Disclaimer: All these characters belong to Stephanie Meyer.
Special note: Please be aware that this story is rated M and there is content in this chapter that may not be appropriate for some people. I don't want to offend anyone so please be warned that there may be some sexually explicit material in this chapter. Thank you and enjoy the chapter.
I just stood there, in the dust cloud kicked up dirt from the car, looking down the long drag. I couldn't move. Surely Alice was just playing a joke and would turn around at any moment.
I knew he was watching me, I felt his eyes on the back of me, but I wasn't prepared for this and I certainly wasn't ready now. He didn't say anything though. I must of stood there for a good five minutes and he didn't speak a word.
It was getting a little weird, just standing here, I had to brave up. I turned then and faced the house. Just like I expected he was standing by the open door looking at me.
"Did you plan this?" I said in a tight loud voice. He wasn't too far away however so it wasn't that necessary. I just wanted to sound strong.
"No I swear Bella, Emmett just asked me if I wanted to come up for the weekend. He dropped me off and said he was going to run to the store and that was the last I saw of him." He said in a sincere voice and I knew he was telling the truth.
I just nodded, not wanting to talk anymore. It was obvious though that Emmett and Alice were the two culprits in this little game but I wasn't going to play. It might have been the stubborn side of me holding out on facing this issue or that fact that I was petrified of it as well. Suddenly thunder rumbled in the sky and Edward ran forward to help me with the bags on the ground next to me.
"Come inside its going to storm soon." He said as he walked ahead with my stuff not waiting for a response. I followed along but I didn't plan on staying here long.
Once inside I looked for the phone in the house but only found the base without the receiver.
Edward looked at me examining the phone less stand. "That was Emmett's doing I'm sure. That is also the only land line. He took my bag that had my phone in it."
That made me think of my phone and I reached into my pocket and pulled it out. Alice wasn't stupid though and the battery was missing from the back. How the hell did she get past me to do that? I now realized that I was stuck in the middle of a forest without any ways of communication with the outside world.
"I think that they will come back before the weekends through." Edward shrugged as if it wasn't a big deal. I finally took in his appearance and at the moment he was shifting his weight back and forth on his feet with his hands deep in his pockets. He looked nervous…really nervous. Even though his words made him sound like he had a calm facade, looking at him you could tell he was far from it. Everything just hit me and I realized that we were alone together and now I was nervous too. I turned and looked out the window towards the forest. It was starting to rain now and I watched the drops rippling on the small lake.
I needed something to do so I started to unpack the shopping bags which contained food for at least a few days and also some strange items like candles, matches, as well as a two flash lights and packs of batteries. Alice had obviously looked at the weather report and was just making sure that we were prepared if we lost electricity. I worked at a slow pace and took my time, afraid of the moment when I had nothing to do and would have to face him.
He moved next to me to helped me put stuff away but I moved away from him like he was fire. From the corner of my eye I saw him put down the bread he was holding on the counter before moving to the living room. He seemed to get the hint and gave me space I guess. After everything was put away I really didn't know what to do with myself. I just stared out the small window over the kitchen sink for a moment. Taking a deep breathe I turned around and leaned back on the counter, elbows resting just on the surface.
He was sitting in an arm chair across the room looking down at his hands in his lap before looking up in the pin drop silence, meeting my gaze. His eyes had so many emotions flashing through them and he looked so broken. I couldn't bear to look at him looking like that and turned my eyes down to my feet.
"Bella… I need to talk to you." I didn't say anything but just looked up at him.
"I'm so sorry. I should have never said what I said and I didn't mean it. I could never think that about you." His voice sounded pained. When I didn't answer he spoke again.
"Please Bella I'm sorry. I was stupid and jump to conclusions." He pleaded. I just looked down.
"Yeah you did. You didn't even think to hear me out about it." I said in a detached voice.
"I know, I'm a jackass. I just got so… I couldn't stand the thought…." He sighed. "I'm sorry."
He was struggling to say something but I could hear the defeat in his voice. I wanted to tell him the truth now. "I didn't sleep with him." I whispered.
"I know… Alice told me." He said looking up from his hands.
My eyes narrowed. "Of course. So the second she tells you the truth you believe it." I said bitterly.
He started to get defensive now. "Listen you didn't exactly deny it to me when I asked you."
I stood up straighter, ready to get my point across. "I shouldn't of had too! You should have known that I wouldn't do that. Out of all the people Edward! I thought you would have been the one to have my back about this, the one I could go to for support. But you spit in my face about it and judged me like everyone else. I don't give a shit what others think… but you… I do give a shit about that."
He stood up now too and looked frustrated and hurt. "I know… I'm an ass ok. I know that. I should have known… its just that…never mind."
He turned away for a second so that I couldn't see his face.
I was done with him not letting out what he wanted to say and holding back. I wanted to know everything he was thinking. "What Edward? Tell me. Its just what?"
