Author's note: So I decided to post an extra chapter today since I got back to my dorm early and am bored and figured that I have SO much fanfic I'm waiting to post, I might as well =)
I spent that whole weekend inside doing homework and playing video games, trying to figure out what I was going to do next about Axel. I was still afraid to feel and to love, but for him, I knew I could make an exception. If only he were willing too.
"Are you going to talk to him?" Sora asked as he drove us to school that Monday morning. I shrugged.
"I don't know what to say."
"Just listen to your heart. It'll tell you if you listen." Sora smiled and I nodded, not having anything else to believe in.
"He's over there with someone," Sora pointed to where Axel and Demyx stood talking and laughing. I grew envious at how easily he laughed when I had been depressed this entire weekend.
"What are you thinking?" Sora asked, probably using our twin telepathy to figure out that I was listening to my emotions.
"I want to be the reason he smiles and laughs," My heart began to ache and I wanted to go home.
"Good. Tell him that. He can't read minds Roxas, remember that." Sora patted my back and I took the long dreaded steps toward Axel.
"I told them they were sending the wrong guy!" Demyx laughed and Axel joined him and as I made my way up to them, they stopped. I'm sure if Demyx was as good a friend as Axel made him out to be, he probably knew about what happened.
"Oh, hey there Roxas." Demyx waved with a smile and I gave a weak fake smile back.
"Hey Demyx. Can, can I talk to Axel?" I felt so pathetic for asking.
"Sure," Demyx shrugged, waved to Axel, and walked away. Axel crossed his arms and leaned on one leg and stared at me, waiting for me to talk. I was so nervous, I didn't know what to say, and his stare mixed with the silence only made it worse.
"Well?" He asked, his eyes clearly angry.
"I'm sorry." I said, trying to keep myself from losing control here at school.
"Sorry? For what? For forgetting about me? For leaving me with a false hope of love and then, when I finally get the courage to talk to you, you lead me on only to reject me? What exactly are you sorry for Roxas?"
"For everything." I looked down at the ground. "I'm just sorry."
"Just sorry?" Axel asked, not out of anger, but curiosity.
"I don't have any other emotion left in me other than guilt. When my parents divorced randomly and I had to move, I became so bitter that I didn't allow myself to feel anything or to express any emotions. My mom isn't around anymore, my older brother is pretty much invisible, and I made myself immune to feeling so I wouldn't become weak. Cause in the end, not being able to see you anymore was the hardest thing I've ever gone through."
"It was?" Axel unstiffened his body.
"Yeah. I tried to find you to say goodbye, but I couldn't. I cried for so long that, that I promised I'd never cry again, because I was afraid I'd die from crying too much." I laughed at the stupid but true memory.
"Roxas, you're so silly," Axel smiled.
"Hey, I was seven!" I wiped my eyes cause I could feel tears forming.
"I was nine. I thought I was going to see you and love you every day for the rest of my life. But when you stopped coming, I lost hope. I went to Sunset Terrace every damn day for a whole fucking year, waiting till you returned. Then, I too became bitter. But all along I clung to the faint possibility of seeing you again. When I saw you here on the first day, I got so nervous, I couldn't stop staring at you, wondering if you were really you. I was so scared that I'd be wrong, and even though I knew I wasn't, I still was so nervous. It took me a few weeks to work up the courage to talk to you. And, I'm glad I did."
"Me too Axel," I closed my eyes as I hugged him, not giving him a choice but to stand there and take it. I felt him sigh gently as he put his arms around me.
"I missed you so much."
"Me too," I sniffled, feeling the tears escape.
"Shh, it's ok." Axel whispered, rocking us gently in a way that made me want to melt. I wanted to disappear in his hold and live in a world where I could feel and show him how I felt.
"I, I love you, Axel." I listened to the only thing my heart was screaming.
"I love you too Roxas," He pulled back a little to look down at my tear stained face. And he smiled.
