I cannot believe what I have done. I have taken away the chance for these little girls to live. How could I have done such a thing? I sympathise these girls. Like I said before they know pain and joy, they sing and laugh. I despise myself and I do not think that I will ever be able to forgive myself. Knowing that they were once daughters and how much their mothers miss them only makes the lead burden that I carry on my chest weight more. Just imagine how much agony and pain their mothers went through… it's… it is unbearable. I just hope that I can made amends for all of the anguish and torment that I have once set upon these little girls' families.