as I realized who he really was.
"I'm going to forget Roxas. Got it memorized?" Axel turned and pointed to his temple and I could see the hurt laced in his eyes. I watched him ride away, not sure what to do.
I stood there for two minutes before I was able to register what had just happened and made my way inside, thankful that Riku's car wasn't anywhere in sight. I felt like the ghost of a robot, I was pale, dead, unresponsive, and unable to think.
"Hey Roxas, how was your alone time with Axel?" Sora ran up behind me and trailed me up the stairs.
"Roxas? You ok?" Sora stood right in front of me as I sat on my bed.
"All along, it was him." I blinked curiously, the last of the tears drying on my red cheeks.
"Who?" Sora tilted his head.
"Axel. He was my first love. My only love." I finally made eye contact with Sora.
"You mean that boy from Sunset Terrace?"
"How do you remember when I don't?" I shoved my face in my hands.
"Easy. You wanted to forget, so you did." Sora sat by my side. It made sense; he was my twin, and although he met Axel for the first time at college, of course he'd remember the brief stories about him I told before I made myself forget.
"He probably hates me now," I sniffled, not willing to lose the only one who ever meant anything to me, besides Sora.
"I'm sure he's just frustrated because you forgot about him, but if you explain why, maybe he'll understand." Sora always had a way of making anything sound so simple.
"I tried. He just walked away." I shook my head.
"If he really does love you, he'll miss you enough to come back. And if you really love him, you'll stay faithful and be there for him till he's ready." I don't know how Sora knew so much about love, but he knew people like the back of his hand, so I guess it makes sense.
"I knew there was something familiar about him."
"Do you still love him?" Sora rubbed my back to calm me down.
"I, I think so," I tugged at my hair.
"What's making you hesitant?" Sora pushed my bangs out of my face.
"I don't know. He was my first real friend; my first crush that was more than just a crush. But it's because of him that I'm afraid to feel again."
"Is it because of him, or dad?"
"I don't know. Both?"
"Ask yourself Roxas, why are you afraid to feel? What do you have to lose?"
"Everyone! Because of stupid 'feelings' it hurt to watch dad leave us, then mom, then Cloud, and it hurt to lose Axel even more! I've become so jaded to emotions because I don't want to hurt anymore." I started off yelling, finishing with sorrow and pain.
"Roxas, life is full of hurts and pains. The only difference between you and me is that I acknowledge it. You may not want to admit it, but it'd be a lie if you said that mom never being around doesn't matter to you. You'd be lying if you said that you didn't miss dad and how he used to care. Or even if you said that you don't miss Cloud when he's gone for so long. Having to be separated by Axel and dad didn't make it impossible for you to feel. It just made you want to hide the fact that you indeed can feel."
By the time Sora finished my eyes began to water again.
"So what do I do now?" He may have been my younger twin, but he didn't always act like it.
Author's Note: OMG that was a LONG chapter compared to my usual ones! Ok so….yeah…there you have it. Roxas had his date with Axel, but it doesn't really end the way either of them planned. There is one official chapter left, and after that are TWO bonus chapters. Also, I wrote a sequel for this that shows ZexionsXDemyx's relationship…..but I kind of don't like it . I think I'm just going to post it at the end of the 2 bonus ones. I started writing it and soon after kind of gave up, so yea….i'm sorry! I feel bad that I pretty much half-assed a fanfic! but you should still read it cause I did put time and effort into it, although I don't think its as good as the Akuroku side . but I promise I have many other stories on the way!
Next to be posted is a short Zemyx, called Hate to Love. So that will be posted immediately after I finish posting the ZexionXDemyx side to this story. That one is a little….weird. It's a bit random and I hate to say it, but it starts off making Demyx almost look like a 'bad guy', but I swear, I LOVE him! I just thought it would make an entertaining short story, so yeah. Basically, Zexion is a door-to-door salesmen, but that changes when he goes to one door and then goes unconscious. Gota read the rest to find out what happens when he wakes up ;)
So I'm posting this early because I'm going to be very busy tomorrow and I don't think that I will have time to post a chapter tomorrow but by the time you all get and read this (since its late at night where I live) then it'll probably count for the one a day. So yeah, sorry to say that there wont be another chapter till Sunday, but this one is pretty long, and unless you've read all ten of my stories, I'd say that I have enough to keep you busy while you wait hehehe ^_^
To boxthissideup: Sweet Roxy is always a good thing, especially because it works well with sexy Axel ;) Aww, thank you for your encouragement! I have a bunch of HW, but seriously, I know I keep saying it, but its true: all of your reviews really help me get through my day, so thank you =) Seven is a HUGE tackle, and I then I realized I was leaving one out, so it's 8, or was, because I finished two today (YAY progress!) OMG I'm SO jealous! I wish I could cosplay as Axel or Demyx, cause I'd so do fanservice with whoever I cosplayed with lol. Hmmm, that's a toughie, cause I only play KH, Call of Duty, and more KH lol. I consider myself a huge gamer girl though because I was a really big halo fan and I play with all the dudes in my hometown and I love video games, but I play a lot of war games and car racing games and hockey video games, whenever I'm not playing KH (which is like, all I ever play anymore lol). So I'd have to pass on another video game, although I've considered writing yaoi fanfic for the anime Pandora Hearts because I totally ship a couple on there that I think is adorable. But I think I have too much KH ideas and that's enough to keep me busy for a while ;)
To 18plusforme: Aww ^_^ I feel like I have my own online body-guard lol. But don't let my profile pic fool you, I grew up with all guy friends and I played hockey and video games all day in my childhood, so I'm pretty tough lol But thanks, that totally made my day =) Aww, I love how you totally analyzed something I didn't mean to do, yet you made it sound like I'm a genius O.o…..maybe I shouldn't have admitted that . hehehe
To moonstar100: Thank you so much for saying something so sweet about chapter 5 =) Also, I read your review on Felt So Right, and I'm glad that you really liked it. It was definitely one of my favorites to write and I had a lot of fun letting my three favorite Org 13 members just go at it ;) The idea wasn't mine, but from another fan (credit to One Who Waits For Love), and I loved it so much I decided it was a suggestion worth following. I may write to solve my boredom in class and because I consider myself a writer with no choice but to be enslaved by the inspiration, words, and process that binds me to creative writing, but I really do a lot of it for my fans. If anyone has ideas, suggestions, requests, or preferences, I'll do my best to listen.
So if anyone asks for a sequel to something or for a specific pairing, I'm all ears =)
Thanks for reading another chapter and prepare for the next chapter, cause it's going to be a good one with a great ending ;)
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