A/N: So I was extremely inspired to write this story after watching a youtube video that someone made about new moon. The song and the video got me thinking about Edward leaving and what if she had really ended up alone… here's a link to the video that inspired me… .com/watch?v=jlMD0U09_Pg
Remember Me?
It was hard watching him he sat on my bed with the cactus I had brought from Arizona from when I had first arrived to Forks. I stood still in what once was my closet and is now where I spend most of my time. Through the tiny creek in the door I watched him every day. This was the only thing familiar to me. My father was starting to look older then he should his dark hair faded a bit and I noticed a few grays in his mustache. Although he grew older every day his face never changed.
"Bella I miss you so much" he would squeeze the small pot which held the plant. I watched as a tear dripped down his eye, he clearly was not past my death. I so many times wanted to reach out to him and tell him that I was here. His head lifted when he heard the doorbell ring, he reluctantly placed the cactus back on the desk where it had been for 20 years and wiped away the fallen tears. I rushed to the window which faced the front of the house after he had shut the bedroom door. I looked down to see a yellow car sitting in my driveway. I stood there for a while until I heard two sets of footsteps making their way to my room, I quickly went back into hiding and a familiar scent made its way into the room.
The girl standing next to my father was petite with short brown hair she was wearing ballet slippers and a beautiful gray sundress. I watched as she peaked around my room.
"Alice you haven't changed one bit" my father spoke to her like hadn't seen this girl in years.
"Charlie you haven't either" she told him with a smile. Was she flirting with my father? Who was this intruder and why was she in my room? I watched her closely as she walked past the closet and stopped.
"Of course I changed I'm old now" he let out a small laugh I hadn't heard him laugh in years. What kind of power did this? I took another whiff of her, she wasn't human she was another one of my kind, another Vampire. I watched her closely as I noticed her catch on to my scent. I had hoped she wasn't here to kill my father.
"Wow this room still smells like her" the girl said. My mind raced as I tried to think how she could have possibly known me.
"It does" my father said sadly.
"I'll let you visit Bella for a while" he smiled at her and shut the door softly behind him.
I watched as she delicately twirled around my room, touching everything that was once mine. She sat herself down on my purple comforter and patted it with her hands. I stepped back a few inches and that's when it hit me, the bar where my clothes used to hang. It made a loud noise and I watched as she quickly within less than a second appeared right outside the closet door. I slid over silently to a pile of clothes that were still there, I quickly buried myself under them. She opened the door just a crack more and then closed it again. I heard her leaving and rushed once again to the window. Maybe I should follow her and see where it would lead. She knew who I was and wanted to visit me. After 15 minutes of watching and waiting she appeared again outside of my window, as she walked toward her car she waved back toward the house. Her head suddenly looked up toward me room, I quickly ducked and slowly lifted my head back up but she was already in her car.
I followed her scent for a few miles as I ran through a familiar part of town that I hadn't been in for the longest time. A house all alone in the middle of nowhere suddenly appeared it made me feel at home as I approached it. The house had wood siding but it mainly consisted of several windows. I watched the yellow car pull into the garage off to the side. I snuck swiftly behind each tree getting closer to the house. I finally got as close as I could without getting to close for anyone to see me. I began to hear voices one of them sounding extremely familiar.
"Alice I know where you went" his voice sounded angry.
"You can't stop me from doing what I feel is right, I wanted to pay my respects to Charlie, Edward" the small female who had been at my house spoke to him.
"I don't understand why you did it, you know exactly how I feel." this guy knew who I was too?
"Edward listen to me something strange happened while I was there" she must have heard me in the closet. I didn't hear anything but silence but I felt the tension between the two.
"It was almost like her presence still lingered, like she wasn't really dead at all almost like she was hiding out in the closet" I heard him laugh.
"You amuse me Alice you do, now if you'll excuse me I would like to go hunting I can't believe you guys told me to come back here" he seemed angry as I heard a door slam. He finally came into view I looked closely, his skin was pale and his light brown hair was perfect and yet messy at the same time. I watched as he quickly began to run north. I decided to follow him his scent was strange yet attracting me to him. I quickly but silently followed him as far as he went, until he stopped. He crouched down waiting so I stopped too. I watched as he placed his nose in the air smelling it carefully.
"Bella" he whispered. I felt his voice rip through me like a thousand pieces of broken glass shattering. I didn't answer I was too afraid my only option was to quietly run the other way, which is what I did.
I went back to my room my Mom's car was back and I heard her soothing voice talking to Charlie. I lay down on the bed and placed my arms behind my head as I listened to them talking below me.
"One of Bella's old friends stopped by today, Edward Cullen's sister" I heard him say the name with anger.
"Oh was he with her?" my Mom sounded a bit edgy herself.
"No thank god, she says they are back in town for a while and she wanted to come pay her respects" Charlie sounded like he would choke at any moment.
"Charlie dear don't work yourself up now why don't you get some sleep we won't mention that name around here" she said. Why was this guys name causing so much pain to my parents? I didn't quite understand what was going on? I wanted so badly to find out. The entire night I listened to the sound of Dad's snoring it was like music to me now because hearing either of my parents made my days worth it.
The next morning I heard a knock at the front door. I shifted in the bed and walked toward the window again. I looked out one of the square frames and that's when I noticed a shiny silver Volvo outside. I watched it for a long time ignoring the voices downstairs.
"Chief Swan" I finally heard his voice again.
"Edward Cullen get off of my property before I get out my shot gun" I heard him yell. Seconds later my Mom was running to the door calming down the both of them.
"Sir I know you want to blame me for your daughter's suicide but …."
I didn't want to kill myself is that what everyone thought? I remember only jumping for fun it was because those other guys were jumping. I stared out the window only focusing on the past. The day I jumped was a distant but well known memory. Then I remembered them looking for me, first a boy around the age of 16 black hair and dark skin, all of them had dark skin. Then I heard the voices.
"Jacob she's not here man we should go tell Charlie" the voice sounded a little bit older then the others.
"She has to be I was supposed to be protecting her she has to be here" the guy named Jacob broke down in tears. I don't' remember where I was at this point all I could remember was the pain and fire throughout my body. How no one could hear my screams of pain was beyond me. I felt like I was in a dark and cold world and no one could save me.
I focused back to the sound of the voices below.
"Edward it's not that we hate you it's just best if you leave, Charlie is still not coping well, we are all still a mess although it has been 20 years we weren't supposed to loose her so quickly" I heard her tear up as she spoke to him.
"I just … I would like to say my goodbyes too, I never properly got the chance" I heard the hurt as well in this guys voice.
"Only for a few minutes though please" I didn't hear my father anymore Mom must have told him to go lay down for a while. Once again another vampire was coming up to my room to say goodbye to me. Once he had shut the door to my room I was hiding again in my closet. He walked over to the bed just like the other one named Alice had. He placed his head on the pillow where I had just been laying and put his arms behind his head too. He looked down his face filled with pain, it looked like he had seen someone laying there next to him and he was watching them sleep.
"Bella if you're here I wanted you to know after all of these years I haven't forgotten, and I haven't let go. I almost died when you did just like I had always told you, but I'm still here miserable walking this earth as a monster, a monster without the only thing that every mattered to him" he let out a big sigh and pretended to stroke someone's hair. It really was the guy in my head when I closed my eyes. Who was he and why did he love me? I also wondered why my parents thought he was the reason I jumped. As much as I tried I couldn't remember. He was there a lot longer than I had expected, about an hour or so had past his eyes were closed and he looked to be asleep. I quietly made my way over to him his eyes were still closed tightly as I approached him. That was until I heard my door open and I vanished quickly under my bed.
"Edward" her voice was caring as usual. I heard him shift and stand up. I saw his legs as they walked toward the door. I heard my mother cry a bit the two of them stood there for a few seconds, I peaked up and she had embraced him in a hug. Mom looked fragile but never showed it, she was still young and nothing about her appearance had changed. I watched as they pulled away from each other.
"Thank you for allowing me to come here" he said sincerely.
"Sure Edward, you take care now" they both walked out and shut the door. I got out from underneath the bed and watched as he just as Alice had turned to the house and looked up at my room. This time I didn't duck, I didn't hide I watched him as he noticed me. He stood there only for a minute and then proceeded into his car he must have thought he was imagining things. I turned to the bed and there was a CD there that hadn't been there before. I picked it up the vibe it had given me reminded me of something. I walked over to the desk where my old CD player sat. I found a pair of headphones in one of the drawers and plugged in the old CD player. I placed it in and listened carefully. A soft familiar melody flowed through my ears, it sounded almost like a lullaby. I began to feel a hole that hadn't been felt in years. It was coming back with the sound of the music on this CD. I quickly shut it off and didn't move I just sat there trying to remember where I had heard this once before.