Chapter 5
Camerons POV
"Cammie!" a voice, a whisper…
"Please don't do this to me" a prayer….
"When is she going to wake up?" a desperate girl.
"we don't know" a sad messenger….
"You can't leave me, not when I just got you back…not when things were about to get good" hope….
"I forgive you" forgiveness…
Beep…beep…beep…footsteps pasted as people rushed by, but I could hear no voices. My eyelids felt as if they would never open. As I tried to open my eyes, a blurry figure stood at the door way. As hard as I tried I couldn't focus.
As I built up the strength a small croak came out, almost nothing, "who are…you?" But before an answer could be heard, the figure disappeared leaving me to drown in the dark.
….
"I'm sorry miss but visiting hours are over" a soft voice called near me. As I listened closely I heard a sniffle come from my side.
"Just call as soon as anything…happens…I'm the only person she's got left" I listened as the girl shuffled her feet and then heard the door click, leaving me alone with nothing but the sound of beeping.
…2am…
My head was pounding as I heard the continuous beeping. As I lifted my eyelids I looked around myself to be met with darkness. The only thing that told me that my eye lids weren't closed was the small light that came in through the window from the hall.
Adjusting my eyes I realized I was in a hospital room. Panic rose with in me as I thought about how I got here. I propped myself up and looked down at my legs. I wiggled my toes, making sure my fear of being paralyzed weren't true
Sitting their staring at my legs, I saw a shadow move from the corner of my eye out in the hall. I looked up to see a nurse passing by. She looked younger than anyone I had ever seen in a hospital; it was as if she was my age. The nurse seemed to look around her before making her way to my room.
My breath caught in my throat as I watched her open the door. Something about the way she took the time to check the halls again make my stomach twist.
I felt the hair on the back of my neck stand up and my blood run cold as she took her first step into my room. Just as my mind ran to the worst conclusion the girl flicked on the light and turned her attention to me. Our eye's connected and she froze.
"Summer?" I croaked out realizing my throat was dry. Her eyes grew wide and she rushed towards me with tears spilling from them.
I sat there frozen as she rapped herself around me and sobbed. After a few seconds she pulled away and collected herself. Taking another look at me she laughed and whipped the tears from her face.
"I probably look hysterical" she laughed again. A small smile tugged at the corner of my mouth. We sat there for a few more seconds before I remembered how dry my throat was. I looked around and it was as if Summer read my mind.
"Oh! Your probably really thirsty" Summer jumped off the edge of the bed and ran to the corner of the room where the sink was. She took a paper cup on the edge of the counter and filled it with some water while taking small glances over in my direction.
Turning off the tap she walked towards me with her arms stretched out towards me. I sat up and took the cup from her. As I took a small sip my eyes never left her. Finishing the water in seconds I placed it on the bed side table. Awkward silence surrounded us as we just sat there until questions started forming in my head.
"What…" I coughed as my throat croaked again.
"What happened" I said again feeling my stomach twist as Summer avoided my gaze and looked down at her palms. Her hair moved in a way that hid her face. When she looked back at me, her tears had returned.
"Cammie," she pause to wipe her eyes, "do you remember agreeing to go to that beach party?" I squinted my eyes at her.
"Yeah," I tried to recap my memory a bit, "we had to go shopping because my clothes were still all in suite cases and then we went to your house where I forgot my sweater" I watched as she waited for me to go on. I bit my lip trying to remember.
"do you remember being at the party?" She urged on.
"I…I remember you talking about some guy and then when we got there…" as I remembered Jake's eye's connecting with mine and summer running off and…the terrible friend I was I widened my eyes.
"Summer I'm so…" She shook her head and a smile appeared on her lips.
"You were drunk and mad, he's not worth it anymore" She laughed and I moved to hug her.
I didn't notice until then that was crying. I laughed a bit at how stupid I acted, but as I looked at Summer I knew that wasn't the end of the story. Taking her in again, I remembered the nurse uniform. I tugged at her shirt.
"So, what's with the clothes?" When she didn't respond I looked up. My heart stopped because Summer was shaking as she tried to find her words.