He turned and looked at me and then started to walk towards me.
"Its just that this whole year has been different. You changed, started acting different, dressing different. I mean you were still you, but it wasn't really you. It was like you were trying to be a different person. And it killed me because I knew it was for him."
I groaned in frustration and walked past him. This house was too small and I needed air. It was also unbelievably frustrating that he believed this. I slid open the glass door and walked outside into the now pouring rain. He was hot on my heels though.
"That's how I knew he didn't deserve you. Because he didn't want the best parts of you. My favorite parts that should never be changed." The Bella Swan I know smiles at gory movies when everyone else is cringing and covering their eyes. You get teary eyed during ASPCA commercials even though you think no one notices."
I stopped in my tracks but didn't turn around. How the hell did he know that? Every time I saw one of those commercials I always became a little choked up looking at those poor homeless animals, not having anyone to love them.
"You snort when you laugh too hard and bite your lip whenever your nervous." I let go of my lip from between my teeth at his words.
"You have such a passion for life and you want to see the world. I know you made us go get our passports last year for no reason because you have this fantasy of just leaving and getting out of this town….You won't though because of my other favorite thing about you-Your unconditional love for the people in your life. Like how you go fishing every so often with your dad because you know it makes him happy even though you don't like it. Or how you hate onions but always eat Esme's famous onion soup and tell her how delicious it was because you don't want to make her feel bad. And ever year you drop everything so you can be by your best friends side on the day his parents died and keep him together. You'd give the clothes off your back to your family and friends and you're probably the least selfish person I know. So don't you ever try to change that for anyone, because they don't deserve you if they can't love everything already about you."
I was crying in the rain as I slowly turned around to face him. He really did know me better than anyone, even things that I didn't think people noticed, he did. But out of everything he knew he still didn't know the most important thing about me. And I decided that he should know that very last thing. "Just shut up" I yelled over the sound of the rain hitting the lake water and the ground. Some thunder rumbled in the sky but all else was silent.
I turned around slowly to see him standing there quietly with his head looking at the ground and his arms limp at his sides. He looked so rejected and wounded.
"It wasn't for him…" I said in a shaky voice.
Edwards head snapped up and looked at me intently. I started to cry a little more because it was all about to come out now. Everything that I had been holding up inside of me for so long. The fear of telling him mixed with the relief of confessing the secret that had been eating away at me and the emotion was too much.
"It never was for him, never will be." I chocked.
"Then who?" Edward asked with his brows furrowed.
"Its was for you…always has been…." I wiped my eye with the back of my hand but it was no use. I was soaked from the rain so my tears mixed in.
"I… I don't understand… why would you change yourself for me?" He asked perplexed.
"So you could love me." I shrugged with my lip quivering as I tried to hold back more of the tears forming.
Edward shook his head still trying to make sense of my words. "But I've always loved you."
I bite my lip and let it come out. Yes I knew he did, but he was talking about loving me like a friend or a sister. I had a different meaning with the love I was talking about when it dealt with him. It hurt that he didn't understand, that he could never love me like that. Well I already took the leap into the truth pool, might as well go under.
I took a deep breath and let the final truth come out. "I know…but not the way I love you."
His eyes looked fierce and determined then. "No you don't know." Quickly he strode the distance between us until he was in front of me and grasped each side of my face with his hands before crashing his lips to mine. The sudden contact sent sparks throughout my body and I wrapped my arms around his neck while his hands moved down to wrap around my waist and pull me against him. His tongue flicked out against my bottom lip to ask for entrance and I eagerly complied, savoring the taste of him mixed with the rain falling down heavily on us. My hands went into his wet hair to pull his head closer while I stood on my toes to make up the height difference. He leaned down to allow me better access to him.
Then without even thinking I hopped up and wrapped my legs around his waist and he supported my weight with his hands on my bottom like I didn't weigh a thing. The kiss was needy and deep. We both couldn't get enough of each other. The whole time our kiss never broke until we finally needed air. I hadn't that the kiss broke but we were both panting from the emotion of it. With our foreheads pressed together, I smiled as he smirked and began to walk us back into the house, never diverting his eyes. Once inside he kissed me on the mouth again and pressed my back up against the wall by the door. Slowly he started to kiss along my jaw and down my neck while I whimpered from the feeling.
"I'm in love with you." He whispered when he was right by my ear and then put his head down on my shoulder nuzzling me but also seeming to try to get a hold of himself.
I felt my eyes glisten because it seemed too good to be true that he would admit to me everything that I had ever hoped he would feel towards me. From the position of our bodies I could tell that I had affected him, I could feel him pressed against me. But I wanted this, now more than I've ever wanted anything in my whole life. He loved me like I loved him, and now I wanted to be as close to him as I could ever possibly get.
He was breathing me in and trying to relax himself, but I didn't want that. He probably didn't want to push me to do anything but I wanted him to not hold back. I wanted everything he could give me and I would give him everything that I could possibly give.