"Kiss me," Axel stared into my oceanic eyes as I nodded. He inhaled deep as my eyes shut, then, magic. Those soft supple, lips gently met mine in a timid peck that made my arms encircle around his neck as I stretched on my tip-toes. I could tell he loved my reactions, because I could feel his lips curl into a smile and his palms rushed to my hips, rocking us slowly from side to side. When he pulled away for air, I bit my lip, wishing to feel that warm pressure back where it belongs. I felt like I was ready to die at peace; like everything I could ever ask for was satisfied in that one kiss.
"As much as I'd love to continue this, we should probably get to class," Axel frowned.
"When does it start?" I pouted, keeping my arms around his neck as he swayed.
"Um, about ten minutes ago?" Axel smiled cheaply.
"Shit. Ugh, fine," I let my arms fall and started dragging myself to class when Axel caught my wrist and yanked me back into another strong kiss.
"God I cant get enough of those lips," Axel traced his thumb over my bottom lip as I stood there, trembling at his gentle touch. "C'mon," He took my hand and led me to class, where we continued to hold hands till it ended an hour and a half later.
"You're going to have to let go you know?" Axel chuckled when he dropped me off at home later that day, after we went on a movie-dinner date. I was glued to his body on the motorcycle, loving the low hum of it and how it encouraged me to stay.
"But I don't want to." I kept my eyes closed as I felt each breath he took.
"Roxas, if you invite me in, I'm more than happy to go." My eyes lit up.
"Yeah! Come one!" I jumped off and raced inside, throwing myself on the couch and turning on the TV to wait for him to join me. Axel closed the front door quietly and snuggled with me on the couch.
"So where's Sora?" He asked, leaving a trail of delicate kisses up my neck as I squirmed in excitement.
"He's on a date with Riku, so we have time," I said, lying on my back with my fingers lost in his hair as he put a hand up my shirt.
"Good, I'd hate for your innocent brother to watch what I've been dying to do to you," Axel smiled and I blushed, loving every second I had with him, every second I had with my second chance.
"Yeah, I sometimes wonder if he knows what sex even is," I laughed and Axel chuckled along. He started to leave hickey marks up and down my throat, lavishly licking the bruised and tender skin while I moaned loudly.
"Oh, ngh, mm, oh yea," I inhaled as he bit harder, letting one hand race to my nipple.
"I'd like to see you try!" Axel and I stopped everything we were doing: breathing and blinking even, since the voice we heard did not belong to us. The next thing we knew, Riku ran down the stairs, naked, taking refuge with his hands as Sora ran down in a pair of girls lingerie.
"Riku, it's too small!" Sora pulled on a red laced thong and I could feel my eyes disintegrating right then and there.
"Uh," Riku froze, staring at us as we stared at him, and poor Sora who didn't even notice us but was exposing his backside all along. I put my hands over Axel's eyes as Riku put his hands on my twins ass.
"We're just going to go back upstairs," Riku scooted himself and Sora simultaneously, and when Sora turned to see us, his face turned as red as his thong. As soon as they were sheltered by the stairs, I could hear Sora yelling.
"OH MY FUCKING GOD RIKU I'm going to KILL YOU!" Along with Sora's threats, I could hear Riku's laughter.
Axel coughed awkwardly, then sat up, still straddling me.
"You know, I think we should go to my place," He rubbed his eyes, probably trying to get the image of his best friend naked out of his mind, and no doubt the image of his boyfriends twin in a thong.
Then it hit me.
"Axel?"
"Yeah baby?"
"We're, we're dating, right?" I had to be sure.
"Do you want to?" Axel combed my hair as I sat up, with him in my lap.
"Yeah, I really do." I put my arms around his neck again.
"Good, me too." He kissed me and I smiled.
"For the first time in twelve years, I feel alive again." I smiled, so genuine and real it made me want to explode.
"You're the reason I still am."
"What do you mean?"
"When my parents died, I gave up hope on everything. Everything, except trying to find you. Now that I have, I intend on keeping you." He squeezed me and I giggled.
"So, to your place?" I smiled enticingly.
"Yes! And, what are the odds of you wearing a red thong for me?" Axel grinned.
