Remus looked at Sirius but his eyes were on Severus as well. He knew in fairness he could not ignore the kiss that Severus had given him. But he could not leave one man for another. Severus had told that himself. He had said that Remus had needed to make choices about himself for once. He had been living for Sirius ever since James had died and he had made decisions based on Harry as well. Severus card about him deeply and wanted a future with him. And part of Remus could not deny he wanted a future with the man as well. But for now he knew this had to be about him and no one else.
Looking at Sirius he was reminded of the love they had shared. He was reminded of how it felt when Sirius had proposed to him. But there were other memories. There was the time and time again when James had come first. There were the years he had spent alone struggling to free the man that he had loved. And even since Sirius was released he had never really been the man he loved. It was like James had been Sirius' soul mate and Sirius had lost a part of himself. Or maybe Sirius had never been the man he had loved in the first place. He had seen Sirius for what he had wanted him to be. Maybe he had never been the man in anything but his mind.
Sirius brought out the ring. "I know I have been a fool. And I know I have hurt you Moony. But I love you; I want to spend my life with you."
Remus shook his head. "I can't. I am sorry Padfoot but I am not coming back. Our relationship ended when James died. I should have seen that long ago."
Sirius watched his fiancé believing surely this was a joke. He knew Remus was hurt but they had fought before. He had done worse to Remus and he had always been forgiven. Remus was the one in Grimmauld demanding that he not throw away their relationship after he had waited for Sirius for a decade. Now Remus was the one who was refusing to come home to him. He knew he had made mistakes. He knew that he had a lot to make up for but he was sure he could. He just needed to be given a chance to make things right with his fiancé.
Sirius looked over at Severus. The man looked passive and as cool as he always had. But he thought the man was likely gloating. He had always wanted Remus. And he had offered Remus a convenient shoulder. He was likely basking in the success of breaking the two of them up.
Sirius pulled Remus in. "I know I have been a jerk but you said it yourself you have waited, we have waited so long. We can be together. We're soul mates."
Remus shook his head. "I realized I always played second fiddle to James. And what little I got of you died with him. I need to be someone's priority for once."
He knew that Sirius had suffered. He knew what the man had lost and suffered when he was in prison, he didn't deny that. But Remus had been in prison himself. He had been in a prison he admitted he had created for himself. He had not allowed himself to move on and find happiness. He had lived for Sirius and his cub. He still would have a huge part of his life for Harry. But Severus had been right. He allowed everyone to lean on him. Even in school people had always relied on him. He had always had to be strong. He wanted for once to be taken care. He wanted for once to share his life with someone who was willing to not take the entire burden but share it with him instead. He desperately needed and wanted that as well.
Sirius looked at Severus. "It is him? You have decided to run off with Severus? I can't believe this. He seduced you and you fell for it."
Remus slapped him hard. "He didn't seduce me. You just proved how right I am. You don't even know me. Yes I am interested, but this is about you and me."
He wanted more of that kiss he realized. He wanted a life with Severus. He knew it would take some time for he needed to mourn the end of his engagement. But he could see a future with Severus down the line. Severus had been the one constant in his life. He had been the one person even in Severus' spy days when they could not have been openly friends, who had been there. But this was not about Severus. Even if Severus was not willing to be with him, he knew he had to leave Sirius. He had to get away from the relationship. It wasn't making him happy for a long time and more then that it was hurting him.
Sirius tried to calm him. "Please Moony I love you. I have nothing except you. James is dead; you and cub are all I have left. Please Moony."
Remus kissed him lightly but drew away from him. "I am not James; you started dating me because you couldn't have him. I can't be second choice any more."
James had been bi and there had been a time that he and Sirius had flirted. But James' heart was always with Lily. Sirius knew if he was honest with himself that Remus was right. If James had been willing to be with him he would not have chosen Moony back then. But James was gone. He wanted to be with Remus. But he knew that Moony was right. But he had lost all but Moony, he couldn't lose him too.
Sirius touched his face. "I can't lose you Moony. Even if you won't be with me, I can't lose you. You have been a part of me for so long, even if just as friends."
Remus nodded. "I want that Padfoot, with time. But for now I need space. I need to make a life without you. But I hope we can be friends, I hope we can one day."
They both truly meant it. Remus was worried what Sirius would do if he was with Severus. It was one of the reasons that h had said he needed his distance. He shared a look with Severus. Severus knew the time would be meant toward him as well. Remus needed time to sort out what he wanted. And it seemed the first time that the two men agreed on something, Sirius and Severus that is.
Lucius stopped Sirius before he left. "You can come back and see Harry but you will warn us ahead of time. Harry loves you deep down and I want the best for him."