I wish I owned Harry Potter, but I don't... alas.

Third year, third year...Ahhhh! Here it is, I bet all the stupid, girly feelings for Hermione are gone. Lets see, the school year started out with Sirius Black getting loose and Harry running away. Look the first big thing of the year and I didn't write anything about Hermione.

The day before we leave for Hogwarts, Hermione's demon cat almost ate Scabbers. All she has to say is that Scabbers needs to stay away from her cat, and all will be fine. It was the weirdest thing though, I kept thinking about how pretty she was when she was mad. I can't believe this, just because I think she's attractive doesn't mean I like her. I'm being completely mental worrying about this.

...it seems like all Hermione and I do is fight over Scabbers, and her evil cat. I feel like a prat for not being there for Harry, but I have this weird feeling about Hermione... During our care of magical creatures lesson, Hagrid brought out Buckbeak. I don't even know how to describe it, but when Harry approached him Hermione got scared and grabbed my hand. I got this crazy feeling in my stomach when she touched me... Her cat ate Scabbers! I haven't talked to Hermione in weeks. I can tell it's taking it's toll on Harry, but I just can't seem to talk to her. I feel as if she's betrayed me somehow.

None of this means anything. She was my friend and I thought that she let her cat eat my rat. I was pissed, that's all. I mean, it don't really mean anything does it. I'll just read a little more and see how things went. It's only 3:30, so I've got time to read, before dinner starts and people start to wonder.

...Hermione and I are talking again. I agreed to help her research for Buckbeak's trial, even though Scabbers is still gone... Hagrid came back from his trial with bad news, they had lost and Buckbeak has to be executed... We went to see Hagrid before the execution, he look absolutely miserable. But he found Scabbers, I feel stupid for blaming Hermione but I can't really get my self to tell Hermione sorry... When we finally got far enough away from Hagrid's we turned and heard Buckbeak get executed. Hermione Hugged me and cried, her hair smelled like lilacs... When the giant dog was dragging me to the shrieking shack I was so worried that I would never get to see Hermione again...When Harry and Hermione disappeared I felt a pang of...well I think it was jealousy. I just don't like when she's with other guys by herself.

Ok. Who am I trying to kid? I'm head over heels for her. Even when all that crazy, and amazing stuff that was happening with Sirius, and all I could write about was Hermione. You know I think I need to tell her. But she doesn't feel the same so it doesn't matter. She's with that Kyle guy. Yeah they all think I don't know, but I do. I saw them out by the lake last month, she looked happy, so I should probably leave her alone.

Ron started to pace the room, he didn't even notice when someone came in the room, but he heard the bed squeak, and he started to speak without looking at who was sitting there.

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Hermione slowly walked up the stairs of the boys dormitory. She hadn't been seeing much of Ron lately and she wanted to make sure he was ok. She walked into the dormitory and sat on his bed, when she sat he instantly started to talk..

"Harry, I know that earlier I told you I didn't want to talk. But I do. Well the notebook that you asked about is where I write all the stuff that happens to me in a year, so I don't forget. I know it kind of sounds like a diary, but it's not. Here," Ron threw the notebook on to the bed, "It seems that even with all the crazy stuff that happens I always seem to write about Hermione." There was a long pause, where Ron walked to the window and intently stared out at the lake, and Hermione began to skim through the notebook.

...She doesn't realize that I've seen her as a girl since the first time we met. I'm just scared that if I were to have asked her she would have laughed in my face...Hermione went to the ball with Krum. I couldn't hide my jealousy this time. We got into a huge fight afterwards, I felt like a huge prat for ruining her night...

Hermione stared at the pages before her. She couldn't believe what she was reading. But for some reason she couldn't stop herself for wondering about what he had written about fifth year. So she skimmed until she found where he had written about fifth year.

...I've been alone with Hermione at headquarters for most of the summer. It's driving me mad being so close to her, but not being with her... Harry's here, and now it's like I don't even exist, but I'm getting used to it. I'll never measure up to Harry. Not for my mother, Ginny, or Hermione...We've never spent this much time together, but because of the DA we spend almost every free second together. I love it but she's also spending a lot of time with Harry, so of course she only sees me as the stupid side kick.....

Hermione couldn't bare to read Ron's words. How could he ever think so little of himself. She had been waiting for him for the longest time, but then the Lavender thing happened. She glanced at Ron to make sure that he was still oblivious to the fact that she wasn't Harry. When she was sure he was still occupied with staring at the grounds she decided that she would continue to read. Maybe if she continued to read she would find out when he had stopped liking her.

...I think that Hermione was trying to ask me to one of those parties today. I acted like a prat, but I'm afraid that if I did that kind of stuff with her that she'd figure out that I like her as more then a friend... Harry and I found Ginny and Dean snogging in the hallway. She told me that the only reason that I got mad was because I've never snogged anyone. Then she said that Hermione snogged Krum. I thought that I was going to die right there and then when she said that...I found the answer to my problem in Lavender Brown. I'll snog her and Hermione can finally be jealous of me...Hermione attacked me with birds, she looked really hurt. This Lavender idea was stupid.... I got poisoned and when I woke up Hermione was there. It was the best present to get for my birthday. Hermione talking to me again...Lavender broke up with me! She thought that Hermione and I had been in my dorm together. If only she knew that when I kissed her I imagined it was Hermione.

When Hermione read the last sentence a small gasp escaped her lips. She wasn't sure how to react to what she had just read. She held in her hands six years of confessed feelings for her. From the man that she had always wanted to hear these things form. But she was with Kyle, and Ron was telling Harry this not her.

"I know she's our best mate, but I kinda, sorta, maybe like her a lot more then I originally had planned. I know she's with Kyle, I saw them at the lake together. So I'm not going to tell her. She seems happy with Kyle and even though it kills me a little I just want her to be happy, and if Kyle does that I'm gonna let her be happy. Even though I think I Love her." Ron sighed deeply and turned around to see the door closing and a big brown puff of hair retreating down the stairs. His stomach sank to his feet as he realized that he had just told Hermione how he felt, and let her read his notebook.

She is never going to talk to me again. And were leaving for Easter holiday tomorrow. This is going to be the most awkward stays at the Burrow ever.