"I'm wearing this because…visiting hours are over…because I'm not family…because," I could feel the colour from my face fade and I moved away from Summer.
"No." I said, denying what she was trying to tell me. She grabbed my hand and looked at me.
"Because I'm the only person you have left" Summer pleaded for me not to blame her.
"No." I said again, louder, but not even I could fool myself. Hot tear's ran down my face.
"Where's Clair…I…I want to see her." I stuttered denying what Summer was implying.
"Cammie…" Summer pleaded.
"NO! I want to see my parents" I cried.
"Cammie there gone" She sobbed but I refused to listen.
"No! they can't, they can't leave me!" My words came out rough as tears flooded my vision. Summer squeezed me as tight as she could not letting me go.
"they're not supposed to die" I sobbed into Summer but she never let go.
After I had calmed down, Summer got me some more water before a nurse came looking after hearing noise from down the hall. The nurse forced Summer to leave and insisted for me to go back to sleep.
When I woke up again, I opened my eyes to see Summer asleep in the chair next to me. Then the nurse from the other night walked in accompanied by a doctor.
"Good to see your awake" The male doctor said, making his way to my bed side.
"I hear this is not the first time you have been though" He smiled while writing down on his clipboard he held in his hands. I took the time to sit up on the bed and placing my left hand in my lap since it currently had a tub and some bandages on it. The doctor took out a small flash light from his pocket and looked at me.
"Where just going to ask you some questions and do a check up on you, okay?" I nodded as a nurse handed me a cup of water.
"Now, I'm just going to do some check-up" He then took the small flash light and shined it in my eyes. Taking a note he moved to my ears.
"Can you please open your mouth wide, saying awww" I did as he said.
"Good" He moved away and wrote something else down.
"Now, can you please state your full name?" He asked now looking at me.
"Cameron Anne Morgan" I responded automatically.
"Year it is?"
"2010"
"Month?"
"June"
"Day?"
"Umm….the last I knew, it was Friday the 26th"
"Good, it's the 29th" I sighed in relief, only 3 days.
"Miss. Morgan we have information that you have been already informed last night about your adoptive parents?" My muscles in my body tensed as I recalled last night. I looked over to were Summer was still fast asleep.
"You have heard correct" I closed my eyes noticing that my voice cracked on my last words.
"I'm very sorry for your loss" I looked up at him and just stared.
"Are you?" he cleared his throat in discomfort and checked his clipboard.
"Yes, yes I am" He looked at me sternly until I turned my focus ahead of me.
"Your Friends parents have been kind enough to offer you a place to stay" I looked at Summer and then to the doctor.
"Where?" I asked puzzled.
"There beach house"
New chapter….
Once the doctor left, the nurse gave me another glass of water and told me to get some more rest.
After the nurse was gone I turned my attention to Summer. She was still fast asleep in her chair. It looked really uncomfortable. She had her hair up in a bun, no make-up on and was dressed in a sweater and sweatpants. In other words she looked like crap. Taking in her appearance I noticed she had something wrapped in her arms.
My curiosity got the better of me as I leaned forwards towards the object. Each inch that I got closer I looked to make sure she hadn't awoken. Finally getting a better look I realized it was a hoody. I looked at it puzzled and grabbed it from her arms startling her awake.
Having it laid out on the bed I looked at it in surprise and then at Summer who looked like she would fall asleep any second.
"You reminded me last night and I thought it might be refreshing to see when you woke up" She said with closed eyes.
I laughed and looked down at the sweater.
"Thanks" I looked up to see that Summer was already asleep. I smiled and pulled the sweater on. I then snuggled back under my sheets and fell asleep.
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"We already have everything they could save at the house, so she doesn't even have to see...what happened" A woman whispered.
"Can I stay with her?...you know…to comfort her?" Another girl said.
"Honey I know she's your friend but I think she might want to be by herself…let it all sink in a bit." I finally recognized the people to be Summer and her mother. There was silence until Summer sighed.
"Your right, I just wanted to be there for her" She explained.
"I know and you'll only be a call away if she needs you" said her mom.
"I guess so" said Summer.
"I know so, now I'll meet you out in the car once you get her awake" After Summers mom said that there was a pause were I thought they might be hugging and then I heard the door open and closed.