"Edward.." I whispered into his hair. He slowly brought his head up from my shoulders to look at me and I saw that desire mixed with conflict on his face.
I took both my hands and put them on either side of his face to make sure he looked right at me.
"I'm in love with you too." I said in the most earnest voice that I could. He closed his eyes and smiled in pure joy like a deaf man finally being able to hear. I had an equally large grin and he came forward and kissed my lips softly. When his lips were just grazing mine I spoke against them. "Make love to me.."
He pulled his head back once again and looked at me startled.
"Bella… I don't want you to do anything you're not ready for. Just because I love you doesn't mean that you have to do that. I'll wait for you. I'll wait my whole life if that's what you want. I'm perfectly happy with what you've already given me."
"Its not like that. I've wanted this for a long time and I don't want to wait anymore. Unless of course you don't want to…." I said casting my eyes downward.
I felt his fingers on my chin as he titled my head up to look at him. "Bella I've wanted to make love to you for as long as I can remember." I smiled at him and he kissed me softly. I pivoted myself against him so I could feel him fully and he growled at the sensation, nibbling on my lip before pulling away.
"Are you sure?" He asked. I nodded my head before starting to kiss and lick his neck, making my way to the spot right behind his ear. He was walking now, and when I sucked on that spot his knees shook a little bit and he staggered.
I smiled into his neck knowing that I found a weakness. He climbed up the stairs quickly as I giggled at his eagerness and pace. A door was suddenly pushed open. We were in his room now and he walked slowly towards his bed in the corner next to the big window that looked out over the lake.
His room had two skylights on the roof that showed the darkling sky and the rain hummed against the house in its own sooth melody. Both of our clothes were soaked and the material clung to each other. He lowered me onto the bed before leaning over me with his elbows supporting him. I looked up at him as his two hand went to my face and smoothed the wet hair that was sticking to my skin.
For a moment time felt like it slowed down as we just stared at each other, the only sound of rain falling in a steady slow. He just stared down at me, tracing my face lightly with his fingertips, ending at my lips. I reached my hand up and pulled him down to me so that our lips connected once more.
My hand went down his back tracing his spine making him shivering until I arrived at the end of his t-shirt. Slowly I began to edge it up and he helped to shrug it off. He slid his hands under the edge of the shirt I was wearing, slowly pulling it up. His knuckles graced over the skin of my stomach and sides of my breasts, giving me goose bumps from the touch, before pulling the shirt over my head and tossing it to the side. I arched my back so he could reach behind and unclasp my bra, making it hang loosely on me. As he eased off the two straps, he kissed the skin on my shoulders where the material had been before pulling it down my arms.
I blushed in embarrassment and closed my eyes when my chest was now fully exposed to him. Never before had I let anyone see me this way.
I heard his voice over me as his hand came up to rub my cheek. "Hey… its ok, there's nothing to be embarrassed about, your beautiful." I kept my eyes closed and bit my lip, shaking my head in disagreement.
"Yes you are, but if you're uncomfortable we don't have to do this." I opened my eyes up and saw him looking down at me sincerely, willing to stop if I just said the word. And I knew he wouldn't complain or threaten me like James to do anything I didn't want to do. It was my choice, he was giving me the power to make the first move.
I slid my hand over his and pulled it off my face. He stared at me as I guided his hand down my neck and chest before stopping it to land on my breast, showing him that I wanted this too, that I didn't want to stop.
He let out a breath as his hand met my skin, cupping and squeezing while he kissed me deeply and intensely, letting me know the desire he felt. My eyes were closed as I kissed him back with the same passion before trailing my hands down his chest to the top of his jeans.
He looked down between us to watch me unbutton his pants and unzip them, before pulling them off his hips. I used my feet to ease them down his legs, which was difficult since wet jeans cling to skin, and we both laughed at the trouble I was having before he helped me the rest of the way. Before I could move to his boxers, he was unbuttoning my jeans and I lifted my butt from the mattress so he could pull them down my legs.
His fingertips ran over the edge of my panties but he looked me in the eyes first and hesitated, still giving me the way out. I nodded my head as he pulled them down my hips and legs until they were off me. I was now completely exposed to him but I didn't feel uncomfortable because he was looking at me like I was a goddess to him, treating me like a new found treasure. I held his eyes though as I slid his boxers down, not wanting to stare at his nether regions. But when they were fully off I couldn't help my curiosity and peaked down at him. I gulp when I saw all of him and I heard Edward chuckle over me. I blushed knowing I had been caught and smiled shyly at him.
"Sorry." I whispered.
He chucked again and gave me a chaste kiss on my lips. "There's nothing to be sorry for. You can look all you want. I know I am."
It was that fun and playful moment that made everything so comfortable again because it really was my Edward here with me, the same boy who had been my best friend over the years, nothing had changed.
