"Uhm, okay" she replied.
Rachel pulled her body away from Quinn and crossed her legs, so that the two girls were facing each other.
They both sat in silence as Rachel stared at the rock below her feet.
She knew that Quinn would be disappointed in her for not discussing this topic with her sooner and Rachel was planning on not telling Quinn until they were done their trip but Quinn deserved to know.
Quinn was the one to break the silence.
"So Rach, this is a wonderful conversation we are having right now, at some point are you going to open your mouth and go on one of your crazy rants so that I don't have to sit here and have the feeling that you're about to tell me your moving to the moon for five years" she said, very quickly.
Rachel's eyes widened. "Quinn? Oh god no baby, I'm not going anywhere I would never leave you again, I just need to tell you a slight thing I missed to mention from the wedding" she said smiling.
Quinn let out the breath she had been holding since the minute that Rachel began talking.
"Thank god, I don't know how I would be able to live with myself if you left again, but seriously just tell me" she replied.
Rachel bit her lip and nodded.
"Just listen until I'm done talking okay?"
Quinn nodded and played with the material of Rachel's dress between her fingers.
Rachel sighed and began.
"Okay so, when I talked to my mother at our wedding we had that discussion I told you about, where she told me that she would like to start fresh and try and get to know me again, kind of like what she tried in high school although it would be easier now seeing as I'm an adult" she said, and glanced up at Quinn who was nodding.
"Another thing we kind of discussed was, Shelby wants us to go down and visit her soon" she said taking a deep breath before quickly finishing.
"Quinn, Shelby wants you to meet Beth, she wants Beth to know her biological mother" she whispered.
Quinn dropped the material from her fingers, and went completely silent.
She didn't smile, didn't laugh, didn't frown, didn't slap her like she had expected, and didn't move an inch.
A few seconds passed and Rachel began to feel worried.
"Quinn?" she asked.
No answer.
Tears stung at her eyes, as she shook the blond slightly.
"Quinn baby, I'm so sorry I didn't tell you sooner please don't divorce me, please" she pleaded.
That seemed to snap Quinn out of her trance.
Her heart clenched when she saw the look on her wife's face.
The brunette looked like someone had just murdered her little puppy.
"Sweetie I'm not mad at you, and no way in hell am I divorcing you, I would never ever do that" Quinn whispered, lacing their fingers together.
Rachel sighed a huge breath of relief.
"So... what do you think?" she asked, quietly.
Quinn bit the inside of her cheek and closed her eyes.
"Well, I do think that you should have told me sooner, like say the night you discussed this with your mother" she stated.
Rachel's eyes dropped in shame.
"Quinn, I'm so sorry, I...I didn't want to ruin anything, I was afraid that you would yell at me for bringing up the conversation and not want to come here with me" she whispered.
Quinn's heart broke at the scene.
She reached over and stroked Rachel's cheek, feeling the wetness of Rachel's previous tears.
"Why would you think that Rachel? Do you not know how crazy head over heels I am for you? Even ask Santana, every time I see her she makes whipping noises at me, it's quite annoying actually" she replied, letting out a small laugh.
Rachel gave her a weak smile.
"I really am sorry Quinn, I promise I will never keep something like that from you again" she responded.
Quinn pulled her wife into a tight hug. "That's all I ask".
Rachel pulled away and studied Quinn's face.
"I also talked to my father's on the phone before we left, they said that they have recently gone to visit Shelby and Beth to discuss further details and they said she asks about you, Quinn. She loves to dance and to sing, and she has her heart set on being a cheerleader just like her mother someday" she whispered.
Quinn's eyes filled with tears, and she pursued her lips.
Rachel leaned over and brought their lips together.
"You are so strong Quinn, I know this will be hard but I have never seen someone as brave as you" she told her honestly.
Quinn nodded her head, and traced circles on Rachel's palm.
Rachel gave her a light smile.
"So Quinn Fabray would you like to see your daughter?" she asked.
Hearing the word daughter was the final straw. The tears flowed freely from her eyes.
Did she really want to see Beth? The human being that she took care of for nine months inside of her, the human being that she gave up everything for? Her family, her boyfriend, her popularity, cheerleading. The human being she let go from her life.
She thought about what Rachel had told her, about how badly she did want to keep Beth, and how badly it hurt her to see the tiny baby leave.
She knew her answer.
The words left her mouth in a breath of air.
"I do".
Rachel's eyes widened.
"You do?" she asked.
Quinn nodded.
"I don't want her to have to go through the same thing that you went through with Shelby. I don't want to leave her wondering who her mother is or if she will ever see her again, I see how much it hurts you and it breaks my heart to see you so broken. I promise I will go see Beth but only if you are right by my side" she whispered.
Rachel stared deep in her eyes.
"Always".
Quinn smiled and kissed her. "I love you so much Rachel, I mean it" she whispered.
Rachel smiled. "I know, and you also know that I love you too".
Quinn nodded and kissed her nose, causing the diva to grin.
"Well daddy and dad want us to come down for dinner soon, maybe we could go for Fourth of July weekend and we can take Beth and my mother to see the fireworks" she silently suggested.
Quinn smiled.
"That sounds like a great idea sweetie".
Rachel pulled Quinn down so that the blond was resting her head on Rachel's lap.
Quinn sighed and her eyes fluttered closed, as Rachel raked her fingers through her long blond hair.
"I feel like singing" Rachel whispered.
Quinn smiled sweetly and rubbed soft circles on Rachel's thigh.
"So sing to me".
And that's exactly what she did.
Her eyes locked with Quinn's as she quietly sang the words.
What day is it? And in what month? This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down I've been losing so much time,
'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do Nothing to lose,
And it's you and me and all other people And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you,
One of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right I'm tripping on words You've got my head spinning I don't know where to go from here,
'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all other people And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
There's something about you now I can't quite figure out everything she does is beautiful everything she does is right,
'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do Nothing to lose,
And it's you and me and all other people And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you ,
'Cause It's you and me and all other people with nothing to do Nothing to prove,
And it's you and me and all other people And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you,
What day is it? And in what month? This clock never seemed so alive.