Time Heals

Without a doubt the winter months were the darkest, they passed with ease just like I hadn't ever existed. The family that came to visit me was still at the familiar yet strange house. Every day after making sure Charlie was good I would rush over there, hiding behind trees and listening to any sort of memory that might come clear. Mom went back to Jacksonville her husband hurt himself badly and was done for good with baseball. She was bringing him back to Forks and they would live a few houses down from Dad.

January was a cold month it never bothered me much though. I couldn't stand being around for Christmas so I always went on a long week hunting trip. My instincts had told me never to attack a human being. I was always searching for animal blood somehow I was well trained and ready for this life. I had guessed it was my destiny.

I found myself standing at the edge of the cliff, the one in which caused my "death". I stood at the highest point and looked over the edge, the water today was a lot calmer then I had remembered. I watched off into the distance and closed my eyes.

"Excuse me Miss?" I heard a deep male voice say. I turned around I remembered that face from somewhere. He had dark skin and short dark hair. He reminded me of the guy who had not wanted to give up when my body was not found. The guy who had long black hair appeared in my head and suddenly became the guy standing in front of me. My brown hair blew in the wind and I turned to him, his eyes widened it was just him standing there no one else was around.

"Bella?" he examined every part of me from my now golden eyes down to my good old converses and worn out jeans. I didn't move and I didn't speak I heard a deep growl in his chest as his nose crinkled.

"I'm sorry but you can't be here Miss" he went back to calling me miss after knowing who I really was not even a few seconds ago.

"You know who I'm?" I finally spoke to him, my voice sounded like beautiful music.

"No your not her, you're the reason I still phase, you're a blood sucker your not my Bella" he said. I looked at him strangely why did he call me his Bella?

"Is your name Jacob?" I questioned. He looked frightened that I even knew his name. I had remembered from my memory of that day the other guy calling him Jacob as he broke down crying for me.

"How did you know that?" he watched me careful both of us not moving an inch.

"My name is Bella, Isabella Swan" I informed him. His mouth dropped suddenly and he didn't say a single word.

"Bella is dead" he finally spoke. I shook my head no and kept my eyes directly on him.

"Look I don't know who you are but I know that I'm this Bella that everyone knows and I know none of you" I explained. He moved a bit closer.

"You don't smell like her" he told me. I laughed a little bit.

"That's not what those other vampires said"

"Other Vampires?" he questioned. This conversation was taking a turn for the worst.

"Yeah there's a whole family in Forks, two of them Alice and Edward I think their last name is Cullen, they came to my house to say their goodbyes since they never go to" I explained myself. I watched as his body started to tremble, I wasn't sure if it was out of fear or anger. Before I knew it the guy who once was Jacob practically exploded his clothes ripped everywhere. A big russet colored wolf stood only a few feet in front of me. I backed up a bit almost losing my balance and plunging back into the ocean. He moved forward a bit growling and then turned away from me and ran off into the distance.

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With another sharp tearing sound, Jacob exploded.

I watched as the human memory I saw faded and reality suddenly set in. "Jacob Black" I mumbled to myself. I questioned why he would be angry about these Cullen's coming back to Forks. What was the big deal anyway?

I decided to disappear from La Push before another one of those werewolves decided to attack me. I quickly got myself back home, Charlie's car was gone he didn't drive the cruiser anymore he retired a few years ago and bought a tan Cadillac. I walked to the side of the house where another memory of my human life appeared. It was my truck, the red old beat up thing. It now had no tires on one side and almost looked like it had become apart of the ground that it leaned on.

I walked over to it slowly touching the rusty cold metal of the truck, I opened the door slowly luckily it opened. I sat inside the angle the truck was on was a bit uncomfortable but it didn't bother me. I placed my hands around the steering wheel and held it tight in my hand. A memory of the first time I had driven it here in Forks. It was my first day at Forks High School I remember pulling in to the parking lot everyone watched me. Everyone knew me yet I had no idea who any of them were. I came back to reality when I heard and smelled someone stalking around the truck. I felt a snarl in my chest as the noise grew closer to the front. I placed my hands on the window and tried to look down. I jumped back when a familiar beautiful pale face watched me through the window. My eyes grew wide it was him the guy again, the guy I was supposed to remember. I still hadn't though I had no idea why he even cared who I was.

