Chapter 10

The Truth Does Not Always Set You Free

QPOV

I was so nervous. Last night was the worst night of my life. Worse than the night I was told Bella died. I couldn't believe how dumb I was last night. I don't know what I was thinking. I should have known better than to let that bitch buy me a drink. I fucked up everything. I had to save my marriage. It was all that mattered to me besides Charlie and my unborn baby.

I made some coffee as Paul was coming down the hallway.

"Morning Asshole"

"Paul please I feel bad enough"

"You should. You broke my sister's heart. Have you thought about what you are going to do?"

"Yeah I have a plan in action."

"Care to tell us about it man whore?" Jake asked coming down the hallway rubbing sleep out of his eyes.

"I got my urine tested to show I was drugged. Bella and Margo will be here in a little while"

"Are you stupid? You invited them both here?" Paul asked

"Yes I figure if I can get Margo to admit what she did Bella will forgive me"

"Bad idea man. Bad idea" Jake said

I didn't think it was a bad idea. Bella was bound to forgive me when she found out Margo really did drug me.

I showered and walked down to my parents' house. Charlie was just waking up when I walked in.

"Hi daddy"

"Hey baby"

"Where's mommy?"

"She'll be here in a few minutes"

"Ok. Then what are you doing here alone?"

"I slept at uncle Paul's"

Just then my mom dad walked down the hallway and didn't say two words to me. After sleeping on everything I didn't blame my parents for being mad. Bella was their daughter as much as I was their son.

"Dad"

"Quil. I know you are human but some things are inexcusable son"

"I know dad"

I heard a car and told Charlie to stay inside. I was hoping it was Bella. Of course it wasn't.

"Hey baby" the annoying voice said.

"Margo shut up. I only asked you here for one reason. To help me prove to Bella that I didn't lie to her and that I would never purposely hurt her."

"So you told her. You are an idiot"

"No she came to the bar and saw me kissing you"

"Awww poor little Bella. I am not helping you"

"You are. I have proof I was drugged and the bartender is a friend of mine and will testify that I left my drink and you laced it."

She looked at me in horror. Just then Bella came driving up to the house. She got out of the car and glared at me.

"Quil, did you really ask me here so that I could see you and your whore together? Where is my daughter. I don't want her around this bitch"

"Look at the pot calling the kettle black." Margo was messing with fire.

"If I wasn't pregnant I would so kick your ass"

"Now that is funny. You are pregnant and your husband is making out with me?"

"Margo shut up" I told her

I took the paper out of my pocket and handed it to Bella.

"What is this?"

"It is a urinalysis. It proves I was drugged"

"And?"

"Now you know I didn't mean anything that happened. I was drugged and hallucinating."

She stood there and it didn't seem to make a difference. She still seemed pissed. Just as Jake and Paul were walking outside Bella dove at Margo and slapped her so hard the next county could have heard it.

"You fucking cunt" Margo screamed and went after her. I couldn't move fast enough. She was getting ready to attack my baby when Paul grabbed her.

"Think about touching my sister again and I will forget you are female"

Paul would never hurt a woman, but I had no doubt he was telling the truth.

"Bella please listen to me. Quil was drugged and as soon as I realized what was happening I pulled Quil off of this two-bit slut. Jake slugged him and we left. You must have left right before that"

"Really?"

"Of course honey. Jake and I love you. We would never want you hurt. Quil really didn't know what he was doing We told him to tell you."

Thank God for Paul. Bella walked up to him. Looked him in the eyes and started to cry.

"Oh Paul." I'm sorry I doubted you. "Jake. I'm sorry"

"Honey its ok. If we saw that we would think the same thing" Jake told her.

Thank goodness. Bella realized I didn't mean it.

"Hey Margo. You can leave now. Come near my husband or family again and I will beat you down and if I can't cause of my being pregnant I have plenty of friends that will do it for me"

She stormed off and Bella flipped her off as she was getting into her car.

"Oh Bells. Honey I am so glad you understand"

"Who said I understood?"

"Bella?"

"Quil I know you were drugged, but the fact that drugged you didn't know it was me really bothers me. Plus, you had a chance to come clean when you came home and you admitted you were not planning on telling me. Nor did you know if you were ever going to tell me. If you can't tell me things how can I trust you? What do we have without trust?"

"Bella….honey I was scared. I was so afraid of hurting you?"

"So tell me babe. How does it feel to have your fear come true. You crushed my heart."

