A/N: Thank you for your compliments on this story, just a heads up I have some dialogue from Twilight and New Moon in this chapter, all rights to it go to the author Stephenie Meyer. Thank you again for reading I hope you enjoy.

Why

"Why is she here?" his voice sounded angry I backed away and walked right into Alice's arms.

"She was invited" Alice defended me. He let out a growl and showed his teeth in anger.

"Then I guess I'll be leaving now" he started to turn and walk back toward the doorway he came through.

"Edward don't" I heard Esmee say. Her voice sounded strained like she wanted to cry if he was to leave.

"She doesn't remember and she doesn't want to so let it go" his voice was painful to hear. What I had said to him must have really broken him up inside. I felt a twinge of guilt thrust upon me as I watched his face.

"She's here isn't she?" Alice stated.

"But it's not her" he turned his head back for a second and then disappeared. I watched after him and just stared at where he had once stood.

"We're sorry Bella he's been like that since he left you" I heard Emmett say. I turned back to them slowly and watched their expressions.

He was right why was I here there was no point in remembering.

"He left me?" their faces were blank when I responded.

"You don't remember sweetie?" Esmee walked back to me and Alice.

"No" I stood there confused I was the only one who had no idea why this guy Edward was so upset by my presence.

"Here why don't you have a seat maybe we could try to help you remember" Alice said. I looked at her and then around at everyone. I wanted to know who he was, he seemed to love me with incredible passion I wanted that back in my life. I wanted someone to hold me and hug me and tell me they loved me. I wanted what I had as a human all I can remember was the love from my family. I don't even remember any friendships or this romance I had with Edward Cullen.

"I appreciate you guys wanting to see me and help sort things out, I'm not ready to remember anything I'm a lot happier just watching the people around and no one knowing I'm here" I pulled out of Alice's grip and began to walk toward where Edward had disappeared. I had lied directly to their faces and didn't mean to but it was for my own good.

"Bella, we don't want you to feel alone anymore" Alice pleaded with me.

"Thank you I have to leave" I told them. Before they could say one more word to me I ran as fast as I could. I opened the door and began to run down the stairs before I made it to the driveway I stopped short. The scent was strong and I faced back to the house and there he was. He stood there next to the house I froze and didn't move. He began to walk forward towards me until he was right in front of me.

"How is it I don't remember you?" I questioned sadly.

"I don't know but I can't keep running into you like this so I'm leaving again so we can forget this whole reunion thing ever happened" he kept a straight expression on his face. I wanted to cry my eyes out because it was one frustration after another. I wanted to remember him I really did, but my life was a lot less complicated without him.

"Don't leave" I reached out and touched his soft smooth face. He closed his eyes and took in a deep breath. His hand gently reached up touching mine holding it close to his face. I felt a sudden tingle in my body as soon as he touched my hand. It felt good it felt almost familiar.

"I want to remember you. I was scared everything here reminds me of what I once had, although I don't fully remember it's starting to all come back" his eyes opened slowly. I didn't know what to say and neither did he, all we could do was look at each other and stare into each others eyes like how Alice and Jasper had earlier. I looked into his eyes and began to remember specific moment of my human life. I began to feel a pain not just any pain it was an empty feeling.

We were surrounded by trees and I remember his topaz eyes as the feeling of numbness entered my body. "It will be as if I'd never existed" the familiar line ran through my head.

"Why did you do it?" I questioned. He looked confused.

"Do what?" he asked.

"Leave?" he grabbed my hand and took it gently off of his face but still held it with a tight grip.

"It was better for you" he told me. I watched him closely.

"Better for me? Do you see what I've become, I'm a walking zombie of death this is all I ever will be"

"No Bella you are more than that"

"Then you should have stayed I would still know who you are and I would be human or if not I would be happy and my parents would still have me now they have nothing" I began to feel myself sobbing. I pulled away from his grip and backed away into a tree. It seemed that this is how it would be every time we saw each other. I ran my hands through my hair letting it fall lightly and slid down the tree. Once I reached the ground I pulled my knees up to my chest and sobbed uncontrollably.

