Disclaimer- I don't own Victorious
AN- thanks for being patient. Tried making it lone again because I want to end the story. So please read and review.
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. Jade's POV
Sometimes we do things without fully understanding. We say we get it, we know how it is but do we actually know? Words are just words, the can
be empty and hold no meaning to them.
"Jade?" I heard a voice calling from downstairs. I paused before going down to the living room where I saw Karen. She was holding a box of pizza
in her hands and walking to place it on the kitchen table.
"Hey, I ordered food. I thought you must be hungry and well, my cooking isn't that well." Karen said. I smiled at her as I followed her to the dinning
area where Lila was sitting.
"It's about time. I'm starving!" Lila said. She was going to say something more but she noticed my presence.
"Guess you're still here." She told me.
"well I'm standing here. So obviously I still am." I replied. She glared at me. The room was filled with awkward silence until Karen's phone went off.
"You girls go ahead and eat, I'll be outside." She said as she answered her phone. I sat down and allowed Lila to get the first piece.
"Why are you here?" She suddenly asked. I looked at her and saw pure anger and hatred in her eyes.
"Because I just am." I said.
"You're not welcomed here." She snapped. I tried to hold back a chuckle but failed.
"To your mom I am." I told her as I took a bite of my pizza.
"My mom doesn't know anything. She's stupid." Lila sneered. What the hell is this stupid little bitch's problem?
"You seriously need to give her some respect." I told her but she only rolled her eyes.
"Have you forgotten that she's the one putting a roof over your head? Or that she's the one who paid for this pizza you're eating? Or the fact that
she let's you out. Because if I were in charge, I'd lock you up in your room and let you rot." I said. She clenched her teeth.
"You're depressed, I get it. But that doesn't mean you have to go around and make everyone else deal with your shit." I exclaimed. Her head
looked like it might explode with anger but she kept quiet.
"What, don't have anything to say? Why? Because you're not use to having someone talk back to you?" I continued.
"You don't know what I'm going through!" She exclaimed. I rolled my eyes.
"That's what everyone says when they have nothing better to say. And I'm not going to know what you're going through unless you tell me. And
maybe then I can understand where you're coming from and maybe I can help." I said. She looked down.
"So what's it going to be?" I asked. She continued to look down but after a few minutes, her head shot back up. And all the hatred and anger was
gone from her eyes and replaced by pain and hurt. She was a tough girl, so she wouldn't cry in front of me. But when she goes back to isolating
herself, she lets it all out and cries. She'll put on an act that makes her feel tough but she's not tough, she's broken. And she'll deny help even
though she knows she needs it.
"I'm here all the time. So when you're ready. I'll be waiting." I said. She opened her mouth to speak but the front door opened and Karen came in.
"So, how's it going?" She asked with a smile in her face. I wonder, does that smile ever fade? Or is it only there when she's around people. Does everyone hide behind a mask?
Lila excused herself in a low voice and grabbed her plate before heading to her room. I didn't reply but just starred at my food.
"I'm sorry if she said something. I...I just don't know what to do with her sometimes. I mean, a mother does everything to keep her child safe. Yet I
feel like I failed every day." She said. I couldn't think of anything to say so I just nodded.
I excused myself after I had finished eating and headed back to my room. I paused in front of Lila's room. I wanted to talk to her but I decided not
to. When I opened the door to my room, I was surprised to see her sitting on my bed. She looked at me and I stayed in my door way.
"You want to talk." I assumed. She only nodded. I walked slowly in, closing the door behind me and locking it. I was worried she would do something.
"So..." I started, taking a seat next to her.
"Have you had sex before?" She asked bluntly. I held my breath.
"Y-yes..." I whispered, though would it still be called sex even if you were forced?
"Did you?" I asked. She dropped her head but nodded slowly.
"I...i got pregnant." She whispered so low that I almost missed it.
"But... I did something terrible." She continued. I shut my eyes, thinking of what she did.
"I had an abortion..." She said. She broke into tears and I didn't know what to say or do. I just held her shaking hand.
"But... I-I'm not s-sad that I got it." She spoke again after a few minutes. I looked at her and she raised her head. She took in a deep breath and held it before letting it out.