"Bella" his voice was soft and confused. I backed away toward the door which was almost buried but I was still able to open it.

"Bella is that you I know it is, your scent…" I quickly opened the door and squeezed out.

"Why does everyone know me?" I backed away against a tree behind me. He cautiously made his way around the truck in one swift movement. He wore a gray shirt with blue jeans and polished black shoes.

"Bella you don't know who I'm?" his voice sounded hurt. He tilted his head and watched me. I wrapped my hands half way around the tree still facing him.

"No" I replied in a whisper. His eyes looked watery but I knew he couldn't cry.

"I should have never left you, you would still be human" he began to inch forward I tried backing away forgetting the tree was there. I tried to swing myself around the tree but ended up tripping over the roots on the ground. I haven't been clumsy since I was a human, I fell to my knees.

"Bella it is you, you are still as clumsy as ever" I felt a soft touch on my shoulder as I stayed down on my knees.

"Please go, I don't know who you are I want to be alone" I told him, however I did regret every word I said.

"I still can't hear inside your head, I know it's you please remember Bella please" his voice broke at the last please. I put one hand on the tree and picked myself up I turned to the vampire standing right in front of me. He was close a little too close for comfort.

"Can I remind you?" his lips were now only centimeters from mine. I turned my head as he tried to plant his lips on mine but only got my cheek.

"I'm happier not knowing anything" I looked up at him his eyes filled with more hurt then before.

"It really is as if I didn't exist, my words they worked well" he nodded his head. The words he spoke were the ones that I heard echo through my head when ever I would see this strange face.

"I'm sorry I bothered you" he hesitantly turned and jumped over my truck running far off into the distance. I was a monster who had forgotten something that was so important to him. I felt my world come crashing down I should have never stayed in Forks after I became this it's haunted with memories that I can't even remember.

That night Mom came back with her husband Phil, Charlie offered my room so that Phil would be comfortable and not on the couch. He had gotten a lot older himself and was walking on silver crutches. I stayed in the closet as my Mom walked around the room. She looked down at the desk where I had left the headphones and stereo plugged in. Phil was passed out snoring peacefully on my bed. She touched the headphones.

"Charlie must have grabbed these" she said to herself. She took out the headphones from the CD player and pressed the open button. It lifted and inside was the CD that was left there. She stared at it carefully I watched as she turned the volume to a low setting and shut the top. She pressed play and the soft lullaby played again. I closed my eyes and saw his face again he had something to do with the song that was playing. I watched as Mom swayed gently to the music twirling around the room like she was dancing.

"This song sounds just like you Bella so beautiful" she whispered. I wanted to jump out of the closet and tell her I was here with her but if I did that she would think she was going crazy. I still looked the same after 20 years except my features were a bit more perfect which came with the vampire territory. I heard a knock at the door with the CD player still softly playing she opened the door.

"Hey Charlie I'm sorry was I being too loud?" she questioned.

"No not at all however I did hear the music you were playing" he peaked in the door.

"Oh is that your CD? I found it in there with the headphones plugged in"

"I haven't touched that thing in years, it was Bella's it's been empty" he told her. She looked at him with an odd expression.

"It wasn't empty Charlie there was a CD in it" she looked scared.

"Renne don't play these games with me there was nothing in there" he pointed out.

"What if…"

"No Renne just no, I'm going to bed goodnight" he quickly left the room. I should have jumped out just then and said I did it. I was the one who put the CD in there. Edward left it I think he wanted to me find it. Mom walked back over to the CD player and shut it off I watched a tear fall from her eyes.

"Bella I know your out there" she sighed and made her way to the bed where Phil had slept and tucked herself gently in next to him. I waited until they were asleep and I walked over to Mom and stood over her. I let my cold hands touch her skin, she shivered for a moment. I ran my hands through her hair carefully not to wake her.