I open my eyes and sat up. I looked over to see summer turning around to see me.
"Holly shit!" She jumped at the sight of me, "I thought you were asleep" She exclaimed. I smiled at her.
"I was sort of, maybe not" I moved the sheet away and got out of the bed. My legs felt so swore as I moved around.
Looking up, I saw summer staring at my legs and I looked down. I furrowed my eyebrows when I didn't see anything and looked back at my friend.
"What's wrong" Summers head snapped up to meet my gaze and her mouth opened as if she were about to say something but couldn't figure out how to say it.
"The-the doctors told us..." i looked back down at my legs. I didn't think they were this intriguing. Summer looked up at me in awe.
"Your legs..they should, I mean they were burned,"I raised an eyebrow at her. Clearly she's crazy.
"Maybe you heard wrong" I said easily and started to look around the room for my clothes. Spotting them on the chair next to the sink, I made my way to them. Taking a glance at Summer, I found her still starring at my legs. I sighed catching her attention.
"Look lets just forget about it, maybe they put me on some knew medication or something" As soon as the words left my mouth, I realized it wasn't only for Summer, but i was trying to convince myself. Summer seemed to be having an internal debate as she bit her lip before smiling.
"Yeah, I guess that makes sense" Her voice cracking a bit but i choose to ignore it.
Turning back to the clothes that sat on the chair, I searched for a bra and panties. I finally found them at the bottom of the pile. Slipping them on underneath my hospital gown, I grabbed the shorts and white tank top.
Pulling the shirt over my head I looked towards my bed for my moms sweater. Spotting it on the pillow, I quickly grabbed it and pulled it over my head.
"Okay, I think that's everything" I said turning to Summer.
"Oh wait! Shoes!" As she said it, I looked down at my feet. Looking down I jumped when a pair of flip-flops landed in front of me.
"Oops sorry" Summer rushed to apologize as if she had just whacked me up side the head.
"Summer," I laughed, "I;m not going to break like a fragile doll at the sound of slip-slops falling." I smiled as she blushed in embarrassment.
"Sorry...It's just I thought...I thought I was going to lose you these past few days and now...I would do anything to keep you, I don't wanna feel like that ever again." My smile disappeared as I was brought back to that night. My heart squeezed in thought and my jaw clenched.
"I know what you mean" My voice was quiet, but Summer heard me.
"Oh, Cammie, I didn't mean too..." I cut her off by shaking my head and forcing a weak smile upon my lips.
"don't worry about it, now come on your mom is probably wondering were we are" I started walking to the door and stopped to see if Summer was following. I turned to see her looking around the room before her eyes found me. She smiled and walked past me and into the hall way.
It took us a while to get outside, but when we did, Summer's mom was waiting for us out front in her black SUV. Seeing us, a look of relief washed acrossed her face.
"I was getting so worried waiting" Mrs. Jagger breathed out as we climbed into the car.
"What did you expected me to go, yank the poor girl out of the bed and dress her myself, there's only so much i can do mom" I rolled my eyes and sighed in Summers direction.
"Oh darling, I'm your mother, I can't help it if i care about you" I could see Summer roll her eyes from in the front seat and I smiled.
The drive was long and quiet so i was relieved once we pulled up a gravel drive way near the beach. Soon enough a beach house came into view and I quickly took it in.
"Where are we?" I asked with out realizing it.
"We're still in Crab Claw just on the east coast a little bit more" Summer replied as she jumped out of the passengers seat. I followed suit after her.
"I didn't know you had a beach house" I said still confused.
"That's because you never asked" I turned to see her starting her way to the front door. Just a few step's behind, I watched as Summer bent down and pulled out a key from under the door mat. I raised an eyebrow at how cliche it was.
"What, it's convient" She deffended.
"Also very predictable" I teased after her. Summer rolled her eye's and continued to open the door.
Pushing the wooden door aside, I stepped in and took in my surroundings. To the right i was met with a granted counter followed by the rest of the kitchen behind it. On the left was a black couch that sat in front of a coffee table and a T.V. I walked in a little further and turned my attention to the far end of the room were glass door's finally caught my eye.
