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. Tori's POV
After all the drama died down, we decided it would be best if every one went home to pack. Beck says his parents won't care, Andre said the same, Robbie told his parents that he would be going to a ventriloquist camp. They trust him so they bought it and Cat is ditching summer camp and staying with me to talk to my parents. One by one the left until it was just me and Cat in my living room. And now we sit and wait.
"So when my parents come home, you stay quiet and agree with everything I say, ok?" I told Cat for the 5th time tonight. She nodded happily. I forced a smile but it didn't come out right. I'm still hung up on Andre and how stupid I was that I admitted that I liked him. I can't believe I actually thought he would like me too because I was so damn conceited. So there goes our friendship, walking out the door. I wish he could at least talk to me. I tried talking to him but he would either ignore me and push by me or just start talking to someone else when he saw me coming towards him. If he doesn't like me he should say it to my face instead of turning his back on me.
"Tori, are you ok?" Cat asked. I turned to her and blinked.
"You look angry...is it because of Andre?" She asked. I wanted to deny it but I couldn't. Cat might act dumb at times but she's not naïve. She's actually really smart, I just don't know why she doesn't act like it.
"Tori?" She said waving her hand in front of my face.
"Oh right, sorry." I mumbled. She stared at me with a serious face.
"It is about Andre." I admitted and groaned as I threw my self at the couch. She sat beside me and kept starring at me.
"Cat! Say something!" I exclaimed. She brought it up and she's staying silent. She jumped a little.
"Ok! Ok! I'm sorry! I was just thinking!" She said loudly. I sighed and leaned against the couch, trying to sink into it if it was possible.
"But I don't get it. Why are you so upset?" Cat asked. I felt the urge to slap myself on the forehead.
"Cat! Have you not noticed that he's been ignoring me ever since his fight with Beck!" I yelled. Just then the door opened and in came Trina with a big smile on her face.
"Tori! Guess what?" She said running towards me. I groaned, I so don't want to hear her right now but she's my sister so I have to put up with it.
"What is it?" I asked as she shoved Cat off the couch and sat in her seat.
"Trina!" I yelled as I got up to help Cat.
"Oh right, sorry Cat." She said before pulling me back on the couch.
"It's ok." Cat said sitting on the other couch.
"Ok so guess what?" Trina asked once again. I sighed.
"What is it?" I tried my best to act interested.
"I got accepted in to The Art Institute of California!" She exclaimed happily.
"Oh my god! That's amazing!" I cheered with her. I was actually not that surprised to hear it. People think she has no talent, and it would seem like it, but she can draw like no other. She designs most of her clothes. So this it perfect for her. She smiled widely.
"I know! Wait till mom and dad get home! I'm so telling them!" She exclaimed.
"I actually need to tell them something first..." I trailed off as the front door opened. We looked towards the door to see mom and dad come in.
"Hi, Mrs. and Mr. Vega." Cat said waving at them. They smiled back and moved towards us.
"Hello Cat. I didn't know you'd be here." My mom said. She looked around and then focused on me.
"Tori, where's Jade?" She asked.
"Oh yeah, I knew someone was missing." Trina added scanning the room. I swallowed hard and laughed uneasily.
"Well...the thing is, she sort of...moved out." I said timidly. She looked at me and my dad walked over.
"What do you mean moved out? She's not allowed to do that without us knowing. I mean we'd have to sign papers to give the other person the custody and all the social workers would have to be involved. And we'd have to go to a mee-" My dad rambled on but I cut him off.
"Dad, there was no need for that. Her Aunt...um, A-Alexandra had custody all along. She just let Jade stay with us to finish up this year. But after wards Jade was going to go back with her." I explained. Please, please let me not get caught.
"This was never in the contract we signed to take over Jade's custody. She could have at least told us about it."
"Well you must have skipped that detail but dad, her aunt took her. And she didn't have a chance to tell you because she had to pack and everything but she told me to tell you...thanks for everything and that she appreciates it."
"So now what about the charges?" My mom asked.
"She dropped them...she said that she's moving so she can start all over again. And she wants to forget so there, all solved."
"No, this is not solved. I want to talk to her, did she give you her information of where she was staying?" My mom asked. I froze for a moment.
"Um, she went to live...in Florida! Yup she went all the way over there and gave me no other information. Now um, can I go to summer camp with Cat?" I tried changing the subject.
"Camp?" My dad asked raising his eyebrow. I glanced at Cat who was playing with her hair.
"Yeah, Cat why don't you tell them about the camp." I told her. She looked confused but then nodded.
"Ok so its this really cool camp to I go to every summer. It's really fun and I want Tori to come. So can she go?" Cat asked. She looked at me and I smiled.
"When and where is this camp?" My mom questioned. Cat froze and I nudged her elbow to continue.
"Its at...um, somewhere in the mountains and we go tomorrow." She explained.
