He was pretty sure that the food was going to be less than delicious, but he heated it up anyway. Smiling as Sue walked up behind him, wrapping her arms around him. The feel of her breath on his neck caused shivers to run down his spine. Turning towards her, he returned her embrace, kissing her lightly on the nose. "Ready to eat now?"

"Yep, I think I have worked up an appetite now." She smiled slyly into his eyes, and he cherished the sight. Watching her as she walked to the table, his heart skipped a beat when he saw she was wearing his shirt. Shortly after they had been married, she had put on one of his old dress shirts, and he had found that she looked incredible in it. Later, he had told her that he thought she was extremely sexy in his shirts, and it had become a private game with them. Many nights, before the accident, he would come home to find her in his shirt, and it never failed to elicit the same response in him. It warmed his heart to realize that she chosen this particular attire now.

They ate together, talking about work, church, and all the other things that they had failed to talk about with each other for so long. After the meal was finished, they cleared the table, and washed the dishes together. It seemed tonight that even washing dishes was an intimate moment, and he realized it was something they had not shared with each other in a long time.

With the kitchen in good repair, he took her hand and led her to the living room. Seated together on the couch, he turned to her, and signed the words that he found so hard. "I want you to know Sue, I am sorry. I have neglected you, and I was wrong." Tears filled his eyes, and he fought to control himself, but he continued. "When I married you, I made some promises that I have not kept. I want you to know that I am recommitting to those promises, but I need your help. I need you to tell me what you need. To show me how to be a better husband. I love you so much."

Her eyes were overflowing too, and he heard that her voice was shaky as she spoke. "Jack, we have both made our share of mistakes. Until this week, I really didn't think I had any reason to stay in this marriage. I had forgotten our vows, and I really didn't want to remember them. I was so angry that I just wanted to forget everything. Jack, I am not sure how you can love me. I have taken everything away from you."

"What did you take away from me?" Jack was truly puzzled by her statement.

"If it wasn't for me, Bobby would still be alive. He died trying to save me. If I walked to the bullpen with you, we would have a baby, you would have your best friend, and Tara would have a husband and father for her child." A sob escaped from deep inside her, and he pulled her into his arms. Up until just the other night, he had never considered how much she might be taking responsibility for all that had happened, but hearing her say it made his heart break. For two years she had carried this burden and he had never once given her a reason to believe that he did not feel she was right.

Pulling her away from his chest, he put his hand underneath her chin, and pulled her face up until their eyes met. "Sue, you are not responsible for what happened. It was not your fault."

"Do you know when I knew I loved you?" This question surprised Jack, as he had no idea where it fit into the conversation they were having now. He simply shook his had. "It was when we were on the case with the boy, Danny, who lost his father, and then almost got you killed. I watched you with him, and I realized that I wanted you to be the father of my children. I wanted to have a family with you. Then when we got married, I realized just how much you wanted to be a father. I remember how excited you were when I told you I was pregnant. Then, in that one moment, it was all taken away. Why did it have to happen?" With fresh tears running down her face, she looked into his eyes, and he saw her broken heart.

"Sweetheart, I don't know why things happen the way they do. I know we live in a fallen world, with fallen people. One man chose to drive drunk, causing that truck to swerve and lose control. I can't give you the answers, but I do know that God is in control. It did not surprise Him."

"That is just it, Jack. Why did He let it happen? He could have stopped it. He could have made it ok." Jack understood where she was coming from. Honestly, he had dealt with this question too. It was an age old question really.

"Sue, I don't pretend to know the mind of God. I have asked these same questions. The only thing I came up with is that we live in a fallen world. A world where people make decisions that are contrary to God's will. God allows that, because He gives us freewill. Those decisions have consequences….even to innocent people."

"But how can He be so cruel to allow our friend and our baby to die. He could have stopped it."

"Sue, it would be cruel if He gave us no hope, but instead He promised us that we would see our baby and Bobby again. Remember, that God Himself gave His own Son. He knows what you feel, because He went through it. Sue, imagine the blessings we have had. Many people never know the love that we found in each other. Some people never have the opportunity to feel a baby growing inside them…to have the excitement that comes from feeling it move. The fact that we are so blessed is the reason we hurt so much."

"I have never thought of it like that. But I am still not sure if I understand it."

"We don't really have to understand it. If we understood God, He would not be God. The Bible tells us that His ways are higher than ours. I know that God has something good for us. He promises us that it is going to work together for our good."

"Maybe we should go see Pastor Mark some. If that is ok. I mean, it might be good to get a third party to help us through some of this stuff." Sue's eyes showed him that she was unsure how he would react to this.

"I would like that. And let's not ever let it get this bad again. Ok?" Her smile showed him that she felt the same as he did. Love overflowed his heart. Putting his hand behind her head, he moved her towards him, and kissed her with passion. "You know, it kind of seems like we are on our honeymoon again. And I really really liked our honeymoon!" He raised his eyebrows in a suggestive way, as they both laughed together.

"Want to watch a movie?" It wasn't exactly what he had in mind, but he decided it would be ok, as long as they were together. She turned on a chick flick, while he sat back to one side of the couch. As she returned, he pulled her down, so that she was sitting against his chest, with one of his legs on either side of her. He kissed her hair, as she snuggled into his body. Closing his eyes he breathed in her scent, and relished the nearness of her body. Wrapping his arms around her, he realized how blessed he was to have this part of his life back. As he sat thinking about how much he loved this woman, he heard her say the words that he had missed hearing for so long. "I love you, Jack."