Hey everybody,
Here's a new chapter, from EPOV!!

Story song: Shadow of the day- linkin park.

I am dutch, sorry for the grammer mistakes.
I do not own twilight.
Have fun,

EPOV

I close both locks below the window.
I close both blinds and turn away.
Sometimes solutions aren't so simple.
Sometimes goodbye's the only way.

Go back, stay here, go back, stay here!

My mind was twisting every second of the day.

I wished that I could go back, I wished it so badly. There was no reason for living anymore, not without her. My whole existance was pointless. But on the other side, I couldn't go back, it was better like this, beter for her. I wasn't good for her, for Bella... I wish I was.

Everything I'd do, every stap I'd take, I would always see her face in my mind. In the short time we had together, she became part of me.

But she wouldn't miss me... maybe she'd already forgotten me.

That hurt.

I didn't blame Jasper for all this, though Jasper did. I knew it had been hard for him. Both of us didn't expect that to happen. It was my fault, I could have known that she would cut herself, it was so Bella! Something like this would have happened anyway.

It was thirteen days after I left Bella, after I left my sun, my reason for existing, my heart.

No, I couldn't go back. Not after all that happened.

I hadn't seen my family for eleven days. I didn't want them to see me like this, incomplete. But I wondered if I would ever be again.

I asked Alice to let go of Bella, too.

When I told her we were leaving, she didn't understand it at first, Bella did neither. They both thought Bella would joing. When I told Alice that Bella would stay here, she screamed at me. I never had such a worse fight with my favorite sister. She screamed that she wouldn't leave, that I lost my mind, for leaving Bella. That I would regret it, which I already did, though it was necesarry. She said she would hate me forever... But I did it, I left the love of my life, for her own safety.

Her words haunted me. 'You..don't..want me.'

Everytime I thought about our conversation in the forest, I broke into another piece.

Pink cards and flowers on your window,
Your friends all plead for you to stay.
Sometimes beginnings aren't so simple.
Sometimes goodbye's the only way.

Days past by, but I didn? count them anymore. I didn't care if I would live another thousand years.

I wasn? paying much attention, I was throwing little rocks into the lake. But out of nowhere Alice suddenly sat next to me. I stopped throwing, but didn't dare to look at her.

'Edward.' she said quiet. 'Please, don't be angry, but... I had another vision, about Bella.'

'Alice, I asked you to leave Bella alone, so don't watch her future, it's not our business anymore.' I lied, of course, whatever happened to Bella, I would always care.

'I know, but I see what I see, some visions I can't control. However, you have to see this.'

'No,' I snarled.

'Yes, you have to!' she said firmly. Please Edward, watch this, before it's too late. Please!

I looked at my sister, her eyes pleading, and I nodded.

I saw Bella. She was lying in the hospital!

I slipped out of Alice' head, asking: 'What's Bella doing in a hospital?'

'Just watch.'

Charlie sat next to her and they were talking. Then a doctor came in.

'Miss Swan?' he asked and Bella looked up. 'How are you feeling?' 'I'm fine.' she answered.

'We examined your tests, and...' he trailed off. He came closer to the bed, grabbing a chair and he sat down next to Bella. 'Bella, you're sick, very sick. We don't know what wrong with you, and I'm afraid that we can't help you. The illness you have is very uncommon.'

Bella stared at him, waiting for her verdict. The doctor went on.

'This sickness will take down your body. You're incurable sick.'

A tear fell down her cheek. 'So I will die...' she asked silently. The doctor nodded.

'But there must be something you can do!' Charlie protested. 'No, because we don't know what caused Bella's sickness, we can't treat it.'

'How long do I have?' Bella asked abrupt.

'Your body functions will lose strenght fast. We assess you have roughly one month left.' she swallowed. 'One month?' Charlie asked. The doctor nodded again. 'Bella, I'm sorry,' she he apologized. 'We did what we could.' Bella was crying now, she nodded. 'Thank you, for everything.'

No..no, Bella couldn't die, she just... couldn't!

I stared at Alice. 'No,' I managed to say. 'It's what I saw, Edward. It will happen, Bella is incurable sick.'

I shook my head. 'No!'

'We have to go back! Now we still can.' she pleaded.

I stood up. Yes, we had to go back. I couldn't let Bella die!

And the shadow of the day,
Will embrace the world in grey,
And the sun will set for you.

When Alice and I arrived in Forks, we immideatly went to the hospital. I just needed to see her!

'Edward, calm down.' Alice hissed at me. 'Act human, will you.'

I slowed down my steps. 'Excuse me,' Alice asked a docter, who passed us. 'We're looking for Isabella Swan. Do you know where we can find her.'

The docter searched through his papers. 'Miss Swan... Yes, thirth floor, room 21.' 'Thank you.' Alice said polite. He stared after us as we walked away.

I hurried to the thirht floor, anxious. I was afraid what Bella would look like, how bad was she hurt? I should have never left her! Even without me she would be in danger.

We arrived at room 21 and Alice walked in first. Bella's scent hit me as I walked after Alice. Bella lay in the last bed at the end of the room. Slowly we walked to her bed. She was asleep. Despite all the monitors which were fastened on her, she looked still beautiful, but so weak. Her heartbeat sounded in my ears, I missed it so much.

I sat down in the seat next to her bed, only looking at my Bella, if I could still call her like that.

'She's going to wake up soon.' Alice said. 'What are you going to say to her?'

I sighed. 'I don't know...' 'I'll leave you two alone..' Alice offered and I nodded thankfully. Take it easy, Edward! Alice thought. She's still very weak. Then she walked out of the room.

But what would I say to her? And what will she say when she sees me? Will she be angry, happy? I couldn't tell.

But of one thing I was sure, I coulnd't leave again. But would she accept me. After all, I'm the one who left, though it was for her own safety.

I would explain everything, why I'd left, that I did and still love her. But how?

Suddenly she moved, her face turned my way and she placed her hand only inces away from mine.

Carefully I touched her hand, stroking it lightly.

And then she started to wake up...

And the shadow of the day,
Will embrace the world in grey,
And the sun will set for you.

So another chapter finished!
Thank you all.. so much. This is my first real fanfiction! Thank you for the great reviews!
So now Bella's going to wake up, what will she say?
Ooh thrilling....