Character: Kurenai
She never realized how hard it would be to give birth to a dead man's child. Not to say she thought it would be easy, nothing in her life has been easy…but this—this is a sort of pain she hasn't been taught to handle. It's the kind of pain that being Kunoichi doesn't soothe and doesn't make her any more prepared…if anything she feels less prepared feels like for the first time this is not something she can fight or kill or run from…this just is—and she's helpless. She's helpless but not hopeless, in her heart she still and will always love Asuma and is proud (happy even) to be having his child, she is proud to be the one to continue his line and to honor his memory, she is proud and still in love—as they say where there's love there's hope…She believes this deeply but Kurenai isn't sure how much hope will help her (or if anything ever will).
- I stare at the wall knowing on the other side the storm that waits for me-
Sentence Count: 4
A/N: semi-inspired by Tori Amos's Parasol. Tocophobia is the fear of pregnancy.