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The moon light was making her hair shine a silver color. This reminded me of Lucy. Lucy, I thought, will you come back someday, I miss you. And with that I fell asleep.

The next morning- Lucy's POV

The morning sun hit my face. I didn't feel like getting up, somehow I was comfortable right now. My body was really warm although it's now winter. I rubbed my sleepy eyes and opened them; my face was on something hard. I looked up to see Natsu's sleeping face, my face was buried in his chest; I felt Natsu's warm hands around my waist. One of my legs was between his legs, while the other on top of Natsu's leg. Natsu stirred and squeezed my waist and buried his face in my wig. I couldn't stop the blush coming in this time. I realized what position we were in which made me blush even more. I have to admit that I liked this and I was very warm because of Natsu's body heat, so I closed my eyes and melted into his arms. I slowly drifted to sleep, again.

"…a… yuka….! Yuka! YUKA! YUKA WAKE UP!" I could feel someone shaking me ferociously, I tried to open my eyes but I was too sleepy to. Words were stuck in my throat, and I felt numb. I tried to sleep again but that person just kept shaking me harder. I felt my wig sliding off. Damn. I gave up, I forced my eyes open, to see Natsu's onyx eyes staring at me full of worry and concern. I rubbed my eyes sleepily.

"What?" it was more of a demand than a question. I saw relief in his eyes.

"Don't scare me like that!" he shouted angrily," I thought you would never wake up, idiot! I thought that you died or something!" he kept going on and on about how I 'died'. I signed.

"SHUT UP NATSU!" he got on my nerves, I had a headache and he wasn't helping," I'M NOT DEAD NATSU! CAN'T YOU SEE! IT'S NOT MY FAULT THAT YOU ARE BLIND OR SOMETHING! I DON'T KNOW WHY YOU ARE HERE BUT IF YOU THINK THAT ONLY BECAUSE I DIDN'T WAKE UP IM DEAD THERE MUST BE SOMETHING WRONG WITH YOU! And anyway Natsu, if you think I resemble Lucy or whatever, you are wrong, I don't think I'm anything like Lucy and a piece of advice for you Natsu… .HER, I'm sure tha…" I was cut off when a felt pain on my cheek. I looked at Natsu, fire was surrounding him and he had a dark and dangerous aura behind him. His eyes were very… hurt? Or even sad but I could clearly see anger flicking through them. I felt a bit guilty but my anger took the better of me. How dare he slap my cheek? I felt my blood boil to the point when I was about to explode when he said some very, VERY hurtful things.

"I never even once thought that you resembled Lucy, but let me get something straight. All guild members are family to me, but if I could I would never want you to be in MY FAMILY!" he was exploding," I WISH YOU NEVER STEPPED INTO THIS GUILD! YOU DARE TO DISCRAISE LUCY, THEN YOU DISCRAISE THE WHOLE GUILD! AND I DON'T LIKE WHEN PEOPLE DARE SPEAK BADLY OF MY GUILD. So take this little warning seriously, if you dare to speak another bad thing about the guild, I will kill you, and I mean I will" and with that he leaped through the window. The room was hot but I didn't care. Although I knew there was nothing to worry about, my chest was burning. It was starting to get hard to breathe. I couldn't hold back the tears anymore. I realized that I had been crying before I gave up holding the tears back. I lied on my bed sobbing loudly, while burying my face in my dark purple pillow. My nose started to run. I wiped it, it felt warm, I was about to wipe it on the bed when I noticed that it wasn't snot like I thought it would be but blood. My nose was bleeding, and so was my cheek, where Natsu slapped it. I didn't realize the pain until now. The pain in my chest and my cheek was unbearable. But I kept sobbing anyway. I didn't bother going to the guild today so I cried the whole day.

When I looked at the clock it was 11:06pm. I signed, but hadn't stopped crying. I lay in my bed, awake, silently sobbing. So in the end, I cried myself to sleep.

I opened my eyes. My vision was a bit blurry because of my tears. Put yourself together Lucy, I breathed in, put yourself together, I signed an walked towards the bathroom. I looked in the mirror to see my contacts out of place, my wig half fallen off, a pink spot on my cheek, and puffy red eyes well in all, A TOTAL MESS. But I didn't care right now. I washed my face and placed my wig and contacts in its original face. "There, that's better" I said to myself and softly smiled. It's been a while since I truly smiled, I signed again. I took a quick shower, got dressed and went to the guild.

At the guild

As soon as I stepped through the giant doors I was attacked by Levy an before I knew it she was hugging me. I was about to smile but quickly recovered and was forcing myself to glare at her.

"What do you want?" I demanded and asked as coldly as I could to the teary Levy.

"Oh, Yuka chan, where have you been? We were worried sick about you, what happened to you?" she asked while hugging me tighter.

