Better late then never?

Im SO sorry it took forever to update! But as some of you may know, my laptop broke, and i lost EVERYTHING! Including that video. Im mad, yah...and i still need to find the right programming before i can start it up again...

Also, i was sick. I missed like...3 days of school. So im skipping my homework for you guys. I also managed a Valentines day one-shot. Called "Direct love" i was soooo inspired cuz it happend to me! Yeah, so if yah wanna know what happend on my Valentines day, read that! (okay, so its Eclared up a bit, but the main idea is there!)

Anyways, DEGRASSI IS BACK BABY! CHEYAA! And Fitz comes back...in...uh..10 days i think? Yeah, the Episode "Jesus". Im so excited! Woo! Speakign of Fitz, theres a little something something of him in this...youll see :D READ AND REVIEW FELLOW DEGRASSIANS!

Im off to watch Glee now, peace :D

Beta Reader : Zephyr Hearts.

Eli POV

An inaudible sound escaped my lips, I couldn't help it. Staring at the monster I once thought was a half-descent soul, but instead was staring at a heartless spirit.

I never thought such a true fact, one that was so true it scared me.

Okay, that was a half lie…I did. And that was Clare.

Clare.

I never felt this way about anyone before, not even Julia. The fact I felt this way scared me even more.

A snarl escaped.

My fists were clenched tightly and my breathing was ridged. I didn't want to inspect Clare's lifeless body; I didn't want to turn her around and be forced to see her beautiful blue eyes shut. I couldn't handle seeing her bleed, seeing her so lifeless. I didn't want to see how much damage had been done.

Yet, there she was, lying next to a broken glass coffee table.

The monster stumbled backwards and his back hit the wall, keeping his eyes set on Clare.

Did he not realize how bad he's hurting her? How can anyone hurt such a heartwarming soul?

I never wanted to admit it, but Clare made me want to do more good things in life. Maybe it was the way her eyes shined brightly every time someone looks into them? Maybe it was how she didn't care how bad her life was, but she still but a smile on her face for everyone else? Maybe it was her smile?

Could he not see that I was physically going to kill him if he hurt her?

Okay, maybe not. I wanted to, oh I so wanted to. Unfortunately, no, I can't kill him. No matter how bad I wanted to, I cant. It would only make me go to jail, and if I do that then I can't ever see Clare, protect her from all the danger in the world, all the danger that Fitz had provided. I couldn't let him win. If I hurt him, it will just be what he wanted. He'll somehow break free again, and corrupt her innocence.

But, I wanted to do that, later, of course.

Well, hello inappropriate thought at life threatening moment.

I wanted to smack myself.

"What. The. Hell. Did. You. DO?"

I didn't recognize that voice, but it didn't take long for me to realize that it was my own.

Calm, Eli. Keep, Calm, Please?

Instantly, I unclenched his fists, and focused on the angle like voice in his head.

What? I thought.

Eli, keep calm. Everything will be fine. Just keep calm.

Clare?

It was gone, though. Everything was gone with her, she took my fears away. I know it was her, Julia's voice was different than this, and I recognized Clare instantaneously.

Oh, no.

I could hear her….that only meant….

"Fitz! What did you do?" I sobbed me fears returning.

"I…I don't…I just…" He stuttered, staring down at her looking thoughtful.

I dropped to my knees, and picked her hand up, searching for a pulse.

Vaguely, I felt one…faintly beating.

"Does she have a pulse?" I heard a whisper.

I turned my head, becoming face to face with the immorality himself.

"Like you care." I said softly, turning my head back to Clare.

"I do care… I don't...I don't even know what I did, though."

"No know what you did?" I snapped, venomously, turning back towards him. "How could you not know? You were there! You did this to her! With your own hands!"

Fitz stood up slowly…and stood there. I looked up, noticing he moved, and saw his hands covering his face. I stood up next to him, and my rage died down…but I know I was going to lose it soon.

"Leave." I stated, bitterly. "I don't care where you go! Just leave! Don't ever come back!"

Fitz removed his hands, and looked at me expectantly, and I noticed a single tear fall down on each of his cheeks.

"I'm going to turn myself in…you don't have to worry about me. I won't be back, not after what I did to her."

