Entering a bit of Alex' thoughts and fears. Such an experience he had you just can't forget. He had killed a lot of men in the past. He had been through a lot. He had seen a lot. More than a 14/15 year old boy should ever see. But it happens. And he just can't forget it.
He just wanted to be normal.
Alex woke up. He sweated. His night shirt was wet.
Nightmare.
He had been again there, hunting Julius Grief. It rained and he saw him falling to the ground. Alex ran toward him, saw his own face screaming for pain and laughing at him at the same time.
So much hatred in his eyes. Alex never wanted to become like him. Alex put up his gun. He didn't think twice. He pulled the trigger. Heard his double scream. Saw his doppelgänger die.
Part of him died that night. He often saw those scenes repeating again and again.
Sometimes he didn't wake up after it but sunk down next to Julius in the grass.
In one dream he once did suicide after that. In another one he was Julius. Sometimes he was himself, sometimes a participant from outside seeing a boy killing his twin. Someone he looked down from the sky and sometimes he was down at the floor.
Sometimes it was not raining, other times it was snowing or thundering. Always the same scenes, different tries to handle it. It never worked.
It was over two years ago and he still couldn't forget.
He had tried therapists but nothing had worked.
Those dreams came back every time. Again and again.
Sometimes Alex feared to fall asleep and remember it all over again. When Kate had lied next to him, he didn't feel that angst. She had given him hold, she seemed strong, somehow. She was so cute when she slept.
He sometimes looked at her sleeping for hours and he always felt safe to fall asleep when they were holding hands.
Alex knew that such a young love couldn't last forever but he hadn't have a real childhood and has grown up very fast.
She was ready, too. So they both took it more serious.
He loved her more serious than he had loved Sabina.
He didn't even know if it had been love.
But he was sure that he loved little, sweet Katelyn. He just couldn't think of her being evil. She was a nice girl with the wrong father. He didn't want him to lead her on the wrong ways.
But now she was gone.
She was in the hands on an incalculable man who could kill her every second.
Alex got up. He had to search her. He had to find her. Whatever it would cost.