"I will make it up to you Bella. I swear I will. I was dumb. Please honey I can't lose you"

"Quil right now I don't believe anything you say. You will have to earn my trust back and that will not be easy. I am so torn here. I love you so much. You are my world, but you hurt me. Beyond hurt me. However, I won't just take you back like it was nothing."

"What can I do to make this better?"

"I don't know. I know you are not coming home right now. We will figure out something to tell Charlie, but I can't look at you without seeing your lips on her. In a few weeks you can move back in. In the guest room."

"Bella you can't stay in that house all alone"

"Why? I am perfectly capable of taking care of me and Charlie. I did it for years. Besides Jake can stay with me"

"Bella. Let me come home please. I will stay in the guest room. I will stay out of the way. I can't stand to be away from you and Charlie."

"I don't know Quil"

"Honey please"

"Fine. You will stay in the guest room and only talk to me if it has to do with Charlie. I have nothing to say to you. I am only doing this because I know how much Charlie loves you. I am not doing this for you."

"Thank you"

"Whatever. Jake, Paul if you would like come for dinner tonight. I am sure Charlie would love to spend time with her uncles"

"Ok Bella will be there later" Jake told her

I guess I should feel relieved I was going back home, but Bella was still so mad at me. I don't know how I could survive without touching her, holding her, kissing her. I would do everything I could to make us right again"

BPOV

The next few months sucked. I tried to forgive Quil. I just couldn't get passed that he wasn't planning on telling me about him and Margo. I missed him. We lived in the same house, but we weren't married really. Charlie knew something was wrong. No matter how we tried to play our roles, she was too smart for own good.

Jake and Paul came over daily to try to help out. She was becoming withdrawn. Even Jake was having a hard time cheering her up. I knew forgiving Quil would help her. I was so lost. I went to all my doctor appointments alone. Quil wanted to go. I just couldn't be alone with him. Every time we were alone he wanted to talk. To apologize for the hundredth time. I was sick of hearing it. I was seven months pregnant and miserable, but it had nothing to do with the pregnancy. Part of myself was missing. Things weren't going to get better if I didn't try.

Jake came by today to talk to Charlie and I decided I was going to take the first step.

"Jake"

"Yeah Bells?"

"Would you mind taking Charlie for a few days?"

"Of course. I would love to have her with me. Everything ok?"

"Yeah. Quil and I need sometime to talk alone. I need to decide one way or another what I want to do. I either need to forgive Quil and move on or he needs to move out. I can't and won't live like this anymore."

"What do you want?"

"I want my life back. I want to trust Quil again. I miss my husband"

"Bells. I have talked to him and he really regrets what he did. He knows how badly he fucked things up. He regrets not telling you right away"

"Why won't he tell me this?"

"You won't talk to him unless it has to do with Charlie"

"What am I supposed to do? Act like everything is ok?"

"Of course not, but Bella….he is human. What if the shoe was on the other foot. Wouldn't you want him to forgive you?"

"Yes"

"Well think of that. You guys have been through so much"

"I know. Thanks Jake"

"Sure. Sure."

Quil came home from work to find me in the kitchen making dinner. He came in put his stuff down and turned to find Charlie.

"She's not here"

"Why?"

"She is with Jake for a few days"

"Um…..ok"

"We need some time to us to talk. To figure things out."

"Ok"

"Quil…I love you so much. I miss you, but you really hurt me"

"I know. If I could go back I would change it all. I would have never taken that drink from Margo and I would have told you about it as soon as I got home. That was the stupidest thing I could have done. I should have told you"

"Yeah you should have. I would have been upset naturally, but this" I motioned to us " would not be going on right now if you were honest with me."

"I know. Tell me what I can do. I miss you. You sleep right down the hall and I feel like we live in separate houses."

"It is going to take time. I have finally gotten the image of the two of you out of my head. I just need some time."

"I will do whatever you need me to do. I just want us back"

"I do too. We have to take this slow. I won't just jump back in blindly and you are still staying in your room. You know I cant resist you and I refuse to let you woo me with sex. We need to build us back up first. The next few days I want to talk, do things together, spend real time together. Since we have gotten back together it has been sex, Charlie, sex, Charlie, sex."

"Well….you have already made dinner tonight. Let me go pick up some dessert and we can stay home the rest of the night and talk."

"Ok and Quil no matter what has happened between us. I do love you"

"I love you too Bella"

QPOV

Things were going slow. I was craving Bella like I have never craved her before.

She seemed to be getting a little better. We were kissing now and she seemed a little happier.

I would sacrifice my soul to make her happy again. I will never hurt her again.