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Chapter 13

Jade's POV

'My dad came over yesterday; he tried convincing me to go with him. But I denied his demand and I watched him walk away. The first man in my life, the one that I once called my father abandon in me, even after he knew what had happened to me. I didn't stop him from leaving me. Why? Simply because I know one day, one sweet day, he'll realize his mistake. He'll realize that leaving a daughter behind was the worst mistake ever. So there he went, out of my life for good. Did I cry? Yes. Why? Because it hurts watching him walk away, even though I try to pretend it doesn't bother me, it does. And it always will bother me. He made me feel worthless, like I wasn't good enough for him. I wasn't not good enough and that kills me. I was too pathetic. Tori tells me differently. She says that it's his fault not mine. That he left because he wanted to not because I wasn't good enough. And I know that…in my mind I know that. But in my heart…I know I drove him away but I wanted him to stay. How pitiable do I sound?'

I felt the tears running down my cheek again. It's Monday morning and I'm crying already. I woke up 20 minutes ago and I smeared my make up all over me. I whipped my tears away and go to the bathroom to wash my make up off. I have to put my make up on all over again. Great. I heard a knock on my door. It's Tori as usual.

" Jade, ready for school?" She asked popping her head through the door.

"Yeah." My voice crack at the end of that one word, I was still a bit upset from what happened with my father.

"OK, meet you downstairs, Trina's giving us a ride." Tori said as she shut the door. I quickly finish my makeup and grab my bag. I head down the stairs when all of the sudden I feel it again. I rush to the living room bathroom and as usual vomit. This is what I hate about being pregnant. Morning sickness gets to me.

"What wrong with her?" I heard Trina ask.

"I don't know." Tori responded. I washed my mouth and came out of the bathroom.

"You alright?" Trina asked me. I nodded. We walked out the door and I saw Tori give me a look that said are-you-ok? But I reassured her.

We drove to school; I laid my head against the seat and closed my eyes as the nice air blew through my hair. 'If only I could feel this way before, so relaxing. It's like I'm floating in mid air. I feel so light.' I felt the car stop and I opened my eyes. We're at school…great.

"OK, out little girls! I got to go park the car." Trina said kicking us out at the curve of the school. I grabbed my bag and climbed out of the car. Tori pulled me to the rest of the gang. I looked around; I had this strange feeling that I was being watched. Could be my father? Nah, he doesn't care about me.

"Jade, are you even listening to me?" Cat asked innocently.

"No." I said so bluntly.

"Why are you so mean to me?" She exclaimed.

"OK! OK! What did you say?" I asked, yes I just did that to shut her up.

"I was saying that we should all go to the movies!" Cat repeated.

I nodded and said, "Yeah sure…"

I felt Beck tug me on my arm I looked at him.

"Are you ok?" He whispered. I looked down.

"What's wrong?" He asked. I felt the entire gang's eye on me. I looked at them.

"Do you mind?" I asked annoyed.

"Oh, I see how it is!" Rex, Robbie's annoying puppet, said. I glared at them and they took the hint and left.

"I'm fine…it's just…my dad came yesterday." I told him

"And what happened? Is he still here?"

"No…he left me." I heard my voice crack in the last part. I saw the tears fill my eyes. But I bit my lip to prevent myself from crying. I will not cry. I won't…

"It's ok." Was all Beck could say, he hugged me and I felt so safe in his arms. But I just couldn't shake that feeling off. The feeling of loneliness, the feeling of sadness and the feeling of emptiness. After all he was my dad and I could never hate him, no matter how much I try to.

"He just left and that will never be ok with me…" I whispered in to Beck's shirt. He smoothed my hair.

"Aw, look at the perfect couple." I heard a voice say. I know that stupid arrogant voice. It belonged to James. We broke apart and glared at him. He had a black eye and that put a smile on my face. He had it from Beck's punch.

"Nice eye." I mocked. He stepped forward and I tensed up but Beck stepped in front of him.

"Got a problem?" Beck threatened. James huffed and glared at me. I looked down. I heard James footpace as he was leaving. Beck turned to me. I continued to stare down.

"He can't hurt you Jade…not as long as I'm here. But I don't get it, why not press charges against him?" Beck asked me. I swallowed hard to prevent tears from escaping my eyes.

"I can't...I couldn't either way. It's too late for all that crap. I have no proof. It's been a month. Beside's it's his word against mine, who do you think will win?" I explained. Beck shook his head.

"Jade you have proof, the baby. It's that bastards."

"Beck, that won't do anything! They'll all just think I'm making it all up! They'll think that I wanted to sleep with him!"

"How do you know that Jade? What if they believe you?

"Yeah, what if…what if they don't? I'll just be making a fool out of myself! I have no evidence!" I yelled. I felt student's eyes stare at me.

"Beck, I can't and I won't. I'll just lose." I lowered my voice.

"Fine…then let that son of a bitch get away with it. What if he does it to another girl? Why don't you stop that before it happens?" Beck questioned. I looked away.

"You will never understand Beck…I have to get to class." I said before walking away.

"Jade!" I heard him call out my name but I walked faster. I ran into the hallways and made my way to my locker. 'I know he's trying to help but can't he see, just looking at James makes me want to cry. I can't press charges, I fear of losing.'

As I turned the hallway, I bumped into someone.

"Watch wher-" I felt myself tense up. James stood there alone.

"So, you told that stupid boyfriend what happened that night didn't you? Let's not forget you asked for it, sweet heart."

"No…I didn't ask for it…" My voice was weak with fear.

"Really? So I just imagined that you came down with me that night? You could have stayed but no, you came with me."

"S-shut up." I stuttered. He's doing it again. He's making me feel worthless…he's trying to blame it all on me again.

"And what are you going to do if I don't?" He mocked me. I felt tears run down my face. He laughed.

"Exactly." He said as he began to walk away. No! This is not going to happen!
"I'll press charges!" I said as he walked away. I saw him freeze. He turned back to me with his eyes full of anger.

"Oh really? Where's you're evidence? Jade, you're not that smart to go through with this."

"Oh yeah? Well I do have evidence! I have people that saw my bruises, they can testify, I can go to the doctors, you ripped me apart. You destroyed me…oh but let's not forget the biggest evidence." I spoke harshly.

"And what's that?" He asked.

"I'm having you're baby." I told him. His face went pale. And I smirked.

"I'm done letting you control me. This time, we're playing by my rules." I said as I walked away.

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