I know the title of this chapter is a little weird (at least I don't know what it means, but maybe it's an english term?) But it's the title of the story song.
I hope you enjoy this chapter.

story song: Tallulah- sonata arctica.

I do not own Twilight and I'm dutch.
Have fun,

Remember when we used to look how sun set far away
And how you said: "this is never over"
I believed your every word and I guess you did too

When I woke up, I felt so weak. My eyes fluttered open. I was in the hospital, but why? I couldn't remember.

I looked around, the room was empty, beside me... and a cute, sleeping werewolf. Jakes head rested on my bed. He looked so tired, I wondered why. Had he stayed here the whole night?

I could hear a quiet and continuous beep in the background. I tried to remember what happened, but nothing came into my head.

I lifted my hand, ready to caress Jakes hair, when I saw an IV stucking out of my hand. Ugh! I pulled my hand furter and placed my hand on his cheek, stroking it. But when I touched him, he moved. His eyes opened, looking around startled.

'Sorry, I didn't meant to wake you.' I apologized.

'Doesn't matter,' Jake mumbled, but then he looked up at me. 'Bella!' he screamed.

'Woah, Jake. Calm down.' I said. 'Sorry!' he mumbled. 'I'm just so happy that you're finally awake.' 'yeah, me too- wait, what? That I'm finally awake?'

'Bella, you've been out for days...' Jacob answered. 'Days?' I asked. 'What happened?'

'You remember Emily's party?' I nodded. 'Well, I'm not sure what happened but.. I was talking to you, suddenly you covered your ears and then you passed out. I caught you and I layed you down, trying to wake you up. But then you started to shake.' He said stunned.

I remembered the pain in my muscules.

'I'm so happy that you're awake!' 'So did they already found out what's wrong with me?' I asked. Jake shook his head. 'They did some tests, but there aren't any results yet. Sorry.' 'Is oke.' I sighed and then a nurse came in.

'Oh, it's good to see that you're awake. I'll get the doctor.' she said friendly and walked out again.

After a few minutes the doctor walked in.

'Ah, miss Swan. It's good that you're awake. How are you feeling?' 'I'm fine.' 'No headache, problems with your sight or hearing?' he asked, I shook my head. 'For the tests we did, there are no results yet, but we will inform you whenever we have them. Any questions?"

'No sir.' The doctor looked at Jacob. 'Yes, I do have a question, will Bella recover or is this permanent?' 'We're not sure, yet. But we will let you know.' The doctor walked out again.

'So, when do you think I can go home?' I asked. 'Oh, I have good feelings. And you can't even stay here.' He said smiling. I looked at him puzzled. 'Oh you know, you don't have a teethbrush.' 'Oh, yeah. I definetly can't stay. So get my things and we'll leave.' I joked 'If I wouldn't be arrested by your dad if I did, I would certainly do it. It's horrible to see you like this. All those needles'
'Oh thanks for reminding me!' And we laughed.

'Ouch...' I whispered. 'Are you alright?' Jacob asked anxious. 'Yeah, I'm fine. Only laughing hurts.' I securred him, but I could see he was still worried. 'Please, Jake. I'm fine. I'm a quick recoverer. Honestly.' 'Good,' he said, but he still didn't smile. 'Then smile.' I encouraged. And then he smiled, a beautiful smile!

We talked some more for a few hours, but then Jacob eyed the clock.

'Aw.. I have to go, Bella.' he said. 'Yeah, I probably should sleep, too.'

'I told you that I can come over, right?' I nodded. 'Yes, you told me.'

'If there's any new, you will tell me right?' 'Of course, Jake. Go.'

He kissed me on the forehead and left. I wanted to leave so badly!

After a few minutes I fell asleep.

You take my hand and pull me next to you,
so close to you.
I have a feeling you don't have the words.
I found one for you, kiss your cheek,
say bye, and walk away.
Don't look back cause I am crying.

