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AN- Last chapter up next?
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Jade's POV
"Oh, um... sure." Beck replied grabbing a near by shirt and tossing it over his head. I tried looking away but my eyes were glued onto his perfect body. I bit my lip and felt my hands begin to sweat.
"What's wrong?" He asked. I took in a deep breath and slowly let it out.
When I opened my mouth to speak, I couldn't find the words to say. Everything I came here for was completely out of my mind.
"Jade?" He called my name out. I looked down at the floor. Why aren't I as brave as I thought I was? Why am I so selfish? He needs to be happy and his happiness can't be with me. B-but I... I can't say good-bye to him. Not just yet.
"Is there something you want to say?" He asked quietly.
"Yes... but I can wait." I responded.
"Or you can tell me now. When you burst through the door it looked like what you wanted to say was important."
"It-it was nothing. I just wanted to tell you that... I have to go now." I told him too fast that I didn't even know what I said.
Before he could come out the door, I ran downstairs and headed towards the front door. I quickly grabbed my shoes and the car keys to my car before running away. I heard them begin to call my name but ignored them and got into my car. I drove away, I needed to get away. I drove as fast as I could go out of that area. I didn't know where I was going until I realized that Marley's Bar was only a couple blocks away. And his words came into my mind.
"Stop by anytime at Marley's Bar if you ever wanna talk." My legs were shaking and I could feel my hands get sticky from so much sweat. Axell. I need to talk to Axell. He has the answers to all my problems. He has the answers that will make me happy. I need to talk to him, and if possible I need to make a copy of him so I can take him with me.
I arrived at the bar and parked near the entrance. I hesitated to get out of the car. I was going into a bar, a bar has a lot of men. A lot of drunk men. Men that was disgusting. Men that are horny...and I'm a girl. Well maybe if I stay in the car until the bar closes, he'll come out. But what if he's not working? We leave tomorrow morning. I can't wait that long... could I? I need some luck, courage or a magical way to contact him without waiting or going in.
I decided to wait for him to come out instead. But half an hour later, I got too nervous to wait and decided to go in. My legs were shaking so hard I could barely walk in. People might have thought I was a drunk going back into a bar. As I walked through the door, I saw that it was too crowded for me to go in.
"Move!" A voice scared me from behind. I jumped and moved to the side. I searched around the place and tried locating the bar. Only when I found it, I couldn't see Axell. Is he not working tonight? I made my way through the edges as fast as I could until I reached the bar.
"What can-" The bartender began before looking at me fully.
"ID please?" He asked. I shook my head and opened my mouth to speak but words were once again stuck.
"Axell..." I whispered so lowly I didn't know if I said it or not.
"Excuse me?" He asked with a raised eyebrow.
"I-I need to see Axell. He works here." I said a bit louder. The bartender sighed and shook his head.
"Honey, Axell doesn't work here anymore." He replied.
"Well where does he work now?" I asked nervously. No, no, no! I need to see him before I leave. He needs to answer my questions, my concerns. He's my answer.
"Axell... Axell died...wait a minute. Is your name Jade by any chance?" He asked. I froze at the words that came out of his mouth. The bartender pulled my hand and led me around the counter. He took my through a door that said employ's only. Though I could not react to what was happening, I felt overwhelmed and panicked.
"...he died?" I repeated in a shaking voice.
"I'm sorry. It was a bar fight that killed him. He was shot at with a gun... he was in the hospital for a day but the second day, he lost. Their having his funeral on Wednesday. I have the address if you want to come. You are Jade, right?" He explained. I nodded and kept quiet.
"W-what about his wife and kid?" I asked very quietly. He frowned.
"Axell had no family. Well as far from I know, there was this women who he loved but she was married with someone else and she had a kid. Look, Axell was not stable, you know, in the head. He was wise, I'll give him that but he was never anything else." He said. I began to let tears fall and the guy handed me a tissue box. He sat me down on a chair and went over to a desk that was near by before scribbling something down on a piece of paper.