"Then why our you sad?" I asked. She swallowed hard.
"Because I'm..relieved I had it. I'm happy that I didn't have to go through with it. And it makes me sad that I'm not sad about killing it..." She said.
My heart skipped a beat. Is it really possible to feel that way? Wouldn't they at least feel a bit of remorse?
"Does your mom know?" I questioned in a shaky voice. She shook her head.
"M-my friend's cousin works at the clinic. She's a doctor there and she helped me get rid of it...but you can't tell my mom! My mom w-will hate me! Please d-don't tell her!" She begged. I hesitated but nodded.
"I won't... the doctor...where did you go?" I asked though I was not sure why I asked. It was just empty words that came out without warning.
"Um, it-it's down town. I, um, have her number if you want to get-"
"No. I-I'm not pregnant. I just want to...investigate." I lied. She whipped away her tears and nodded. She stood up and reached into her pocket to take out her phone.
"Here's the number." She said handing me the phone. I went to my drawer and took grabbed my phone. I copied down the number and gave her back her phone.
"Are you..?" She asked. I shook my head, knowing what she was going to ask.
"If you need anything else...I'll be here." I said. She smiled, she looks better when she smiles, and walked out of my room. I took in a deep breath.
I have the number...but should I? I mean she doesn't feel sad or remorse. And maybe I won't either. Maybe all my thinking is wrong. Maybe I won't even feel bad. I'm just being paranoid, that's all.
I just need to take a walk, and forget about this.
I walked to my closet and took out a pair of shorts and a black plain t-shirt. I changed my clothes and searched for my sandals. A walk in the beach won't be bad, besides I need air.
I grabbed my clothes and headed downstairs where Karen was sitting on the couch and typing in her laptop.
"I'm going for a walk." I said. She smiled and nodded.
I stepped into the warm weather and felt the warm breeze hit my body. I searched for the hidden path I use to take down to the beach when I
was little. I stumbled down and reached the sand. The hot sand sank into my sandals as I took them off. I felt the sand between my toes and
began walking to the shore. I was surprised to find the shore empty. Most people were on the other side, swimming and laughing and having fun.
Only a few couples were walking around here.
I went to the edge of the ocean and let the water crash into my feet. I watched as it left shells on the sand before dragging them back into the
water. The water isn't as warm as I remember. It seems colder now, not even the warmth of the sun can do anything about it. I reached into my
back pocket and took out the phone.
That question still linger in my mind. I have doubts and fears but I have hope. I don't know what to do... raising a kid by myself. I have the money
but not the experience. I don't have any support. Karen would probably kick me out, she's protective of her child and she probably wouldn't want a
pregnant teen to influence Lila.
I opened my phone and went to my contact. I stared at the mocking number. This isn't a problem that I can mess up and just try again later. This is
a get it right or get it wrong and there's not turning back type of thing. If I do this... I won't have to go with the pain of child birth. A-and I can go
to my senior year in another high school. And I can go to college. I can become what I always wanted to be...and I won't have to deal with a crying
baby. I won't have to watch the baby grow up and have them question about where their dad is or who he was. My life would be less
complicated...right?
I looked at the ocean, it looks so peaceful. The sound of crashing waves and birds floating above. The sound of laughter from the other side. I
looked back at the phone number and dialed it. My hand was shaking as I put it to my ear.
"Woman's Special Clinic, sectary Daisy speaking. How may I help you?" The other voice said. I wanted to speak but words could not find there way out.
"Hello?" Daisy asked.
"S-sorry...h-how can I get an appointment?" I asked. My heart sped up with every second that went by, my legs were shaking and was it me or did the water get so much colder?
"Well, ma'am, you'll have to come down and take a number. When your number is called you go in and talk to a doctor where he or she will give
you a date, a time and any other information you want. Or you can just come in and take a look at our brochures before you decide." She explained.
"T-thanks." My voice came out weak. I hung out and before I even realized it, tears were coming down from my face. I don't want to...but I feel like
I have to. And I know that if Beck were here he would tell me what to do and to be strong but he's not here. I pushed him away. And now I'm lost
and scared. I don't know what to do anymore. Please, Beck...I need you.
