"Time to scream what can't be spoken
You better leave before something gets broken"

Cece watched as Gunther held Tinka's hand and Rocky approached them to speak her apologies, just like everybody else had done so far. The rehearsal hadn't had any dancing but instead a motivational speech from Gary and a public apology for bringing Jeremy onto the show in the first place.

Cece was yet to apologise... She just watched from a distance looking at Tinka. She looked distraught, and Cece couldn't blame her. Tinka was scared and it was obvious as she looked at the sombre outfits of both the brother and sister. Gunther wasn't leaving Tinka's side, and everybody on the show knew why.

Jealousy surged through Cece's body for an ounce of a second. She knew she shouldn't be jealous of the girl who stood across the room from her, but she could not help it. Tinka had the support from even those who she hated and hated her – she was protected from everything and she didn't even know it. Gunther had gotten there in time, after all.

It hurt. Everything inside Cece was hurting all of a sudden, and she tore her eyes from Tinka. Nobody knew how lucky Tinka had been – how close she really was to being truly petrified and scared. Nobody knew that Tinka hadn't really expereienced anything – not really. Nobody knew that Tinka owed her innocence to Cece – except for Gunther, and he hadn't told anybody.

She was being selfish, but a part of her wished that she hadn't warned Gunther just so she had somebody to talk to. She wanted Tinka to experience the same pain as her, so somebody could see just how badly she was drowning. She just needed somebody to know, and it was killing her inside.

Her mum was on the case. Her mum was against Jeremy on the case. She should have known. The beautiful irony of the situation was just to coincidental. She hated it. She hated her mum.

Her mum sighed deeply whilst clearing up the dishes.

"Is something wrong, mum?" Cece almost wanted to laugh at the words once they had left her mouth. It was such a funny thing to ask her perfectly fine mum what was wrong yet her mum hadn't reciprocated it once in months – when something was certainly wrong.

"I guess I'm just frustrated by the case. You know I am working with Tinka to try and get the scum-bag taken down, right?" Cece nodded. She knew. She despised the fact, almost as much as she despised the boy to whom her mother was referring. "Well, it turns out that he may get off. Obviously he'll be charged for use of drugs and the intent, but he didn't actually succeed so he won't get charged for rape. It sickens me that a guy like that will get away with it!"

Cece gulped. He would get away with it? He'd been getting away with it for months and months; her silence testified to that. "Will anything change that?"

"Only if we have somebody else to testify. If a victim of his was able to come forward, it would help cement the case..."

Her head spun as her mum said the words. If she were to testify... if she were to tell her mum about that night... if she were to say it...

It was stupid though. She had stayed silent for so many months, would her mum believe her? She'd have to, wouldn't she? She had been acting strangely since the party, everybody could see that... Once she told her mum, her mum would see how obvious it was. She'd realise everything and help Cece...

"Mum... I think I may be able to help..."

"What do you mean, Cece? I don't really have time for this?" Dragon mum was back, but Cece was going to take her last shot.

"Mum, I can help because... because... because Jeremy ra...rap-ed me too." The words were out with tears. They felt filthy in her mouth, like His hard breaths that night and his tongue and his wandering hands.

"Cece, please don't. I know what you are try-"

"No, mum! Really! It was at the party that I went to with Rocky... We were dancing and I thought he was really nice. Then we went to a changing room, and I started to fell funny before he suddenly started to undress me... I told him no! I didn't want to have sex with him mum, but I couldn't fight him... I was feeling really tired and I see now that he put something in my drink but-"

"Enough, Cece!" Her mum shouted loudly, stopping her mid-sentence. "I know you are trying to help but you lying about this won't help anybody! It will just worsen Tinka's case. I don't know why you would risk it anyway... you hate her."

Cece felt physically sick. Her mum thought she was lying; her words were just empty lies. The tears rolling down her face apparently did nothing to persuade otherwise.

"Is it her brother? Do you like her brother? Cece, that is sick! To lie about something just to get a boyfriend! Especially something that has really hurt the girl - she may never recover from this.

"Or is it to get back at me? I haven't been here enough and so you want to ruin my career? Imagine if people knew that my own daughter had been raped and I hadn't noticed! Do you hate me that much?" Her mum had come up with 'logical' reasons for Cece's 'lies'. It was enough for Cece to stand up, and walk away – hating herself more with every step towards giving up.

"Gunther..."

"Cece, I've been meaning to talk to you. Thank you! For warning me! Without you, Tinka would have... I don't want to say it, but thank you!"

"Gunther, I just called to say-"

"I just want you to know that I am sorry! I should never have blamed you for not liking me like that. I was just angry, it was irrational, I see that now. You really do care about me, and I'd really love for us to be friends again. I promise I won't try anything!"

"Look! I really appreciate that – I truly care for you Gunther-"

"So we'll go back to how we were?"

"We can't, Gunther... I'm sorry! Look, I just wanted to say goodbye... I love you, Gunther... Remember that and remember me?"

"What are you on-"

All was left was the hanging up beep.

"All my demons and all my angels
couldn't stick me back together again"

Song - Foolish Heart – Amy Studt