"I don't know, Tori. I mean having you gone for the summer is going to be strange." My mom began.
"Please mom! I really want to go." I begged. She looked at my dad who shrugged. She did a deep sigh but nodded.
"Fine but you must call me every night. And I want to drop you off at the campsite." She stated.
"No you can't do that...we take a bus there, right Cat." I told her. Cat nodded. My mom frowned.
"Mom this will be a good experience. Please let me go." I said looking at her with my begging eyes.
"Fine." She said softly. I shrieked and hugged her.
"Thank you! Thank you! Ok now I have to go pack. Come on Cat!" I said dragging her away. I heard my mom say something but I ignored it and went to my room. I shut the door and locked it.
"Cat, tell the guys the plan is on. I'll start packing." I said as I took out my suitcases. Cat nodded and took at her phone.
"I'll call Robbie." She said dialing the number.
I sighed. My long journey starts tomorrow. It's normal to feel a bit nervous right? Yeah I think it is...
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. Jade's POV
I can't fall asleep. I closed my eyes for maybe an hour or two but something woke me up. I keep having doubt in my mind. At least I want to. I want to believe that I didn't hurt them by leaving. I want to believe that they won't miss me. I want to believe that they will move on. Tori, she can be less tense. Every day I notice her become more and more tense and its all because of me. She doesn't want to say anything but I bet she's relieved that I'm gone. As for Beck, he's relieved too. Why wouldn't her be, right? He was going to be a dad for a child that isn't even his. Having me and this unborn child gone will be good. He'll be able to move on and go live to a carefree life again. He can find another girl who causes him less pain and makes him happy and loves him. And Cat, she is always happy. She will bounce back in no time. And she is always looking to make new friends. I'm sure she'll make a new best friend. One that won't abandon in her and will learn to deal with her emotional breakdowns. And Andre we were somewhat good friends. He actually tolerates me. Well at least pretends to. If I hadn't been dating his best friend, I'm sure we would have never meant nor talked to each other. Same with Robbie. Plus me and Robbie were never close friends. Hell we barley even see each other outside of school. Once or twice we've hung out, just the both of us but that was only because we bumped into each other. We never planned to hang out. He'll probably be the one who first forgets me. I'm sure of that.
I wish I could believe everything I just thought. But I can't. I want to just call them and tell them to forget me and move on but I just can't bring myself to do it. Is it wrong to want them to keep remembering me? I'm so selfish. I should want them to live their lives and continue to be happy again. Yet I still want them to keep holding on to me, to keep thinking about me. Half of me wants them to come after me. And half of me wants them to not. They probably are just sitting there and wishing for me to come back. And even if they do come looking for me, they won't find me. And eventually they'll grow tired of chasing me so they'll go to their senior year and never once look back. They'll all graduate together, go to college and become famous. With time they'll forget me. And the day when one of them looks at their high school year book, they'll see my picture and wonder, "She looks familiar...I wonder who she is." They won't recognize me.
As for me...I'll always remember them and keep them in my heart. I'll go one with life. Start all over again and try to move on. I'll always feel empty inside. The small little hole that misses them will keep growing bigger and bigger everyday until it takes over. I'll always feel like part of me is missing but then again I've always felt this way since mom...left. I'll say goodbye to love, watch it go out the opened window and wait for my life to be over. After all, isn't that what we're all waiting for at some point? We live our life to the fullest because we all know that one way or another we end up dieing. Some live their life wisely, others not so wise and others alone. I'll be that lonely person in the world...i decided I'm not having the baby anymore. I-I just don't know anymore! I don't want to kill it but I can't raise it. I can always just leave it in some foster home but he or she will grow up so empty because they'll never have a real family to belong to. I can go through the process of adoption, have the kid and give it to a family of my choosing. But what if I choose the wrong family and my child will be abused and suffer? Then they'll hate me forever for giving them up. I have the money to support it...I'm just a teenager still! I'm not stable enough to do this kind of thing! I was still a fuckin' virgin! I still would be if it hadn't been for that bastard! And if I ever did want to lose my virginity it would have been to Beck! I promised him that he would be the one. That he would be that one guy. Just look how that turned out! I'm pregnant! I don't deserve this...I want to wake up and realize that this is just a horrible nightmare. Why me? Why does it have to be me? Why...why not some other girl?...oh my fuckin' god! I'm going insane. How could I wish this to happen to another person? I-I'm a monster. I'm a fuckin' monster for wishing that. I'm sorry, I don't want this to happen to anyone else. I wasn't thinking right. I don't want anyone to suffer like this. But I don't want to suffer either. This world is so corrupted that I wish I could say this doesn't happen a lot...I'd be lying if I did say that though.
What am I suppose to do now? I need someone to tell me what to do. I'm so lost and confused. I'm so scared...please just someone wake me up from this nightmare. I'm tired, I'm hurting and I'm breaking. Someone just take me out of this misery. Please...
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