I wanted him now though and the lust for him was beginning to build. He must have seen that look on my face because the playfulness vanished from his own and was washed over with desire. His green eyes took that familiar dark look I had seen before but never understood, realizing now that that look was one of passion, passion for me.
We began to kiss again, a slow steady kiss as his hands roamed, caressed, and felt parts of me that no one had ever touched before. I whimpered and withered at the new feelings and pleasures that his hands brought me and my hands soon started to have a mind of their own, wanting to touch every part of him like he was to me. We just explored each other, touching skin to skin, always coming so close to being with each other fully but never getting that far. He was gentle and patient but each touch made me more anxious and ready for him. I touched him there like he had touched me and he breathed in sharply, looking at me once again to make sure I was ready for the next step.
"Please" I whimpered below him.
He smoothed my hair again in a loving gesture and nestled between my legs. He looked down to meet my eyes before gently kissing my forehead…my eye lids….my nose… and ending on my lips.
"Please tell me if I hurt you and I'll stop." He whispered in my ear. I nodded my head as we stared at each other, not needing to speak what we felt, just seeing the love there.
Then slowly and steadily he pushed into me. We both gasped together at the feeling.
The pressure was strong and the pain came quick and sharp. We stayed still, locked together, both breathing heavily. My eyes got misty from the pain and he lowered his head down at me and kissed my eyes once more as if to kiss away the tears.
He was trembling above me as I held him tight against me. The thunder rumbled again in the sky and the sound of rain mixed in with our tattered breathing.
"Are you ok?" He whispered in my ear, his breathing ragged.
"Yes are...are you ok? You're trembling." I said as I cupped his face in my hands.
He smiled at me with love in his eyes before answering. "Perfect."
He lowered his forehead to mine before softly gracing my lips. Ever so slowly he began to move again. The pain was beginning to decrease now as our bodies moved as one, fitting together like I always knew they would. The feeling of total, blissful, and unconditional love and happiness that I felt in that moment with him washed over me. He was showing me how much he loved me with every kiss and touch as he filled me.
I didn't know what my body had been missing until now and I knew that I would crave him more than ever after this, especially since I now knew what it was like to be with him to the fullest extent. He would have to beat me off of him with a stick.
Everything felt good and it wasn't long before I felt him trembling again over me and a rush of warmth inside before he slowed. He laid his forehead on my shoulder, trying to catch his breath. After placing a single kiss there, he rolled off of me, my body already screaming for him to return. So quickly however he pulled me towards him, wrapping his arms around my waist so my bare chest was up against his.
He nuzzled into my neck and sighed, his hot breath tickling my throat, before placing small kisses all over me.
"Mmmm did I tell you how much I love you?" He whispered into my neck causing me to giggle and shiver at the same time.
"Nope I don't think you did." I teased.
"Mmm soo much. Everything about you. Your stubbornness and the way you can put me in my place when I'm being an ass…. The way you make me so unbelievably fucking happy that I curse without even being angry." I laughed when he said that. He snuck his fingers in my hair and began messaging my temples as he continued to speak, making me close my eyes in content. "You are the only one who can get my blood pumping one minute and then completely calm me down the next." He chuckled. "And you're the only one who can crack me up with your jokes and sarcasm."
"That's all personality stuff, you don't like anything physical?" I was just joking with him but he pulled away from my neck to look at me with that same passion again in his eyes.
"Don't even get me started about the physical stuff. I could go on for hours in that subject. I just didn't want to seem like a shallow guy." He laughed. Then he began kissing my face again. "Mmm I love your soft skin, these full lips, those big beautiful brown eyes and lashes, mm these perfect boo-"
I quickly put a hand over his mouth, embarrassed by his words about me. "Ok ok I get it. You love me." I giggled.
He smiled and pulled me over to him to snuggle closer. I smiled into his chest as he held me tight against him and sighed in bliss. I yawned though knowing today's events had been tiring to say the least but I didn't want to fall asleep. In the back of my mind was a fear that if I fell asleep I would wake up and find out that this was all a dream, that it was too good to be true.
"Go to sleep love" Edward whispered into my hair.
"But I didn't tell you all the reasons why I love you." I pouted.
He kissed my forehead and breathed into my hair. "And you'll never have too. Just as long as you do, that's enough for me."
I snuggled closer and forgetting about my fear and falling asleep in utter peace in his arms.
Morning light trickled in through the sky light over head. I stretched my arms and legs out, still in a sleepy state and forgetting exactly where I was. The bed I felt under me was softer and bigger than my own. Then it all came rushing back to me. I opened my eyes quickly and looked around the room, confirming that I was indeed inside Edward's room at the lake house.
The images of our bodies joining together, the kisses, the love, flashed in my head and I looked down to see my naked body tangled in the sheets.
