Title: Steven McGarrett
Author notes: This is the third part. I wanted to thank all the people who left me a review. Thank you because you made me keep writting, and big thanks to my brilliant beta, Jerseybelle, for all her help.
There are parts of a bunch of country songs that I thought fit the situation and what Steve was feeling.
Songs sung by: Travis Tritt, Rascal Flatts and Norah Jones *(or Hank Williams, Sr for Cold, Cold Heart)
*(I put this down at the beginning of the story, since in the story you have similar scene settings)*
"I can't hide the way I feel about you anymore
I can't hold the hurt inside, keep the pain out of my eyes anymore
My tears no longer waiting...my resistance ain't that strong
My mind keeps recreating a life with you alone
And I'm tired of pretending that I don't love you anymore..."
Steve´s POV
Before Steve sang that song at the bar…
Danno, what am I going to do? I found myself in love with you, and I know we have no chance. I have no chance that you feel the same way about me, I´m scared because I don´t know what to do, because I´ve never felt this way, and I was prepared to never have these feelings. My life, Danny, is complicated so love, the only kind I knew was the one my momma give me. But then you came into my life and you ranted your way inside me.
Let me make one last appeal to show you how I feel about you...hmmm
Cause there's no one else, I swear, holds a candle, anywhere, next to you
My heart can't take the beating of not having you to hold
A small voice keeps repeating deep inside my soul...
It says I can't keep pretending that I don't love you anymore
I've got to take the chance or let it pass by
If I expect to get on with my life
With my life...
During the song…
Danny, see me; Danny, see me; Danny, see me; give me a chance, Danny; love me, don´t break my heart, Danny, Danno look at me, just look at me, see my eyes Danny see me.
And I can't hide the way I feel about you anymore
And I can't hold the hurt inside, keep the pain out of my eyes anymore
My tears no longer waiting
Oh, my resistance ain't that strong
Oh, my mind keeps recreating a love with you alone
And I'm tired of pretending I don't love you anymore...anymore...anymore..."
Why, Danny? Why did you leave? Why?
Steve´s home…
"There was a time when I believe that you belonged to me
But now I know your heart is shackled to a memory..."
I´m leaving you a letter, Danno. My old captain was here when I came home. They need me and maybe if I have some space, I can fall out of love...yeah who am I trying to kid here? I´m going to love you always but I got to try. Tonight proved me that you still love Rachel or at least you don´t love me; I´m not enough.
I love you, Danny, and I hope you'll be happy.
I have to go. I'm not afraid; the Navy is my place but not my home anymore. Home is Ohana, home I though could be you and Gracie. Guess I´ll have to figure out a way to hide my feelings for you.
Somewhere far from Hawaii
Seven months later…
"I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while even though
Goin' on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm okay
But that's not what gets me
It has been seven month already. I´m so tired that some days I think that my body is going to shut down. There's been fighting and my unit had seen action. I had to send a man home because he was injured and I sent Gracie´s birthday gift and a letter back with him. He´ll get these things to them, he´ll get them to my Ohana.
I can´t write or call home because it would compromise our position; we´re getting close to our target. I´m injured, but getting better; my men support me. I think of my Ohana every single day; they´re always with me, Kono, Chin, Gracie and Danny.
Danno, you may have broken my heart but your voice is what got my heart through dark days.
"Wait for back up, Steve, don´t go being super SEAL."
I got a letter through our general and I still read Kono´s message. "Come home, Boss."
Chin´s "Brah, be careful."
Gracie's "I love you Uncle Steve, please be safe and come home."
And you Danny? Why didn´t you write me?
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away
You walked away from me, Danny, but I though at least you cared about me. Could I have ruined our friendship?, Could I have driven you away? I need you in my life but I can´t force you to stay if you don´t want to be here. I love you, Danno, and I´m so sorry that you don´t feel the same way.
And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do
You don´t know, Danny, you don´t know; you didn´t want to know.
The days are getting more dangerous, our enemies known about our getting closer, but I´m calm because I sent my letter. I´m in charge, my unit depends on me to lead them to success.
We attack and we fight, we got the hostages and our targets.
"Man down, man down."
"Smooth Dog, you don´t dare leave us..."
"Sir?"
"Keep going, Henderson, we complete the mission, we take the hostages to the extraction point."
"Sir, you´re hurt!"
"Steve, man, you with me?"
"Yeah, we complete the mission."
We walk. Bullets and explosion and fire surround us and Hammer goes down. I take him and my charge with me, and I can see Danny´s face, Gracie´s face, Kono's and Chin´s faces, my Ohana is smiling at me and I keep going.
"Come on, Uncle Steve. You can do it."
"Yeah, brah, you´re strong."
"Boss, you can, you´re almost there."
"You can do it, Super SEAL, you don´t get to surrender, you keep going."
And I reach that point and everything goes black.
"I'm falling head over heels for you
So baby there it is I've let it go and now you know
It's funny how a feeling starts so small and starts to grow
I had every line rehearsed I'd say to you today
Then you looked into my eyes and they just slipped away
'Cause I 'm head over heels for you..."
Your face is the last thing I see, Angel Eyes, you´re smiling at me.
'Cause I 'm head over heels for you.
TBC