I refused to listen to my thoughts. I'm not going to have this baby and that's it. Even if I have doubts. I am not going to listen to them. I've already
thought of the good things that would come out of not having a kid so, there. That should be good enough.
I walked back to the house and went straight into my rooms to grab my car keys. I rushed back out of the house and to my car, ignoring what ever
Karen said. I sat in my car for a while and went to Google Maps on my phone. Thank god for internet. We'd all be screwed if it didn't exist, honestly
I don't know how they use to live before internet came along. I searched for Woman's Special Clinic. It was only 15 minutes away.
I drove down there, passing all the stores that I use to go to. The bakery "Lil Annie's" use to be my favorite. Their chocolate cake tasted so good. I
was a regular customer. I even had my own table. They reserved it just for me. Ms. Anne (AKA Annie) owns the shop, her daddy named it after her
when she was little. When she was my age, she use to babysit me. My parents always going to fancy places, and Anne would always watch after
me. She was the best, we would stay up late, she would always sneak my a slice of cake from her daddy's shop and give it to me. One time we
stayed up all night watching movies. And when my parents came home, they didn't even care. They just said goodnight and went to bed. They
were always to tired to say something. I should stop by later, after I come back from the Clinic.
I went to the building and parked my car. I waited until there was no one in sight. I don't want to be seen, even though I don't know anyone.
I walked as fast as I could into the small building. I saw only 5 other woman sitting on the chairs. One of them was filling out a paper and the rest
were either texting or reading a magazine. But there was one that caught my attention. She had blond hair, wore an oversize sweater and
shades. She sat in the corner and her leg kept shaking.
"Can I help you?" A voice said that made me jump a little. I turned my head to the counter and nodded as I walked in.
"I-I'd like to make an appointment, please." I told her. She nodded and handed me a number, along with some paper.
"I need you to fill this out." She said and she eyed my carefully. I could feel my legs shake.
"If you're under 18 you need to have parent or guardian's permission." She said steadily. I nodded.
"I'm over 18." I whispered before taking the clipboard and sitting down next to the nervous blond.
"They lie, you know." She suddenly spoke. I looked at her.
"You don't have to be over 18. Hell, they don't even ask for your real age. They just want an age. So don't worry about it." The blond said. I
nodded. Her voice seemed anxious but not a hint of fear. It was like she just wanted to get rid of what was in her body.
"So how old are you, really?" She asked again as I began to fill out the paper work. I glanced up and then at the counter lady who was too busy
on the computer.
"17. You?" I replied. She nodded and looked around the room.
"19" She said, "Name's Jessie by the way."
"Jade. C-can I ask you something?" I asked as I put the clipboard aside.
"Sure. What's up?"
"D-does it hurt? I mean...how does it feel after wards?" I asked. She sighed. Just as she was about to talk, the sectary called for "Kelly". And then
a ginger walked into the hall. Only 4 left, including Jessie.
"It's different for everyone. For me, the first time I had it done was easy and quick. I didn't really feel anything after wards. It just went back to
being like I was before I found out I was knocked up." She explained. I nodded.
"Don't worry, you'll be fine." She said. As in cue, her name was called. She winked at me before getting up. I watched her disappear around the
corner. I got up and handed my paper in. She took it from me and I sat back down.
Time went by and I watched as the others walked in. I waited and waited to see Jessie walk out but she never did. I held my breath when they
called my name. I stood up and felt like just running out the door and never looking back. But I followed the lady through the narrow hallway. A
door opened and a doctor walked out. I glanced in to the room and saw Jessie lying on her back on a hospital table. My heart sped up and the lady
tugged my shirt. I began walking after her but I wanted to burst into Jessie's room to see if she was ok.
"Wait here, Doctor Mill will be with you in just a moment." The lady said before gently shoving me into the office. I sat on the chair and my leg
began to shake up and down. I looked around, trying to focus on anything. But it was all so dull. There was no paintings, just empty spaces of
walls. The desk was really neat, only my information sheet and a portfolio on the desk, along with a computer and a name plate. Not even a
picture. Nothing. It was like this office had no personality. The door behind me opened and I heard the doctor's foot pace come around me. The
doctor seems really young, maybe late 20's or early 30's. She smiled warmly at me and sat down.
