Urgh! I'm so frustrated! I wrote most of this whilst I was on holiday, on my phone! that's how dedicated I am! I got back home almost 2 weeks ago and was ready to upload when my router decided to die! D:
Finally managed to get a new one today though so updates shall resume!

I quickly set it up so I could post this before I head off to karate, unfortunately I couldn't have a quick read-through before I posted so lemme know if there are any mistakes!

Also, Happy Gleeday to those fellow gleeks in the UK! :D

Kurt sat alone in the crowded coffee shop as he anxiously waited for Blaine. He ordered himself his usual nonfat mocha and sipped it tentatively. He hated that he was so nervous; 24 hours ago he was ready to do anything just to make time speed up. He wasn't even sure what he was feeling, was he angry at Blaine? He couldn't quite figure it out. He had seemed genuinely sorry when they had last spoken but how did he know for sure that that was genuine? He hadn't exactly known Blaine for very long, could he trust him?

Kurt did want to hear him out, he was willing to let Blaine admit what he did and explain himself. Maybe everything will work out, who knows?

He didn't have long to ponder however as Blaine had suddenly caught his eye, leaning on the counter whilst placing his order.

Oh god, why does he have to lean forward like that?

Kurt did everything to avoid staring. He gazed at some of the other customers who were engaged in conversation, twiddled his thumbs for a few seconds. Nothing could keep him occupied for long enough however because Blaine was right there and he was leaning forward against the counter and those jeans were extremely tight…closing his eyes, Kurt willed the thoughts away.

Just think of something else, anything else. He told himself over and over again until…

"Are you…okay?" Blaine asked hesitantly. Kurt slowly opened his eyes to find the other standing awkwardly before him, one hand resting on the vacant seat whilst the other clutched his coffee.

"Fine! Absolutely fine, why?" Kurt responded a little too enthusiastically. Blaine, seemingly a little more comfortable, pulled out the empty chair before taking a seat opposite Kurt.

"You were sitting there with your eyes squeezed shut," he said by way of explanation, laughing gently. "You looked like you were in pain or…praying or something."

"Trust me, I'm not the praying type," Kurt said with a grim smile though he didn't fail to realize how close that was to what he was doing. Blaine smiled again and Kurt hated him for being so infectiously happy.

"Were you waiting long?" Blaine asked casually as he ripped open a sugar sachet and poured it into his cup. It was then that Kurt remembered the purpose of their meeting and resumed his anxiousness. His foot tapped nervously against the floor as he desperately tried to work out how angry he actually was. Was he even angry at all? Being with Blaine as he acted as though everything was normal made Kurt feel as though he was…well normal. No secrets and no lies. Blaine looked up as he tore open another sugar sachet and, realizing he still hadn't replied, Kurt hastily shook his head.

"No, not long."

Blaine grinned as yet another sachet was ripped open. Kurt furrowed his brows, eying the growing pile of empty sachets. "Did you want some coffee with your sugar?"

Blaine's eyes widened as he followed Kurt's gaze to his coffee cup and the discarded sugar sachets before laughing gently with a slight nervousness.

Wait, Blaine was nervous?

His confident façade soon resumed however as he took a sip and Kurt visibly cringed at how sweet it must have been.

"I have a sweet tooth," Blaine said shrugging. Kurt scoffed.

"More like diabetes if you're not careful."

Blaine didn't reply but instead stuck out his tongue childishly. Kurt laughed and then proceeded to hate Blaine for making him do so. He soon decided that he did indeed despise the fact that Blaine was acting so normal. He just wanted him to confess to what he did already so he could do something about it. Storm out in the most dramatic of fashions after piercing him with the most spiteful of glares was on the top of his to do list.

No, no, no He thought, I'm here to give him a chance.

Besides, hating Blaine was much easier said than done.

"So how have you been?" Blaine asked, taking another sip of his sugary concoction. Kurt blinked, realizing that Blaine was going to take as long as possible to get to the point. He stared blankly into his coffee, stirring it with an idle hand before shrugging.

"Okay I guess," he said without looking up. "You?" he asked as a formality, not from any desire to know. All he wanted was for Blaine to get to the point so he could hurry up and make up his mind as to whether he loved him or hated him. Presently there was a very fine line between the two.

"Actually I've been a little confused lately if I'm honest," Kurt looked up to find that Blaine was mirroring his own previous actions; staring into his coffee cup looking bland. Kurt could feel his heart in his throat, pounding away like a hammer. Silence hung over them both as neither knew quite what to say. Seeing Blaine looking so dejected and lost invoked a strange feeling of protectiveness within Kurt, he wanted to just hold him and tell him that everything was okay, to forgive him…but then his mind would conjure up the recent memory of Blaine's lust-filled eyes pulling Kirsty towards him and locking their lips in a heated embrace.