"Get off me!" I pushed her off quite roughly "Firstly, who said you could call me Yuka chan? And secondly it's none of your business where I have been" I snapped at her. I really felt like holding her and tell her I'm fine and she doesn't have to worry, but unfortunately if I did it will just ruin my 'emotionless and cold' look.

"I… I was just worried about you" she murmured quietly while looking down at the floor. I badly wanted to say sorry and say it's me but again, it'll ruin my reputation.

"Well don't be" I said and walked off to the bar. Mirajane was too busy wiping her glass to notice me until I said "milkshake", she turned around with surprise in her eyes, it was gone in a couple of seconds but only to be filled with curiosity.

She smiled at me and said "where have you been yesterday?" she curiously looked at me while making me my usual strawberry milkshake. I only glared at her in response; she shivered and shrugged the question off. She handed me the milkshake. "Have you seen Natsu around anywhere?" she suddenly asked. I stiffened; I held back my tears that were threatening to fall at the mention of his name. I tried REALLY hard to keep my emotionless mask on.

"No" I said as I stood up walking outside while tears are slowly dripping down my face.

Once I was outside I ran into the forest and cried my eyes out there. I was sobbing loudly when I felt a pair of warm arms around me. I turned around to see orange hair. I immediately knew who it was.

" what 'sob' are 'sob' you 'sob' doing 'sob' here 'sob'?" I said while trying to control me tears. Loki looked at me, concern filled his eyes.

"What do you think I'm doing here?" he asked playfully.

"Not now Loki, what are you doing here?" I asked again, this time controlling myself. I heard him sigh.

"I don't think you should pretend anymore, Lucy" he said, emphasizing the word Lucy.

"Why not?" I asked confusingly.

"It's hurting you Lucy"

"Shhhh… don't underestimate Nats… I mean his hearing" I whispered quietly. Loki slid off my wig and carefully took out my contacts.

"See… that's better Lucy, you should keep it that way" Loki said as he disappeared. His words kept ringing in my head. See… that's better Lucy, you should keep it that way, See… that's better Lucy, you should keep it that way.

I signed "I wish I could Loki but… I've hurt them too much already, and did you hear what Natsu said? How could I possibly reveal myself to him if he doesn't even want Yuka around?" I said to no one in particular. I took one of my golden locks and looked at them. I looked at my wig and contacts next to me. I really disliked wearing them. Am I going to pretend to be Yuka forever? I asked myself.

No

Huh? Who said that?

Your conscience idiot.

Oh, right, sorry.

Anyway, back to the point, show yourself to them.

NO! I can't do that! Not after how much pain I caused them… especially Natsu…

Ok than, be Yuka forever, hide your feelings forever, hurt your friends forever…

NO! SHUT UP! SHUT UP, SHUT UP, AND SHUT UP!

I can't shut up, I'm your conscience, and I have to help you when you need it. Anyway, you should know that you are hurting them by just pretending to be Yuka. Imagine how much pain you are causing them when they think about Lucy.

(No answer)

Maybe my conscience is right, maybe I need to show myself to them… No, I shook my head, not after pretending to be Yuka for 3 days now… I signed and went to the guild.

3 months later…

No one knows I'm Lucy yet. It's kinda sad really. My life hasn't been much for the past 3 months. I go to missions, Natsu is STILL avoiding me, I'm as cold as ever, I never even once took my wig or contacts off, so I haven't seen what I looked like in months now. I'm sort of getting used to being Yuka 24/7, but it just doesn't feel… right. Also no one really talks to me and I don't have a partner. I just came back from a mission where I had to protect a museum from one of the dark guilds, my life is just so boring right now and I also haven't seen Loki in months now.

Anyway, I'm heading back to the guild (again). I know what to expect, me ignoring people, going to the bar, getting a strawberry milkshake and going back home. Ever since Natsu started to ignore me, I never even once stopped thinking about him… while I was busily thinking about Natsu I didn't realize I opened the doors to the guild, and before I knew it I bumped into something hard.

I rubbed my head "hey, watch it" I angrily said. I looked up and saw two onyx eyes looking at me. Natsu just kept looking at me before turning and walking to the bar.

"Oi, Natsu, I'm talking to you!" I said as I ran to him.

NORMAL POV

"Oi, Natsu, I'm talking to you!" said Yuka as she ran to him.

"What do you want?" Natsu coldly said which made Mirajane shiver. The whole guild was in shock, Natsu hasn't said a word to anyone for 3 months now, and when people tried to speak to him he would either ignore them or burn them.

"You could at least apologize" Yuka said while crossing her arms angrily. Again the whole guild was in shock since Yuka always ignored everyone and even when she bumps into people she just says 'get out of my way' or some other things.

