Chapter 7

Welcome to Hell

Bella POV

I woke up and found myself wrapped in Quil's arms I admired my ring. Quil knew exactly what I liked. He is so amazing. Quil had given it to me last night and proposed again, but we didn't tell his parents yet. .

As I looked over at him I realized I still owed him for his little torture session the other morning. Even though we made love yesterday for the first time in years, I was not about to let that get in the way of torturing him. Tomorrow would be the start of our own personal hell and I didn't know when Quil would feel like doing anything after the bone marrow donation procedure. Plus Charlie will in the hospital for at least a month if not more for the whole donation process.

I rolled out of Quil's arms and I could tell he immediately felt the loss of me near him. I crept to the end of the bed and crawled inside the covers and between his legs. His cock was standing at attention due to his morning wood. It was the most perfect thing. Quil was sexy no matter what but seeing him this vulnerable to my attack was even more of a turn on.

I slid further up so that my mouth was directly over his cock and licked around his head. He started to stir not to sure about what was going on around him, so I licked the tip of his cock again. I could hear him starting to moan and I grabbed the base of his cock and took what I could in my mouth. Quil was huge and I could only fit so much in my mouth without gagging.

"BELLA!" He groaned loudly as it finally hit him what was going on. "UGH BELLA! WHAT A WAKE UP CALL!"

He threw the covers off so he could watch me. I could see him clenching the sheets with his hands and bucking his hips causing his cock to go further towards the back of my throat and almost causing me gag. I started stroking the base of his cock and Quil was moaning my name telling me he was close. I pumped him one more time and sucked his cock in my mouth as hard as I could and then jumped up off of him and started to walk towards the door.

"Bella what the hell?"

"See Quil. We had the best sex last night. It was absolutely amazing, but baby I owe you that one for torturing me the other morning."

"Bella that is not fair. What am I supposed to do now?"

"I am sure you can work that one out on your own. I am going to get some last minute things from the store. Love you baby!"

I could hear his distress as I ran to the bathroom to shower. Payback is a bitch isn't it? I wonder what he was going to do to me next.

I finished getting dressed and made my way downstairs to find my daughter and Quil's parents eating breakfast.

"Quil upset about something?"

"Nah just getting a dose of his own medicine."

"So angel wanna do some last minute shopping today? Daddy has to go get some blood drawn and you have your appointment later on today, but I figured we could get you some clothes to wear in the hospital, some books, maybe some other stuff to keep you busy."

"Sure mommy. That sounds like fun. G-ma do you want to go with us?"

"Sure we can have lunch later and meet daddy and G-daddy for dinner. Maybe uncle Jake and uncle Paul will come too."

"I like uncle Paul. He is funny, but uncle Jake is just so…..dreamy"

We about fell on the floor laughing when Charlie said that. She had the biggest crush on Jake and he made sure he gave her the attention she needed from him. Paul has turned out to be a great brother and uncle. He has already cleared his schedule for the next five weeks to help us with Charlie. If this is anything like the last time she had chemo, we would need all the support we could get.

Quil came downstairs looking frustrated and I chuckled at his distress. Now he knew how I felt.

"You ok babe?"

"Yeah Bells just great"

"Morning daddy" Charlie sailed out of her chair jumping in her arms.

"Hey princess. What are you doing today?"

"Mommy is going to take me shopping."

"Oh yeah? Maybe she should get a book on how to unclog a pipe. Seems a huge pipe was blocked this morning"

"Funny Quil"

I reached for a coffee cup when I felt Pam place her hand on mine.

"Bella? Is this what I think it is?" She asked with tears in her eyes.

"Yes Pam. Quil asked me to marry him last night."

"YIPEEEEEEEEEE!" Charlie cried. "Mommy and daddy are getting married."

"Oh Quil!" Pam gushed as she hugged us both. "The ring is gorgeous."

"What's all the commotion?" Daniel asked walking into the kitchen

"Mommy and daddy are getting married G-daddy"

"Yeah. Congratulations. When is the wedding?"

"Nothing big you guys. We just want a small ceremony with friends and family. It will be after all this mess is over with."

"Ok you kids just let us know what you need."

"Thanks dad. Ok I have to get off to the hospital. I will see you beautiful ladies there?"

"Yes babe. Charlie's appointment is at noon. We can have lunch after that"

Quil came and whispered in my hear "mmmm I can think of a few things I can eat." Damn him.

"Love you guys see you later." He said as he kissed me and Charlie on his way out.

