Bella's POV

I sat down and looked at Jasper. He smiled at me, took my hand, and brushed the loose strands of hair back behind my ear. I sighed heavily and closed my eyes. I was tired and sad… mostly tired. I did not know what to do. I was considering asking Jasper about the whole going back home situation but I did not want to ruin his mood. He seemed happy… but then again I guess I should just speak my mind considering the fact that Jasper could feel my sadness.

"What's wrong?" he asked. I sighed and tried to put on my best smile. However, I gave that up as soon as it started.

"Oh I'm just thinking about what we'll do when we get home," I sighed. I watched his face as several emotions came over him; anger, fear, love, and sadness. I understood the love, sadness and the fear... but the anger, I did not get.

"What about it?" he asked leaning forward and taking both my hands into his. I looked into his golden eyes, which were darkening considerably, and sighed yet again. He waited for my answer as I thought about it.

"What are we going to do? I mean I know that they probably aren't… well they aren't going to accept us as that easy."

"What do you mean? Accept us?" he asked, frowning.

"I mean… well… this Jasper; they won't accept this, us, us being together!" I shouted standing up and resisting the urge to cry. I placed my hands on both sides of my forehead and looked down at my love. I loved him; I wanted the family to accept us all to be together. I really did want to be with him, I do not even know how or when it came up. In a way I guess I have always loved him… oh you know that is bullshit! You fell in love with him! You saw that he was right for you and you fell in love with him! My mind shouted at me. I sighed, again, and looked back up and around.

Sabrina, Charlotte and Peter looked back down at their magazine as soon as they saw I was looking at them. Jasper stood up and made me look him in the eye.

"They'll have no choice Bella, I love you and I won't go back there and pretend I don't!" Jasper said grasping my hands and giving me a brief kiss on the lips.

"I know, I know, and don't get me wrong I love you too but… I just don't see it…"

"It makes no sense to worry about things you have no control over because there's

nothing you can do about them, and why worry about things you do control? The activity of worrying keeps you immobilized," Peter said simply and calmly. I was surprised by Peter's proclamation which sounded like something straight from a poem.

"Aw…" Charlotte said with a smile, "Wayne Dyer, right?" she asked. Peter nodded and pulled Charlotte into his arms and kissed her gently and just held her. I could not help but watch in awe as they swayed ever so slightly back in forth in each other's arms, the smiles on their faces and the passion in their eyes was truly a remarkable sight. I never thought I would be so amazed from watching two people together but these two were different. They looked at each other like… like they would rather loose the entire world - or maybe even everything that there is, was, and will be - then loose each other. They looked into each other's red eyes... and in those few moments I could not help but wonder if red symbolized love? The way they looked at each other, held each other, touched each other, and even looked at the area around each other screamed pure undeniable 'love'!

I remembered an old quote I had once read in one of the books I had read a long time ago "Love is something eternal; the aspect may change, but not the essence". Vincent van Gogh said that, and looking here I knew that was true. As it turns out, this trip was teaching me that many of the quotes I learned in school were true and made me wonder about each poet's inspiration to write them. How it happened, when it happened, was it a person they loved, two people they saw etc.? I was suddenly determined to find a quote for Jasper and I to share, one about our eternal love for one another. I knew then that I could not let Alice or Edward, or anyone for that matter, tell me I did not love Jasper. That we were not in love or that we were not meant to be. I loved Jasper with all of me, I knew he loved me right back with the same passion.

"Well then we'll figure something out… we will, I know it," Sabrina said smiling slightly and looking from each one of us before hers eyes settling on me and Jasper, "I know it, in my heart and in my soul." Hearing a vampire say they had a soul ignited some old memories deep inside of my mind, ones that I would rather keep deep inside of my mind! Edward said he did not want to change me because vampires did not have souls! A word from the wise… maybe it is just you!

"Sabrina is right Bella," Jasper said holding me tightly and lovingly. I did not want to leave him arms, ever. I could not remember anything at that exact moment in time. It was like everything faded away and it was just us, only us no one else anywhere. I could feel liquid love floating in the air around us. As weird as that seems I felt good, whole, with a purpose in life: to make Jasper happy. I thought over everything I knew about vampires, and found that it did not matter what Jasper or I was. Whether he had a soul or was some sort of creepy weird demon thingy, I would love him anyway! It was just the way Jasper behaved and thought that made me love him. It was who he is not what he is. Okay, I guess I have to be a little honest and say if he was some sort of flesh eating demon that he would be different and I might not love him then but that's not the point! The point is that I love him and nobody will be able to tell me otherwise. Or at least that's what I hope.

Short, yes I know and I'm sorry. I've been working hard though guys so please cut me some slack. I get writers block very often these days and I'm surprised I'm still able to even write as much as I did. Thank you everyone for reviewing last time and I hope you all had a great New Years. I'd like to give a shout out to my excellent Beta and everyone for continuing to read! You all are awesome and I'm so happy you're all sticking with me. Please leave a review, you don't need to have an account. I'd love any feedback even if you think I'm a horrible writer. Once again, thank you for reading and I'm sorry it's a little short but you can't ignore life, ya know? I'm thinking about letting someone else write a chapter... but I don't know yet. Anyone who has an idea feel free to throw things at me and I'll see what I can do.

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