"Good." I stated, bending back down to pick Clare up.

"We need to get her to the hospital, though."

My head snapped up, and I locked eyes with him, and smirked when I noticed we said it at the same time.

He bent down, and looked at Clare. "I'll turn myself in, but I want to make sure she's safe first"

I don't know why I did, but I nodded.

Dammit Clare. See! You've changed me!

"You will pay." I said as we picked her up, and stepped out of the room.

"I'm aware."

"No, obviously you don't. Clare means everything to me. I don't know why you do what you do, but its sick man; hurting such a sweet girl. She's special, and you used it against her."

We placed her in the back of Morty, and I walked to the driver's side and slid in, as he slid in the passengers.

"I know… I know. I blew it. I messed up"

"Messed up? Fitz, you did more than that. You not only messed up her mentally and physically, but emotionally too! You weren't there when her parents were fighting, I was! You were too busy hanging out with friends. I was though. I was with her, protecting her. Seriously, what the hell is wrong with you?"

I didn't even notice I was shaking, clutching the steering wheel turning my knuckles white. I didn't even notice a tear escaped, sliding down my cheek.

"I don't know…I really don't."

What if she doesn't make it? Why did I hear her? Why can't I see her? Why does all of this happen to me?

A red light appeared, and I stopped the hearse. I turned back to Clare and could see her breathing softly, her cheesy slowly heaving up and down.

*Flashback*

"Eli! E-Eli Stop!" Clare giggled uncontrollably, as I tackle her on her bed. Piles of unfinished science homework surrounded us, and we barley acknowledged that it was there anymore.

"Say it!" I smiled, gripping her sides tighter.

"No!"

Stubborn girl, doesn't she realize I always win?

"Say it!"

"Never!"

"You like my smirk! Say it!"

"Nope."

I stopped suddenly, and feigned hurt. I got up off of her and glanced around, 'pouting', and sitting next to her.

"Eli, you can't make me say it." She smiled.

"Nah, I get it. You don't like it…" I couldn't help myself, so I turned away from her, and smirked to myself, knowing she felt guilty.

"What? No! That's not what I meant!" she pleaded, sitting up.

"Yeah, it is. It's okay though."

I turned to her, and her sad expression disappeared when she saw my smirk.

"What? - you're such an ass!" She yelled, smacking me in the arm playfully.

I gasped and dramatically covered my mouth. "Ouch! Language, Edwards!"

She pouted and crossed her arms, but I saw the smile threatening to come of her lips, and I did the only thing sensible at the moment: I tickled her again.

*End Flashback*

I gripped the steering wheel tighter, remembering back when Fitz was nice, and Clare was her playful self. Or in other words, the good times.

"Why?" I whispered.

"What?" he questioned, turning to look at me.

"You let her be my friend; you let her hang out while you went with your friends. Why did you do this?" I glanced at him, in all seriousness. I noticed his eyes were back to normal, the same ones that I saw that week Clare were happy. "Are you bi-polar or something?"

He glanced downward, and bit his lip. "I told you, Eli, I have absolutely no idea. I have no idea why I'm doing it, that's why I'm turning myself in, so I can't hurt her anymore."

I remained silent, wanting to punch him repeatedly again. Over and Over again.

*Flashback*

"Eli! C'mon please? I want you to listen to this song!" Clare smiled proudly, pulling me up the stairs.

"Ugh, why?" I whined.

"Because, I think you'll like it!" She smiled.

I sighed dramatically.

I like being difficult, okay?

"Fine, what is it again?"

"Over and over again by Tim McGraw!" She beamed, pulling me in the bedroom and immediately ran to her laptop.

"Tim McGraw? You mean that Country singer? No way I'm listening to that!"

"Eli! Pleeeaseee? Nelly is in it too!" She whined. "Its 5 minutes taken from your oh-so-fabulous life. It won't cost you that much."

"Exactly! 5 minutes! Are you sure your worthy of that much?" I smirked.

"Eli, you've come over here almost every day this week, for like…3 hours! I'm sure 5 minutes will be just fine to live without." She pointed out, smirking.

Oh, I wonder who she learned that from.

I sighed, defeated. "Alright, fine."