"Hello, Jade. My name is Patricia Mill. So you want to set up an appointment, is that correct?" She asked, typing in her computer.
"Y-yes." I stuttered.
"Ok, so let's talk first. Any questions? Any concerns?" She asked looking straight at me. I wanted to ask so many things but I just couldn't put them into sentences. So I just shook my head instead.
"Oh, well, ok. This is a safe procedure, not too many complications. You won't feel a things, we'll put you to sleep so don't worry about that. As for
the aftermath, you may feel a bit sore. A bit discomfort but nothing too serious. Advil works great for the pain. The emotional part of this, is very
serious. We offer group therapy for any who needs to talk about this." She explained. I nodded in agreement.
"So, how far along are you?" Dr. Mill asked.
"I'm 2 months in." I replied softly. She nodded and smiled.
"Well that's good. Perfect timing. We usually don't do it anytime after 2 months. It could harm you. And the baby hasn't taken form yet." She spoke.
I flinched when she said that word. Baby...I can't hear that word.
"How much does it cost?" I asked. She gave out a small sigh before responding.
"Well, we charge $350 but if you are interested on getting therapy for this, it's only $20 more."
"No...I just want i-it g-gone." I stuttered. She nodded.
"So can I get an appointment anytime soon?" I asked. She looked surprised. Did I look like I was going to back out?
"If you really want to-"
"I do." I cut her off. She sighed but smiled.
"You'll have to pay the same day you get it done. Right before, ok?" She asked. I nodded in agreement.
'Then let's take a look, shall we?" She told me as she pulled up her schedule on the computer.
"I have an opening...Tuesday, which is two days from now. What time would be good for you?" She said.
"I- uh- it doesn't matter. Which ever one." I said. She took out a pink card and put on the date and time of my appointment.
"Here you go. And I will see you Tuesday at 8 a.m." She handed me the card. I gave her a weak smile and took the card. I shook her hand and
walked out of her office as fast as I could. My heart was pumping so loud I could hear the noise run through my ears.
I walked to the car and sat at in it for a moment. I stared at the card. Am I really going to do this? Ugh! Why can't I just drop it already? I just need
to get through two more days and I get rid of this problem. That's all it takes, I just need to hold on just a little longer.
I began to drive and as I had promised myself, I stopped at Lil Annie's bakery shop. When I stepped in the aroma of sweet chocolate treats and
fresh bread came to me. The shop was crowded with people looking around for what to buy. I walked to the counter, waiting in line for everyone
to pay. When it was my turn I saw the same face that took care of me.
"One slice of Chunky Chocolate Cake, please" I ordered. Her eyes met mine and a huge smile came upon her face.
"My, my! If it isn't Jade West! Oh darling, how have you been?" Ms. Anne asked.
"I'm good. Just coming back and visiting for a while." I replied.
"I heard about your mother...I am so sorry for your loss. That women was just so amazing. She was so kind and caring." She said. I tensed up a bit when she mentioned my mother.
I didn't want to talk about her. I know that if she was still here, she would have yelled at me for even considering having an abortion. But I rather not think of that.
"Wait over there and I'll have them give you your cake. And don't worry hun, this one is on the house." She said. I smiled at her and nodded. I
stepped away and let others get to the counter. I waited for a while before getting it. Ms. Anne waved good bye as I left happily with this delicious
cake. I was tempted to eat it but I saved it until I got back to the house.
By the time I got back home, the sunlight was fading and nightfall was about to take over. I walked inside and saw no one was there. I went
straight to my room, not wanting to talk to anyone. I shut the door and turned on the light. I went up to my tower and sat on the couch. I watched
the way the waves rose up before crashing down. The way the birds suddenly disappeared. And how the light diminished. I opened the cake box
and inhaled the chocolate sent. I could feel my stomach growing for it. I took a bite out of it and out of the corner of my eye I saw the first star out
tonight. I wondered if the whole make-a-wish-and-it-comes-true thing really works. Or if it was just a stupid thing that parents told their children to
get their hopes up and make them look forward to something. Thinking back, I don't remember ever trying that... I wonder...No, no,no! Jade, you
will not try some foolish trick.