I smiled but when I shifted I winced a little from being sore so I took small movements to sit up in bed. Next to me the other side of the bed was empty and my smile faltered. Maybe he bailed… my inner depressive monologue said in my head. I knew he wouldn't though, and couldn't considering that we were stuck here.
I smell a heavenly aroma of coffee and bacon coming from down stairs and decided to inspect. Quickly I shuffled out of bed, saw my clothing bag on the floor, and put on a pair of boy shorts. I was eager to get down stairs so I grabbed one of Edwards shirts from his dresser and threw it over my head. Then I bolted down the stairs and into the living room. From there I could see Edward facing the stove, his back to me. He was shirtless with only a pair of jeans on. I admired his muscle back and ogled him from behind as I watched him cook breakfast.
I looked around and saw that he had set up the small table in the kitchen with a nice white table cloth and put a few daises in a vase in the center. The gesture was so cute and I fell in love all over again. I tip toed my way across the floor and snaked my arms around his waist, pressing my lips to his back.
"Morning" I mumbled into his skin. He turned around in my embrace and wrapped his arms around me, looking down at my face.
"Good morning beautiful." He said with a big smile before giving me a light kiss on the top of my nose. His face stayed close to me then and he lowered his lips to graze mine gently. "How'd you sleep?" He whispered into my ear as he tightened the hug.
"Mmm excellent. Is Edward Cullen actually making breakfast?" I said titling my head because he had never made breakfast before. He shrugged and blushed a little.
"Yeah I learned how to make some stuff from Esme."
I leaned back a little in his arms to look at him fully since this was the first time I had ever heard that he had learned to cook. "Well then how come I was always the one to make breakfast in the past?"
He laughed and pulled me in. "Easy. No one cooks breakfast like you. That's my favorite thing you make for me."
"Then why are you cooking now?"
"Because I want to do something for you." He brought his hands up to my face to cup my cheeks and look me in the eye. "I want to give you everything." He said so seriously and intently.
"You already have." I whispered before bringing my lips towards his. He smiled against the kiss and pulled away. I pouted my lips at the loss and he chuckled.
"I'm almost done with breakfast. There are fresh strawberries over in the bowl on the table if you'd like some." My eyes lit up and I licked my lips before turning and heading towards the table. I picked a strawberry up and bit into it, causing a moan to escape my lips at how ripe and delicious it was.
Just then I was spun around and Edward's lips crashed to me. He pulled away and lifted me, setting me down on top of the table. I was so surprised that I didn't say anything as he kissed me passionately before devouring my neck.
"Edward what about breakfast?" I giggled in his hair.
"Screw breakfast." He mumbled into my skin.
He was standing in-between my legs and slowly dragged his fingers down to the helm of my t-shirt to bring it up my body while his other hand descended into unspeakable territories.
I tried to hide the wince when he touched me there but nothing goes past Edward. He pulled his hand away quickly looking overly concerned and worried.
"What is it? Are you hurt?" He asked pushing my hair behind my ear.
"I'm fine its just that I'm a little sore from last night." I said raising my hand to rub circles in his cheek, reassuring him that I was alright.
He dropped his hands down to his sides and looked down shamefully. "Oh God I hurt you. Why didn't you say anything? I would have stopped."
"I was wrapped up in the moment at the time, but its not your fault. It happens to ever girl their first time I heard. Next time it will be better." That caused him to look up with a crooked smile.
"Next time huh? Already thinking about next time?" He teased with a devilish look in his eye.
Leave it to Edward to be sad and masochistic one second to playful and horny the next. He brought his hands to my sides then and tickled me.
"No!" I laughed out. Just then I saw smoke coming from the toaster.
"Edward your toast is burning."
"Huh?" He questioned during his tickling onslaught.
"Your toast." I breathed out while trying to squirm away.
He turned his head to look around him. "Oh shit." He said as he released me and ran to get the toast out.
I laughed and hopped off the table to take a seat. He threw out the burnt toast and put new slices in before heading next to me with a big plate of eggs and bacon. There we sat eating the delicious breakfast he cooked and catching each other stealing glances at the other.
"I love you in my shirt." He said as I caught him checking me out.
I smiled and took a sip of my coffee. He went back to eating his food and I put my coffee down slowly. "Edward?" I said quietly. I was afraid to ask him what I wanted to next.
"Yes?" He said talking my hand that was on the table into his.
"Well you know that last night was the first time that I had ever done that with anyone." He smile and lifted my hand up to kiss my knuckles. He slowly opened my hand and traced lines in the palm creases.
"Yes I know, and Bella you don't know how happy I am that it was me. I've always wanted it to be me. Thank you." I smiled at him and playfully messed up his hair. He stretched his arms out and pulled me over to sit on his lap.
"So then…was that your first time too?" He looked at me confused for a second and then looked down a little embarrassed.
