Author Note: Wow my reviews have reduced to not a lot. I don't mind by that I just need to know someone is reading this story. A big thanks to That-Girl-Han for her review and Dianehermans for the review too. Much love to you all
Welcome to 2012 and I hope this year brings everyone happiness.
I can't do it and I won't
Next week was the week of college talk, where different colleges come in and talk to the students like a booth thing. Brooke was thinking about college since Lucas brought it up the other day. What would happen after senior year? What would happen between her and Lucas? How were they going to deal with their relationship? Brooke was sitting in English thinking about everything. She put her head up and looked at Lucas from across the room. Lucas turned around when he felt Brooke looking at him and he turned around and smile at her. Brooke winked at him and then turned back to the teacher.
Once the bell had rung. Brooke and Lucas walked towards her locker hand in hand. Brooke stopped and opened her locker after she put in the combination. Lucas stood there in front of her when Rachel walked up behind him and Brooke looked away. Brooke sighed and then leaned in and kissed him before Rachel spoke.
"Brooke please can you talk to me?" Rachel asked "It's been ages since we last talked"
"It's been a day Rach, not ages and no I will not talk to you" Brooke turned to her sister as Lucas stood behind her and wrapped his arms around her waist "I'll talk to you when I'm ready, so why don't you and Owen go fuck someone until then"
"Please don't" Rachel sounded so sad, but Brooke just didn't and couldn't talk to her right now.
"Just go I'm sure Owen is waiting for you in his car or something" Brooke then turned to Lucas and grabbed his hand to walk away, but first she turned back round and looked at her sister "Oh and if you're not coming home tonight at least tell me the truth about your where about" then Brooke and Lucas walked away.
Hanna was walking with Frankie and Millie from the cheer squad. Millie as in Julian's sister. They were walking through the quad when they saw Brooke and Lucas. Brooke stood up with made them stop. All three girls looked at Brooke with a smile "Hey girls"
"Hi Brooke" They responded
"So I'm having a sleepover tonight. Just me, Peyton and Haley" Brooke smiled "Would you three like to come. It should be fun"
The three girls nodded and Brooke smiled even more "Perfect. Be at my house by 6" then Brooke walked back over to Lucas who was sitting on the bench in the quad.
Hanna carried on walking with the two girls either side of her. She loved the attention and friends she had suddenly made and then there was Brooke. The most prettiest and popular girl in school was her friend and invited her to a sleepover. Hanna stopped when she saw Julian walking towards her. Millie waved at her brother who nodded back and then Julian stopped in front of them.
"Millie" Julian smiled at his sister "Frankie" Julian acknowledged the other girl.
"Julian" All three girls said smiling.
"So Hanna I had a good time hanging with you last night" Julian looked Hanna in the eyes and she could see the twinkle she had created and the emotion he felt for her.
"Yeah me too. I've never had more fun like I did with you last night" Hanna agreed
"That's good" Julian nodded "So since we have th big game tomorrow I was thinking we could go for dinner tonight or something"
Hanna looked down at the floor and Julian thought maybe she wasn't into him like he was into her and then Hanna looked back up at him and sighed "Erm... I would love to grab something to eat with you" And Julian's 'eyes lit up "But"and then his face and eyes dropped "I can't tonight. Brooke invited us to a sleepover and I have to go because it's Brooke and I haven't been to one in so long"
Julian nodded glad that she didn't bail because she didn't like him "Okay, how about lunch instead?"
Hanna's face lit up and she nodded. Julian walked closer to her and cupped her face in his hands and just then he placed a soft sweet kiss on her lips. Their mouths moved together and the little kiss turned into a long romantic one. Frankie and Millie stood there shocked. Brooke saw from across the quad and smiled at the two.
Hanna and Julian pulled apart and Hanna looked at him and smiled "Wow"
"Your lips taste like peach" Julian smiled and Hanna giggled
"Do you like" Hanna whispered as she leaned into him
He nodded "I like very much"
"Good" Hanna replied "Right I have to go now" Hanna circled Julian "I'll catch you later"
"Yeah bye baby" Hanna then walked away with the two girls with the smile still plastered on her face.
