I balanced myself on the shoes, breathing slowly. I opened the door the rest of the way and grinned at his reaction. His mouth was open and he was staring at me hungrily, his naked body on the bed.

"Bella... oh my god."

"Oh my god" seemed to be a good description of what I was thinking about him too. I blushed and walked toward him, careful of my feet.

"Don't take any more steps, please just stand there for a moment."

"Um… okay?"

He got off the bed and walked to me, his eyes studying my body.

"You look so beautiful. I just want to look at you, to remember how you looked for our first time together."

"Alright."

His fingertips touched my arms, making goosebumps rise. His touch was light against my skin as he used his fingers to see me.

"So beautiful."

He put his hands under my armpits and lifted me. I wrapped my arms around his neck as he carried me to his bed, setting me on the edge gently. I felt myself blush as he got down on one knee his hands around my ankle.

"Where on earth did you find this?"

I blushed deeper.

"Alice um, helped me find it."

"Does she know?"

"I told her it was just in case. She was ecstatic."

"Oh."

"I'm sorry. I just… I wanted to be pretty for you…"

"No, no don't be sorry. You look beautiful, but you didn't have to do this. But I'm very very," he paused looking me over, then spoke softly again, "very happy you did."

He slowly removed my right shoe, rubbing my foot gently. I sighed and rolled my head back. I heard him chuckle as he released my right foot and moved to my left, slowly removing the shoe and rubbing the arch.

"Mmm that feels good."

I heard him laugh lightly and he moved to my ankles, rubbing them gently.

"I want you to be happy and relaxed Bella. I want today to be all about how much I love you."

"Can't it be about how much I love you, too?"

"Of course it can."

His hands caressed my calves and I sighed softly, laying back.

"I'm not sure if I like these stockings."

"Mm why's that?" I asked lazily.

"I can't feel your skin," he pouted, a hint of playfulness in his voice.

I heard myself laugh and I simply looked at him for a moment before laying my head back down.

"Then take them off."

I looked at him again and he seemed surprised. Good. I felt his slides slide up between my legs, stopping at mid-thigh. His hands were hot against the portion of bare skin and he leaned down, dragging his lips against it. I made a small noise and he dragged his teeth across it gently, making me cry out. He fingers went to the garter that held my stockings in place and he slowly unfastened it, sliding it down my leg. Then to the other garter, the same motion. There was a growing wetness between my legs and I sighed softly with happiness as his lips trailed over my skin, back up to my thighs. He gently put his teeth around the tops of the thigh-highs, pulling it down my leg. The feel of his teeth against my bare skin sent shivers up my spine.

"Ooooh…"

I heard him laugh and he came back up to my thighs, resting his chin between them.

"Oh what?"

I felt my cheeks turn a dark red and I turned my head.

"Just oh. I didn't know what that felt like."

I turned my head a little to the side and he was grinning impishly.

"Really? Allow me to open your mind to other new sensations."

" What are you-"

My words were cut short when his hands were suddenly fisted in my hair and his lips were on my neck. My lips parted with the desire to moan but he moved one hand from my hair to my mouth. He rubbed his forefinger along my bottom lip, biting gently at the base of my neck and at my earlobe.

"Mm no questions."

That was fine. I was putty in his hands, anything he asked of me now, I would do without question or hesitation. The hand in my hair moved down to the base of my neck, massaging it gently. I made quiet moans as I kissed his finger, my eyes closed.

"Mmm your smell, your taste. It's so delicious. You're so beautiful. I love you Bella."

He whispered hot words against my ear and I shivered violently with chills, a dim thought through my mind that I should speak too. I opened my mouth to speak, but no words came. I was only slightly aware that I barely had enough breath to moan. He put his lips against mine and spoke to me, his words hoarse, and a touch rough.

"Did you imagine it would be like this?"

I smiled. I had, in a way. When I was 13, I'd read a romance novel from years and years ago. The things in it had not only surprised me, but awakened new feelings as well. I'd been too embarrassed to ask Charlie about it and I'd only gotten the sex talk a year later when I'd started dating Edward. I was 16 now, and he was 18. I had imagined it would be close to this, but I had never believed it would be so powerful, and so dear to me.

"A little," I whispered.

I felt him smile against my lips and I giggled nervously.

"Tell me you love me Edward."

"I love you Bella."

"Promise you will always."

"Always and forever."

"I want you to marry me."

He was silent for a moment.

"Do you really want that?"

"I do."

He kissed my lips again softly and I wrapped my arms around him.

"Say you'll marry me."

"I will."

He nibbled gently on my lower lip and I sighed softly, arching my back. He kissed down my throat to my collarbone and came to the tops of my breasts, pushed up and perky thanks to the corset. He made a frusturated noise and pulled me up, sitting beside me.

"Get on my lap."

I obeyed quickly, very surprised at the feel of his hot cock between my legs. The thin panties left little to my imagination. I could barely manage to speak, only one word able to be heard.

"Oh."

He pulled at the fastenings that kept the corset on and I moved on his lap, my body moving forward and back. The feeling itself was enough to earn more than one very surprised gasps. I felt the corset loosen and he pulled it off me, leaving my breasts and stomach exposed, only my most intimate part barely covered still.

"Mm finally. Turn around."

I scooted forward in his lap a bit and twisted, careful not to let my legs hit him. I scooted back against him when I was full turned, my stomach against his.

"God I can feel how wet you are through your panties."

His voice was desperate, longing. His hips jerked up and I clutched with my nails at his shoulder, making a noise that was very much an encouragement to continue. I had never thought it would be so wonderful, and he hadn't even entered me yet. He moved his hips again and I moaned louder, my mouth finding its way to his throat. His moans vibrated against my lips and I gripped his shoulder harder, steadying myself.

