Hey everyone! So this was kinda hard for me to write. But I hope you enjoy

Hap wiped the blade of his knife on a rag and tucked it back into his sheath. He stared for a moment at the man lying amongst pools of red, and sighed. He was covered in blood dirt and water, and the strangest part...

He felt nothing.

He was totally numb to veryone around him, the fact that he had just killed and mutilated a man not even in his mind.

All he saw was her face, swimming hazily in front of him.

Koz shook his head and looked ruefully at Lorca, who also grimaced.

"He's totally gone man." Koz said, a sad edge to his voice. He had known Hap a long time, and had never seen the Killa in this bad of shape.

Hap was supposed to be the on who had no emotions or baggage. And here he was, stoney faced and staring down at the man he had just murdered like there was nothing even there. He wasn't sure if this was Hap realizing how much he depended on Emilia to regulate his moods or just plain missing the kid, but whatever it was it needed to be handled.

And quick.

That was when Koz decided a trip to visit the Princess of Charming was in order.

Emilia was a little suprised when her phone rang and "Uncle Koz" flashed up on the screen. She and Koz didn't often share back and forth phone conversations, so a call out of the blue form his was unexpected, and had to be for a reason.

"Hello?"

"Kid. Where are you?"

She furrowed her brow and frowned. "At home. Why?"

"I'm coming over. Unlock the door."

Click. He hung up. Her frown deepened as she stared at her phone screen. It was unusual for Kozik, who was all about being straight forward, to be so cryptic. And even more unusual for him to show up in Charming, without buisness to take care of. She heard his bike rumble into the drive, and shut off. She watched him hurry up the walk, glancing over his shoulder every few moments. She opened the dooor as he raised his hand to knock and he grinned.

After he seated himself at the table, and made her sit across from him, he fixed her with a look.

"We." he said, gesturing between them "Need to talk."

"I gathered. About what?"

Koxik sighed and re-spiked his hair.

"Hap."

"Koz I have-"

"Just listen to me okay?" She was about to argue but something about Koz's expression stopped her. It was pleading and sad. She let him continue.

"He's bad Em. I've never seen him like this, and it scares the shit outta me. Hap isn't supposed to feel this shit. He can't handle it Emilia."

"And you dont think i wish things were different Koz?" She ran her fingers through hair. "I hate this shit. Loving him, hating him. It's all bullshit. I wanna be with him Koz."

"I know you do. He's afraid of hurting you. He never wants you to feel pain Emilia. He loves you."

"Koz..." She paused, eyes searching his for a moment " How do we fix him?"

"He has to make a choice. No more of this in between bullshit."

" One major problem. This club, the guys, my parents won't accept it. I'm barely 19 for God sakes Koz. He'll be excommunicated."

"They're going to have to, unless they want Hap to die, or quit. Cause thats what gonna happen."

She nodded wringing her hands together nervously. Koz shok his head.

" Hap's coming to Charming."

She looked up, eyes wide.

"When?"

" Sometime tonight." He shrugged, fixing her with a knowing look. " If I was you I'd make damn sure your alone tonight. Give you some time to work your shit out. Get this under control before it ends badly."

She nodded, and clasped her hands under her chin, eyes flicking up to meet his.

" Gemma will be at Luann's tonight, and Clay will most likely stay at the clubhouse. I'll make sure I'm available."

"Good shit." He stood, and pressed a kiss to her forehead, leaving her alone with her thoughts.

Hap cruised through the familar streets of Charming, listening to the muted thunder rumbling in the distance. The dark clouds contrasted heavily with the sun shining, giving the landscape an odd, sharp relief against the sky. A strange feeling had settled in the pit of his stomach, one he couldn't explain. The Morrow household came into view, Emilia's shiny black mustang sitting in the driveway, Gemma's Caddy and Clay's bike nowhere to be seen.

Kid's flying solo tonight Koz said casually in passing, giving Hap a pointed look but saying nothing more than that.

As he pulled slowly in the drive he took a moment. He could pull right back out of the drive and go back to Tacoma, and avoid what was about to happen. But as if the house was magnet, he got off his bike and began the walk as slowly as he could up the front stairs and on to the porch. He knocked three times.

She opened the door, and moved aside letting him in, He tucked his shades inside his cut and turned to face her, every muscle in his body screaming in protest. She was standing, back against the door, staring down at her feet.

" Hey kid."

She looked up at him, face impassive. "What're you doing here Happy?"

"Look Emilia-" But she closed the distance between them in two giant steps and pressed her lips very firmly to his, forcing him to respond. She pressed herself firmly against him, tiny hips grounding into his. The thunder rumbled in the distance as the seriousness of the situation sunk into Hap's mind. He froze. She was playing with his belt buckle.

"No." He said pushing himself roughly away from her, heart banging around in his chest. She was clutching at her heart, breathing heavily.

"We can't do this Emilia. It's wrong. it's bad, it's-

"Right." She said eyes searching his face. "It's right, it's natural and you know it. You can't run form this forever Hap. You want this. So stop resisting."

She was right. There was nothing more in the world he wanted right now than her. The feel of her lips, her skin, his fingers knotted in her dark hair. He was hooked.

He reached towards her, and she came to him this time gently pressing her lips to his. He ran his fingers through her long dark hair, her arms sliding around his neck. His hands trailed down her sholders and back, over her ass and picked up her up. She wrapped her legs around his waist, and he walked her to her bedroom, kicking the door shut behind him. Clothes flew off at rapid pace, as her breath quickened. hap could feel her heart beating through her chest, as their sweat slicked skin brushed against eachother. and Hap positioned himself above her. She ran her hands down his chest, nails scraping his skin, making his abdomen muscles contract as he let out a sharp gasp. She leaned back arching herself into him as he trailed his lips down her neck. She cried out as he entered her, nails diging into his back. His breath was hot against her neck, as they moved in perfect rythm, bodies melding into one another.

It was surreal being with him like this, and being able to live something she had only imagined. Tears sprang to her eyes, the pain and the pleasure all blending into one.

And in that moment she didn't care whether Hap loved her or not.

She was just happy he was here.