Even with a bird's eye view, I saw no sign of Logan. Closing my eyes, I let intuition guide my wings and landed in the parking lot of a bar. I folded my wings away, adjusted a hat on my head, and walked in. A bouncer stopped me as soon as I walked in the door.
I flashed my I.D. and said, "Don't worry, I'm not here to drink or pick up a date. I'm looking for someone." He grunted. "That's what they all say, sweetheart." He trundled off back to the door, and I spotted Logan. I pulled my hat down lower, and slipped onto a nearby stool, then ordered a whiskey.
"To family!" I toasted, and devoured half the bottle. Logan swung around to face me, and scowled. "What're you doing here? Your kind doesn't come to these places." "They do when there is reason," I said quietly. He scowled even more, paid for his drinks, and walked out, holding a bottle.
I caught his arm as he went by me. "Logan, please. Let me explain." He fixed one murderous eye on me, and swung a roundhouse punch to my head. I sprawled full length on the floor, and he yelled, "I have waited my WHOLE LIFE, to find you, and then you tell me THIS!"
I watched him, and then replied, "What would you have me do? It's not as though I had a choice. I have blamed myself for 17 years because of that. I know it was my fault! You don't remember, but for all those years we were together after that I cried myself to sleep every single night! Please, blame me!
"I know exactly how you feel, but your pain could never exceed mine. I remembered everything! Crying each time the anniversary came by! Wanting so badly to take his knives and end it all. And the one person, the only person who might have cared didn't even know what happened or where I was, and would hate me if they knew the truth. I tried to be strong for you until you left, but I know I deserve nothing from you!"
He threw the bottle aside, and stormed out the door. Someone helped me to my feet, and the bartender said, "Listen honey, you don't have to go back to him. Your man ain't worth it. There's a place you can bed down here." I shook my head.
"He's not my man, but he's all I have."