I refused to wish on a star so I just enjoyed my cake.
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. Beck's POV
We traveled down the streets of California for what seemed years. Hour after hour we had to stop for some reason. We either had to get gas for
the car, or we got hungry or Cat needed to use the bathroom. Jade was right when she said Cat had the bladder of a squirrel.
My eyes wanted to drift off, I had been driving most of the time. Except now the wheel was given to Robbie. And I was afraid to fall asleep and
wake up in a hospital bed. But the more I resisted in falling asleep, the more tired I got. So I let my eyes close for a moment. But as soon as I did
that, I felt the car stop moving and Robbie pushed against the brakes hard, and I sat up quickly when I leaned forward. But the seat belt kept me
in place. I heard Tori squeak with Cat and Andre (who rode all the way on the back) fell out of his seat as he was lying down and sleeping.
"Hey! What happened?" Tori asked. We all turned our full attention to Robbie.
"Well...I don't know!" He replied. I frowned.
"What do you mean you don't know? You have to know! You're the one driving." Tori said. I leaned over to Robbie's seat and saw what was wrong.
"Did you not see you needed gas? You were suppose to stop and put in gas." I told him firmly.
"I know! And I was going to! There was a big sign that said "Gas station two miles ahead" he said quoting the sign.
"But we ran out before I even got to it." He whispered. I tried to hold back a remark. This is just wasting time, when we could be on the road and looking for Jade.
"ok well how far are we from the gas station?" Cat asked.
"Like maybe 10 minutes...with a car." He guessed.
"Ok. So why don't we just go there and bring some gas back to put in the car. That way it will work." Cat said implying a "duh" sound at the end.
"Cat...how do we get there?" Tori asked trying to get Cat to realize the problem.
"Take the car! Duh." Cat replied. I watched as Andre and Robbie shook their head. And Tori slapped her forehead. I bit my lip and said nothing.
"H-how are we suppose to do that if the car isn't working?" Tori said through annoyance.
"Oh...oh! Well we can just walk!" She cheered.
"That's true...and we can just put some gas in a soda bottle or something, bring it back here and fill it up." Tori added.
"Yeah, yeah. And once we get it working we can just go and fill it up more." Robbie said. We all agreed.
"Wait, hold on. Why don't me, Tori and Andre go to the store while Robbie and Cat stay guarding the car. You know, just in case anyone tries to take it." I said. We all agreed except Andre.
"Do you really think it's a good idea to leave Robbie and Cat alone...with a car...?" He asked. We exchanged look at them. Robbie was fighting with Rex about the car and Cat was twirling her hair and smiling.
"Ok so how about you stay and Tori, Cat and I will go." I said. Andre hesitated but nodded. I pulled Cat along and we began walking to the store. Andre said that it would take at least 15 to 20 minutes walking. So we had to hurry up.
"I'm so glad it's a nice day today!" Cat suddenly said.
"Yeah, it's not that bad." Tori agreed. We fell silent for a while. I had nothing to say really. Cat would say some things to start a conversation but it never worked.
A car honked at us and made us jump. It pulled over about 7 feet from us and I could see two large figures inside.
"Who are they?" Tori asked as we paused.
The windows were tinted and I could not make out a face.
"Don't know. Just stay close." I whispered as the doors of the car opened. We watched as a tall man stepped out of the car. He was big and had a lot of muscle. I stepped forward and put Tori and Cat behind me.
"Hey, where you kids heading?" He asked in a rough voice.
"To the gas station." I replied. He eyed Tori and made a move to get closer to her but she backed away.
"Can we help you?" I asked.
"No. Just wondering why three kids were walking on the streets. That's all..." He said glaring at me.
"Say you got any cell phones on you?" He asked. I shook my head and was going to reply but Cat pipped up.
"I have one! See! It's pink and has-" She didn't get to finish showing her phone because he snatched it and threw it onto the streets where a tuck had passed over it and crushed it. She gasped.
"Hey!" She exclaimed. He smirked and looked down at my shoes.