"Ok let's get shopping"

Charlie's POV

I loved to shop. I just wasn't in the mood today. I was scared. My hair had just started growing back and I was going to lose it again. The nasty chemo was going to make me sick and all I would want to do is sleep the next few weeks. I tried to be brave and not upset mommy and daddy but it was getting hard.

I was trying on dresses when a little girl came in and stared at me for a minute. I guess when I was taking the dress over my head it knocked my wig off a little.

"Mommy why is that girl bald?" The little girl asked her mom.

I didn't know what else to do so I got my clothes on quickly and ran out of the dressing room, running right into G-ma.

"Charlie what is it honey? Why are you crying"

"Cause I am ugly. My wig fell off a little in the dressing room and a little girl asked why I was bald."

"First of all, my granddaughter is not ugly. Don't worry about what others thing sweetheart. It's not how you look on the outside. It is what you have on the inside."

"Well then either way I am ugly because my insides aren't pretty either. I hate being sick! I hate being bald. I HATE EVERYTHING!"

"Whoa honey what is going on?" Mommy came running up to me. "What happened?"

"A little girl asked her mom why Charlie was bald. I guess her wig fell off some when she was trying on clothes. She said she was ugly and I told her that it doesn't matter what you look like on the outside. Its what you have on the inside. I'm sorry Bella that backfired."

I watched as G-ma explained what happened when the little girl and her mommy came out. The little girl pointed at me and her mom dragged her away. Not before my mommy went to talk to them.

Bella POV

"Hey! Hey I said turn around"

"What do you want lady?"

"Do you pride yourself in teaching your children to make fun of others because of what is wrong with them? My daughter has leukemia. What kind of a person are you?"

"I'm sorry I didn't know."

"Of course you didn't because you judged a book by its cover. Pray everyday that your little girl is healthy."

I walked away fuming. I couldn't believe people could be so ignorant. Now I needed to do damage control. I took out my cell and called Jake and my brother and told them my plan. They went to go get Quil and met us at the mall. Yes it was going to make us a little late to our appointment, but I called Charlie's doctor and explained. Then I called Emily and she came to get Charlie and take her for lunch.

After Emily came and took Charlie to the food Pam and I met the guys at our secret location at the mall..

"Bells are you sure about this?"

"Positive. Charlie needs to know she is not alone."

We met back up with the Emily and Charlie. Charlie's eyes about popped out of her head as she saw all of us rounding the corner.

"Mommy what did you do? Daddy? Uncle Paul? Uncle Jake? G-ma? You are all bald!"

"Yep! Now we are just as beautiful as you are my angel."

Charlie just sat there for a second, tears running down her face. She ran and hugged all of us.

"Thank you! Thank you! Mommy your hair was so pretty!"

"Oh baby its just hair. What matters is that we are all united as a family."

I don't think there was one of us that had a dry eye. Not even big, bad Paul could keep the tears from falling. Mission accomplished. Now we were off to the doctor.

Quil POV

I can't believe Bella just shaved off all of her hair and that everyone else agreed to it. We had a great family and Charlie seemed to be a little more comfortable now.

We got to the hospital and Charlie did her pre-admission testing. Her doctor explained that tomorrow she would be admitted and she would have her chest tube inserted. What I liked about this man was that he pulled no punches. He told Charlie she was going to feel pretty badly, but that sometimes you had to feel really yucky before you got better. He told how the tube would be inserted and that it was necessary to have to there to help her get the good marrow into her body. She would recover from the surgery and the next day she would start her chemo and radiation. She looked scared and I placed her on my lap whispering that I loved her and she would be ok. My poor little girl. I wouldn't be there for the procedure. I would be in recovery and would see her later on. I hated that I wouldn't be there for her, but knew what I was doing was important for her to survive.

Next the doctor explained to us that during her recovery anyone coming to visit her would have to go to a clean room first, wash their hands, get a mask and put sterilized protective clothing on. He explained that the chemo and radiation would kill all Charlie's blood cells, good and bad and that she would be very prone to infection. She would have to stay here at least a month if not more to make sure she was ok and then have regular testing done to ensure the new bone marrow was doing what it should be doing.

He answered all of our questions and told us he would see us tomorrow to start the chemo process. At least I would be there for that. We all got up and left the office. Bella excused herself to the bathroom and I asked mom to keep an eye on Charlie as I followed her.

"Bells? Bella where are you?"

She walked out of the bathroom in tears. Her eyes red and puffy already because she was crying so hard.

"Quil….what are we putting our little girl through? Are we doing the right thing?"

"Bells, I love that little girl just as much as you do and I believe what we are doing is right. Yes the next month or two are going to be hell, but baby once this is over our girl will be healthy. She can have a normal life."

