Disclaimer: All these characters belong to Stephanie Meyer.

I fell down breathlessly on the bed as Edward lay there panting heavily.

"Ok, we need a break before my body collapses," I breathed out as I looked over at Edward's sweaty and cocky grinned face.

"I knew you would break first. I win."

I grimaced, the competitive side of me coming through as Edward reached over to pull me into him.

"Oh I lose?" I asked as Edward nodded his head with that damn grin in place.

I pushed him down onto his back and climbed on top. "Ok I have one more go left in me I think, lets make in eight times now today shall we?"

I was bluffing, but hopefully he wouldn't call me out. Inside I was screaming for him to say no because I really did feel like my body was going to collapse in exhaustion.

Edward didn't call my bluff by the worried look in his eye. "Ok you win, you win. I can't do it again right now or my dick will fall off woman."

I laughed and leaned down to kiss his cheek before jumping off the bed and walking to the bathroom.

We had come to the lake house for the weekend to just get away and spend some time together. I had to gone to an orientation the previous weekend for my college. Edward accompanied my father and me and hung out with Charlie when I had to go meetings. I listed myself as undeclared at the moment.

We still had some of the summer but the orientation was just a reminder of the coming separation that faced us for the first time in our lives since we had met each other. I was nervous and I knew it made Edward anxious as well.

I had suggested that the two of us go away for a night and the second we walked in the door to the cabin Edward had jumped me the first chance he got.

Charlie was told that I was staying at the cabin with Alice while Edward was on a trip with a friend. He rolled his eyes and sighed at me before saying, "Kid, I'm naïve but I'm not that naïve. You are an adult now, just be safe and have fun."

On night turned into a weekend. The whole time I could sense his desperation and fear in his looks, touches, and lovemaking. He was scared for the future and it was starting to rub off on me as well. I put a brave face on though so that he wouldn't sense my own fear, trying to give him as many reassurances as I could.

I came back into the room and made a disgusted face at how much the place smelled of sex and sweat. If it was my own house I wouldn't care, but this was Esme's house and I couldn't leave this place with any evidence of the debauched things Edward and I had done in it.

As I started to open up the windows Edward walked by and smacked my butt before walking into the bathroom to pee with the door open. He was very comfortable around me, even with things I didn't care for like farting and burping.

I threw on one of Edward's shirts and some clean underwear before I ventured down towards the kitchen to make us some sandwiches for a late lunch/early dinner.

Soon Edward came down the stairs in his birthday suit, not seeming to have a care in the world. I think if he had the chance he would be naked every second of the day. Not that I minded.

"I thought I said you were not allowed to wear any clothes this weekend," Edward stated as he came up behind me and tried to lift my shirt up over my head.

I batted him away with a spatula. "There was a lake breeze and I was chilly. Also I don't want you to see me jiggling all over the place." I had grown more self-conscious since I had put on more weight over the summer. Edward's favorite things were eating and sex but even though sex was a good workout, it was the only exercise I was doing. I ate whenever Edward did and that was a lot, and not healthy choices.

Edward snorted and put his hands on his waist. "There is nothing that would jiggle on you except your boobs. I would enjoy seeing that, " he said with a smirk and a wink.

I rolled my eyes as he laughed. The phone rang and I answered it right away, figuring it would be Esme or Alice. Sure enough Esme was calling to see how the house was. We kind of lied and said that a bunch of school friends were going up for the weekend because we knew we would never be allowed to go up by ourselves.

I was talking to her about the weather as Edward tried to distract me with his nakedness any way he could.

"I'll show you a part that I can jiggle around", he whispered as he started to move his hips in a circle. My eyes fixed on the lower part of him that did indeed start to jiggle, well more like flop around.

I stared with my mouth open before I burst out laughing, interrupting whatever Esme was saying on the phone.

"Bella? What's happening?" Esme asked with a chuckle.

"Just your son and his weird shenanigans."

She laughed and told me she would see us tomorrow. As hung up the phone, Edward picked me up and set me on the counter, a big grin on his face.

"You are such a weirdo." I breathed out, running my hands through his hair.

He hummed with his eyes closed and kissed my nose. "I'm your weirdo."

I sighed in contentment. "Yes you are."

The next day we made it home before noon and I noticed a little blue Prius in our driveway behind Charlie's truck.

As Edward went home to see he family and unpack I ventured in to find my mother and father sitting at the table drinking a cup of coffee.

I stood in shock as I watched my Dad laugh at something she said. It was a surreal situation because I couldn't remember them ever sitting down together and talking let alone laughing. I coughed and they looked up. My father looked embarrassed and my mother just looked anxious.

She had gone back to Arizona a week after graduation and it was a surprise to see her here now especially because she made no mention of a return.

"Mom, what are you doing here?"

She smiled and pulled me into a hug. "I talked to your Dad and I thought that I would come back and spend some time with you before you go off to college."

I looked in confusion to my dad who seemed to be engrossed now in the newspaper.