"Yes." He whispered in my ear. It made me happy and elated to hear that. Even if he said it wasn't his first time I wouldn't have cared, but I loved that we had both experienced it for the first time together.
I wrapped my arms around his waist and pulled him closer to me, giving him little fast kisses all over his face. He laughed until I starting sucking and nibbling at that soft spot below his ear. Then a moan escaped his lips.
"Bella you are making it very hard for me to hold back here." He warned in a shaky voice. I smiled and very quickly picked myself up off of him. He looked at me confused and I smiled slyly.
"I'll just stay away then." I said with a smile. His eyes narrowed playfully and he sprang from his chair.
"No way in hell." He said before chasing me into the living room as I laughed and tried to avoid him. I stood on one side of the couch with him on the other, going back and forth calculating each others next steps until he smile crookedly at me and hopped the couch, pulling me down on top of him. He held me close and just looked at my face, slowly tracing the contours of it with his thumb before ending on my lips. I liked the end to this game better now then before because at least now it could end the way I wanted. Slowly but surely he gave me my kiss.
The rest of the day was just total bliss. We didn't really do much of anything but be with each other. I could tell he really wanted to make love again but he didn't want to push it because he knew I needed a day to heal a bit. We went outside when the sun peaked through and walked hand in hand around the lake. We watched some movies on the couch that ended with some groping and innocent kissing before making dinner together. It was perfect, everything was perfect. The best part was that it was like it had always been, but with additional bonuses and extras.
That night we laid in bed together wrapped around each other, both so relaxed and peaceful in each others arms that we didn't move.
"Edward?" I said as I glided my finger tips up and down his arm like he liked me too.
"Hmm?" He said in his sated state.
"What do you think took us so long to confront one another?"
He shrugged in my arms. "I think we were both so stubborn to be the first to admit it and both too insecure to think that the other loved us back. Then of course there was this year where we both made so many wrong assumptions about things."
"Yeah I guess you're right. It just hurts to think of all the time that was right there for us that we wasted." I said feeling regretful.
He pulled me in closer to him and kissed my forehead. "Hey, we're here now. We shouldn't look at the past, there's no going back anyway. But you know what? I wouldn't do anything different. Everything that we went through, every good and bad time, every mistake or decision…it led me here with you. So maybe that was the way it was suppose to work out."
My eyes became a little glassy at his words but I kept it hidden so I didn't seem like the overly emotional girl friend. Wait am I his girl friend now? The question hung there in my head. I didn't want to ask him that because I didn't want to seem pushy but I wondered if that was what he thought of me as. He was rubbing circles into my back gently and had his head deep in my hair as our bodies faced each other. The rubbing slowly stopped and I knew he had drifted off. I kissed his neck and whispered I love you before closing my eyes and drifting off after him.
The next morning I woke up facing away from Edward but with his body spooning into my back and his arms wrapped around me. I looked down and saw that his one hand had drifted up my t-shirt and was cupping my breast. He snuggled closer to me but was still asleep. I rolled my eyes at this. Boys… I wouldn't move his hand from there though because he had every right to touch the ladies as far as I was concerned. I smiled at the way my mind was working now when it was dealing with Edward.
This weekend so far had been amazing even though we had only made love once. We never let go of each other though. One part of us was always touching and it seemed like Edward couldn't get enough of me, nor I him. I definitely wasn't complaining because I wanted to consume that boy every time I saw him and it did make me feel good that we both felt the same way about each other.
All of a sudden my silent happy thoughts was interrupted by a familiar voice.
"Oh jeezes! Looks like they made up." Alice's voice broke in the quiet room.
I snapped my eyes open and sat up quickly, causing Edward's hand to fall from my boob and onto my thigh. He was still sleeping but his brows pulled together in frustration and his arms tried to find me and bring me back to him again.
I looked at Alice wide eyed as she stood at the foot of the bed until Emmett roared in laughter from the doorway.
"You can say that again, I think they did a little more then making up." He laughed.
Suddenly Edward shot up and rubbed his eyes, trying to figure out what was going on as Emmett laughed harder. I groaned in embarrassment and put my head in my hands.
It only took Edward a couple seconds to fully wake up and comprehend what was going on but he immediately threw the blanket over us covering my bare legs and undies and his boxers.
"What the hell are you two do doing here?" He growled.
"We came back for you guys." Alice scolded. "I just didn't think we would find you in bed groping Bella." Alice laughed and Emmett joined in.
"Ahh" I groaned and threw a pillow over my head to hide me from the humiliation.
"Out!! Both of you now!!" Edward snapped, causing both Alice and Emmett to quickly scurry out.
Emmett hesitated at the door however, always having to be the one with the last word.
"Just hurry up with the dirty stuff though, Alice and I want breakfast." With that Edward threw his pillow hard at the door as Emmett quickly shut it, snickering from the other side.
I felt the pillow being pulled away from me and looked at Edward as he cupped my face and pulled me in for a soft peck.