"You can't know that for sure Quil. What if it doesn't work?"

"Bella! Don't think like that! This is going to work. I will not lose my little girl when I just found out she exists. Have faith honey. We will all get through this."

I made sure Bella was going to be ok and we headed out to have dinner with our family. Charlie wanted pizza. So pizza it was. Dinner was great. Charlie seemed to be pretty relaxed considering everything she was about to go through. I think Bella and I were more nervous than she was. When we got home that night we went to her room and sat down and talked to her. We just wanted to make sure that she was really ok.

"So baby. Do you have any questions?"

"I don't know mommy. It's not like we haven't done this before."

"Actually baby this is different. Last time you just had chemo. Now you are going to get daddy's marrow to help you."

"Ok so the doctor said something about a cafter. What is that?"

"A catheter? It is a tube that they put in one of your veins so they can give you medicine."

"Does it hurt?"

"Well you will be sleeping when they do it, but it may hurt a little after. We will make sure you have medicine to help with pain baby"

"What does daddy have to do?"

"Well pumpkin" Quil started. "I am going to go to sleep just like you do at night and then they are going to take some bone marrow from my hip"

"Will it hurt you daddy?"

"No baby daddy will be just fine."

"Promise daddy?"

"Yes baby I promise"

"Mommy will you be with me when I am getting daddy's mallow?"

"Charlie honey it is marrow" I had to laugh. She was so innocently funny. "And yes I will be there."

"Will I have to stay at the hospital?"

"Yes for a little while"

"Will everyone be there?"

"Well daddy and I will sleep there every night. G-ma and G-daddy will come see you. Uncle Jake and uncle Paul will come see you too."

"ok. I'm tired. Can I go to sleep now?"

"Of course honey. We love you"

Quil and I kissed Charlie goodnight and headed to our room to get some sleep. Tomorrow was going to be a shitty day. No matter what Quil said I was worried sick about whether we were doing the right thing. I didn't want Charlie to die of course, but that little angel had been through so much already.

I kissed Quil goodnight and laid down with his arms around me. I had never felt more safe than I did when I was with him.

Quil POV

Bella and I got up around 8 and finished packing our bags. I really didn't know what to expect. No one I have ever known has had any kind of surgery. Jake and I talked about it and he said that he was really proud of me for the sacrifice I was making. What else was I supposed to do. This was my daughter. If Charlie was his he would have done the same thing.

We woke Charlie up and got her ready to go. She complained about being hungry the whole way to the hospital. I swear that child eats more than I do. We explained to her that because of the anesthesia she couldn't eat. That didn't seem to matter to her.

We got to the hospital, checked in and we were taken to Charlie's room. Charlie would have a private room so there was no risk of infection when she started her chemo. She would also be at risk after the transplant. It would be a while till she felt herself again.

The nurses came in and started to get Charlie ready to go into pre-op. Now I was getting nervous. She was so brave. She winced a little when they put the iv in her arm. She was so brave. It amazed me she was only 5. The doctor came in to talk to us one last time before they rolled her into surgery. She smiled the whole time. I knew she was putting on brave face for her mother and I. Jake got to her room just as they were wheeling her away and blew her a kiss. There we were three grown ups with tears rolling down our face as our brave little girl smiled the whole way down the hallway telling us how much she loved us.

Jake POV

The last few hours have been hell. I know Charlie is not mine. I love her like she is though. Her little crush on me melts my heart. She tells me I am her prince charming. That she is my princess and I am her prince. Gets me every time.

Quil and Bella seemed to be dealing as well as they could. Paul got here about an hour ago and he was pacing the halls. Quil's parents were in the cafeteria. We tried to get Bella and Quil to eat, but they were afraid they may miss something.

When I talked to Quil the other day he told me how scared he was. What if this didn't help Charlie? What if he didn't make it out of surgery? I tried my hardest to calm him, but shit I would have been just as bad if not worse.

Finally the doctor came out. Said Charlie did great and she was in recovery. He said that Quil and Bella could see her in about an hour. I saw a sight I never thought I would see. Paul dropped to his knees crying thanking God his niece was ok. None of us could keep our eyes dry after that.

Bella POV

After the excruciating hour of waiting for Charlie to get out of recovery we were able to see our baby. As soon as we walked in I started to cry. I couldn't help it. It is not everyday you walk into a hospital room and see your sleeping daughter with tubes surgically implanted in her chest. It was heartbreaking. Quil seemed to be going through the same emotions.

A few minutes later she started to stir, crying as she came to.