He laughed. 'Don't worry about that now, Bella. You can argue with me when you wake up'
I think I smiled. 'Kay'
I could feel his lips at my ear.
'I love you,' he whispered.
'Me, too'
'I know,' he laughed quietly.
I turned my head slightly...searching. He knew what I was after. His lips touched mine gently.
'Thanks,' I sighed.
'Anytime'
I wasn't really there at all anymore. But I fought against the stupor weakly. There was just one more thing I wanted to tell him.
'Edward?' I struggled to pronounce his name clearly.
'Yes'
'I'm betting on Alice,' I mumbled.

When I woke up, somthing cold lay on my right hand. My thoughts went immideatly to Edward. No, I still had to be dreaming. But the cold didn't disappear. Slowly I opened my eyes, I gasped and shut my eyes again. I was definetly still dreaming! I reopened them, but still my angel was there and he didn't disappear.

'Bella?' he said quietly.

I swallowed.

'Are you oke?' he asked. I nodded, not able to speak. But I wasn't oke, how could I be? The love of my life just returned!

It was his cold hand resting on mine. It felt wrong and right at the same time.

Wrong ?ause: what was he doing here? He left me, right? He didn't love me! He'd said it would be the last time I'd see him. And yet he was here.

Right 'cause: I missed him so much! I wouldn't want anything rather than having him back.

When he said my name, pain shot through me. He would leave again. Once I'm healthy again, he'd leave again. If he'd do it, I would probably die.

'Bella, I...' he stuttered, probably not knowing what to say.

Then it was silent, it was an awkward silence. None of us said something. His eyes locked in mine and I couldn't look away. After a few minutes his eyes released mine.

'I'm so sorry, Bella. I shouldn't have left-' he begun after another silence. 'Why not? You don't love me, why should you stay?' I snapped angrily.

'Bella, I think you don't understand-' 'Oh, I understand perfectly well!' YOU DON'T LOVE ME! I wanted to shout, but unfortunetly, I didn't.

'No, you don't. I do love-' 'No, you don't! You left, and you made perfectly clear that you don't love me.' I spat, the anger in me grew.

'But I do love you.' he said, trying to stay calm.

'No, you don't! You fucking left me!' I yelled and I sat straight up.

'Bella...' he tried.

'I run after you! I screamed for you, but you didn't come back-' I coughed. He watched me anxious and said: 'Bella, are you oke?' He grabbed my shoulder, pushing me back into the pillows. 'Don't touch me.' But I kept coughing, and I couldn't stop anymore.

I grasped my troat, It hurt like hell.

From the corner of my eye, I saw Edward pushing the call button. 'Sent in a docter, quick.' he said anxious.

Only a few seconds later, a doctor rushed into my room. I was still coughing and then abruptly, I couldn't breathe anymore. The doctor putted a oxygen mask over my mouth, pulling me back and instructed my to inhale slowly. I did what he said. Suddenly I felt very dizzy and I closed my eyes. When I was calm again the doctor send Edward away, blaming him for my freaking out, which was exactly the case.

'Isabella? Can you hear me?' he asked, I nodded. 'It's better if you sleep now and let the oxygen mask on.' he said and I nodded once more.

He left after checking on the monitors.

After a few minutes a nurse came in. 'I'm giving you some pain medication, dear.' She injected the medicine into my tube. The drowzyness flowed through me immideatly and my eyes closed. I didn't even hear the nurse walking out of my room, I was already asleep.

You let my hand go,
and you fake a smile for me I have a feeling you don't know what to do I look deep in your eyes, hesitate a while.
Why are you crying'

Tallulah, It's easier to live alone than fear the time it's over Tallulah, find the words and talk to me, oh,
Tallulah, this could be... heaven

woooowww much drama!!! Be warned there's more drama ahead..
Edward's back!!! joehoe...

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next chapter's gonna be fun... and sad, ofcourse.

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