Brooke was sat in between Lucas's legs in the quad with Haley and Nathan and Peyton and Jake. They were talking about the basketball game on Saturday. Brooke was trying to listen to what they were talking about and she was trying toi join in, but her mind was somewhere else. She was thinking that she was actually going to Charleston tomorrow. Yeah Brooke knew the game was there so she had to go, but it was reality and since Alex is on the basketball team and apparently dating Claire. She didn't know how she was going to handle seeing them even if she was with Lucas. Brooke could hear Lucas laughing and everyone else laughing too. Brooke then snapped back into reality and decided she needed to get away from the whole basketball talk. Brooke pulled herself up using her weight on Lucas's legs which he didn't mind since she didn't weigh much anyway. Brooke stood up and slung her bag on her shoulder. Everyone then noticed Brooke was getting ready to go somewhere.
"Brooke baby you okay?" Lucas was the first one to notice
"Yeah" Brooke nodded unsure herself "I have to go sorry guys" Brooke went to walk off until she heard Haley's voice.
"Where you going?" Haley asked sounding worried
"I can't do this" Brooke turned to them "I can't go to Charleston tomorrow. Peyton or Haley can take place of cheer captain for the weekend or something. I'm sure Rachel wouldn't mind stealing that place either and I can just stay here and wait for you all to get back" Brooke ranted and stood up
"Brooke what you talking about?" Lucas questioned
"Like I said Luke" Brooke took a deep breath holding the tears back "I can't do it okay. I can't go to Charleston and I won't. I just can't do it"
"Tell me why. Tell us why?" Lucas stepped towards Brooke and she stepped back
"Please don't Luke" Brooke pleaded "I don't want to talk about it" Brooke shook her head and wiped a tear from her eye "I can't talk about it"
"Brooke you can do it, I know you can. I don't know the reason why you can't do it baby, but I'm sure everything will be okay" Lucas pulled Brooke into him, but she pulled away when she heard what he said.
"Actually no Luke I can't do it and like I said I won't. You guys can go without me. I won't be missed and Haley or Peyton can fill in for me. I'm sure it will be okay" Brooke tried to assure herself let alone everyone else.
"Please Brooke don't do this. I'll miss you too much" Lucas weakly smiled at her
"You don't understand Lucas , Alex and Claire will be there and together. Do you know how much that will hurt me, how much it hurt when they did what they did" Brooke finally told him what was wrong "Because I don't think you do"
Lucas stood there stunned. He should have known and he needed to make sure Brooke went because it would help her and she wanted to kick ass at the cheer off "You need to go Brooke. You need to get on that bus tomorrow and sit next to me. You need to go and kick ass at the cheer off against that Claire girl and you need to do it all because it will help you and I will be there with you because we're together and I love you" Lucas froze. He just said the L word without realising it.
Brooke stood there shocked, stunned and scared. She didn't know what to do. Lucas had just told her that he loves her and yeah she loved him too, but she didn't know if she was ready to say it back. They have only gotten back together 2 days ago "You said you love me" I stated again and everyone around us looked shocked too.
"Yeah I guess I did" Lucas didn't know whether to smile or run away since Brooke didn't say it back.
"That's a big step Luke" Brooke was beginning to put up her walls again
"Yeah I know and I dint mean to say it" Lucas looked at everyone scared to see the look on Brooke's face.
"You love me" Brooke whispered loud enough for him to hear.