"Nice shoes...what size are you?" He asked. And it was then that I realized that he was going to steal from us. I didn't answer but instead grabbed Tori's and Cat's hand and began to walk away.
"Is he following us?" I whispered to them.
"No. He's just looking at us." Tori replied in a low voice as we continued to walk.
"Ok. If he starts walking, we run." I said to them.
"Beck...I think we should start running now." Tori told me. I glanced back and he was walking fast to us. I felt as Cat and Tori slipped out of my hold and began to run. I hesitated but caught up to them.
"Is...he...behind...us...?" Tori said while running. I glanced back and he had stopped running and just watched us run.
"No. But don't stop running. Look, we're almost there! I can see the sign to the gas station." I said as we ran.
We got to the store and tried catching our breaths. I ignored all the strange looks we received.
"You ok?" I asked Cat as she was practically hyperventilating. She only nodded and finally caught her breath.
"Let's just get the gas and go." Tori said. I nodded and bough a litter coke drink. We went outside and drank some of it but spilled the rest of it out.
"Let's fill it up." Cat said. I paid the lady and she eyed us as we filled up the bottle.
"God, I can't wait to get back." Tori said. I nodded as I carried the bottle. We began walking back but we paused when we saw that the car was still there. Except it was turned off and the two men were gone.
"What do we do now?" Cat asked.
"Don't know...call Andre." I told Tori. She nodded and took out her phone. I glanced at the time and it read 4:49 p.m.
She had him on speaker and we listened as it rang. He picked up on the 4th ring.
"Hey. Are you guys on your way back? Robbie here keeps annoying me with his puppet." Andre said. In the background you could hear Robbie yell "he's not a puppet."
"We might have a problem." I said.
"What kind of problem?"
"well...two men are like stalking us I guess. And we can't get past them. I see there car but no them. So..." My voice trailed off.
"Look just stay on the line with me and walk by. Keep the girls right next to you and walk as fast as you can." Andre advised.
"We're not defenseless you know! I took Karate when I was 8. And my dad's a cop so I know how to pin someone to the ground." Tori exclaimed.
"Sorry..." Was all Andre could think of. I did as he said and I had them walk side by side me. We approached the car and my heart beat got faster.
"Going somewhere?" I heard a voice from behind us. Then the phone was taken from my hand and thrown. We turned around and saw a man but
this was another man. It was not the same one as before. The pushed Tori and Cat behind me. I glared at him and suddenly I heard Cat's scream.
I turned around and looked at her as she was pressed against the first man's chest. He held her tight and wrapped his arm around her neck. She tried to fight him off but he was too strong. I held Tori's hand and held her tight.
"Let her go!" I shouted. But he only smirked. The second man pushed past me and stood by the first man. I wondered how no fucking cars could
see this! For god's sake, there were cars passing by every second! Why would none of them stop and help? This just shows how corrupt the world is.
"You don't give the orders. Now why don't you two empty out your pockets." He said. I glanced at Tori and then back at Cat. I had no choice but to do as I was told. I took out my wallet, which he snatched away, along with my Ipod and phone.
"That's it." I said.
"And what about you princess?" He referred to Tori.
"I have nothing else. You took my phone. And that's all I had." She stayed calm.
"Yeah right." The second man said as he stepped towards us. But I stepped in front of Tori.
"Don't touch her. And let my friend go!" I yelled. He shook his head and grabbed me by the shirt.
"No." He said as he threw me to the ground. I heard Tori shout my name. I tried to get up but he kicked me and knocked the breath out of me.
"Leave him alone!" I heard Tori cry. But I just felt the increasing pain on my stomach. After a few more kicks, it all stopped. I tried to get up but he picked me up by the shirt and held me to his face. Then I felt his fist connect to my face. And once again I fell to the ground.
Everything began to fade away as I felt warm liquid run down my face.
I woke up to someone calling my name. I tried sitting up but I was pushed back down.
"Beck?" I heard Andre's voice. I opened my eyes and saw my surroundings. I saw Andre and Robbie around me. I was lying on a soft bed.
"W-what happened?" I asked. But only moments after I remembered.
"Cat! Where is she?" I asked panicking.