"Bella… Bella is that you?" she questioned lightly. I could tell she was still dreaming.

"It's me Mom I'm here and I love you and miss you dearly" I whispered. Before she opened her eyes I ran to the closet, I watched her. Her sad face grew to a small smile as she looked around the room.

"I love you too" she whispered as she curled up into a ball and fell fast asleep.

There I was in a familiar meadow a few days later. I took a blanket from Charlie's closet and placed it on the ground. I had also grabbed a book from my bookshelf "Wuthering Heights" After reading a few pages the memory had come back and I realized I had read this book before. Why now was everything from that life coming for me? I looked up when I heard some movement in the brush. I put the book down and crouched into a fighting position. I growled lightly when a small figure appeared in front of me.

"Bella" her voice rang. It was her, the girl who had come to visit me. I sat back down and relaxed. She walked forward to me without any hesitation.

"You are one of us now?" she questioned once she reached the blanket.

"One of you, who are you?"

"Edward said you would say that" she reached out for my hand. I let her take it and she sat down right next to me.

"What happened to you?" she questioned.

"I jumped off …"

"I know that part, I ran to come stop you but it was too late you were gone. I couldn't stay I had to leave to make sure that Edward wouldn't do anything stupid" she told me. Her hands still lightly wrapped around mine.

"Well when I jumped I was bit, she had red hair beautiful flowing red hair and she made the whole ocean look orange, she said something to me about revenge for her spouse" As I talked I kept my eyes directly on her.

"Victoria" she hissed.

"What happened to the vampire that bit you?" she questioned.

"I don't know all I could remember at that point was the pain and the sound of angry wolves tearing her to pieces"

"Jacob" her voice drifted.

"I kind of remember him he threw a fit when my body wasn't found. I can't even remember where I had spent the painful days but no one was able to find me" I informed her. She watched me closely.

"Please come to our house everyone is looking forward to seeing you again" she pleaded.

"I really don't remember any of you" I explained.

"Please just come with me you'll remember trust me" she stood up still having a hold on my hands.

"I can't just…"

"Please" her voice was soft and sweet. She seemed caring and I could tell she wanted me to remember. I picked up my book, leaving behind the blue blanket I had been laying on. We quickly made our way through the thick trees and we stopped at the house. When we walked in I heard a few voices talking. We headed up some stairs and into a room once again with mainly windows. The walls were white and there was a lot of art work on the walls. We entered the kitchen where a group of them gathered around a small round table. The counter tops off to the side were made of wood with a marble top. Everything in the kitchen looked untouched no one had eaten or made food in here for years. I smelled no scent of any human food lingering. A tall thin vampire with blonde and brown hair slowly walked to Alice. She let go of my arm and touched his, they looked into each others eyes for what seemed like forever. Then he turned to me.

"Bella this is all my fault if I hadn't of attacked you…"

"Jasper shh" Alice touched his face lightly and then turned to me. The rest of them watched me closely. There was another one with slick back blonde hair, whose hands were intertwined with a female that had light wavy hair. A blonde female was staring intensely at me as the biggest guy in the family had his arms wrapped gently around her. I smiled at the guy named Jasper.

"Bella you remember everyone?" I shook my head no and she led me to the table. Everyone was quiet the Edward guy however wasn't in sight.

"Esmee, Carlisle, Emmett and Rosalie" she pointed to each of them. I watched as Esmee the motherly figure of them all smiled at me with a loving smile.

"Welcome back Bella we missed you" she stood up and walked around the table and hugged me. She pulled away and looked at me.

"Victoria did this to her" Alice explained.

"Is she still alive?" I heard the big guy Emmett asked

"No the wolves got her before she could finish off Bella" Alice explained.

I heard an extra pair of footsteps walk into the room everyone froze. I looked up and he stood there quiet and still. His eyes were focused on me I could tell he wasn't too happy with me being there. Everyone became quiet and waited for his response.