Lucas nodded "Yes Brooke I do. I love you"
Lucas wanted Brooke to say those three words too. He wanted to hear them. He needed to hear them. Brooke stood there as he said those words again. She didn't know what to do. Yeah okay she loves him back, but right now wasn't the time for her to say it back. So she didn't. Instead she said "Thank you"
Everything stopped; well that's what it felt like. It felt like the world had frozen and Lucas was in the world by himself. His heart shattered as Brooke said her reply. It wasn't what Lucas was expecting. Oh no. It was something you see from a reality T.V show where the guy's in love with the girl, tells her and then she thanks him instead of saying it back. Just like yesterday when Brooke made me watch her favourite teen programme Greek and Rusty said he loved Jennifer and she replied thank you. It was the worst thing ever and now I know that myself. Lucas looked at Brooke for the first time since she replied and that was it he was mad.
Brooke looked at Lucas. He hadn't said a word for like 45 seconds and Brooke was beginning to get worried. Brooke couldn't read Lucas's expression and that scared her. she knew that her reply would properly shattered him and she felt really guilty about it, but she couldn't say those words yet and if she wasn't ready then she wasn't ready and that is the end of that.
Lucas turned around and picked up his bag. He turned back to Brooke not saying a word. Lucas never ignored Brooke ever, if when she's mad at him. Lucas circled around her and began to walk away. Haley, Nathan, Peyton and Jake watched the scene in front of them. Brooke turned around and watched as Lucas walked pass her "Hey" Lucas stopped and looked at Brooke "Don't walk away from me. I tried to leave and you stopped me, so don't think you can just storm off because I didn't say I loved you back" Brooke now mad as well. How dare Lucas be so angry at her when she tried to leave before?
"I can walk away if I want to Brooke. It's not like we're so in love where you blind me with it" Lucas said sarcastically
"Oh don't you look at me like that Lucas Eugene Scott" Brooke sounded serious "What do you want from me Luke. To say I love you because I can't right now"
"I love you Brooke is that so hard for you to hear" Lucas stepped closer
"Okay I'm not doing this Lucas" I circled him to walk off "This is crazy to fight about this and I won't "
"Oh that's right run away like usual" Lucas called after Brooke, but this time Brooke carried on walking not turning back as tears streamed down her face.
Brooke couldn't believe that Lucas had just done all this. She couldn't believe how thoughtless he was being. Brooke ran to the library and just sat there in the corner and cried silently.
Luca stood there as he watched Brooke walk away. He could see she was on the verge of tears when they were fighting, but he had to stand his ground right. Lucas walked back to the others and sat there where he was before "I thought you were leaving Luke?" Nathan spoke first.
"That was before Brooke stormed off like she normally does" Lucas replied looking in the direction Brooke went in.
"You should go after her" Peyton piped up "This is your fault after all"
"Wait one darn minute" Lucas looked at Peyton and then everyone else "I tell her I love her, she says thank you and then storms off when I say something she doesn't like and this is my damn fault"
"Well yeah Luke" Haley agreed with Peyton.
"Go on tell me why if you guys are so damn smart at this stuff" Lucas said curious of their response.
"You guys got together, had a fight and broke up and the 2 days ago you get back together and now you tell her that you love her" Haley started
"She's scared and doesn't know what to say next so she says the first thing that come into her head 'Thank you' which to her doesn't sound bad" Peyton carried on.
"Then when you react the way you did she freaks even more and gets mad because your mad and she doesn't get why" Haley carried on from Peyton.
"So she doesn't want to talk about it anymore and have you mad at her and yelling at her, she storms off and that is why this is your entire fault" Peyton finished
"She's Brooke Davis" Haley pointed out "And besides at least she was polite"
"She said thank you Haley. Do you have any idea how much that hurt?" Lucas looked at his bestfriend with a hurt expression plastered over his face.
"And it hurt her even more when you said all that you said" Haley replied "Don't lose her again Luke because you'll both be broken and Peyton and I will be there to pick the pieces up while Nathan and Jake do it for you"
Lucas nodded and smiled "I understand" Lucas stood up. He nodded at everyone sitting there and went to look for his girlfriend. They needed to talk and Lucas didn't want to lose her, he can't lose her. she means everything to him and Lucas wasn't giving up on her or them ever.
So what do you guys think? Could please review just so I know if you are reading it or not. I would appreciate it a lot. Thanks. Roch xxx