"Oh Bella" he cried as he was right beside me. His arms wrapped around me and instinct made me lie in his arms and hold him tight.

"It was stupid of me to leave you like this I never thought that you would literally forget about me, I just wanted you to move on to find someone who couldn't hurt you anymore"

"I think I'm in more pain now then I would have been if you had stayed" I told him.

"I want you to remember" he whispered.

"Please, please help me to remember you and your family I need to be around people who know I'm there. I can't hide out in my closet for the rest of my existence. I was starting to get lonely to the point where I was going to find a way to end it" I pleaded.

"You are and always will be my life Bella I will do what ever it takes to make you remember what we had together" he whispered again. The words he spoke were familiar just like everything else had been lately, I felt like he said similar words to me once before?

(Twilight Chapter 15 page 314)

"You were very deeply asleep; I didn't miss anything" his eyes gleamed.

"What did you hear?" his gold eyes grew very soft.

"You said you loved me"

"You know that already" I reminded him, ducking my head.

"It was nice to hear, just the same" I hid my face against his shoulder.

"I love you" I whispered.

"You are my life now" he answered simply.

"You stayed the night, you told me that I was your life, after I told you that I loved you, you heard me in my sleep I talked in my sleep, and you used to watch me, but I still .. I still can't remember…" I trailed off hoping to see more of the memory that once had been my life.

"You remembering that is enough to ask for right now" he kissed the top of my head lightly. I froze when he did. His voice was soothing and comforting I just stayed there wrapped up in his arms. It felt good to have someone touch me again, I hadn't had any real contact with anyone in 20 years and I had forgotten what a good feeling it was.

As we sat there he slowly grabbed for something that was in his pocket. I watched him carefully as he pulled away from me slightly. In his hand was a folded picture he unfolded it and looked down at it. He let out a slight smile and handed it to me. There we were standing in my living room I was human. My brown eyes focused directly on the camera there was some fear that lingered in my eyes. His crooked smile seemed like it was forced out of him.

(New moon page 61)

"You need to smile" Edward murmured. I did my best, and the camera flashed.

"Let me take one of you kids"

I kept my eyes steady focusing on the picture that was in my hands. I looked up at him he had been watching my expression.

"This was taken in my living room, I was using my new camera first I took a picture with my Dad and then you were there" I spoke quietly as he nodded with a small smile.

"Yes it was" he told me. I let out a smile too I hadn't let one of those out for years.

"Bella you will remember everything I will make sure of that I want you to be happy again I want to pick up where we left off as if I had never left" he said. I looked at him and watched him as I spoke.

"Can I keep this?" I questioned. He looked at me.

"It was yours to begin with, I took it with me so you wouldn't have to see my face" he tried to remind me.

"Is it?" I questioned.

"Yeah" he looked guilty like he had committed a crime.

"Why don't you stay with us so you don't have to hide anymore?" he questioned.

"Let me spend one last night at my house I need to say goodbye it will be better that way" I told him.

"Are you sure?" he questioned me.

"Yeah they need to move on and so do I" I explained. He let out a sweet crooked smile and took me in his arms again.

I could barley stand the thought of never coming back to see my parents again. First I watched as my Mom Renne slept peacefully next to Phil. Then I checked in on Charlie, he wasn't asleep. His eyes were focused out the window as he watched the rain fall from the sky. What would happen if I said hello and showed him that I was still alive and still well. I wanted to I wanted to so badly but I just couldn't. I stood in his doorway watching him. I felt someone behind me and turned quickly to see him, Edward standing there.

"I want them to see me Edward I don't want to be dead to them anymore" I whispered. He looked at me with caring eyes. I had seen these eyes and I had known these eyes, but yet they were still strange eyes to me.

"What if we figured something out, I can't leave them" I felt like crying.

"Bella" he shook his head.

"Get me out of here Edward please I can't …" before I could speak again he picked me up off my feet and we silently ran out the door. I stayed in his arms until we reached the outside of where I would be staying, the Cullen's house.

He didn't let me down at first he looked down at me and I looked directly up at him. We didn't say one word to each other again we were just mesmerized by each other and if I could I wouldn't mind staying like this. His eyes were comforting and friendly and I liked that.