It was strange to see her again so soon but as I looked at her hopeful expression I knew that I couldn't show any displeasure in spending some time with her.

"That's great Mom, I'm happy you'll be here."

She then excitedly talked about how she was going to help me shop for things for my dorm and new clothes I'll have to get. It was strange to have her here and I had to wonder why she was staying so long now after all this time.

Edward seemed just as surprised to see her, but I just shrugged when he looked at me with questions in his eyes. I knew he was just making sure I wasn't uncomfortable or upset. That night Renee stayed for dinner and cooked us turkey burgers and sweet potato fries. My father looked at it in distain but ate it anyway to make her happy. I noticed that he seemed to smile more even though he didn't say much. My parents actually looked genuinely comfortable around each other for the first time that I could remember.

My mom stayed in a hotel but I saw her everyday. She was always at the house and making dinner for us.

One night as we were washing dishes I asked her how Phil was doing. She looked away and I could see the tears in her eyes before she put her brave face on. Renee finally admitted that she had finalized a divorce from him and decided that she wanted to be back up here for the rest of the summer so she could spend time with me before I went off for college.

I was a little angry at first that now after all these years I was a priority to her since her marriage had ended but I discovered a soft spot in my heart for her as she cried about the regrets she had in life, one of them being not seeing me grow up everyday. I knew she was in a bad spot in her life so I didn't want to kick her while she was down.

I did talk to Edward about it and he let me vent whenever I needed to which helped me get rid of some of the anger I did carry inside regarding my mother.

Summer days started to pass by quickly. My mother bought a yoga studio in Port Angeles with her large divorce settlement and I was seeing her around the house a lot. She was renting a small house about half way between Forks and Port Angeles so she could be close to work and us. My father seemed to be warming up to her more and more which was good because I was trying to spend as much time with Edward as I could.

Spending time with my family was important but my life had pretty much centered on Edward for the last ten years and I wanted to spend as much time with him as I could before our separation. That summer we lived and breathed each other as much as possible. Surprisingly we didn't get sick of each other.

That summer was one of the best of my life, from everything like warm kisses every morning, to the sound of Edward's soft snoring as he snuggled against me at night.

I went on a family trip with the Cullen's to Hawaii where Edward snuck in my bed at night in the room I was sharing with Alice. We even convinced her to sleep in Emmett's room for a couple days so that Edward and I could have the privacy we needed.

We surfed and snorkeled together, lounged on the beach during the day, and I had Edward applying aloe to my pink-sunburned skin at night. He of course was a brown berry, looking so delicious that I made myself attached to him wherever we went to make sure other girls on the island didn't think he was single and ready to mingle. Edward would laugh at my jealous behavior and call me cute.

Long summer days started rounded down as reality started to creep in. The best times always seem to go by the fastest and if there was truth in that it was by how fast our summer went. Once it was the beginning of summer with so many days ahead of us and next it was the night before I left for college. Edward would leave the weekend after me so he was going with my parents to move me in.

That night there was a bad thunderstorm. Edward barely talked all day as I finished packing away my life for the next four years but I noticed he barely left my side, wanting constant contact with me.

As we lay in bed that night with the rain and wind pounding my window and Edward warm between my legs, we clung to each other as if it were the last time we ever would. In reality it would be a long time before we joined like this again so we took our time, making it slow and sweet even though I knew I would be exhausted for move-in the next day.

As Edward swiped hair away from my face he looked me over intently before gently kissing my lips as our bodies meet.

"I'm scared," he whispered against my hair as he took a steady breath.

I trembled below as my emotions got the better of me. I couldn't lie to him in that moment to make everything better, and I know he wouldn't want me to.

So I told the truth, knowing that it was hard for Edward to admit his insecurities.

"Me too," I whispered back as I clung to him tightly.

Move-in day was overwhelming. People were everywhere, parents and siblings helping new college students get settled in to their new lives. There were tables outside to sign in and collect dorm keys. I discovered that my dorm was on the fourth floor.

There was only one elevator on the floor and even though it was working, it had to be the slowest machine on earth and the line for it went all the way outside.

Charlie's patience was wearing thin and he somehow managed to talk Edward into the idea of carrying everything up all four flights of stairs. My father was red in the face as he huffed up my heavy luggage while my mom and I carried food and blankets.

My new living space was boxed shaped with two windows on the back walls, two beds, two desks, and two closets. Since my roommate did not show up yet I chose the bed, desk, and closet on the right of the small room. I didn't think it really mattered anyway since the left side was the exact mirror of the right.

As Edward and my father went to get more stuff from the car, my mom helped me make my bed and put away clothes and food. The door opened suddenly to Edward carrying my mini-frig in his arms, panting as if he was going to have a heart attack. The thing was small but heavy, and I knew he was an idiot and chose to walk up the stairs with it to impress my father. We collected the last of the items from the car, after which Edward passed out in my bed from lack of sleep the night before and his over usage of energy today. It felt like such a long day and I really wanted to cozy up in bed with him but I wanted to finish organizing my stuff. My parents left me to go walk around campus as I taped up picture collages that I had made to my side of the room.

That was how my new roommate found me, alone in my room pinning pictures to the wall with a boy sprawled out asleep in my little twin bed.

The girl, named Kate, had dirty blonde hair, a square shaped face with a straight nose and big blue eyes. We hugged each other since we had been talking through email for about a month when we found out the school paired us together.

After getting the basic greeting out of the way Kate raised her eyebrows as she noticed Edward in my bed.

"Whoa, move-in day and you already have a boy in your bed, nice work," she whispered in amusement.

My cheeks pinked in embarrassment. "Oh no, that is my boyfriend Edward, and don't worry about whispering, he sleeps through anything."

Kate laughed before placing her bags on the other bed.

"I hope you don't mind that I picked this side, I just put my stuff down but if you want to change I'll be happy too," I stated nervously.

Kate waved it off. "Both sides look identical, no need to worry."

I sighed in relief since I had already unpacked everything. I made small talk as I continued decorating. Kate was in and out since she had more stuff to bring in from her car. After putting up about a million pictures, many that included Edward, I put all my work stuff and books away in my desk.

One could definitely tell the difference between Kate and me. Her side of the room exploded with lots of zebra print and bold colors. Everything looked and smelled new. I had my bed spread from home that was light blue with flowers. The only thing new I bought for college was the mini-frig and life saving storage containers.

Edward finally woke up an hour later as I was laughing about something with Kate. He grabbed my waist as I sat on the bed next to him and snuggled into my back.

When he finally opened his eyes he looked surprised to see we had another person in the room but sat up so he could introduce himself.

"Nice to finally meet the roomie's boyfriend," Kate declared with a twinkle in her eye.

Edward smiled and ran a hand through his hair, already a mess from his little nap. I smirked at his roster head as I noticed Kate really appraise him.

"So you are the one who will be spending a lot of time with my girl this year. Keep her out of trouble please?" Edward commented in a teasing fashion but I could tell by his eyes the last part was more serious then funny.

Kate smirked and nodded her head. "I'll try my best lover boy."

A knock at the door caught our attention but it was only my dad and my mom coming to say that they wanted to take me out to an early dinner before they left. I introduced them to Kate who was very polite.

I could tell my father approved and it eased his worries about me. Kate declined the invitation to dinner since her parents were about to arrive but she told me she would meet up with me later.

We picked a local diner to have dinner, which was jam-packed with parents and their kids.

My mother and father, could not stop talking about the buildings they had seen when the toured around campus and how impressed my father was with their sports complex and fitness center. Edward who sat next to me in the booth held my hand the entire time, but barely spoke a word. I would catch him looking at me and smiling weakly to anything my parents said.

The oncoming separation that had once felt like was far in existence was suddenly minutes away. The final grains of sand falling through the hourglass of my time spent with him.

I could feel the fear starting to bubble inside of my stomach as our bill was paid and we walked back towards the parking lot next to my dorm where my dad's truck was parked. It felt like a walk to my death as my parents strolled in front of me while Edward wrapped his arm around my shoulder, keeping me close.

I had felt how sweaty his palms were becoming as we held hands in the dinner, a big sign of how anxious he was getting. Still he said no words as we walked back. A walk that felt like they were taking me to the guillotine, but instead of losing my head, I was losing my heart.

When we reached the car, I finally stepped away from Edward so my mother could hug me tight, telling me how much I was going to love it here.

My Dad smiled at me warmly as his big arms enveloped me tightly, letting me know that he was really going to miss me. I blinked back tears and told both my parents I loved them, but made sure to especially whisper my sentiment to my father who had been such a big support to me all these years.

"Stick it out here until Thanksgiving Bells, that's what they say will make the change easier than coming home right away," my father whispered, probably so Edward couldn't hear and object.

I smiled weakly, unsure if I could make that promise just yet.

Charlie looked at my mother before thumbing towards the car. "I think we should give these two a moment alone before we leave."

Both my parents took off as I turned and faced the one person I knew I wouldn't be able to hold back my tears for.

Edward looked down at me with a clenched jaw and wet eyes before pulling me into him tightly.

I couldn't hold back my choked sob as the tears fell and wet the cotton shit on his chest.

"Shh…." he whispered in a broken voice. The sound of his voice, his smell, his warmth, made me cry harder knowing it would be gone in seconds.

"Hey..." Edward said, tilting my face up with his hand. I looked into his serious expression as I bit my lip trying to keep my sobs in as the tears ran down my face.

"We'll survive this," he murmured before bending down to kiss me. My lips trembled against his as I let out a shaky breath into his mouth. His hands cupped my face as he kissed me gently and sweetly.

I felt a tear from him fall on the top my nose as Edward let out a soft whimper.

All to soon Edward pulled away and walked swiftly to the car, wiping his face with his shirtsleeve to hide the evidence of his pain, never looking back.

I knew it would kill him if he looked back at me just as much as it killed me not to look away.

There I stood, starting a new chapter of my life, crying on the sidewalk as my heart drove away.