"Lay down, oh god lay down."

I released him and rolled off, laying on my side on the bed, waiting.

"On your back."

He didn't wait for me to move myself, instead he cupped my intimacy with one hand and my hair with the other, jerking me to my back. The pain combined with the sudden pleasure made me cry out for him, begging for more.

"Edward… oh Edward don't stop."

His mouth went to my breasts, followed by one hand. His hand gripped one breast, rolling it and squeezing it. His mouth, oh god his mouth. He suckled my nipple to stiffness and I bit my lip, bucking my hips into the air. Suddenly, I felt his teeth around my nipple, still gentle, still so careful. Oh my god.

"Oh god Edward!"

He was panting softly and he kissed down my stomach, to my waist, to my hips. His hands reached to where his mouth was and he pulled down my panties in a fluid motion. I was suddenly cold he moved his face lower.

"Oh… oh my god."

His fingers teased my clit and I opened my legs wider, my hands reaching behind me to grip something, anything. They found the sheets. He slid one finger into me and I couldn't speak, I couldn't breathe, I couldn't even make noise. A thrust inside me, my groan. A flick against the wall inside me and I gasped. Another finger, more thrusts.

"Oh god Edward… oh my god."

My hips moved with the thrusts of his fingers and then he took them out suddenly, leaving me panting and expecting more.

"Mm, don't stop."

And then I felt something new. Oh something very wonderful and new. His tongue was inside me, flicking and pulsing.

"Oooh… ooh!"

He used his fingers to keep laying with my clit and I was sure I would fall into an abyss of pleasure.

"God Edward…"

His teeth grazed me and I cried out, a pleasantly surprised shriek.

"Oh!"

He slipped his tongue out slowly and put his hands on either side of my hips.

"On the bed, on the pillows."

And on the bed I went. He followed me just as quickly as I went, propping himself above me. Somehow between my being on his lap and him using his fingers and tongue he'd put on a condom. He was so big, so much bigger than me. The condom looked stretched, like at any moment it could just pop off. Would he break me? I was reminded of our almost day of love. So hot, so big, but I still wanted it.

"Edward, oh Edward."

"Say please."

"Oh Edward please, oh god please."

"Please what?"

"Please fuck me."

I opened my legs wide and he restrained himself, slipping slowly inside.

"I'm sorry Bella."

I opened my mouth to ask why when he pushed. Oh god it hurt. I tightened everywhere and I wimpered, hot tears on my cheeks.

"Bella, Bella don't tighten up, it makes it hurt worse."

I couldn't relax. It hurt so much.

He kissed me softly, licking my lips.

"I love you, I'm so so sorry."

I breathed, I concentrated on his kiss and I flexed the internal muscles. His body shuddered with pleasure and I flexed them again. It still hurt, a lot, but not nearly as much. He started to move again, slowly. I copied his rhythm, my moans crossed with soft wimpers. His hand went between us and he teased my clit as he kept pushing, my moans becoming louder.

"Bella…"

"Edward, oh god Edward…"

He pushed inside a little harder and I wimpered. He started to go back to being gentle, but I wanted to be strong for him. I wanted him to like it too.

"Don't stop doing that."

"I-" push "won't-" push "hurt-" push "you."

"It won't hurt me, Edward please."

And he listened to me. He pushed a little harder and it hurt. I gripped him and breathed softly, biting my lips to supress moans that could become wimpers. I felt his body tighten and I knew he was close. He squeezed one my breasts, hard and I cried out, nearly screaming.

"Edward!"

"Oh god Bella yell for me."

And I did. I screamed, thankful his parents soundproofed his room. Thank goodness he listened to music loud. I screamed again and suddenly my body was racked with incredible convulsions of intense pleasure.

"Oh my god!!"

I released and he did too, and then we were panting, our bodies heated and melded together.

"Oh Edward… oh my god," I whispered.

He didn't speak but only panted, trying to catch his breath.

I looked down at him and saw spots of red on the condom. Blood. Mine. I closed my legs and sat up, hugging my knees to my chest, suddenly cold. I could feel the dull throb of soreness later on and I hugged my knees tighter. Did I regret it? A little, but only because of the pain. I was glad I'd done it, now he had everything of me, and I him. A warm arm circled my waist and another went in front of my neck to my shoulder, hugging me to him.

"Bella I'm so sorry. I should've been more gentle."

"It's alright, I don't mind."

"You're hurt, I know it."

"A little, but I'll be okay."

He hugged me again and I put my knees down, turning and put my head against his shoulder, my body pressing to his.

"I love you."

"I love you too Bella, so so much."

"They'll be expecting us downstairs."

"No they won't," he said with a small smile.

"What did you tell them?"

He bit his lip with a grin before speaking.

"That you wanted to complain about Charlie without having to worry about your language."

"When did you tell them this?"

"Before I came to your house this morning."

"But Charlie's going to ask them about your party-"

"Which Alice is describing downstairs, that's supposed to be a surprise for tomorrow."

I smiled.

"You think of everything. How long did you tell them I'd be up here?"

"I said I didn't know how long it could take because you said you had a lot stored up."

"You make me sound so mean."

"Nah, they know how Charlie gets."

I smiled again. He pulled the comforter down and I snuggled under it, thankful for the warmth. He put his arms around me and held me against him. The warmth and my exertion of energy made me tired. I felt my eyelids droop and he kissed them, his voice soft.

"You can sleep. I'll wake you up when I think we need to go downstairs."

"Mmhmm."

He ran his fingers through my hair and rubbed my back and I drifted away, listening to his gentle hum.