"There's 5 bedrooms upstairs with a bathroom. The bathroom down here is beside the stair case" Summer told me as she took a seat on a chair in the kitchen.
"What about out there?" I questioned in the direction of the glass doors.
"Oh right! we have a swimming pool out on the deck and the stairs lead to the beach." I nodded and looked around for the stairs which ended up being just to my left. I started walking towards them before remembering Summer.
"Do you mind, you know, showing me my room?" I said as i pointed to the stairs. Summers eye's grew wide and she jumped off the chair.
"Sorry! I forgot" I rolled my eye's at her as she walked past me giving me a slap on the shoulder for doing so.
Reaching the top of the stairs we turned left, passing the bathroom and 2 other bedroom before stopping at an open door. Looking in, I found 3 boxs sitting on the bed and a bag. I furrowed my eyes at them and than turned my gaze towards Summer. She looked hesitant before she opened her mouth to speak.
"It's all the stuff we could save from the fire," she said slowly, "It's not a lot but me and my mom knew you would want something to remember them by" I stood frozen watching her sit down on the edge of the bed.
I shifted my weight in the door way before looking back at Summer.
"What about my clothes, I mean, do I have any?" I could hear the strain in my own voice but i tried to ignore it, Summer gave me a sad smile before nodding.
"There all in here, " She patted the beg next to her, "you packed all your stuff in the duffle bag and mostly the fire only reached the outside of the bag." I took a deep breath and nodded.
Than from behind me a hand grasped my shoulder making me jump away. Turning to see who it was, I was met with Mrs. Jaggers chocolate brown eyes.
"Summer, could you give me and Cammie a moment." Tearing my eye's away from Mrs. Jagger, I watched as Summer got up and made her way out of the room. When she reached the stairs, I turned my attention back to Mrs. Jagger who had already made her way into the room.
"Your parents always wanted what was best for you, you know that?" she asked more to herself than to me but i still nodded. After a long pause of silence, I told myself it was now or never.
"Mrs. Jagger," I paused to make sure i had her attention, "What's going to happen to me?" I watched as her face softened and a smile appeared.
"Call me Ruth honey," I nodded at her request, "your parents lawyer will be coming by sometime this week to sort out the money with you" I tried to think of who our lawyer was but drew a blank
"What about,"I looked down nervous to ask, "what about there funeral?" Ruth looked at me for a moment.
"I thought i would take that off your hands, you've already gone through so much, it's going to be in 2 days" My breath hitched as i heart the date. I closed my eyes and tried to gather myself. I nodded my head i understanding before opening my eyes.
"and there families?" I wondered out loud.
"I've already called them" Ruth said in a sad voice. I looked at the brown boxes and finally couldn't stand to look at them anymore. I walked out into the hall way and heard Summers mom follow me out.
I turned to watch her close the door and turned to me with her hand extended.
"Here, these's are the key's for the house and your room," I furrowed my eyes at the keys, "we rent out the spare rooms in the summer when were not up here" I nodded finally getting it.
"Should I be expecting anyone?" I asked to prepare myself. Ruth seemed to think for a moment before nodding her head.
"Yes, I'm not sure when they might be showing up, but a few young men have rented out the extra rooms, 2 of them come every year and another new comer."
"Okay" I said quietly not sure what else to say. I felt over whelmed with what was happening around me that i was barely grasping anything. Ruth was being so kind to me and I couldn't help but feel like a burden thrust upon her.
"Don't worry about them though,"I jerked my head up as she cut though my thoughts, "I've met the 2 brother and what gentlemen they are!" a sparkle twinkled in her eyes at the mention of the boys, making me a little nervous. I didn't know who they were, what if there some crazy psycho paths that rap girls and I'm like meat on a plate thats being handed to them. My eye's grew wide in the horror, oh no Cammie what have you gotten yourself into.
I took one last glance at the oak door to my room to make sure it does have a lock before descending down the stair, after Ruth.
Hitting the tile floor, I found Summer and her mom ready to go. Mrs. Jagger seemed to be searching through her purse before pulling out her wallet. I furrowed my eyebrows as I watched her count out her money and out strech her arm towards...me. My curiousity left once i realized she wanted to give it to me. I shook my head viggeracly and raised my hands in protest.