*End Flashback*

I snapped out of my thoughts when I heard honking cars behind me, and slammed my foot on the gas pedal when I noticed the light was green.

I actually did like that song…

"I do love her, you know." I heard him whisper.

"Oh really? Well, you have a finny way of showing it."

Clare POV

Ilet one single tear fall from my eyes when she disappeared. Why did she want to ruin my life? Why did she need to get into my business? I mean, she was Elis ex….it had nothing to do with me.

Or did it?
Was she jealous? Or did she just like making people's lives hell? Whoops – I mean heck…sorry, Lord.

Eli, you've certainly changed me.

Eli….

I sniffed when I remembered his smirk, that I adore so much. I'll never admit it though.

I remember his face, his eyes, mouth…taste…personality.

Why did things always happen to me? Why am I coursed?

I stiffened when I remember Fitz. His Face…the face that I knew I loved…but apparently he didn't love me. This though, this Fitz…I don't love. I love the kind, sweet, do-anything-for-anybody Fitz, the one who would do anything to keep me safe.

Now, he'll do anything to do the exact opposite: to hurt me.

Eli though, I can feel he's different. He will go through anything…to help me.

That's where I'm stuck.

Fitz did the same thing, but with KC.

Fitz defended my honor in front of KC, and the whole school. He admitted he liked me, in front of the whole school. He punched KC, because he was talking smack about me. He swore he would never hurt me, yet, he did anyway.

How can I be sure Eli won't do the same?

I don't think he is though, I mean, with the whole Julia thing, he must be in pieces. How could he deal with that? Will he really beat me after something like that happened?

I can't be sure though. I've only known the guy for 2 and half weeks! Yet, I feel I've known him longer.

I know his deepest secret, and he knows mine. He was there for me when I needed him, and, he's my best friend.

He even beats Alli. Not by a lot, though. Alli will always my best friend But, Eli beat her in speed dial. He was always the first id call if I needed someone to lean on. I always went to him first.

I have no idea why.

I pulled my knees to my chest and looked around the mysterious dark place, and finally placed my head in my knees, and just cried.

I cried for my parents, for Eli, Fitz (and whatever his problem was) Alli, Adam, everything. I let everything go.

I sobbed uncontrollably, pulling my knees closed to me so I could have something to hold on to.

Then, I felt something in my heart. It was breaking, and I felt the need to be with Eli.

Eli…

I blinked back my tears, and let my eyes adjust to the dark again.

What is he doing right now? What about Fitz? Does he see me? What is he going to do if he finds me? Am I dead?

"What. The. Hell. Did. You. DO?" I heard someone growl.

Wait… Eli.

I felt him. He was with Fitz, staring at….me?

Yeah, that's it.

"Calm, Eli. Keep, Calm, Please?" I heard myself say.

"What?" Wait…he heard me?

"Eli, keep calm. Everything will be fine. Just keep calm." I told him, but was suddenly pulled away. I couldn't feel him anymore, and I longed to feel that feeling again.

Fitz….how was he really involved in this? I glanced at my arm, seeing the huge gash.

*Flashback*

"Fitz…I'm sorry. I didn't mean to slap you…I just-"

Fitz tightened his grip on me, making me shut up immediately. He then threw me to the ground. What was this monster planning? Why must I go through this?

"Ahh!' I squeaked, holding my side.

He kicked it, again, and I screamed holding my side. He then picked me up again, and tried to through me down again, but I held onto him.

"Fitz –please..." I begged

"Oh no…you deserve it, remember?" It wasn't him talking.

I cried, and he pried me away, before smashing me onto the table, creating the long gash on my left arm.

*End Flashback*

I needed to find Julia, I needed to. Why was she still here? Why is she haunting Eli?

I needed to find out her reasoning, and I intend to.

I scrambled up, and walked down the endless hallway of darkness.

"Okay, so," I said to myself. "I could talk to Eli, and all I did was wonder where he was"

Where is Julia? What's she doing? Is she planning anything new?

I opened my eyes, and still was in pitch black.

I groaned.

Finding her may be a little harder than I thought.

Was that cliffhangery? Eh, im trying not to do that...anyways...Review?