Eleven.
My face fell I shook my head at Lupin, frowning. I really wasn't in the mood for this. I looked back up to find a confused expression on his face. He still had the same look of desire in his grey eyes that I'd seen right before he kissed me yesterday. 'I'm sorry, sir, but I should get back to the common room to collect my work for my lessons today.' He looked deeply into my eyes and put his hands on my waist, paying absolutely no attention to what I'd just said. His face was mere millimetres away from mine again and he pecked me sweetly on the lips, sending all kinds of tingles through me. 'Please.' A part of me was desperate to kiss him again but I knew exactly what the consequences of that could be. We could get caught, and there was no way I wanted that. I shot him a confused glare. 'What're you doing, Professor? You know how wrong this is.' My voice accidentally came out sounding ice-cold, which I didn't mean. He recoiled a bit and looked down at the floor, ashamed. I felt slightly guilty but at least I'd managed to get a bit of sense into his head. No matter how much I wanted him, I knew that it would be virtually impossible to be able to have him and keep it a secret.
'Well, I'll let you go on then,' he said, sounding a lot more teacher-like than he had before. I felt quite relieved, as if this was a sign that everything was beginning to go back to normal. I smiled weakly at him and nodded. 'Look, we can talk when I'm not being a grumpy arse like I am every morning,' I whispered calmly. He eventually cracked a small smile at me as I turned away. I quickly made my way down the corridor, subconsciously touching my lips. I then realised what I was doing and immediately stopped it. Once I was inside the common room, I ran back up the stairs to my dormitory straightaway and collapsed in a heap on my bed. Merlin, I was confused. I didn't have a clue what was going on between myself and Lupin, as one minute he wanted to talk to me and he was trying to kiss me the next.
After a couple of minutes, I could hear someone coming up the stairs. I opened my eyes, hoping it'd be either Nat or Kate. Thankfully, it was Nat who came through the door moments later. She must've seen the look on my face, as she sat straight down on the bed beside me. 'Stupid question I know, but are you alright, Rels?' She asked, sounding genuinely concerned for me. 'Not really, no,' I sighed. 'I just don't know what's happening.. One minute he's trying to kiss me, then the next he wants to talk! We shouldn't even have feelings for each other like this, he's my teacher for Merlin's sake!' I let out a quiet, angry scream, turning over and hitting my pillow with my fist. Nat didn't say anything for a moment, she instead pulled me up into a sitting position and gave me a hug. With that, I suddenly started to cry. Nat hugged me even tighter and rubbed my back. 'Shh, shh.. You'll work it out together, I know it,' she whispered comfortingly into my ear. 'It-It's not that I don't like kissing him or anything, I'm just so s-scared that we'll get caught if anything more happens,' I whispered back, tears still streaming down my face. 'I know, I know. But if you both want it, who am I to judge?' She frowned, thinking for a second. 'He wouldn't do anything to get you caught. You're both sensible, right?' I tried to take deep breaths in an attempt to calm myself down a little bit. 'I suppose so.. I don't understand how it can feel so right and yet so wrong at the same time, though.'
'Have you told him that?' Nat asked. I shook my head. 'No, because I was in a bloody terrible mood when he came after me a few minutes ago, so I basically told him to bugger off and he kissed me again. I feel a bit bad now, cause I rejected him straight after that and said we should talk when I'm in a better mood..' I let go of Nat and wiped my eyes, having finally stopped crying. 'Maybe you should just leave it until later on today to talk to him.. Try not to think about it too much, yeah?' Nat offered. I gave her a watery smile, nodding. 'That sounds like a good idea.' Nat pulled me into another quick hug, letting go with a smile on her face. 'Good girl. C'mon, we'd best get down to Transfiguration, hadn't we?'