"Mrs. J..."
"non sense, you barely have any clothes and I don't want you running around here naked all day with boys around. Plus you need to eat young lady" She scolded me while she shoved the money into myhand. Opening the door, her and Summer walked out before turning to me for one last time.
"Oh! I left directions on the kitchen counter to down town, it's not that far a walk and you could also ask one of the boys, when they show up, to give you a drive" She smiled that warm smile she's been giving me for years as she continued on her way to the SUV. Going to shut the door, Summer suddenly sprung at me, hugging me for dear life.
"Summer...I-I-can't...breath!" I coakcked out and she quickly released me. I laughed when i saw her cheeks flush in embarrassment.
"Sorry, I'm just gonna miss you so much!" She pouted and I shook my head at Summers antics.
"what are you going to do with you" I said sarcasticly and i say the smile that tugged at the side of her lips as it always does when she sense my sarcastic voice.
"Keep me?" I laughed and pulled her in for one last hug.
"I'll call you okay?" I felt her nod in my shoulder.
"Oaky" She agreed. Letting her go, I watched her make her way to the car before closing the door behind her. As the door shut, I stood there for a second just staring at the mahogany wood door. Around me i could suddenly hear the deifying silence that seam to consume me.
Turning around to face the empty beach house, I shook my head and walked towards the glass doors needed to escape the empty room. The door slip easily aside as i stepped out to get a whiff of the ocean as it filled my nostrils. It was the sent of the oceans salty water rushing through my making my heart calm at how much it comforted me. Looking around the deck I took in the patio chairs and table with an umbrella attached to it.
The swimming pool lay in the middle with tanning chairs around it. Walking around the edge of the swimming pool, the beach finally came into view. Reaching the railing, I rested myself on the edge.
I would have stayed there, in that moment for was felt like a life time, if it weren't for my stomach's loud grumble that erupted from me. I sighed and made my way back into the beach house.
Making my way through the kitchen, I picked up the piece of paper that lay flat out. Scanning the directions Mrs. Jagger had wrote for me I read her scribbles at the bottom were she left the beach house phones number with a note that she would be by this weekend.
I folded the paper up and slipped it into my back pocket before put on and flip-flops and going out the door, locking it behind me. I cringed as i did so think back to that night. I stiffened as I thought back to me and Summer leaving and...I shook my head not wanted to go there yet.
Starting on my way, I looked around myself. Surely it couldn't be that far of a walk if Mrs. Jagger thought I could do it. Taking my time along the walk way, a warm breeze blew by and I stretched out my arms to take in the warmth. Shutting my eyes, I let everything go and titled my head back towards the warm raise of the sun.
Out of no where I felt a jolt shout through my arm as my eyes shot open before i met the contrite side walk. I groaned as I felt my knee's burn and look to my side to see a girl. I stared as i took in her brazilian skin that looked smooth to the touch, and she lay there with a pissed off expression.
"What the fuck was that!" Her caramel eyes seemed to cut right through me and a loud of guilt presented it's self. Just as it came, it left as I realized that she was screaming at me. Who the hell does she think she is?
"Fuck you this isn't just my fault" I spat at her. As we starred intensely at each other seething, the girl stops suddenly and cracks a smile.
"Say's the girl with her eyes closed and her arms spread out" I felt a smile pull at the corner of my mouth and I pushed myself up.
"Sure, blame it all on me and act all innocent, you should have payed attention to where you were going" I shot back.
"I still had my eyes open" She mocked me and I raised my eyebrow at her.
"Then why did you run into me?" I said smiling broadly, see all her fault. She rolled her eyes while she flew her arms up.
"You were bloody blocking the whole path way!" She exclaimed exasperated and i couldn't help but laugh. I put my hands up in serenader not being able to go a long with the shard much longer.
"Okay, Okay, I'm sorry" She smiled satisfied at her successful win in our banter before stick out her hand towards me. I looked at it warily before taking it.
"I'm Bex" She spoke to me release my hand.
"Cammie" She nodded and looked over my face as if trying to place me. After a few second she crossed her arms and just looked at me.
