Footnotes
Entry #25: November 2nd
The news hit everyone really hard. First Emma passed away and then James and Lily were killed by Lord Voldemort. My life was crumbling before me. I lost my wife and my best friend within a few months of each other. Remus was basically taking care of my kids…Emma's kids….
"He sold them that little rat! I'm gonna ring his bloody neck! He sold them out like they were animals! Animals Remus!" I bellowed kicking the nearest object, which happened to be Emma's favorite vase. As it shattered I let out a strangled sob mixed with a scream. Thankfully Kat and Draco weren't around to see my little fit. Everyone saw it. I was falling apart at the seams.
"Padfoot I know, but we are still in a war regardless of what has happened. He may be gone for now but that's not going to stop things from getting bad again. And trust me they will!" Remus shouted back. He always was the voice of reason.
"I'm going after him! I don't care what you say!" I hissed.
"What's going to happen to Kat and Draco if you get put in Azkaban? Did you ever think of that? Sirius you can't throw your life away, your children's lives away!" I stopped. What would happen to them…?
"I can't ask you to take the kids….that wouldn't be right," I grumbled. I didn't know what to do. Remus sat down next to me and repaired the vase that I broke before looking at me.
"I can take Kat but a werewolf should not be taking care of two children. I know it's gonna be painful to do this but if you really want to go through with this you're going to have to spilt the children up. I guess Tonks was saying that Narsissa and Lucius are infertile. I know you hate Lucius but at least Draco would stay in the family that way," Remus said with a shrug. I hated the idea. Lucius Malfoy, the world's most insufferable git raise my son? But what other option did I have?
"For a little while yeah I guess that could work as much as I don't like it," I replied with a heavy sigh. Remus owled Molly and Tonks so the kids could come back and get their stuff ready to head out in the morning and my mood dive bombed. I knew Kat would understand a little bit but I know Draco wouldn't. And I doubt Lucius would ever explain it to him. I would just have to explain it all to him myself.
"I love you both I want you to know that. And don't ever forget it," I told my children before I sent them to bed. I knew I wasn't going to be able to sleep so I sat down and wrote a little for Draco so that when he was older he'd understand and promised him I'd check in often.
"Am I doing what is right?" I said to myself as I knocked on the Malfoy residence door. Lucius answered with a sneer.
"Black…"
"Malfoy…let's just get this over with before I change my mind," I hissed at him. He just leered at me as I gave my son a hug goodbye.
"Every time you look at my boy, I want you to see her face. The face of my wife should haunt every second of your life for as long as you live," I told him. As I left he laughed. I went home and locked myself in my room and broke down. This by far was the second worst day of my life. And I just wanted all the pain to be over.