"You alright?" He asked lovingly.
"Yup nothing hurt by my pride." I tried to sound calm but I was very embarrassed.
He scooped me up in his arms and I rested my head on his chest. "Nothing to be embarrassed about. They were the ones who left us here, they knew that something was bound to happen."
"Edward you had your hand clutching my boob when they walked in." I said.
He moved his hand to that exact location again and gave a squeeze. "That's because their perfect. I'd have my hand here for the rest of my life if I could."
I laughed loudly at him now and got up to get dressed. He fell back into the bed and pulled me down with him.
"Noooo, not yet lets just snuggle some more." He whined in a cute voice that made me smile and contemplate doing just that. I knew though that the two hooligans were downstairs waiting and the longer we took the more teasing I would have to ensue.
"No no lets get dressed and go downstairs." He pouted his lips at me pretending to be sad and I smiled and gave him a big kiss, earning me that smile that I love from him. We both got dressed quickly and headed downstairs hand and hand to face the war front.
Alice was sitting on the kitchen table drinking some OJ while Emmet flipped through channels on the couch. The second Alice saw us she stood up quickly.
"I want to know everything!" She yelled with a big grin.
I looked at Edward and was smiling back at me from his sister's enthusiasm.
"First of all Alice! Thanks for ditching me." I playfully scolded.
Her smiled dropped and she seemed concerned. "You're not really mad about that though right? Because that was the only way to get you guys to work out your issues. Emmett was the master mind behind it too."
"Thanks for throwing me under the bus Al." Emmett mumbled.
"I'm not mad Alice." I looked back up at Edward who was looking down at me endearingly. "Everything worked out for the best in the end."
"Oh God you both are so stinking cute!" She squealed when Edward and I were looking at each other. I walked into the kitchen with Edward.
"Want to make breakfast together?" I said to him. He smiled and nodded his head.
Alice had more questions but I told her to zip it until we at least had breakfast ready. Once breakfast was on the table and everyone was seated the question came again. Edward was holding my hand under the table discreetly.
"So are you guys a couple now." I swallowed my orange juice in a big gulp and looked at Edward to find the question that had been plaguing my mind. He seemed to be looking at me for the answer too. I bit my lip as the awkward silence grew and neither of us spoke. Then Edward answered, never breaking eye contact.
"Yes.. Yes we are." He said and I smiled and gave his hand a light squeeze telling him that I was happy with that too. He grinned a big goofy grin and turned his eyes back to his food.
"I knew you guys would always end up together!" Alice said excitedly.
"Congratulations guys." Emmett said as he slapped his hand on Edward's back.
There was a happy silence as we ate in each others company. Until that is when Emmett said his signature awkward line. "So did you guys screw like crazy or what?"
Edward nearly choked and spit out the coffee he was drinking and Alice laughed loudly.
Soon Edward glared at his brother. "That's none of your business. What happens between Bella and I stays between us."
Emmett chuckled. "That's definitely a yes."
As Edward chased a screaming Emmett from the table into the back yard Alice eyed me up, looking for answers.
"So what was… sex like?" She said looking me in the eye.
I groaned and picked up my plate to clean it off. "Do we really have to have this discussion?" I complained.
"Yes. Yes we most certainly do. My best friend had sex for the first time, it's a big deal! I don't want specifics though because it was my brother and all, but I would like an overall explanation."
I put my hands on the counter and sighed in defeat. "Fine….it was… amazing." I said with a small smile remembering how exhilarating and empowering the experience was. The things I felt, the love, the happiness, I didn't think I could really explain it to the fullest extent.
"Did it hurt?" She asked next.
"Yeah sure it did, but it was still unbelievable and just perfect." I said closing my eyes, with the smile still on my lips .
"You really do love him don't you?" She said as I opened my eyes to see her happily observing me.
"Alice...more than you know." I said. With that she came up to me and gave me a big hug.
"I'm soo happy for you guys. You deserve each other. You make him so happy Bells."
"He makes me so happy Al." I said squeezing her and pulling away. The boys came in and Emmett had mud all over his face and shirt but was laughing to himself. Edward came strolling in perfectly clean a second later with an equally happy demeanor.
Emmett went to the bathroom to shower while Edward plopped down on one of the chairs and pulled me on top of him. Alice rolled her eyes and I playfully swatted him away so I could help her start to clean up. Afterward, everyone helped to pack up all the food and things to bring home before cleaning the house a bit.
Edward complained and brooded about taking separate cars the ride home, but it was for the best since I was suppose to be away with Alice for the weekend anyway.
From the late night up with Edward and the early morning wake up call, I was tired during the car ride home. Alice wined about giving her more details about the weekend but I told her I would tell her whatever else she wanted to know if she let me sleep. She hesitantly agreed and before I knew it we were all ready home.