"I haven't seen you around here before" I nodded my head and looked down at me feet buying my sometime to think my way around this.
"It's just until I get things organized" I looked up to see her staring me still.
"We'll I should get going" She smiled, shinning her white teeth at me before placing her ear phones into her ears. I waved a goodbye and started towards, what i believed, the direction of town.
30 minutes later, a small plaza came into view with a super market. I entered the store and grabbed as much food as i could carry not wanted to over load myself for the walk home. Starting towards the cash, I place my food down in front of one of the registers.
"Hello darlin', How are you doin' this fine afternoon" I looked up shock at Jakes voice before finally smiling at him. I shock my head scolding myself for the fact of not recognizing his voice. I couldn't really blame myself, I mean me and Jake had only talked once or twice since I wasn't the most friendly person in school and well...I don't want to think about where I lost saw him.
"Hey Jake" I said softly. His goofy grin slip off his face at the sound of my voice and was replaced with a warm smile. I sighed as I looked at the sparkle leave his eyes as he took me in.
"Really, how you doing Cammie" His voice was kind and warm as he swiped my food long.
"I've been better" I half heartedly said. I watched as he shook his head at me disapproving at the fact that was avoiding the question. What can I say, I've gotten good at avoiding the point, I had years of practice.
"You can't fool me, now what's going on?" I looked into his eye's and the events from that night came flooding back to me and my smiled waved. Everything about Jake just ... reminded me.
"I really can't say, I just got out of the hospital" Jake's eyes grew wide at the mention of the hospital.
"Shit Cam, I thought...well I thought you only had to stay a night," I could see the worry in his face appear, "If I had known I would have came to visit."
"Jake, it was really nothing" I said shrugging it off, knowing in my heart that it was much more than that and it was tearing me apart. Jake looked at me for a second, considering whether to press the issue, but i was glad when he looked to the cash register.
"Well that comes to $46.52" Jake read off the cash register. I dug into my shorts and pulled out the roll of cash I was given. Giving Jake 3 twenties, I counted the rest of it. My mouth dropped open when I finally realized how much Mrs. Jagger gave me, 645.48. That meant she gave me 700. A wave of guilt washed over me as i stuffed the roll back into my pocket.
"Whoa there miss" My head snapped up at the sound of Jakes voice, "that's a lot of cash you got there" He pointed to my pocket and i glance down in my daze. My cheeks flushed at the fact he saw it.
"It's not really mine" I rushed to say. Jake shrugged as if it was nothing but in the back of my mind i was wondering why he bothered to point it out.
"Well than, the person that gave it to you had to know they weren't gonna get it back," I looked at him funny not exactly knowing where he was going with this conversation but i felt my stomach twist and knew i wasn't going to like it, "They gave it to a teenager for crying out loud" He explained with wide eyes as he gestured to me. My breath hitched in disbelief. How could he think I was just another kid? Jake, out of everyone should know, he was there, I'm not just a teenager anymore.
"Yeah, well I guess they knew I had reasons to start think a little more sensibly" I whirled around with my grocery's in hand, not able to look at him anymore. Was that how everyone viewed me still? Just another crazy teen, that the death of my parents wouldn't effect me?
I walked around a little bitter before I came across clothing stores and bought some sunglasses, cloths, running shoes, bathroom supplies and bathing suit due to the heat. I made sure not to spend to much still having Jake stuck in the back of my mind.
It took me a little longer to get back to the beach house since i had to lug the bags along with me. But by the time I made it back, the sun was setting and my stomach was crying that I was starving myself.
I quickly threw some eggs on a fryer over the stove and made myself some scrambled eggs. As i ate them, the sense of being alone crept up on me. I starred down at my empty plate, Clair could've made better, I thought. I slouched forward as i could feel the hot tears that edged it's way at the corner of my eye.
'I miss you' I silently thought as i let the tears drop down my flushed cheeks and blur my vision. Through my quiet sobs I got up and placed my dish in the sink and than made my way onto the couch.
As i curled up into the corner I closed my eye's and prayed to never forget there faces
So sorry it took me so long, i just have so many summatives to do at school :(
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