"MOMMY!"

She screamed.

"Baby I'm right here"

"Where's daddy?"

"I'm right here baby." Quil told her as I moved closer to sit next to her.

"Mommy the tube hurts. Please make them take it out."

"Honey they can't. You need it right now."

"GET IT OUT!" She screamed as she started pulling at the tube.

"Charlene listen to me. You can not pull at the tube. I know it hurts honey. I know it hurts, but baby if you keep pulling at it they are gonna have to give you medicine to sleep and I want to see my angel's beautiful eyes. Let daddy tell the nurse and they will give you something for the pain honey."

She started to calm down some as Quil ran out of the room to get the nurse. This was tearing me apart. There is nothing worse than hearing your child scream in pain. What the hell have I done to my daughter?

Quil came back in the room and I told him I needed some air. I kissed Charlie and ran down the hall. Jake was coming towards me and grabbed me before I fell from crying so hard.

"BELLA! BELLA What's wrong Bella!"

"I can't handle this Jake. She is screaming in pain. I can't do this"

"Bells. Honey look at me. Where's Quil?"

"With Charlie."

"What happened Bells?"

"Oh Jake." Just then Paul started walking towards us.

"Bella?"

"Jake what the hell is wrong with my sister?":

"Paul relax. Everything is ok. Bella is just overwhelmed."

"Bells?" Paul asked me.

I slid to the floor and put my head in my hands. "Charlie woke up and asked where I was and where Quil was and then she started saying the tube hurt asking me to tell them to get it out. Then she started screaming in pain. What the fuck are we doing here?"

Paul just stood there. Jake had tears rolling down his face.

"Isabella you listen to me" Paul started. Shit only my father called me Isabella and that is when he was mad at me. "You are doing nothing but trying to save your daughter. Don't you dare fault yourself for that. She just had surgery honey. It is going to hurt her. We knew that. Did the nurse come give her medicine?"

"Yes Quil went to go get the nurse before I left"

"Ok well she is a smart girl and she knows you are upset. Jake and I are going to go in there and I am going to send Quil out. Are you going to be ok while we do that?"

"Yes Paul. Thanks big brother."

"Anything for you brat"

I sat there for a few minutes until I saw Quil running down the hall towards me tears running down his face.

"Bella. I love you"

"I love you too Quil. How is she?"

"A little better now that her prince charming is in there."

Only Jake could make her go from screaming to laughing. Her eyes were heavy from sleep but she was cracking up at everything Jake told her. The nurse came back in to check on her and pulled us aside.

"Are you guys ok? I know that was kind of rough and scary"

"Yes I think we are ok. Jake is a lifesaver"

"Yes he is Mrs. Ateara" I didn't bother to correct her. It had a nice ring to it. "Is he single?"

Jake was too single if you ask me, but that was not my business. I didn't want to hurt this woman. Especially since she as taking care of my daughter, but she didn't seem like Jake's type. Jake went for the blonde haired bimbos. This woman seemed sweet. I would love to see him settle down, but I don't think he is the settle down type.

Pam and Daniel came up for a few hours and Pam brought Charlie the blanket the tribe elder wives made for her.

Charlie slept through most of the night. Jake stayed the whole time and held her hand. I don't think he got much sleep. If he had to go to the bathroom, Paul took his place. Quil and I laid down in the bed on the other side of the room thanking the heavens that our daughter had so many people that loved her.

The next morning when Charlie woke up she seemed to be in better spirits. Her chest tube wasn't bothering her as much and she ate a lot better than she did yesterday. Jake practically had to force feed her the first few hours after surgery. Thankfully she hadn't thrown up from the anesthesia, which I was thankful for. Today she would start receiving the chemo and in five days Quil would be having his surgery to donate the marrow that Charlie needed.

Day one

Charlie has been sick most of the day. She is exhausted and doesn't want to have anyone with her but Jake. She has been throwing up non-stop. I can't stand watching her like this, but in the end if it treats the cancer I guess it will be worth it. Quil and I have been here every waking moment.

Day two

More throwing up. My poor baby looks so tired. I can tell that this is tearing Quil up but he is putting up a good front. I heard him talking to her last night when she finally fell asleep telling her how beautiful she was and how lucky he was that she was his daughter. He is so amazing. It breaks my heart to see him so upset.

