26. if only I could make you mine
I don't know why I ever could have done that. She used to be my number one, not just in the fan base, but also in my heart. They always say that the first step in love is denial. I guess I was just too dumb to see that. Now I walk through Sapporo (A city in Hokkaiddo region, nothern Japan) a week and a half after the 'wedding of the decade'. I went to it of course, but the security was so tight, I couldn't weasle my way into her wedding, or heart for that matter. The path in this town park is beautiful, and cherry blossoms are in full bloom, creating a beautiful and vast scenary. What catches my eyes, the girl that had won over my heart, the one I wanted but couldn't have, Mogami Kyoko. I, at first wanted to go see her, catch up on good times and on the new ones she had since we had talked last, nearly six years ago. I begin to call her name, but stop at the sight of her lips caught by another pair. Seeing that sends sharp pains through me, like a needle being shoved through my stomach. I think of what I could've had, and how badly that I want it. The words flow freely through my head.
'If only I could make you mine, I would never do what I did to you again. I am completelyand irrevocably in love with you, and that will never change.'
I leave them to theirself's and continue to walk the beaten path. Maybe one day, I can find someone else that can make me think
If only I could make you mine.