"None to none," I winked.
"Hm, I bet I can change those odds," He spanked me playfully as we left my house to head to his.
"Hey Axe?"
"Yes Roxas?" He got onto his motorcycle.
"I love you." I got on next, holding onto him for dear life.
"I love you too," He let his motorcycle purr as he leaned his head back against mine. "And it's ok, I'll wear the thong if you really want," He winked at me and the thought of him in a fire-red thong mixed with his motorcycle vibrating gave me an erection I was desperate to solve.
"Maybe, maybe we can both wear one," I suggested, cuddling into his back as he shifted into his first gear.
"Sounds like a date," He sped off and I clung to him with all I had.
That night, after we made love and I texted Sora that I wouldn't be home till the next day (which he was more than ok with, since he and Riku were having their own sleep-over), I had a dream where all the missing pieces were lined up. His and mine. And that far off memory didn't feel a scattered dream anymore.
Author's Note: OMG so technically that's the "end", but there are two bonus chapters and I'm guessing that YOU can guess what they are ;) But in case you cant, lol, the next one will be the Soriku Lemon that describes what happened before, during, and after that whole 'downstairs' scene . It will be from Riku's POV =) After that, it's the akuroku lemon, back to Roxas' POV. THEN AFTER THAT, comes the Zemyx from Demyx's POV. After that, I'll be posting a brand new fanfiction. So stay tuned, I have tons more on the way =)
To 18plusforme: awww, my personal body guard you ;P haha after the Zemyx for this story is my short independent Zemyx, and I did write that with you in mind ^_^
To boxthissideup: haha, yea, I actually do that a lot, but I add random quotes from video games that I feel no one would recognize because it's the only thing that fits into the context of my story . half of Larxene's lines in Butterflies were from COM. It's sad, but I do work hard to incorporate their lines because it brings truth to the real character, only, you'd have to be a SUPER KH fan to catch all of them. YES, I don't want to brag, but I LOVE my Sora in this fic. Makes me want to continue it just so I can write more with him because I really enjoyed having a character like him when my others in other fics have been more angsty and dramatic. AH! YES! I'd love to see pix! I hope I don't creep you out saying this, but I'd totally do fanservice with you lmao. And no, that symbol doesn't come up =( that's why I spell heart, and why (in my old fics) I end each story with the number 3 so I look stupid :P
Hmmm, if I were stranded on a desert island I'd….i should tell you that I'm a military child and am pretty prepared for the small odds this could happen. First I'd find my bearings. Where am I and where am I trying to go? Best destination is the water to escape. Once I make it to the shore, I'd set up camp because I'll probably be tired (and hot since it's a desert). I'd make a fire to scare off predators and I would set up traps to either catch fish or find some sort of food. In order to make that fire, I'd pick pieces of plant that are dead and dried out which is probably easy to find because on a desert island, most things are going to be dried out. Once I make my fire, I'd boil water, because the only safe water to drink is water that has been boiled to rid it of impurities. Next is shelter, made out of plants, tree branches, and large thick leaves (if available). By the time shelter is up, I should have caught something in one of my traps. If not, I'd sharpen a stick with a knife I'm sure I would have on me and would make a spear. Once I have my fish (or any food) I'd cook it and eat up. I'd catch extra and cook it in the event that I am stuck even longer. After food, it's time to find supplies to make a raft. Bamboo works really well, but since it's a desert, I'll have to stick with whatever trees are available. Once I have all my supplies, I'll take them back to my base-camp and start building a raft (KINGDOM HEARTS STATUS HERE!) and I'll name it the Highwind (I'm pretty sure that's the original name Riku suggests lol). I'll stay the night on the island, to rest, and continue to work on my raft and to collect enough food and sustenance to keep me alive for at least 3 days in case I am lost at sea. After that, it's sailing time, where I hope that I am discovered, or at least that a giant heartless comes and destroys my island first (but only if I end up getting a keyblade and I get to see sexy people like Leon and Cloud and eventually Axel) THE END =)