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Eli's POV:

She left. She actually hates me. Clare, my Clare, actually hates me.

My chest tightened as the thought continued to grow in my brain. After how much I loved her she hates me? I know I deserve it but it just doesn't seem fair. How can I have a baby with a girl I'm not in love with and hurt the girl I love more than anything?

Fuck. I needed to call Jules. Even if I didn't love her, this was my baby and I was going to love him or her no matter what.

I picked up my phone and tried to calm my shaky hand. Clare. She was my wallpaper. Her sitting on my bed, in my shirt, reading my story. If there was ever a picture that perfectly captured her beauty, it was this one. God I'm so fucking stupid.

"Jules?" I tried not to let her hear to scratchiness in my voice. She didn't deserve to know this was hurting me.

Her voice though, it was happy as ever, "Hey baby daddy."

"Not funny," I snarled, "Look I know we both aren't thrilled with each other or what's going on, but this is my baby too and I want to help. CeCe said you could move in if you want. I'll get a job. We can take care you."

"You'd do that?" She whispered to me.

I bit down on my lip. I never thought I would be getting into this with Jules. How could we be parents? I was so screwed up and Jules was a nutcase and kind of a bitch at times. With Clare I knew if she was ever pregnant she would be a good mom. She was so secure but so good, everything would be okay if she was pregnant. But with Jules I really didn't know.

"Of course I'd do that." I tried to reassure her, "But Julie this is just all for the baby okay? We can't get back together or anything okay?"

I heard her scoff from the other side of the line, "To be with her right? Clare is seriously going to be with you while I have your baby? She's more pathetic than I thought…"

"Julie shut up. I love Clare with all my heart and you won't say a damn bad thing about her ever again. I fucked up, Clare didn't cheat, I did. No, I'm not with Clare, but I'm not with you either okay? I'll be by in a few hours to pick you up, have your shit packed and I'll load it." And then I hung up on her.

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"Eli where are you going? Your room was over there." Julie pointed to my room as I passed it, holding her bags which were so heavy it felt like she shoved a thousand babies in them.

I shook my head, "You're not sleeping in my room. I have a guest room for you and Bullfrog will give you his music room for a nursery, but we can't paint it because when we go to college I'll get us a place and we can do a better nursery."

Jules whined, "Eli what if I get sick or my back hurts or I can't sleep! You are the father of this baby that means you have to be with me twenty four seven! If something goes bump in the night you will be there."

I nodded and opened up the door to the guest room, "I'm right across the hall if you need anything, but you're not jumping into bed with me. My mom made you an appointment with the doctor to get checked out and to talk about safety precautions, but I'm not doing adoption. I understand if you don't want to keep the baby, but Jules please just don't get an abortion, I'll take all the responsibility as long as you don't abort." This may not have been planned, but I was a firm believer in no abortions, I wanted to take care of my kid and I know I can.

Jules smiled at me. It was a light smile, but a smile that reminded me of the girl I fell in love with, "You really want this baby don't you?"

I nodded, "I'm sorry. I don't want to be so mean to you. I know we are in this together, but I need you to know I love Clare. That's not going to change. Feel free to date anyone you want, but it won't be me. I'm here, I always will be, just not like that."

She nodded, "I'm a little tired, I'm going to take a nap."

I nodded but as she walked away I noticed something in her eyes. Sadness. Her smile was gone and she looked hurt. I don't know what I said, but I didn't want to hurt her, I really didn't. This was all my fault and I needed to own up. Hopefully someday Clare will understand. Hopefully someday soon.

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"How is she settling in?" Bullfrog asked me timidly from my door. I had been sitting on my bed for an hour or so, just trying to think. I'm too young to do this. But it's happening.

"She's good, she went to take a nap." I told him.

He nodded. I felt bad he felt so weird talking to me about this. CeCe had me around this age so they had been through it, they were terrified of me doing it, but here we are.

"Son I need you to know your mother and I love you and we will love that grandbaby with all of our hearts. CeCe may have come off stricter than I would have hoped, but we both know it's hard to do this when you are young. If anyone can do it Eli, you can, but you need to be committed. Julie will need you and you can't pull crap with her. You need to be at the appointments, make her food, calm her down, go to her classes with her. You need to be as participant as you can for her. I love you son."

Bullfrog patted my shoulder and made his way out of the room. My thoughts wouldn't stop spinning. I can't believe in just nine months I will be a dad.

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"It will be okay." I reassured Julie as we pulled into Degrassi. Apparently the only people that knew about the pregnancy were me, my parents, and her parents. Her teachers and her friends had no clue. I was worried about her safety so I made an appointment to inform Simpson. I knew he'd be mad, but better for Jules to be safe.

Jules nodded, "Do we have to tell everyone or just Simpson? I don't want it getting out…"

I frowned, "Julie you're pregnant. You're going to start showing and I need you to stay in school as long as possible. Summer school can only cover so much and you want to go to college right?"

She nodded, "Can we just tell Simpson and the teachers today? Wait until everything else gets out naturally?"

I gave her a funny look. I wasn't so sure why she wanted to hide the pregnancy. People would find out eventually and it would stop rumors, but the baby was in her body so it was her choice. I didn't want to stress her or anything so I simply nodded, "Whatever makes you comfortable."

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"Mr. Goldsworthy?" My physics teacher stopped class and handed me a pink slip. It was time to go meet Simpson.

I grabbed my stuff and made my way down to his office. Jules was already there, looking nervous as ever. I slipped my arm around her shoulders when I sat down to comfort her, "It's okay"

She nodded. Mr. Simpson spoke, "So what's the big news?" He asked with his smile on his face. I felt kind of bad, like we were going to let him down. But Julie's safety right now was important to me.

I took a deep breath, "Julie is pregnant. The baby is mine and we just needed you and the staff to know in case there is anything she should participate in, but we would prefer to keep it quite between the staff until people find out naturally."

His face. Simpson's smile quickly disappeared, "Wow. A baby?" I could tell he was shocked but he tried to cover it, "O-oh okay. I need to call both of your parents to confirm and I need a doctor's note, but we can work something out so Julie and yourself can still graduate on time. And I will be sure to stress the descrecency of the matter."

I smiled, "Thank you sir."

He nodded, "How far along are you if you don't mind me asking?"

Julie wouldn't even look up, "Four months." She mumbled.

I couldn't tell what was wrong. I couldn't tell if she was nervous or sad or embarrassed. I just needed to know.

Simpson nodded, "Okay you two can go, I'll take care of everything."

I smiled and shook Simpson's hand, "I appreciate it sir."

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Jules and I walked out together, well she practically ran out. I caught up to her and asked, "What's wrong? You were like a mouse in there. I know this is hard for you, but something is on your mind."

She bit her bottom lip and nodded, "Eli?"

"Yes?"

"I kind of have to tell you something…" She blushed.

I nodded, "Okay what is it?"

Julie took a gulp. She looked terrified, "About the baby…I'm….well…" She stopped and then whispered, "Embarrassed. I'm embarrassed. I don't want people to think I'm a slut for having a baby. I don't want people to know at all."

I nodded. I should have seen this sooner, most girls feel this way when this happens, "It's okay Jules, no one needs to know. If you start showing and you don't feel comfortable, we can have CeCe home school you. I don't want you to have any stress during this pregnancy."

Julie smiled, "Will you stay with me if I do home school."

That was a hard one. Degrassi. Adam. Clare even. If I left I wouldn't get to see her, but I needed to put my baby first so I nodded, "You and that baby are going to be my priority, I'm going to do my best to take care of you. If you need me, I'm here."

I scoped Julie's hands up in mind and she gave me that smile again. I smiled back, "I promise you I'm going to be the best dad I can ever be."

As I whispered that, the door to Degrassi slammed shut. Jules and I both jumped. When I turned to see who it was my eyes widened. Clare. She looked right at my hands, currently tangled up into Julie's and she muttered four of the most heartbreaking words, "I fucking hate you." And she stormed off to class.

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A/N: Don't hate me! I promise it will be better, just stick with it!