Months and months had gone by since I had last heard anything about my getting out. Turns out Adrian's sense of them letting me out in weeks was wrong. In a way I guess its fine cause that meant I wasn't getting into any trouble but it was bad on the other hand cause then that meant the court really thought I could murder the Queen. I don't know what to think about anything anymore. I want out so that I can be with my friends. Everyday they visit me and everyday that they do I miss them even more. All I know now about them is that Adrian is still very much in love with me. Lissa and Christian are good. And Lissa is finally getting along with her newly found sister Kaydence. In all the time I have been in jail I never once got a call or a visit or anything from my dear ole dad, Abe. He is so worthless.

But still in the wake of everything I wondered how Adrian could be so dedicated to me. I know it has to be so hard on him. I could only imagine how much he must love me in order to be so faithful. So as I sat thinking about all this I decided that the moment I got out Adrian would have my unconditional love. I knew just how much I wanted to be with him. But then I also had the agonizing thought that maybe by the time I got out he wouldn't want me any more. But each time he came to visit me he would assure that there could never be anyone else for him. And he always seemed to convince me. Adrian promised that he would never let me go. That filled me with so much hope. That's all that kept me sane while in jail.

By the end of October the court was finally getting around to setting Lissa's party for her joining the Royal court. I could feel how anxious she was. But she felt bad too since I was unable to go. But she knew deep down that I would fight her every minute about going. I hated parties. Having to mingle with everyone. Make small talk. It all seemed like a complete waste to me. But as she and her sister, Kaydence, got ready I yearned to be there with them. Soon after they were finished Adrian, Christian and….Dimitri all showed up. Dimitri! What was he doing there. It seemed strange that he would take one of the "children" to this party. But on the other hand we weren't students any more and he was no longer their Guardian. He wasn't even allowed to be Lissa's. There may have been some talk about it but in the end the decided otherwise. They were allowing Dimitri to stay within the community but not be anyone's Guardian. It truly saddened Lissa because if she couldn't have me, she wanted Dimitri. I understood that. But I knew in my heart that even if I am cleared of the charges that would never allow me to guard Lissa. They probably would feel that I was a threat to her. Though I would never hurt Lissa. I would protect her with my life. Which I have several times. I've protected more than her with my life. But that's not really the point. The point is I'm not with the ones I love.

"Hey boys….looking good." Kaydence smiled

"Thank you." they said in sync.

Christian walked to Lissa's side then whispered in her ear, "You are very beautiful tonight. I just want to lock you in this room."

"Chris!" Liss giggled

"What?" he threw his hands up, "I'm just saying."

"Are we going to this thing or not? Cause if not than I am going back to my room." Adrian said

"No. You're coming with us. For the past few months you've done nothing but sulk in your room. I know you miss Rose but its not doing either of you any good. I know for a fact that she wouldn't want you to withdraw yourself from life. Rose wants you to live it." Lissa spoke very leader-like.

"Its true. Never once did Rose ever sulk when I was in jail. She may have been pissed but never sulked." Dimitri interjected

"OK I don't really need your input on this!" Adrian snapped

"Adrian!" Lissa yelled "Dimitri is just trying to help you. He is trying to help you understand what Rose would want you to do."

"I don't need anyone to tell me what Rose would want. I know what she wants. She wants me like I want her and if it wasn't for these stupid ass rules that the court made I could visit her right now. I hate that they are keeping us all away from her again. It's idiotic!" he expressed

"It is. I agree completely. But maybe you should look at it in the way of them finally getting around to making their decision. It's probably not a bad thing. I am in the Royal Court now. I will have vote. And you know she has my vote. I will do what ever I have to to protect her. You know this." What hurts the most is that she truly tried helping Adrian through the whole situation but he just couldn't see that. And what he did next ruined everything he had going for him. And I know in his head he thought it ruined us.