"Here. I think you should go to the funeral. For your good. I know he'll appreciate it." He handed me the paper.
"I have to go but you can stay here as long as you need to. Phones on my desk. Use it to call someone for you." He told me before leaving.
As soon as the door shut, I burst into painful sobs. He lied to me! He never... his wife and kid. They're not real! I've been listening to lies all this time. And now he's... he's not even here anymore. How could he- no! Axell was my last hope. Axell, he was my only chance to escape. But I can't even talk to him. How is this possible? How could he have had so much wisdom but none of it was true?
I sat there, sobbing and thinking, when the door opened.
"There's a Tori Vega here, she's asking for you. Should I bring her in?" The bartender asked. I wiped my tears away and nodded. Jade you need to stay calm. You need to- you need to be strong. I couldn't help but to cry again. It was too much for me. To learn he's dead, to learn his stories were fake, to realize that my comfort came from a man who wasn't even mentally stable.
"Jade!" I heard Tori's voice exclaim, followed by the door shutting.
"What the hell is the ma-" She paused, "Jade..." She said in a softer voice. She came to me and knelled down.
"I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry!" I apologized through tears and I hugged her. She held onto me and smoothed my back.
"What happened?" She whispered.
"You don't deserve this. You don't deserve being lied to." I told her. I've been hiding too many things from them that it has becoming too much. There is just too much guilt that I have. And I can't do it anymore. She needs to know. She needs to know that James is capable of hurting her. She needs to know that I am suppose to be gone forever.
"Jade, tell me." She whispered pulling away.
"I can't. I just can't." I told her.
"For god's sake! Stop it! Stop pushing me away and just tell me already! Have I still not earned your trust?" She yelled as she got up and paced the room. I stopped crying and focused on her.
"I-"
"There you go again. You're always with your "I can't" or "I don't" or some other pathetic excuse!" She screamed. I never thought I would be so afraid of Tori, her anger, everything she wanted to say was coming out. It made me realize that I'm not the only one who's hurting.
"It's just so many things." I began. She stopped pacing and slid onto the floor.
"So start now." She ordered. I nodded, my heart was racing too fast for me to count the beats.
"I ran away for a reason I'm not suppose to say. But I can't do it anymore. James made a threat to me. A threat I can't ignore because it doesn't just effect me. It effects you too." I explained.
"Me too?" She repeated.
"I-I didn't mean for it to get this far. I wanted to go to trial, I wanted to put James away but then I went and did something so stupid."
"Jade, say it. You're making me really nervous." She said.
"Jessica and I got into a fight. I was mad and upset. She followed me to the third floor. She began talking to me about the trial. She said somethings that really got to me. And she hit me. So I hit her back. And- and I wasn't careful! I-I didn't see where we were going. When... when I pushed her she fell back. She fell down the stairs. Tori, there was so much blood leaking. And James... he was coming up the stairs." I explained, trying hard not to start sobbing. I glanced at Tori. Her face was pale and her eyes were wide as she starred at the floor.
"He chased me. He put me up against the lockers and told me that I was dead. He told me that he would use this against me in trial. I was so scared. He- he took advantage of me again. He said that if I drop the charges and leave the state and never come back, then he wouldn't tell anyone. And he'd make sure she stayed quiet too. I told him I agreed. But then he said... I wasn't allowed to tell anyone. If I did, then he would come after you. He would rape and kill you in front of me. Tori, I'm so sorry." I finished.
Tears were going down her face, did she hate me? Was she disgusted by me. She got up and walked towards me. I deserve it, I deserve her slapping me. I when she pulled me out of the chair, I thought she might have hurt me. But instead she hugged me while she cried into my shoulder.
"Please...say something..." I whispered. I felt her shake her head no.
"I understand. I understand why now." She pulled away.
"That's why I can't go back. Please, Tori, don't tell anyone. I beg you."
"I won't. I swear. But what are you going to do now? You told Beck you were going." She spoke.
"That's why I came here. To see the guy that made me have hope, the guy that was my last hope. But... he's dead. Axell died and I never said goodbye." I cried. She held my in her arms again.
"It's ok... It's going to be ok." She reassured me.
"Tell me what to do. Please, tell me what to do." I pleaded. She sat me down on the chair and pulled another chair beside mine.
"You're going. I will make sure no one says something. I'll make something up. When we get there, you will stay in Beck's RV. No one will see you, I swear. You and Beck will come back. And no one but use six will know where you are. Everything will be ok." She explained.
"You had so much to hide, so much to be strong for. But you don't have to be so strong anymore. It's all going to end. I promise." She told me. I nodded as she handed me tissues.
When we stopped crying and got ourselves looking presentable, we walked out of the bar together. I slipped the funeral address into my pocket as we left.
"Tori?" I called her name.
"Yeah?" She answered as we gout out of the bar.
"How did you find me?" I asked.
" I might have, sort of, put a tracking device on your car. It has a GPS. I tracked it down. Look, I knew something was up with you and I knew you might run away again. So I installed it with the help of Andre and Robbie. I could see where you were going when you go here. So I grabbed the car keys and took the mini van. I must say though, Cat, Beck and Andre are probably all worried." She said as we walked to my car.
"And Robbie?" I asked.
"Oh, he was sleeping when we went to check on him. He probably doesn't know anything yet."
"He's always last to know." I said. She laughed and watched as I got into my car. She walked over to the other side of the street and got into her car. I left the parking lot and she followed right behind.
I told her the truth. Now all I need is to tell Beck, he can't come back. Then all will be settled. Tomorrow my journey begins.
When we got home, the lights were out. I glanced at my clock and saw it was almost two in the morning. I must have been in there for more time then I thought. I parked my car and walked into the house with Tori right behind me. I saw the TV was one and on the couch as a small figure sleeping with a bigger figure. Tori, unaware of the two sleeping people, turned on the light. We saw Cat's head laying on Andre's lap, both very asleep. When we shut the door, it made a slight noise that caused them to jump wide awake.
"Jade!" Cat tried to cheer but her voice was so tired. I waved at her as she sat up and Andre stretched.
"Hey. You look so tired. Why don't we get some sleep? We have a long day ahead of us." Tori said. No questions were allowed to be asked because Tori, on her mom mode, ordered all of use to bed. I scanned the house quickly for Beck until Andre told me he had been in his room all night. I nodded and went to bed with Cat and Tori.
"So Andre said we're leaving at 7 in the morning. He says that if we make no stops, in a hotel then we can get there late at night. Maybe 10 or 11." Tori said as we got dressed for bed and brushed dour teeth.
We said our good night's and we went to sleep. Tori said she wanted to play princess of one last time and slept in the tower. Cat took the bed and I took the couch.
Soon after laying down, Cat's soft snores were heard. I, however, could not sleep. It was about half an hour later that I heard quiet sobs coming from the tower. Tori was crying. I wanted to go up there but Cat's a light sleeper. The noise of the door will wake her. I cried silently, knowing that Tori's tears were my fault. She was probably scared to death of James now. Her expression back at the bar was unforgettable. She was terrified.
I don't know when I fell asleep but next thing I knew, Cat was telling me to get up and get ready. I groaned and forced myself to get up. The sun wasn't fully up yet, why should I be up? I put on some jeans and a loose shirt before brushing my hair and teeth. As I walked downstairs, everyone looked at me. Tori's cough got everyone to stop starring at me and get back to what they were doing.
"Hey. Sleep well?" Beck asked as I started helping getting things into the car. I looked at him.
"Tori told us what happened yesterday." He said. I froze.
"What did she say?"
"She said that you're friend died. You got a call and you wanted to tell me that you didn't want to come because of his death. And that's why you left. But that she convinced you to come with us to forget his death for a while." He explained. I let out a breath and nodded.
"Yeah... sorry. I- it was too much for me." I half told the truth.
"You should have told me. You scared me last night. I'm just glad you're coming." He smiled. He hugged me before letting go really fast.
"Sorry." He whispered. I smiled weakly and nodded.
"Alright people, are we ready to go?" Andre announced seeing as everyone was already outside. We all agreed to leave and let Beck drive first. I climbed into the front passenger's seat, Cat, Tori and Andre were in the middle and Robbie was all the way in the back.
"Is it me or do we have more things?" Robbie asked.
"Well Cat bought two other suitcase for her new clothes and Jade has a small bag for her things. So yeah, we have more things." Beck said. Cat giggled and opened her window.
"Let's hit the road!" Tori said.
It was about half two hours into driving when it finally got quiet. We were all too tired to say anything else. When I glanced back, Robbie, Cat and Tori were asleep. Andre was listening to his music with his eyes closed so he was getting ready to sleep as well.
"You wanna switch?" I asked Beck, who was lost in thought. He glanced at me and shook his head.
"I'm good. You should sleep." He said.
"Nah. I've slept too much already. I'm fine. But you look like you need a long beauty sleep."
"Ha. But I'm wide awake." He replied. I laughed softly and rolled my eyes.
"You can be so stubborn sometimes." I joked. It's been a while since I felt comfortable with him like this.
"Look who's talking."
"Yup, I'm talking."
"Smart ass."
"You know, technically, you're just calling me a smart donkey. Just saying." I said. He rolled his eyes and chuckled.
"Are we they're yet?" Cat's tired voice asked as she began waking up.
"No, go back to sleep." I replied. She shook her head.
"I'm not tired anymore. I feel like I've slept so much. But can we stop? I have to pee." She said.
"Cat, we're in the middle of a highway. I doubt they have any bathrooms here."
"Well... hurry up and drive faster!" She commanded.
"Someone's cranky." Andre's voice said beside her.
"She just woke up and has to pee." I explained. Tori was still asleep, her head rolling onto Andre's shoulder.
They would make a good couple, and I can tell she likes him. But I wonder why she never makes a move.
"Should I drive now?" I asked Beck again. He agreed and pulled over. When I switched seats with him, Cat had started falling asleep again.
"She's really tired."
"Yeah don't blame her. She kept waking up at night because she heard like a soft moaning noise in her room. So she came and woke me up every time she got scared... which was like every 20 minutes." Robbie answered in a tired and annoyed voice.
"She could have woken us up." I replied.
"She said you were sleeping and she was too scared to go up to Tori's tower." Rex said.
We stayed quiet after a while, Robbie fell back asleep too. But that moaning Cat kept hearing, it wasn't a ghost. It must have been Tori's sobs. God knows how long I spent listening to her cry. I felt guiltier every moment that went by. Her suffering, her fear, it all comes back to me. If I had kept my mouth shut, if I hadn't had said anything. Then we'd all be fine. Me and my stupid mouth that never thinks before speaking. Now, her fear will always be with her. I can just see her right now. Walking through the halls, afraid to find James. I wonder what she'll do when she sees him. Will she show him fear? She's a good actress but when no one can pull of that fear. The fear that at any moment, someone will break their promise and kill you.
I focused back on the road and noticed that everyone was quiet. Everyone had fallen asleep.
Around 11, Robbie and I had switched places. He had to wake tori up in order to get through. She of all, must have been so tired. If Cat kept waking up every 20 minutes because of her, then Tori must have not slept at all. I wonder how strong she could me, emotionally. Its funny to think that I use to hate her so much. I use to think she was after Beck but now, only a couple of months brought us together. The world is a very ironic place.
I closed my eyes for what I thought was seconds but turned out to be hours.
"Jade?"
"Shhh, don't wake her."
"She needs to eat too."
"I have to pee!"
"We can bring her back something."
"Ok, I'm going to the bathroom."
"Look she's waking up."
"I can see that, thanks to you!"
"What?"
"I'm walking away now!"
Voices woke me up. I groaned and sat up, letting my eyes adjust to the light.
"What?" I sneered. I was sleeping so peacefully. Why'd they wake me?
"See I told you she'd be cranky." Andre said.
"Sorry. Hey, Jade. We're at a restaurant. Beck and Robbie our getting our seats. And Cat just left to go pee." Tori was the other voice. I sighed and got out of the car. We walked into the restaurant together and I picked a seat in between Beck and Tori, Robbie, Andre and Cat, when she got back, were across from us.
"Who's driving next?" Robbie asked.
"I'll drive!" Cat volunteered as she sat down.
"Um, in second thought, I can keep driving." Robbie said.
"It's fine. I'll drive. I'm so tired of sleeping anyways." Tori said. Cat put on her sad face.
"Aw. Ok but I'm next." She said. Beck was about to say something when the waiter came. We ordered our food and began to talk when my phone began to vibrate.
"Who is it?" Tori whispered. I shrugged my shoulders, it said no caller I.D.
"Not sure. I'll let it go to voice mail. Maybe they'll leave a message or something." I answered. As if my phone was the most amazing thing they've ever seen, everyone stared. After calling me five more times, they finally left a message.
"Check." Robbie said. I put the phone to my ear and called my voice mail. I put in my password and listened to the machine.
"YOU know who this is. I just wanted to say congrats on leaving." I froze and quickly erased the message.
"Who was it?"
"Wrong number." I lied too quickly.
"I-it just... it was a very inappropriate message." I covered up. I felt like I couldn't breath anymore. It felt like I was falling down so fast. What could he possibly want? Why can't James just leave me alone?
"I have to pee." I said as I pushed Tori out of the booth and headed towards the bathroom. I locked the door behind me, it having been a uni-toilet room.
I knew this was a bad idea. He graduated this year, full scholarship and everything. How can the best things happen to someone so terrible? My life is falling apart and I didn't even do anything wrong in the beginning. I didn't do anything wrong. Even I don't believe that. I did everything wrong. I was a terrible person to Tori, who is my biggest helper now. I lied to Beck and went to a party with a guy I only just met. I always fought with Beck for my jealousy issues but when he got jealous, I got mad at him.
"Jade, food's here." Cat's sweet voice came from the other side of the bathroom. I unlocked the door and stepped out.
"You're crying. Why?" She asked placing her hand on my wet cheek.
"Oh, I just put water on my face to wake me up." I lied to her. She believed me, I sometimes thank the fact that she's gullible.
We sat back down and the food was there but suddenly I wasn't so hungry anymore. Suddenly I just wanted to sleep again. Because sleeping gets rid of everything.
I hardly ate anything and Beck kept getting me annoyed because he kept nagging me to eat. I know he meant well but I just wasn't hungry. My mouth said no, my stomach said yes.
After about an hour, Andre said it was time for us to get going again. Tori got the car while Beck paid. We all reminded Cat to go pee before we got in the car. I took the front seat with Tori.
"So who was it really calling you?" Tori asked. Andre, Robbie, Beck and Cat had not yet gotten into the car.
"I told you..."
"Jade." She said seriously.
"Relax, mom. I'm not lying to you." I said. Well maybe I am but it's nothing to worry you about.
"Are we ready?" Andre said as everyone climbed in.
"Let's just get this over with." I mumbled.
And it was off to the road again. I stayed awake this time and so did everyone else. Cat insisted on singing a song so Andre gave a beat while she and Robbie sang. Tori was laughing at the looks they got from passing cars while Beck recorded with his phone. I shook my head and looked out the window. We were crossing a bridge pretty soon and Beck took over seeing as no one wanted to drive over the bridge. Well except Cat but we were all scared she'd drive off the bridge. I never liked going over bridges like this. It always made me think that it would collapse with so much weight.
When we finally got off the bridge, a big sign that read "Welcome to California" was there. Cat cheered and soon everyone was happy. I gave a small smile. And when the car entered the state, I felt like I wanted to die. I remember going through this path, alone and scared. If this is how I feel entering the state, I wonder how I'll feeling entering Los Angeles.
It was dark out and lights began to turn on. Cat finally got a chance to drive and I moved all the way to the back with Robbie. Beck up front and Tori and Andre in the middle.
"Only a couple of hours and we'll be at my house!" Cat said happily. I reminded her we were going to Beck's house first. My heart was pounding so hard that I could hear it run through my ears. My hands were sweating and my entire body was shaking. I've never been so afraid in my life.
Time seems to be against me, especially with Cat driving. We finally entered the familiar place that I use to call home.
We pulled over in Beck house and got our things out. I decided that I could spend the night here in Beck's RV. Tori was staying over too so that I wouldn't have to be so alone. Besides, her parents expected her to be home by tomorrow. Robbie was taking Cat and Andre home. Tomorrow they would come back to say good-bye.
"I'll miss you so much! I wish you didn't have to go." Cat said with tears in her eyes.
"It won't be the same without you." She told me.
"Cat, I leave tomorrow. Save the good-bye for tomorrow." I told her. She nodded and then they left.
I almost started crying but held it in.
"Let's order pizza." Beck suggested. We agreed and we moved our things inside the RV.
"I call the bed!" I shouted as I threw myself on it. Tori fell on top of me and said she could sleep on top of me.
"I ordered the pizza. Should be here in half an hour." Beck said. We nodded and helped Beck begin to pack his things.
"I can't believe you're really moving." Tori said. Beck smiled and shrugged.
"I want to move. Being here is too depressing." He said. I looked away. How do I tell him he can't come? How do I tell him that before we even came here, I booked a plane ticket back to my new home? "Hey, a car pulled up on the other side of the house." Tori said looking out the window.
"Oh, must be my parents. I'll go tell them I'm back. Be right back." Beck said walking out the door.
"Tori, did you tell everyone not to tell anyone that they saw me?" I asked suddenly remembering.
"Yeah, they asked that you said you were with your aunt so that you won't get taken away." She explained. I sighed.
"Ok... that's better."
"Oh god!" Tori exclaimed, her face pale as a ghost.
"What is it?" I asked. I followed her gaze and out the window I saw three figures, one pointing a gun at the other.
"James..." I whispered. W-what is going on?
I ran out the door and over to them. And suddenly the gun was pointed at me and a knife pointed towards Beck.
"You little bitch! Did you not understand our agreement?" James yelled. My legs were shaking and I was breathing so hard. Is this really happening?
"H-how...?" I stuttered. He smirked.
"I always know. I was just passing by and I saw you standing there with all your little friends." He sneered.
"And do you want to know where I was coming from?" James asked. I let a few tears of fear fall.
"Leave her alone!" Beck shouted.
"I came from Jessica's funeral." Those words killed me. Suddenly I couldn't feel anything. I did kill her.
"She was in a coma, we finally pulled the plug yesterday. You should have seen her parents. Crying for their only daughter, that you killed." James explained.
"What are they talking about, Jade?" I heard Beck ask.
"Oh so you didn't tell them. Well lets tell him now." James said.
But just then, police sirens were heard approaching us.
"It's over James. You lose." Tori's voice said. Everyone froze at the sound of her voice. James glared at her with such hatred that I was afraid for her.
"I don't lose." He said. And in less then three seconds it all hit rock bottom.
A gunshot was heard. A scream was heard. And I felt no pain. I froze for a second, waiting for me to fall but when I didn't. I realize what had happened. I looked at Tori, her body was on the ground.
"Oh shit! James, what did you do?" Adam screamed. I focused back on James and he was about to pull the trigger when Beck tackled him to the ground. Adam was near tears and the police were getting closer.
"Leave him! We have to go." Adam shouted. He began running away towards the car and dropped the knife. James pushed Beck off him and got up before running after Adam. Adam was already out the driveway. James turned back and shot another fire. But this time, I felt the warm liquid going down my body.
This isn't ending like this. No... not yet.
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AN- Ok, so up next, final chapter?
Too much drama in one chapter... I don't know how I feel about that. Tell me what you think of this chapter, please? I really hope you all enjoyed it. Review... for my sanity (:
PS- sorry for my mistakes. i just quickly scanned.