Later on that night Kathryn lay awake in bed listening to Bradley's soft snores in the dark. She found that she was too wired to fall asleep. Shifting positions wasn't helping nor was counting sheep. There were too many thoughts running through her head and there was a sensation of longing tugging at her heart that she wasn't used to.
With a soft groan she rolled over onto her stomach and buried her head into the pillow. It was still wet from the shower she'd taken previously and smelled faintly like apples. This wasn't helping either. Kathryn lifted her head and looked towards the window. The curtains hadn't been drawn, giving her a view of the stars.
It really isn't the mind that calls the shots around here. She thought with amusement. Colin Raye's song hit the nail on the head. Kathryn closed her eyes and laid her head back down on the pillow. It's what the heart wants. It was then that her mind finally relaxed. Waiting was going to be difficult but she would endure.
Two days later Kathryn heard her cell ringing from the dining room. She bolted from the bathroom into the room and snagged the phone from the depths her messenger bag. It couldn't be Bradley; he had just left for work. The number displayed on the screen confirmed her anticipation and she exhaled before answering.
"Hello?" To Kathryn, her tone was cool and collected. Jenny on the other hand appeared not to be fooled. "Remember me?" The voice on the other end teased. Kathryn gripped the phone harder. "Hi." She listened for a few more seconds and then snapped the cell closed.
Kathryn wasn't sure how long she paced the sidewalk or how many times she messed with her hair, but by the time the Jenny pulled up she was already jumpy with nerves. Jenny drove a Jeep with the canvas missing, giving the vehicle a sporty look. After bringing it to a stop, she stretched across the passenger side to open the door as she greeted Kathryn. "Hey." Kathryn returned the greeting. "Thanks."
She then climbed into the jeep and pulled the heavy door shut while positioning her messenger bag across her legs. Here goes nothing. Jenny waited until she'd settled into the seat. "You good?" Kathryn lowered the bag onto the floor. "Yeah." She nodded breathlessly, tucking a strand of hair behind an ear. "All right." Jenny said and released her foot from the brake.
Kathryn thought the drive would calm her down but every second that went by allowed fear to seep into her bones. She took a deep breath and let it out slowly, focusing her gaze on the floor instead of the woman at the wheel. Jenny though seemed at ease. She wore skinny cut-off jeans and a tank top that showed off her sculpted arms. Playing softball and obviously doing other recreational sports had given her a lean form.
Kathryn's shoulders were hunched as she gripped her knees with both hands. Maybe she should've thought this through. It was clear what the intentions were and she knew full well that she wasn't going home any time soon.
Then there were other matters: What if she wasn't any good? Could she hope to please this woman? This creature that had suddenly dropped into her life and taken over her thoughts? Kathryn knew a few things about a man's needs from Bradley, but Jenny? She knew Bradley inside and out and didn't have a clue about her own sex. Humiliation was the worst and Kathryn cursed inwardly for not doing some research.
As she turned to glance out at the scenery, Jenny's voice caught her attention. "Don't be nervous okay?" She said reassuringly. Kathryn's gaze darted her way briefly and her body language switched to a yeah-right posture.
Faking it was worth a shot to restore some of her pride. "Who says I'm nervous?" She challenged lightly. Jenny paid it no mind and her mouth curled into a half smile. "It must be pretty weird being married and straight and suddenly you're thinking about a woman." This time Kathryn was able to look at her longer, for Jenny's eyes were on the road and that made it easier.
After a moment Kathryn shrugged. "Yeah well, who said anything about-" "It's right there, it's in your eyes," Jenny said, gently cutting her off. The Jeep hit a bump and Kathryn met her stare. "Big, beautiful, hazel eyes." Jenny finished as the other woman looked away once more.
Kathryn's lips twitched into a small smile for a few seconds. That was probably the most flattering thing anyone had ever said to her. Bradley never pointed out those qualities. It wasn't that she wanted her ego stroked; it was just nice to hear someone appreciate her like that. Feeling better, Kathryn laced her fingers together and then rubbed the sides of her nose to hide her bashful expression.
Jenny was still watching the road but she said, "Oh man we are going to have adventures, you and me." Her smile revealed straight white teeth. "It's gonna be, like, Kathryn and Jenny. Jenny and Kathryn." Kathryn pushed her hand underneath her bangs to rub her forehead, hardly able to hide her own smile at the thought. She shyly looked Jenny's way again as the jeep continued onward, it's destination a mystery. Yet with Jenny, Kathryn found that she would go anywhere.