"Don't worry. She's fine. They didn't hurt her. They just scared her and Tori. They mugged you guys and then left. Tori's with Cat in the other room. They're just relaxing." He said. I was able to sit up and felt sore and my face hurt.
"They didn't break anything. Just a bruise on your stomach and a messed up lip...and a black eye. But that's all." Robbie said.
"What time is it?" I asked looking around, what seemed to be a hotel room.
"It's 9. Andre knew something was wrong when he heard the phone go dead. So he went to go look for you guys. He was there in time to see the
two guys run off. Then he sent Cat and Tori back to me. We got the car working, picked you two up and found a hotel. We stopped at a store to
get some bandages." Robbie explained. I nodded and yawned. But it hurt to make any movement at all.
Even though this pain I'm feeling right now is bad, I wonder if it'll be much worse to Jade when she has the baby. I mean, I know that childbirth
hurts like crap, I just wish Jade didn't have to go through it. But it will bring us a baby. A baby that we will raise together. A baby that I will love
and protect. I was having doubts about being a father but I think I'll just have to deal with it. I am not giving up on Jade.
"Wait," I said after realizing something, "How long have we been in this hotel room?" I asked.
"We thought you needed rest and treating to. So after we got you and stopped at the store we came to the nearest hotel possible."
"But Jade! This is time we are wasting." I exclaimed.
"Beck, you're hurt right now. And right now it's best if you just rest for a while. We'll hit the road again tomorrow morning. And besides, we can get
there by Tuesday morning." Andre said but I shook my head. That's two days to wait! We could have been there by tomorrow night, Monday night!
And now because of this we're going to get there Tuesday. No, we need to go now.
"No. Get the girls, We're leaving. We need to find Jade." I told him.
"Beck! Stop. You need to rest." Robbie said. I ignored him.
"No! We need to go to the beach house and check. She might be there! We need to go now." I yelled. Andre looked a me concerned.
"Look, you're hurt and right now you need to take care of you." He replied in a calm voice.
"No!" I shouted.
"Beck, for god sakes, listen to your self!" Robbie suddenly exclaimed. I frowned at him.
"I know you love Jade. But you're hurt and you can barley move. Can you at least think about your self for once? I know we're on this trip to find
Jade but you have to take care of yourself too. You're in bed, barely moving without pain and all you care about it finding Jade. I know you're
worried about her and you love her with all your heart...but you need to think about how you are." Robbie concluded his speech.
"Yeah, Beck." Andre agreed.
"Robbie has a point. Look at you man, you are obsessing over finding her. It's a good thing you want to find her and we will but please...just stop and breathe for a moment." He said.
But how am I suppose to do that? I just want to be with her! Yes I am in pain but none of this is compared to what she's going through. She's
alone and pregnant. She needs me just as much as I need her. They just don't understand...
I stayed quiet and made an attempt to get up but Robbie pushed me down. There was a knock on the door and then Tori came in. I saw her smiled at me and wave. But it was a weak smile and a forced wave.
"How's Cat?" I heard Robbie ask.
"She's asleep. She was crying... she was so scared and it just got to me. Seeing her cry herself to sleep was just awful! She's so innocent, that shouldn't have happened to her. Now she has to go around with a big bruise on her face." Tori spoke to them.
"Bruise? You said Cat was ok." I said to Andre and Robbie.
"Oh...uh, um, She...they just hit her but she's fine. She's just scared." Tori quickly recovered, sparing a sorry look to Andre.
"Why don't we just go to sleep and talk about it tomorrow in the morning." Tori said as she left the room. Robbie and Andre exchanged looks.
"She has a point. Let's just get some sleep." He said. I laid back down and let my eyes close again.
I am fine...I'll be fine when I find Jade. And then we'll start our family. Then we'll be happy...
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AN- Soooo? Good, bad? Yes, no? Please leave a comment (:
Thanks!
I added the ending because I needed them to get delayed so Jade can get the appointment done. But will she do it? I don't know...I'm not that cruel...right? (: review please 3 oh and I MIGHT be able to post up another chapter next week b/c it's spring break :D but i'm not sure yet, I have to see if i'm going on a trip of something (: Happy...spring? (: