Footnotes
Entry #13: January 5th
I like Saturdays, because then I can do exactly what I feel like doing, no matter what that is. Saturdays were also days where we could go to Hogsmaid trips and right now the one that was looming nearer was all Lily and James could talk about. Remus and I were playing Wizard's chess while James and Lily sat on the couch next to us.
"Knight to E4."
"Do you think that the Three Broomsticks will have a special?" Lily asked. I watched in amusement as my knight obliterated Remus's bishop. He frowned as I scoffed.
"Ha ha ha sucker!!"
"Creep!" Emma yelled out the porthole almost in reply to what I had said to Remus. She stalked in the common room and threw herself on the arm of the chair Remus was sitting in. We all stared at her, completely confused.
"What's going on?"
"Well, from the looks of it Remus is losing," Emma replied avoiding the real question.
"No…well yea…but no that's not what I meant. I meant with you Emma. You look like you could kill," I said. She gazed at the board, not saying anything and then she whispered something in Remus's ear. He looked up at me and smiled the most evil smile Remus could muster and slowly called out his move. I wanted to cry.
"You are NOT allowed to help him!! And you still haven't answered me."
"Em, please," Lily said. Emma nodded and cleared her throat.
"It's Lucius, the creep has taken to stalking me again and today he cornered me. Then he told me that at a time like this, I needed a real man to help me get through it all. Then he pinned me to the wall and tired to pull one on me. Luckily he's an easy shot and I got him right in the balls and managed to get away," Emma said taking deep breathes to try and stay calm. Remus gave her a quick pat and she smiled and said she was fine.
"You know what, its okay. I'm fine, don't worry about it. All he wants is a reaction out of me." Emma told us. Then she whispered to Remus and gave Remus an other move, which killed my queen. I let out a gurgled cry as Remus laughed.
"Cheater!!" I said. Remus leaded over forward and pointed out the porthole where Emma had gone.
"Which is move is more important: losing or Emma?" He asked. I glared at him and got up and followed Emma, knowing I so had lost. I knew exactly where I was going to find Emma, she often went to the lake to think but since it was winter, she had to settle with the next best thing: a window. I found her right where I tough I would, the window seat where she gave after her welcome home party. She sat there, curled up in a ball, gazing out the window at the ice and snow. It was eerily beautiful. I heard her sigh heavily.
"I can't go on like this Padfoot; I just can't keep acting like everything is fine. Lucius was right, I can't do this alone. I know I have James, but he also has Lily there for him," Emma told me quietly. I didn't know what to do. I sat down next to her, and placed my hands on her knees. I really just wanted to know if he was okay. She waited for me to answer.
"Em, we're all here for you, you know that," I said. Again all I got was a sigh.
"Yeah but it's still not the same as what Lily and James have. James is still happy, the happiest I've seen him in a long time, despite the circumstances."
"Em…I…," I really just didn't know what to tell her. She turned away from the window and faced me, and I could tell she was close to tears. So I did the only thing I could think of. I kissed her.