Disclaimer- I don't own Victorious!

AN- Sorry I haven't uploaded. I went camping so I was busy…I hate nature…

Anyway here is the second chapter and again sorry if it sucks I just got back to writing after about a year so I'm still struggling. Review please!

It was Tuesday morning but there was no school due to Memorial Day. And Jade had not slept all night. She was wide awake as she sat on her bed. After what happened last night, she couldn't find herself to forget about it. The images kept playing over and over in her head. She wanted to cry but her tears would not fall anymore. She needed help but whom? When she cried for her parents, they wouldn't answer her. They shunned her away. And her friends…she had no friends. Cat, Robbie and Andre annoyed her and she couldn't trust them. But then there was Tori. God no! She hated Tori more then anything. And Beck…she couldn't think about him. Beck was right, James wanted more then Jade could give him. It would mock her forever. If only she had listened to Beck, things would have been avoided.

She sighed and looked at her clock. 10a.m. it read. She waited for her parents to get out of bed but they never once moved. Well not that she could hear. Jade's dad was a psychologist, he could help her. He was never around, always working with others and she barley saw him, but she still trusted him. She wanted her father to be here but he wasn't. Her mother was a doctor, she could help her figure out if Jade was pregnant. James had not used a condom and it made her panic. But like she said, no one answered her. When she needed them the most, they avoided her.

She let out a small scream. She wanted it to be over. She gave in; she had to try to tell her parents once more. She took a deep breath and stood outside their door. She knocked…and knocked but they still did not open. She kicked the door and banged on it but still nothing. She was about to scream but the phone rang. She walked downstairs, and went to the phone.

"One New Voicemail, from Gregory West." The machine spoke. It was her father! She pressed the listen button.

"Jade, um, I don't know how to tell you this but your mother is in Europe. You mother's mother became very ill Monday morning. So she left in a hurry without warning. I was supposed to stay home with you until she got back but I-I had a business trip so I went out of town. I won't be home until next week. Please take good care of the house. Oh, I have to go now, I love you! Bye" That was it. That was the end of the voicemail. She couldn't understand. He's a psychologist; he has no need to go out of the country. And she could have sworn she heard a woman's laughter in the background. Was he cheating on mom? Or maybe she was being paranoid. Maybe he really is on a business trip. Well whatever the reason was, she now knows why they didn't open the door. They weren't even there.

She felt a tear run down her cheek and she fell to her knees. It wasn't fair! Why can't she just forget about it? Why did she have to be so naïve?

"We both know the real reason we came down here!" Those words haunted her. But she knew what James said was true. Truth be told, deep inside of her she knew. She knew the real reason she went with him but she didn't want to admit it. But when he kissed her, she realized it was wrong. She had a boyfriend and she wasn't ready for "doing it" with Beck so why should she be ready with a stranger? Point is, she couldn't do it. She pulled away…but that may have been the worst move she could have made. It made him mad.

She cried harder as she went up to her room. She looked at her mirror. It was now just like her. Cracked and broken, shattered pieces on the floor. She looked at her reflection but her reflection was not perfect due to the cracks. But she was able to see her eye. It was bruised, and it hurt. She needed to cool it down with something. She went to the kitchen and got herself an ice bag. It would help but only a bit. What excuse would she have to tell people about her bruises and black eye? She wanted to tell her parents only but seeing as they were no where she decided to keep quiet until they returned. She went back up her room and opened her closet door. It was a walk in closet. Instead of putting her clothes in there she made herself another small room. Where she could lay alone without anyone to bother her. Her room would distract her from relaxing. So in days when she wanted to relax she locked herself in there. It was perfect. Small, dark and no distraction. She breathed hard and went inside it. She locked the door and sat down. She was exhausted but she refused to sleep. If she slept there was a chance she would dream about her rape. So she sat there all day. She didn't eat, or use the bathroom. She did nothing, just sat and stared all day at the door. After a while she didn't know what to do, she was hungry as hell but she refused to eat. She was thirsty but refused to drink. She was sleepy but refused to sleep. If her ice hadn't melted she would have never gone out of her closet. She walked downstairs and saw the kitchen clock. It was 4a,m in the morning. She wanted to eat but she forced herself to walk away.

She went back to her room and looked around. The sun was beginning to rise. Soon it'd be time for her to go to school. And face her rapist…and face Beck. She felt tears coming down again but she took a deep breath. She wasn't going to cry anymore. She was done crying. She had to be strong. For herself. She sat in her bed and waited two hours until it was 6am. She looked at the mirror. Her eye was no better. She had to hide it. She put on her black jeans and brushed her hair. Than she grabbed her shades and put them on. It would be able to hide her eye. She wouldn't change shirts, just to not show her bruises on her arm and the hickies on her neck. It was summer and she'd look crazy wearing that but it was what she needed to do. She looked to her clock. 6:15 am. She sighed and put on her shoes. She grabbed her car keys and went to school. As she went throughout the halls, whispers and stares was what she got. For the first time in her life, Jade wanted to know what they were talking about. She wanted to know if everyone knew about what happened. But in her history class a girl dared to tell Jade why everyone was talking about her. It had nothing to do with James but of what she was wearing. Jade only shoved the girl and threatened to destroy her if she ever talked to her again. Class after class she avoided Beck. When he tried talking to her, she made an excuse to leave.

Now it was lunch time. And she sat with her usual "friends".

"How can you wear that?" Andre said to Jade as she stabbed her food. She looked up.

"I know! It's so hot! Aren't you hot, Jade?" Cat agreed with Andre.

"No," Was all she said before she stared back at her food.

"And what's with the shades? You haven't taken them off." Robbie said.

"I like them. Do you have a problem with that?"

"No! Not at all! I-I like them!" Robbie stuttered. She rolled her eyes, not that anyone could tell. Then suddenly she saw, out of the corner of her eye, James Carter. She turned to him. He was laughing with his friends acting usual. But he looked over at Jade and there eyes met. He smirked at her and Jade began to breathe heavily. She turned away only to see Beck next to her.

"We have to talk." He said.

"I-I can't. I have to-"

"No we have to talk, Jade. Now, please." He begged her. She nodded and followed him as he led her to an empty table.

"Look, I'm sorry I was being jealous." He said, "It's just that it was the first time I've seen you with another guy. And…and I'm really sorry. I love you Jade." His words made her tear up and as much as she tried not to cry, she couldn't. Tears began to fall from her eyes.

"Babe, no I didn't mean for you to cry!" He said as he whipped her tears away. She shock her head.

"It's not you." She whispered softly hoping he wouldn't hear her but he heard.

"What's wrong?" He asked but she shook her head. He wanted to look at her in the eye so he removed her shades and saw her eye.

"What happened? Who did this to you?" He asked.

"I-I…nothing. It was an accident." She told him. She couldn't tell him what had happened. She thought he would rub it in her face and go "I told you so". So of fear she kept silent

"How is a black eye an accident? Please tell me babe." He said, Jade looked down.

"Ok fine. I…I got in to a fight with my cousin. That's all no big deal." Jade said.

"Oh, two black eyes in one year." He smirked and Jade half smiled.

"Oh and one more thing, what's with the long sleeve, turtle neck shirt?"

"Why? What's wrong with it?"
"No, nothing is wrong. You look beautiful in it but aren't you hot?"

"No. I like it and I want to wear it." Jade said. He smiled at her and leaned to kiss her. When his lips met her's she tensed up. When he wrapped his arms around her waist, she jumped. He pulled away.

"You alright?" he asked concerned. She smile and nodded. But she wasn't alright. She was terrified of letting anyone touch her. But she had to, or else Beck would get suspicious. She leaned forward and kissed him. She loved the taste of his mouth but she couldn't forget the taste of James horrible mouth. She kept having flashbacks to the way he kissed her that night. All she wanted was to scream and push Beck away but she couldn't. She couldn't unless she wanted Beck to hate her. She felt dirty. No matter how many times she showers, she will always be dirty.