"I'm sorry" Natsu mumbled, "… and I'm also sorry for what I said 3 months ago, I over reacted, I shouldn't have treated you like that" Natsu said as he looked at Yuka, eyes full of guilt. Everyone saw Yuka's impression soften, which usually never happens.

"It's ok" she said as she smiled softly. The whole guild fell (anime style), that was the strangest conversation between now the coldest and scariest people in the guild. They were even scarier than Erza.

"Hey are you up for some fire chicken?" Natsu exclaimed happily. Everyone sweat dropped, even Yuka.

What a change of moods, firstly cold and scary now he's the old Natsu. Was the thought that went through everyone's minds.

YUKA'S/LUCY'S POV

He actually said sorry. I couldn't help but smile at that. I tried to keep it in, but it failed. Then Natsu said a very strange thing.

"Hey are you up for some fire chicken?" the old Natsu said. I sweat dropped. What a change of moods, firstly cold and scary now he's the old Natsu. I shrugged it off; it was nice to have Natsu back.

"Sure" I said while I was walking out of the door. I could feel the whole guild looking at us. I shrugged it off.

When we were outside we walked towards the nearest café. "I'm hungry Yyyuuuukkkaaa" Natsu whined while sitting at the table.

"Idiot" I whispered to myself, but unfortunately Natsu's good hearing picked it up.

"Hey, I'm not an idiot" he pouted while crossing his arms and looking away. I sweat dropped. But before I could say anything the waiter came.

"Would you like to order anything?" she sweetly said. She started to flirt with Natsu by blinking her big blue eyes and flicking her short red hair. Anger was boiling up inside me. And the word disguising kept ringing in my head. I just felt like punching her over and over again. But I learned how to keep my feeling inside me so I just stared blankly at her.

"Yes, I would like van… I mean strawberry ice cream" damn, even after months of practicing and months of training, I still managed to slip up and nearly say vanilla which was Lucy's favoutite ice cream. I mentally slapped myself.

"Ok, would you like anything, honey?" the waiter said while flirting with Natsu. I mentally puked, but outside just stared into space.

"Yes, could I please have 6 fire chickens" Natsu said while giving her his trade mark grin. The waitress giggled at his childishness.

"Of course, honey, anything else?" she asked, still smiling.

"No" I boldly said, she bowed and walked away.

"Hey Yuka, you didn't have to be so cold to the waitress" he said.

"I can do whatever I want" I coldly said, and waited for my order.

Once our food came, Natsu started to eat his chickens like there's no tomorrow. We both finished at the same time. Once we left the café and paid for our food we went to the park.

"What are we doing here?" I asked Natsu who was walking towards an oak tree.

"We're climbing the tree of course" he said as he made his way up on top. I signed; I grabbed onto the branches and swung myself up the top with my new skills. I sat next to Natsu on one of the branches.

"What are we doing here?" I casually asked. He just kept starring at the view of Magnolia.

"Hello? Anyone there?" I said as I waved my hand in front of his face. His onyx eyes looked deep in thought while at the same time they looked… sad? I kept waving my hand in his face. I signed and gave up trying to wake him up from his trance. I stared at his features. His sad onyx eyes sparkled a bit and him rosy hair was messily done, but it still looked good on him. His lips were in a straight line. He looks so cute. No, no, no he doesn't look cute; he's just Natsu, that's all, just Natsu…

My thoughts were interrupted when Natsu said "Why are you looking at me? Am I that hot?" he said while smirking. Why is he all is perverted again?

"In your dreams, pervert" I said while looking away trying to hold my blush.

"But you must think I'm hot, right?" he said as he was leaning closer to my face. His face was centimeters away when I finally managed to speak.

"N…n…no!" I pushed him away before he could do anything to me. "What the fuck has gotten into you dragoneel?" I said angrily, but deep inside I knew I wanted him to kiss me. Natsu just smirked and held out a ball of fire. He made it into a small dragon that started flying around me.

"Wow, that's so pretty" I said now realizing that I said it in 'my' voice and in my 'real' tone. "I, I mean, that's cool" I said while mentally slapping myself.

It was getting dark and I still watched the small dragon flying, but now it seemed prettier since it was pretty dark now.

After another hour of watching the dragon I snapped out of it.

"Natsu its dark now, I better go home" I said while jumping down the tree. I landed softly on the ground, but before I could go anywhere I felt two warm arms around my waist.

"What?" I snapped, I tried to pull away from him but he's much stronger than me. He cupped my chin and looked straight into my dark green eyes.

"Why are you going, Lucy?" he said while slipping my wig off.

I'm VERY sorry for the late update; I had so much homework, tests, assignments and stuff. I hope you can forgive me. Anyway I'm going to make the next chapter my last, so please enjoy it. And don't forget to review! THANKS !