She sat in the first row next to Edward and Jasper, her dress was red, her hair was up in a bun, she had a dark line of eyeliner, and white eyeshadow, finishing off with red lipgloss. She looked beautiful. Jasper held her left hand, as Edward held her right, in comfort as always. The Elders allowed just Edward and Jasper to the rez for Leah, she demanded at least one of them, saying she needed them, after twenty minutes of arguing with them, they decided to let them since Renesmee was going to come with Jacob.
She wasn't the same after what happened two years ago, on that horrible night. She went back to acting angry, but Edward said she cries every night. She moved in with the Cullen's a year ago, Leah, Edward, Jasper, Jake, and Nessie all came back just for this. They moved to some other rainy town, and Leah just had to go with them. She told me she couldn't bear it here, not with Sam and now me and I couldn't find it in me to object. I had no right.
The girl I imprinted on is named Amy; she's got light brown hair, green eyes, she's thin, a full smile, a loving person. But all in all, put her up next to Leah, and she's got nothing on her. Leah's more beautiful than Amy and more fantastic. I heard a slight growl from the crowd, and when I looked, Edward was glaring at me. As well as Jasper.
Jake was my best man; he knew I was thinking about her. He always knew. He gave me an apologetic smile.
Kim was the maid of honor; she's Amy's best friend. The bridesmaid's dresses were pink, and I couldn't help but think if it were Leah I was marrying there'd be no pink at all.
The music began to play, and down the aisle walked my bride-to-be. Her white dress was lovely, flowing behind her as she walked, her makeup was light, just clear lip gloss and slight eyeliner, her hair was down, perfectly straight. She smiled at me, her eyes lighting up with sheer happiness. There was a small whimper from Leah, causing Jasper to grip her tighter.
"Maybe we should go." He whispered in her ear, but I'm sure he knew I could hear him, judging by the way he glanced at me.
"No. I need to do this." She whispered firmly. He nodded slowly; she stared straight at me.
Throughout everything from where Leah was sitting, I could stare at her. So I did. Watching every pained wince, every purse of her lips, every time her lips came close to Jasper's ear, every helpless stare. I also watched as Edward glared, and all the pain on him and Jasper's faces while they watched their best friend torture herself.
I found it funny that it was them that she turned to in a moment of desperation. It was so unlike her, but I suppose that's what she needed. At least they cared, that was all I wanted for her.
"I do," Amy said with a bright, happy smile. I watched as Leah sucked in a breath, the pain in her eyes.
"I do," I said, Leah, closed her eyes, and placed her head on Jasper's shoulder. He brushed her hair away from her face as Edward glared at me as if I made her come here. But what she didn't know, what only Edward knew, was that with every thing I had, I imagined Leah instead of Amy. At the reception, Nessie and Jake sat together, as Leah, Edward, and Jasper sat at a table, far in the corner. Leah's head was placed on the table, while the three of them spoke. Gathering all the courage I could muster I walked to their table.
"Can we dance?" I asked softly. Edwards glare returned, Jasper just ignored me, she gave me a sad look before nodding. She takes my head, and we go outside. Her arms wrap around my neck; mine go around her waist. I remove my hands with a sigh and sit down on the grass, she soon follows, it's warm out.
"Look, we're here alone." She says softly. I nod.
"How are you doing?" I asked quietly; I knew they were watching us. They would always be.
"I'm fine, life with the Cullen's is better than I suspected. But," She pauses with a sigh. "Sometimes it's lonely. How are you?"
"I've been better. I'm just so lost sometimes." She scoffed, and all over again there was the Leah I loved.
"How's that possible? Life with the imprint, how much better can it get?" She said sarcastically, her hands on her hips.
"Could be better if I had you." She stopped, looking at me with a mix of sorrow and anger.
"Don't speak to me like that. You can't have me, and I can't have you." She said harshly. "Get over me; I got over you." I knew it was a lie, but it still hurt like hell. Suddenly Jasper was there.
"Just walk away." He says, and I can tell he pities me, but I don't care.
For the second time in my life, I had to walk away from Leah Clearwater. But not before I saw a tear drop from her beautiful eyes.
Regardless of the imprint, I couldn't let go of her. I knew that it wasn't supposed to be like that, but a piece of me would always belong to Leah. A huge part. I just wish she'd accept that.
Take my hand lets go,
Somewhere we can rest our souls,
We'll sit where it's warm,
You say look we're here alone.
I'm scattered through this life,
If this is life I'll say goodbye,
She's gone like an angel,
With wings let me burn tonight.