"I'm going to go to the bathroom. Be right back." She told him as she stood up. He nodded and smiled at her before retreating back to their friends. Walking through the crowds Jade began to think. Jade had just got back together with Beck, she should be happy right? But she wasn't, she was scared of having her secret released to him. She thought beck would hate her. He would, right?

She snapped out of her thoughts when she felt a cold liquid on her shirt. She looked up and it was James smirking at her.

"I'm so sorry! I didn't see you there, shorty." He said to her. Laughter filled the lunch tables. Jade glared at him but she was scared of him too. She pushed past him and ran to the bathroom. She shoved everyone out of her way. And when in the bathroom she made sure no one was there before locking the door. She burst into tears. He mocked her, in front of everyone. She felt pathetic. He had taken an interest in her, raped her and now mocked her. She cried and leaned against the sink. What is happening to her? Jade West is not one to cry. But she couldn't help it. She removed her shirt, exposing her bruises and hickies on her body. She tried removing the stains that James had "accidentally" spilled on her. She didn't go out of the bathroom until the end of lunch bell rang. She sighed and put on her somewhat dry shirt. She walked through the halls.

"There you are!" A voice spoke behind her. She tensed up but turned around. She felt a bit relived that it was only Beck.

"Cat said you left lunch. I went looking for you every where. You ok?" he asked concerned. She nodded and again faked a smile. He didn't look to convinced but he walked her to her class before leaving to his own.

In class the teacher had asked were she was.

"Sorry." was all she said as she took her seat. Not 5mins had passed when Tori entered the classroom, late.

"Sorry, I had a bit of distraction." She said glancing at Jade. The teacher sighed as Tori sat away from Jade. But jade kept noticing that Tori gave her strange looks throughout the class. As soon as the bell rang, Jade didn't have time to gather her stuff before Tori stood next to her. She looked at Jade.

"May I help you?" Jade said annoyed by the way Tori looked down at her.

"Um,no. I just wanted to know if you're ok." Tori said concerned.

"I'm fine." Jade replied raising an eyebrow at her.

"You sure because I saw you i-" Tori was cut off.

"Look I'm fine! What happened at lunch is nothing."

"I didn't see you at lunch...I saw you in the bathroom." She told her. Jade starred at her while picking up her stuff and standing up.

"W-what?"

"I saw the bruises on body and your eye."

"I-I was in a fight. Like I keep saying its none of your business!" Jade shouted before walking away.

"And the hickies?" Tori asked, Jade stopped walking and slowly turned to Tori.

"Did you get those in a fight too?" Tori asked.

"S-shut up! I got them from Beck."

"Really? When because Beck was at Andre's all weekend and Tuesday. You got back together with him today."

"There you go, I got it today."

"No you didn't. Those hickies look days old." Tori kept cornering Jade with all her answers.

"You don't know anything! Why can't you stay out of my life" Jade shouted. Tori looked at her with such concern.

"Bruises, black eye and a hickey. That doesn't sound like a fight, Jade…It sounds more like rape."

Jade's eyes grew watery. Tori stepped forward.

"I see the way you look a James. With such fear and hatred. I saw you pull away when Beck hugged you. And the bruises, eye and hickies..." Tori said softly. Jade swallowed hard.

"he raped you didn't her?" She asked. Jade felt a tear escape from her eye. She underestimated Tori. Tori wasn't as stupid as she thought but yet Jade shook her head.

"No! Stay out of my business!" jade yelled before running away. Tori sighed. All she wanted was to tell Jade it was ok. But to do that, Jade needs to tell her the truth. Although Tori already knows it's true. Jade was raped and Tori knew it. Jade could not deny it anymore. Someone knew other then James and Jade.

AN- Sorry it took me a while to finish. And some parts seem like there not important but they will be later on Hit that button that says REVIE AND REVIEW please (: