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Chapter: 5 Sleepover Edward and a door

"Bella are you sure you want to go to there house tonight?" Emmett asked me for the twelfth time in the last twenty minutes. Mostly because I kept throwing up into the nearest container. "I rather be there with a doctor around. Obviously I did not have access to such things in Jacksonville or in Phoenix but it would be nice to have him near bye incase I get extremely sick tonight….do not worry." I waved my hand in his direction.

He frowned slightly then groaned. "Fine Bella but me and Jasper are staying too! On the couch!." He smirked like he had won some prize. I frowned at him but shrugged. "Fine but you have to convince Carlisle and Dad."

Oh who was I kidding dad would probably love that idea and Carlisle probably would no mind knowing the boys would not try anything with there ill sister in the house.

"Rose/ Would you mind terribly going to my house and picking me up a few things so we can go straight to your house?" I asked and she shrugged. "I do not mind…Em give me your house and car keys." He handed them over willingly. I then scribbled out what I would need, pajama's a few sets of clothes, and of course my breathing machine located next to my bed. I used it from time to time. Due to the tumors on my lungs it made me have trouble breathing at times during the night, so it was a precaution.

She looked over my list frowning at the last on, I shook my head waving it off I did not want Emmett to hear about it.

Rose gave me a gentle hug before heading out the door. "Emmett? Can you lay with me? Please?" I said with a small tired smile.

It had been two hours since my chemo ended and I was feeling horrible.

Part of my reasoning for wanting to go to the Cullen's home was because I would feel better if Carlisle was around, another part of it was because I did not want dad to see me like this, I could not do that to him. He worried too much and never spoke about it. Emmett and Jasper had Rose and Alice they would be alright. One of my other reasons was to get to Edward and speak to him again.

'Sure Bells..do you need anything before?" he asked I shook my head but regretted it instantly and puked into the bucket before groaning softly. "I am alright now…" I said quietly. Rising my mouth out spitting it into the bucket. I had been moved to a bed so I would be more comfortable. Emmett gently lifted me before climbing into the bed and held me against his massive chest. I turned my head and nuzzled my self against him more and sighed.

He really was like a gigantic pillow. "Em? Do you remember the giant teddy bear you sent me when I was ten?"
He nodded a bit. "I named it Emmett and every time I got home from Chemo I would lay with it. But now I have the real one…mom is sending it with the rest of my things…it would not fit in my bag. I love that thing. But I love you more" I giggled before sighing.

He nodded once I could swear there were tears in his eyes, but he blinked them away quickly. "I am glad Bells. I love you too…and I am glad your home. I missed you." He said simply before grinning. "You know Bella? I think you puked more today then me and Jazz combined in the last four years! Congrats.' I blushed deeply smacking his arm knowing it would not hurt. "S-Shut up." I muttered my face turning red. Just like Emmett to make some stupid comment. I loved him for it though.

Doctor Cullen agreed earlier to me staying over and I could leave when his shift was over which would be in another four hours. Still two hours earlier then I thought I was leaving. I was glad I knew Carlisle more then my other doctors. He was much gentler and more caring. I do not know if it was because we knew one another or if he was just a kind man.

After another hour of Emmett making stupid comments and joking and me puking I was exhausted and fell asleep. I awoke now and again during the next four hours with fits of nausea and apologized to Emmett every time and he waved it off.

When I awoke for good when it was time to leave I remembered why I dreaded chemo. Everything was achy and my joints hurt, only dull pains right now but I knew they would get worse it always did but it would be horrible because it was my first round for a long time, plus it was a newer drug.

"Emmett? Can you get my pajama's from Rose? I just want to change here instead of at the Cullen's since I will probably go straight to bed…" Emmett frowned sadly before nodding fetching my pajamas from Rose. Though Rose is the one that came in.

"I thought you might need some help changing and I doubt you want your brother here to watch you change." She smiled gently and I nodded. "I will let you know if I need help but um…would you mind turning around?" I asked softly.

Slowly she nodded in understanding before turning around. I sat up removing my shirt and pulled on the long sleeved flannel pajama top. It was blue with little white clouds on them. I giggled a bit. I loved these pajamas. I sometimes wore sweats and an old shirt but I loved my warm pajamas in Forks it was always cold. Soon I struggled to remove my pants while sitting before pulling them pajamas up my legs before swinging them off the bed.

"Can you help me stand up?" I asked softly. Rose nodded slightly before turning and helping me up with out looking down. I held my pants as I stood and pulled them up before grinning and slipping on my slippers before sitting down waiting for Emmett and Carlisle to return.

"Rose? I seen Edward today…he thinks I am dead…he said it right tomy face that I am dead…" I said frowning a bit before sighing.

She shook her head a bit. "He thought mom and dad were dead, me Emmett, Alice, Jasper. Basically the guy brainwashed him into thinking it…but…he has been doing okay lately on that aspect. He must not have taken his meds today…" Rose said with a frown before shaking her head. I groaned a bit before nodding . Damn what had happened to him. She stood slowly with assistence when Carlisle and Emmett came into the room.

"Bells? Your gonna ride with Carlisle alright?" Emmett asked and I nodded before shrugging. It did not matter to me. I took a step stumbling a little. Emmett caught me but he scooped me up into his arms.

"Emmett! Put me down now! I can walk!' I whinned squirming. I did not want to be carried I was not a cripple.

"Nope. It is either this or a wheel chair?" he said knowing my dislike for wheel chairs. I frowned deeply and snuggled against Emmet. A blanket was put over me because I refused my jacket. I was comfortable. Emmett was very large so his arms were comfortable.

Carlisle did not say much as we headed to his black Mercedes. He opened the back door and Emmett set me inside even buckling my seat belt. I glared deeply at him. "Thanks Emmett but I could of buckled myself into the seat…" I muttered and he just laughed shutting the door before heading to his jeep.

Groaning softly I leaned against the seat as Carlisle climbed in, but did not leave. "What are you waiting for?" I asked softly. He shrugged looking over. "Edward." He said simply. "Normally he drives himself but his Volvo got…hmm…well it is not working. " Carlisle's voice was soft. "Just stay quiet and he probably will not notice you…might be better during the car ride if he doesn't freak."

I nodded in agreement as I leaned back against the seat pulling the blanket around me tighter to keep me warm. No more then two minutes later the passengers side door opened and Edward climbed in wearing a pair of tight black wash jeans and a black jacket over a black shirt a white pendent around his neck. I recognized it as one I had given him right after I left in thanks for the one he gave me. I had sent it in the mail. I had found it on the beach in La Push the day before I left but did not have time to put it on a string.

So once I found the right string, a white one, and got a hole through the small white rock. My mom had a professional do it for me, much like Carlisle had done with the shard of glass and on the back of the rock I carved B 3 E. I was surprised he still had it.

I stayed quiet as I sunk further into the seat watching him and listening to their conversation.

"Hello Edward. How was volunteering go today?"

"Fine."

"How are you feeling?"

"Fine."

I got the picture pretty quick. Edward wasn't one for talking. Never was but it was worse now.

"Did anything interesting happen in the oncology department?"

Oh he was getting to the good stuff now.

"Nope."

Scratch that nothing interesting about that response. Carlisle seemed used to it, but sighed and continued.

"I heard you ran out after talking with a patient? What happened?"

"Nothing."

"Why did you run out Edward?"

"No reason."

"Edward." He said sternly.

"Someone kept saying they were Bella and I kept telling them that Bella was dead, must have been a hallucination or something. Looked just like her, well that is not true…completely different but she had the same eyes…Bella's eyes always seemed to see through me, hers were the same. I could not stand it any more and left.' He said as if he were reciting a news article. Maybe that is what he thought of it.

"Really? Now that's interesting. Are you sure it was a hallucination and not the real thing?"

He shrugged not answering. "If you thought it was a hallucination why did you run?" Carlisle asked him not getting an answer so he stopped talking. I kept my eyes on Edward's face in the mirror his eyes were closed as he sat there. Maybe that was why Carlisle said he would not notice me.

Soon we pulled up to the Cullen's house when Carlisle spoke again. "Edward? Bella is alive and she is back in town."

Edward looked at him frowning before opening the car door and heading inside. Sighing quietly I went to open the car door but it was opened by Emmett instead who had arrived before me. Gently he picked me up and carried me inside while I grumbled and complained before bringing me up to a guest room between Alice and Rose's room. They even had connecting doors. This was always were I stayed when I slept over.

All three of us would hang out until we got tired and went to bed. This room still felt like home to me.

?Thanks Emmett, now shoo, shoo." I muttered before laying back. I was still a little mad about being carried around the house like invalid. It was annoying but I could understand why. Him and Jasper were staying in the basement for the night. I was invited to come down and watch movies if I felt up to it. I didn't so I laid on the bed closing my eyes. Glad there was a bathroom across the hall.

Around two minutes later there was a knock on my door and I said come in before Esme entered cautiously. "Hello Bella it is nice to see you again, finally." She walked over hugging me gently setting down a tray with two bottles of ice cold water, some ginger ale, and a few other things, plus my new meds Carlisle prescribed. Charlie must of dropped them off.

"Thank you Esme…and yeah…it is nice to see you again to, I missed coming here. I hope you do not mind the intrusion for a few days. Carlisle said it was okay." She nodded. "It will be nice to have three added kids hanging around. " I giggled before nodding a little before quickly standing and rushing to the bathroom. Esme followed after finding my toothbrush. "Thanks." I said softly before cleaning my mouth quickly, twice.

When I returned to the room Esme had been replaced by Alice and Rosalie sitting on the large bed. "Instead of watching a movie with the guys we figured we would sit up here and watch one with you until you sleep is that alright?" Rose asked and I smiled before nodding.

"If you do not mind me rushing off now and again…" I said softly. I was always embarrassed by how sick I got at times but I trusted these two even if I had only been back for a short time, both of them were pretty much the same. Alice the energetic pixie and Rosalie slightly self loving but they were awesome just the way they were. They treated me the same, unless something was happening as far as I could tell or hoped. I knew it would be different once school started.

They nodded there eyes some what sad but they recovered quickly. "What do you want to watch?" They asked holding out a few movies. "The Notebook!" I said pointing to one of the different movies. I had not seen it in forever! I knew I would probably fall asleep before the end but it did not matter.

As the movie started I nursed my ginger ale trying to keep the nausea at bay thankfully it worked for now but I fell asleep just as they shared there first kiss. So when I fell asleep of course I dreamt of my own first kiss with Edward.

I smiled sheepishly during my dream. I loved my dreams when Edward was in them, though when my dram ended I suddenly felt as if I were being watched. I opened my eyes slowly a deep blush forming on my cheeks when I seen Edward standing there staring at me. I noticed Alice and Rose had left the room and I currently wondered why Edward was standing over me. I must be dreaming so I closed my eyes reopening them around two or three minutes later and he was gone.

I frowned slightly. Why was he gone so quickly? It must have been a dream. Slowly I rose to my feet and stumbled slightly and held the wall for support heading out of the room slowly and headed down the stairs in the same manner taking small breaths when I finally got to the bottom steps. I headed into the kitchen to find something I could eat with out getting sick. Frowning a bit but then finally spotted some jello it had not been there the day before. Esme must of made it.

'thanks Esme.'

I thought before taking it out and scooped a bit out into a bowl before sitting down, making sure I knew were the garbage was just incase I got sick. I did not want strangers or anyone cleaning up my puke from the floors. Sighing I poked the green jello and shrugged before taking a small, tentative bite before humming softly it felt good to eat something even if I hated jello. I ate way to much of it for me to like it at this point. I used to love jello,and I new if I ever survived this I would never eat jello again.

I also put some water on for tea and grateful when I found mint tea. It always helped. When I looed up from my jello I spotted Edward in the kitchen. "hey." I said softly with a wave.

'hello hallucination of bella." He said before going to the fridge and getting some jello as well before sitting down. He had always hated it when we were children. Interesting. Slowly he sat down across from me.

When the teapot whistled I stood. "tea?" I asked and he nodded a bit. "Sure."

"Extra sugar a .little milk?" I asked getting another nod, he had always drank his tea like that. I poured two cups before bringing it to the table. I drank my straight it helped better that way. I remember one time when Edward was sick and his mom would only make him plain tea. He would spit it out and I would sneak him some sugar for it.

"Thanks hallucination of Bella." He said again before sipping the tea.

I frowned again. Did he really have to keep saying hallucination? I was no hallucination, but I decided to play along at the moment.

"No problem." I mumbled before sitting down again as I ate slowly before speaking. "Why do you think I am a hallucination?" I asked him.

I got a shrug but he answered. "Because Bella is dead."

"Why do you think that?"

"Because she was sick and he said she was."

"But didn't you promised this would keep me safe until I came home right?" I took the heart shapped glass on my neck and held it out a bit. "That I would be safe and one day marry?"

He nodded once. "But it didn't work…that's what happens. Children make stupid promises and there is no real hope for it. I really thought it would work, that if I gave you..Bella my heart one day she would come back and we would mawwy and be together.'

I could not help it I giggled slightly.

His eyes opened wide glaring slightly like he had as a child. "even my hallucination laughs at me.' He grumbled as he kicked his feet under the table. I giggled again before answering. "You still c-can not say your R's when you say marry." I giggled again regretting it when my body started aching more. I picked up my tea and sipped it slowly warding off the nausea and resting a moment.

A small ting of red came to his cheeks before fading. "Shush." He muttered before staring at me. My own cheeks going red.

Edwards POV

After awaking from my usual nightmare 9one I could not remember because I had blocked them out for so many years) I headed to the room Bella had stayed in when she was younger. I was surprised to see my hallucination laying in that bed.

When the hallucination started to stir I quickly left the room and headed back to mine which was up the steps.

Soon I felt hungr, having skipped my dinner and lunch like always. When I got to the kitchen I once again seen my hallucination sitting there eating green jello. So what did I go I went in the fridge got some jello and sat down. Excepting her offer of tea.

As I sat here eating some nasty tasting jello and the best tea I have had in years the only thing I thought about was Bella. I started at the hallucination as I ate the jello. I ate the jello because she was eating the jello. Yeah I do not get it either. As we spoke I could not believe how Bella like this hallucination was to the Bella I remember. Laughing because I could not say marry like a normally person. Though merry was the only word I could not say the double rr's on.

Sighing I rested my chin on my hand staring at her. Why would I imagine Bella with no hair and so thin, and not with her long brown hair, chocolate eyes and healthy color.

I shook my head before standing and putting my bowl in the sink along with my cup. "good night hallucination." I mumbled before heading to the kitchen door.

"Edward! I AM NOT AN HALLUCINATION!" I heard from the table and I turned to see my hallucination of Bella crying. Everyone told me Bella was alive but I never believed them but in that moment as I stared at the crying girl, I realized she was no hallucination because my hallucination Bella would never be crying. Though no hallucination could bring you tea either.

Though I knew all of these things I shook it off. She could not be real…she couldn't. I had been told she died. She just had to be dead. It is what I had believed for years. No matter how much Carlisle or Esme told me she was still alive I did not trust them, it took me forever to get it in my head the two of them were alive and even longer with Alice, Rosalie, Emmett and Jasper. All of them were alive, but I had been told they were dead as well, but they were alive.

"I can not believe that. I am sorry…please do not cry." My hand moved forward as if to touch her but pulled back immediately. If I touched her she would be real. She was not real, she could not be. I turned on my heals and sprinted to my room before slamming the door shut and put my face in the pillow.

Bella's Point of View

Edward had just run out of the room and I stayed there crying as I sat at the table the small amount of jello left and the tea was forgotten. How could he not believe me? I was here. I was not gone. Not yet anyway. I just wanted my friends back.

I whimpered rubbing my eyes and suddenly felt very sick throwing up into the basket and whined before running my fingers over my clothes playing with the fabric trying to calm down. I was more angry then sad but I was still in tears. I slowly rose to my feet heading to the door so I could fine Em or jasper or someone to calm me down the door was opened and slammed into my face. I stumbled back falling on my butt my hand going to my nose immediately I knew what was going to happen even if it was not immediate. I grabbed the dish towel still on the floor as I waited for what was about to happen.

I looked up to find Edward staring at me a shocked look of horror on his face. "Oh my god Bella are you all right I am sorry." He said kneeling by my side his hands moving to touch me but stopped just before touching me and frowned deeply unsure of what to do obviously not wanting to touch me, I wondered briefly if I was still his hallucination.

I was I pain from falling back so hard but I knew the real problem. "G-Get C-Carlisle I am gonna get a nose bleed…it hit my nose hard." I said before pressing the towel against my face holding it there just as it started. "R-Right." Edward said before turning on his heels out the door.

With that he boomed up the steps running to Carlisle's room I am sure. At least I hoped.

I could not even stop to think about why Edward was in that kitchen again.

All I was worrying about was what a way to go a nose bleed.

Great…

I had noise bleeds just plain nose bleeds but this was different I had just gotten a door slammed on my face and I knew that was not good. I struggled to breath through my mouth instead of my noise. I was sure it was broken. I knew it.

It had to me. I knew I would have a huge bruises on my face and my hip where I landed along with my butt. Just great. First I had to survive. I was glad Carlisle was here. He would know what to do. At least I could hope. I did not want to die. Not just yet. I wanted my two years. I wanted allot of things.

Just as the blood coming from my nose got harder Carlisle came in wearing only a pair of pants. Not a site I needed to see in my last moments. A shirtless Carlisle…though he was kind hot I did not need to see his bear chest.

I tried not to look at it or think about it as I smelled the rusty smell. My mother always said humans could not smell blood so I do not know if it was in my head or if it was me really smelling it but all I know if that when ever I bleed a strange scent filled the air.

I started feeling dizzy when Carlisle reached me. No more then a minute later everything went fuzzy before turning black.

Next thing I knew my eyes fluttered open and I was staring at a white tiled ceiling. The hospital. I could not move but I felt some ones hand on mine. My eyes looked to my left and there in the chair asleep was Edward my hand in his. I fell asleep a moment later with a small smile. Not sure what was going on but Edward was here.

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