Emmett and Edward arrived first since Emmett was a speed demon and I found my delicious looking boyfriend waiting for me on my front steps as we pulled up to the house. He ran to open the door for me and carried my bag inside.
Charlie was watching TV on the couch but got up to give me a welcome back hug when I walked in.
Once we were upstairs away from Charlie's sights, Edward wrapped me in his arms.
"I missed you." He whispered in my hair.
"But we were only apart for two hours." I giggled into his chest.
"Yeah, two hours too long." He replied kissing my forehead.
"Bella?" He asked after the comfortable silence passed between us.
"Hmm?" I replied with my eyes closed, completely at ease just standing in my room hugging him to me.
"When are you going to tell Charlie about us?"
"Maybe I shouldn't." I answered, pulling away to look at him and seeing a hurt and disappointed expression on his face.
"Oh no not that I don't want to tell everyone that you're my boyfriend." My favorite smile of his returned. "Its just that if Charlie thinks everything is the same then maybe it will be easier to see you still. I mean I've never had a boyfriend before so I don't know how Charlie is going to react about it."
He rubbed small comforting circles into my lower back under my t-shirt as he answered.
"I don't think he'll be too bad about it. Charlie loves me to begin with so it should be alright."
I nodded knowing he had a point. "Alright, how about we tell him over dinner tonight? Its always easier to break news to him over food." Edward laughed and kissed me enthusiastically on the lips, making my knees go weak.
He helped me make dinner, which was much more fun with his indecent comments dealing with food and me and his not so subtle touches when Charlie was out of the room. He made me laugh until I had tears in my eyes when he put whole raw vegetables into a pot without cutting them up first and making jokes about being jealous of the food I was handling with my hands.
When dinner was ready I called Charlie into the room and suddenly lost the easy humorous mood from before.
"Looks good Bells." Charlie commented as he started to eat.
I looked at Edward who gave me a reassuring smile and I put my utensils down to place my hands on the table. Before I could speak however Edward spoke for me.
"Chief Swan" He started, causing Charlie to look up confusingly since Edward had spoken to him on a first name basis. My boy was really trying to impress the parental unit I guess.
"I was wondering if it would be alright for me to date your daughter sir."
Charlie chewed his food and swallowed before a smile crossed his face and started laughing. "Is this some kind of joke Eddie boy?" Edward's smile fell and he looked down at his plate. I moved my hand over his to comfort him and looked at my father seriously.
Charlie was looking now curiously at my hand over Edward's.
"Its not a joke Dad. Edward and I are seeing each other now on a relationship basis."
My father stared at us open mouthed. "You and Edward?" He asked again.
I nodded my head. " Yes I love him very much and he loves me." I said looking up at Edward as he smiled an easy smile now down at me.
Suddenly Charlie's clapped his hands down on his side of the table. He was smiling hugely at the both of us. "Well alright then." He said before going back to eating, but never breaking his smile. Edward and I stared with open mouths at him perplexed.
"So you're ok with it then?" I asked.
"Yeah sure why not. If you're going to date a boy than I'm happy its Eddie boy here. I trust him and I know everything there is to know about him."
Charlie then pointed his fork at Edward and put on his cop face. "Just because you're like a son to me doesn't mean you get any special privileges with my daughter though yah hear?"
Edward gulp. "Yes sir."
Charlie nodded. "Good. You've helped me clean my gun collection before so you know not to hurt my daughter." Charlie said in a teasing voice, making Edward smile again. "Take good care of our girl here ok?"
Now Edward was the serious one. "You have my word sir that no harm will come to her. She'll be safe with me." Then Charlie shook his hand as if in some kind of agreement and I rolled my eyes.
After dinner Edward helped me clean up and was glowing with that same goofy grin on his face that he had at the lake house.
As I was washing the dishes I nudged him with my hip when he was smiling looking down at the plate he was drying. "What are you smiling about mister?"
He looked down at me and kissed the top of my head. "Everything is finally how its suppose to be."
I stood up on top of my toes and kissed his lips after his words, showing him I agreed.
After dinner we went over Edwards to tell Esme and Carlisle. Esme cried and told me she wanted that to happen ever since we were little and Carlisle congratulated us. I went back home later that night to get ready for bed and put one of Edward's shirts on again. He was already in bed when I came in with his hands behind his head looking up at the ceiling thinking. He was smiling as he contemplated something and when he saw me enter he pulled the covers back for me to snuggle in next to him.
I yawned when I nestled into his side, draping my arms around his waist to pull him closer and he entangled our legs to together.
"I love you." I whispered to him as my eyelids fluttered closed.
"I love you too." He replied, kissing my hair.
Author's note: Hope you enjoyed the chapter. Please review, they always make me happy. I'll be at the beach for a week so I won't have interent, but it would be a nice welcome home suprise to see a ton of reviews when I get back haha. I started Chapter 13 and will be productive and continue to write when I'm away though. Hope everyone is having a good summer!