No, No, No! Kurt's mind reprimanded yet again, you're doing it again, you're getting jealous of yourself.

Kurt looked towards Blaine, both still sat in silence, caught up in their own thoughts. Kurt trying to make sense of his jumbled emotions, trying to find out which he was really feeling was like trying to find a needle in a haystack.

Blaine on the other hand was simply looking for the right words. This wasn't going to be easy. A thousand combinations of words that he had rehearsed the previous night had filtered through his mind and slipped away leaving him at a loss as Kurt gazed upon him expectantly. He took in a heavy breath and released it slowly, deciding to go down a different route. He needed confirmation that Kurt wouldn't leave him, that he was still interested. He couldn't help but think that this was his last chance with him.

Nervously, he made a brief smile before speaking.

"I wanted to see you today because I wanted to ask you something," he said shyly, averting his eyes.

Kurt blinked, that was it? He wasn't going to admit what happened?

"I know we haven't known each other for very long and you clearly have a lot on your plate right now with Karofsky…"

The fine line between love and hatred was growing wider and wider and Kurt found himself securely planted on the hatred side. Of course, he should have known, Blaine only told Kirsty not to tell Kurt because he just didn't want Kurt to find out at all, not because he planned on confessing himself. Kurt sank back into his chair, arms crossed, as he let Blaine continue. His face was blank and unreadable as his mind explored the various possible ways of storming out of a crowded coffee shop.

"You know that I really like you and what you said the other day, when we were at your school…you're completely right. If we let Karofsky take this away from us then…well what hope do we have? There's always going to be homophobia, wherever we go…But this is about us, not Karofsky…I don't even know why I brought him up." He was clearly nervous as he began to fumble over his words, "What I'm trying to say is-"

"Okay stop," Kurt interrupted, raising a hand for emphasis, "before you embarrass yourself any more than you already have."

Blaine's eyebrows furrowed slightly at the abrupt remark yet his hopeful smile still remained.

Kurt had had enough of his pretending, all he wanted was some normality, and the sooner Blaine, Catherine and Kirsty were out of his life the better.

"The fact that you have the audacity to ask me out is really quite astounding." He sneered at Blaine who sat in utter confusion, opening and closing his mouth like a fish out of water.

"What's wrong?" he finally managed to say, his tone quietly concerned and not unkind.

"What's wrong with me? What's wrong with you Blaine?"

"I don't underst-"

"I'm not the one kissing someone one day then asking out their…friend the next." Kurt's voiced raised considerably as some of the other customers turned to watch the scene, some with looks of amusement, and others with disgust. Blaine's heart sunk because how does he even know about that? He feebly lowered his head under the strangers' heavy gaze and Kurt's fury.

"Kurt, people are staring…" he said.

"So what! Let them stare." He lowered his volume slightly, yet was still loud enough for the bystanders to hear.

"Please just liste-"

"No, I'm done with you." Kurt hastily picked up his coat and bag before finally storming out of the shop in precisely the way he had been envisioning. Blaine sat frozen as Kurt left, the optimistic bell of the door chiming completely out of place as the door closed shut. He could still feel the stares on him and shrunk under them even more. Abandoning his coffee, he made a somewhat subtle jog for the door.

Kurt thought he would feel a sense of satisfaction upon finally storming out yet none came. Instead he felt empty and lost and on the brink of tears. He had almost reached his car when-

"Kurt!" Of course it was Blaine. Kurt squeezed his eyes shut, willing the brimming tears to vanish however this just caused them to fall, lining his face with two wet streaks. Blaine's hand had clasped his wrist, preventing him from making it to his car, from driving away and forgetting everything.

"Let go."

"Kurt-"

"LET GO." He did yet Kurt did not run to his car, instead he remained still, his back to Blaine and rubbing his wrist.

"I was going to tell you, I just-"

"And when exactly were you planning on telling me?" Kurt's voice was small yet demanding. "Were you just waiting until you got what you wanted from me first?" memories of Puck and Quinn swarmed his mind, he would never end up as just a notch on someone's bed post.

"No I wa-"

"What is it that you want from me anyway?" His tone was laced with such dry venom that Blaine knew exactly what he was talking about.

"Wha…K-Kur… No!" Blaine stuttered. He gripped onto Kurt's shoulder and turned him so that they were facing. Kurt was looking down, refusing meet Blaine's eye or believe what he was saying. "Kurt listen to me!" Blaine said firmly, hands both clutching Kurt's shoulders like a lifeline. "I would never use you like that, or anyone, I'm…I'm not that kind of person."

Kurt said nothing whilst he still refused to look up. "Don't you think you're overreacting a little?" This was clearly the wrong thing to say as Kurt tore himself away, attempting to make a run for his car yet Blaine was faster and caught him from behind before he could get away, wrapping his arms around his chest in a tight embrace. "Sorry…again, I shouldn't have said that, just…please don't walk away from this Kurt," he whispered in his ear. "I really really like you. And I wanna be with you. And I'm so sorry. It was just a stupid mistake."