Day three

Jake had to take Billy to the doctor today to get him more diabetes medication. Charlie has been screaming non-stop for Jake all day. I don't think she has eaten since the chemo started. The radiation is starting to wear her down too. You can tell this is taking a toll on her little body. We now have to wear sterile suits before we go into her room. Any little thing can make her sick. She can't have the transplant if she gets sick and we would have to start this process all over again when she was strong enough. She has been getting high doses of anti-biotics which is making her more sick in addition to the chemo. She had some blood tests today to determine where we are as far as killing the old marrow. Jake came back about an hour go. She relaxed a little when Paul came in and a little when Quil came in. She doesn't want me near her at all. I hope she doesn't hate me for doing this to her.

Day four

The doctor told us that today and tomorrow's treatment should do the job. Quil goes in for surgery first thing in the morning. Considering my daughter doesn't want me right now I am going to wait with Quil and be there when he gets out of surgery. As soon as they let me know he is ok I will be back in Charlie's room. I want to be there when they do the transplant. Whether she wants me there or not. I wish I could say her throwing up stopped but it is worse today than the other days combined. I kissed Charlie after she fell asleep and went down the chapel on the main floor on the hospital.

Dear Heavenly Father,

I know it has been a while since I prayed. I think I lost my faith a bit when Charlie got sick. I just couldn't imagine how someone so pure and sweet could have such a terrible life sentence. I think in a way you wanted me close to Quil and Jake again. Maybe to find Paul. Just please….now that has all been done…..please let my little girl live. She deserves to have a full life, to get to know her daddy, to get over her first crush on Jake, to fall in love, to have her heartbroken, to find true love like her daddy and I have and to enjoy the new family she has. Quil deserves to get to know his little girl too. They are my lifelines. Please watch over them tomorrow and forever. Thank you for bringing them back into my life and for finding Paul. I am truly blessed. Amen.

Day 5

Today was the day. Quil was being prepped for surgery and Charlie was having her last chemo treatment. She actually asked for me today. I told her I would stay with her and she told me daddy needed me. That we needed to be brave for daddy. My little girl is amazing.

I am in the waiting room now waiting for the doctor to tell me that Quil is in recovery. I don't know what I would ever do without him. How did I ever survive without him.

Quil is in recovery and they are ready to the do the transplant. I am so nervous.

"Mommy I love you" Charlie said to me as they were putting Quil's marrow into the open port in her catheter. Please let this work.

It has been three weeks since the transplant. Quil recovered without any complications. So far Charlie's body has not rejected the marrow. I am so thankful for that.

I have been really tired lately and not feeling myself. Quil told me to go to the doctor to get checked out but I really just think I am run down from all the stuff going on.

Emily called this morning while I was the store. She was at the hospital with Charlie and I wanted to pick some comfortable pants up for her.

"Hey Bella. Can you get me some tampons please. I didn't realize I was gonna start today and I don't have any on me."

"Sure thing. Be back in a bit."

I was walking down the tampon aisle when it hit me. I hadn't had my period since the night Quil and I made love. SHIT! This is so not what I need right now. Quil however is going to be thrilled.

I got back to the hospital and told the nurse what I thought was going on. She talked to the doctor and they sent me down to the lab to have a urine test done. About a half hour later the nurse pulled me out of the room and told me I was definitely pregnant. Lord have mercy.

Quil came to the hospital that night after work to get me for dinner. Jake and Paul were on Charlie duty. She called this her date night with her two favorite uncles. She is such a little turn.

Dinner was great. I cherished these moments with Quil. We haven't had much us time since Charlie was in the hospital so it was nice to be alone with him.

"Bells, are you ok honey. You seem preoccupied. Did you go to the doctor? Is everything ok?"

"I talked to the doctor at the hospital. They sent to me to the lab to have a test done."

"Bella what is going on?"

"Well apparently we are going to have to go baby shopping"

It took a second for him to put two and two together.

"Really? Are you serious?"

"Yes. I'm pregnant"

Quil jumped out his chair, picked me up and starting screaming we were having a baby as loud as he could in the restaurant. Everyone cheered as I blushed.

"Oh Bella. Thank you for making me the happiest man alive….AGAIN"

"You're not upset?"

"Why would I be upset? We are having a baby!"

"I know but with all the stuff with Charlie and we're living in your parents house."

"Baby all the more reason to celebrate. Charlie will be a great big sister. Well, once she learns to share the attention." He giggled. "Your dad's house is almost done and we can move in there before the baby is born. If I hadn't already asked you to marry me I would be asking you now."

"Quil.…""Let's get married in the hospital chapel. Charlie is feeling good enough to move around. Jake and Paul will be there. I can call mom and dad"

"In a hospital chapel? Really?"

"Why the hell not. I don't need a fancy ceremony. I have you."

"Ok. Why the hell not!"