Kurt sniffed as he suddenly realized the tempo at which his heart was beating whilst tucked neatly in Blaine's firm arms binding them together.

"The only reason I thought I might have liked Kirsty was…well because she reminded me so much of you." Kurt's eyes widened, aware of how close Blaine was to hitting the truth.

Kurt hated Blaine.

He hated him for making him fall in love with him over and over again. The safest option was to forget about him but it was all too easy to just love him. Dating Blaine would be dangerous, there were too many secrets to hide, but…but it was Blaine. How could he refuse him?

Tears were freefalling down Kurt's face as he struggled to come to grips with what he wanted. Blaine was right there, holding on to him as though he was about to slip through his fingers and disappear. A firm hand gently wiped away some of the tears which only made Kurt cry harder.

"I'm sorry," Blaine whispered, his breath softly tickling Kurt's ear, causing him to shudder. Slowly, Kurt turned himself around in the embrace so that he was facing Blaine. So close that their chests were touching, Blaine held on just as tight. Letting out a shaky sigh, Kurt nodded as his lips twitched in a brief smile.

"I'm so sorry," Blaine repeated, burying his face in Kurt's shoulder.

"I know," Kurt finally spoke with a small laugh as tears continued to roll down his already shiny cheeks. He hesitated slightly before daring to wrap his own arms around Blaine's neck, completing the half-embrace "You've said that like 200 times."

"But I am. I just can't believe that after everything you've been through, I managed to hurt you just as much as Karo-"

"You really need to stop bringing up Dave Karofsky. You're nothing like him, okay?"

"Sorry…"

"You're doing it again, stop apologizing, I forgive you, geez," Kurt replied in mock annoyance before realizing what he'd just said. He forgave him for the second time technically though he didn't really count last night. Still, that easily…there was something about Blaine that he simply couldn't stay mad at. It was infuriating and endearing at the same time.

Kurt rested his head against Blaine's shoulder and Blaine brought him closer. They stood holding each other like that until Blaine finally summoned the courage to say what was on his mind.

"Kurt?" he said, smiling "Can I kiss you?" Taking a large intake of breath, Kurt nodded gently before smiling as Blaine leaned in.

This was going to be it, Kurt thought as Blaine closed the distance between their lips. He will finally get the perfect kiss from Blaine after two failed attempts, though to Blaine's knowledge it was still only one.

Blaine's lips connected softly and Kurt shuddered at the gentleness, his lips were dry and slightly chapped in places which was the result of Blaine nervously biting them the previous night. As soon as the two had joined however, Blaine broke away and rested his forehead against Kurt's affectionately. They stared into each other's eyes, Blaine searching for any signs of hesitation; he wanted to do this right for once. The corners of his mouth turned upwards in a bashful smile as he leaned in again, pressing his lips against Kurt's with slightly more force than before. Kurt pressed back eagerly as their lips began to move against each other's.

Daringly, Blaine slipped his tongue into Kurt's mouth, as Kurt breathed in sharply at the other's boldness. This was definitely new to him, yet not unwelcome. Blaine carefully explored, memorizing the surroundings as Kurt's hand moved from Blaine's neck to his hair, fingers tangling in the dark curls and pulling them free from the gel holding them down. Blaine knew that he would probably soon look like hobo-Blaine once Kurt was through yet couldn't find it in himself to care as he lost himself in absolute bliss.

Blaine's tongue withdrew itself yet both refused to break for air. Kurt could feel Blaine smiling into the kiss and couldn't help but do the same. Every inch of him was willing him to relax and enjoy the moment, to simply embrace the perfect moment with the perfect boy and the perfect kiss.

But it wasn't perfect and he knew it. Anxiety was eating away at him. All of the secrets and all of the lies infested him with guilt. He suddenly remembered why walking away from Blaine would have been the safest option, for both of them. But falling for Blaine was an inevitability.

It was Blaine who broke the kiss this time as they stood, still clutching each other, he laughed nervously whilst Kurt simply smiled, feeling a little lost with the absence of Blaine's lips.

"About…what I was trying to ask you earlier, did you want to…maybe start…dating?" Blaine asked hesitantly. "Me that is…" He smiled that innocently hopeful smile that made it impossible for Kurt to say no, even if he wanted to.

To hell with the consequences Kurt thought as he leaned forward to place a small peck on the corner of Blaine's mouth. The translation was received clearly since Blaine pulled Kurt into a tender embrace, nestling into him comfortably despite their being in the middle of a parking lot.

"I promise I'll never hurt you like that again. No more secrets from now on, okay?"

"Okay."

Enjoy your Klainebows while they last 8D

Oh Kurtie, you are hopeless :|
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