Adrian turned around and punched Dimitri. It completely threw him off guard to where Dimitri actually fell. Then, and no one seen this coming- and I mean no one-Adrian BIT Dimitri. Unless the person who you bite gives you permission, you under no circumstances that anyone. It is forbidden in our community. At least it is for the nobody vampires. But since Adrian is an Ivashkov there are different rules for them. But at the time he had no idea.

"Oh my…Adrian what did you do?" Lissa gasped

"Uh…he isn't supposed to do that is he?" Kaydence questioned

"No he isn't. We have rules here and under no circumstances do you bite someone who hasn't given you permission to." Christian explained

It always amazed me when Christian and I had the same track minds. But neither of us would admit to it.

"OK we need to handle this before any one gets wind of it." But just as Liss spoke those words there were three guards to come get Adrian. And also a medic to make sure Dimitri was fine.

Turns out Dimitri can handle a simple bite from a vamp but no one knew what was happening to Adrian. They all thought he was going to suffer. But only hours later was he released. They punished him by denying him two days without blood. It truly wasn't the worst. Other vamps have been staked for less. It really depends on who you are and who you know. Since Adrian was the nephew of the Queen, they decided that he was still suffering with her death.

Lissa was waiting for him outside of the court room. He told her what his punishment was and she seemed upset. But if she had done something like that they would have probably given her less of a punishment. It's crazy the way our community works.

"I can't believe they only gave him a two day suspension on blood. Its completely unfair." Kaydence expressed

"It's just the way it works here. You'll have to get used to it. Don't worry though, you're one of the most elite vampires here. So in other words…" Christian explained

"You're safe." Lissa finished Christian's statement.

"But that's really not the point. The point is that everyone should be treated equal. I don't understand how certain names can get you places." Kaydence continued

"Listen…I know its all really hard to get. But this is the life we've lived in for our entire lives. Rose and I used to be on the lowest point of the totem pole but now I'm part of the Royal Court and-"

"And Rose is locked away in jail for something she didn't do. Yeah I see how your name got you to where you're at but what has your name done for her. If you can't use your good name for well…good than what good is it."

"OK that was way too much good in one sentence." Chris said

"Yea it really was. You have a really strong opinion on this. Why don't you run for Queen or something." Lissa offered

"What? Me? No. I don't think so. I'm only staying here as long as I have to." Kaydence stated

"Alright. Well until then you'll just have to get used to our ways." Chris said

"Hey! Can I get someone's attention down here! Hello!" I yelled and yelled for what seemed like forever until someone finally came down

"Can I help you?" Guardian Smith asked

"Yes you can. It took you long enough to come down here. Anyway…I was wondering if you can see if Adrian can come visit me today. It really isn't for me. It's for him. I think I can help him with his problem. Please." I begged

It took a few minutes for Smith to respond. "I'll see what I can do."

"Thank you so much."

"You're welcome." Smith walked away and I continued re-reading my book. I swear if I was allowed a pencil and paper I would have actually written a book. But they don't want me having anything sharp enough to hurt someone or even myself. Which seemed to surprise me. I figured they wouldn't care if I went and offed myself.

It took a few hours but Smith pulled through and soon Adrian was walking towards me.

"I didn't think they were allowing you to see anyone." he said

"They aren't. But I still have a little pull in jail. I really needed to see you."

"I needed to see you too."

"Adrian…just let me talk for a minute, OK?"

"OK."

"So…I saw everything that happened. And I know that because you're an Ivashkov they really aren't giving you a punishment. But that's not really the point. The point is that you bit someone. And not just any someone….Dimitri."

"Is that what this is about?"

"Please," he nodded and I continued, "No this has nothing to do with him. The fact is that there's bad blood between the two of you. Everyone knows this. And I don't want you ruining your life for anything. It's not worth it. You have worked so hard to get to where you're at. Its killing me to see this through Lissa's eyes but its good that I see it. Everyone is telling you the truth about me. I want you out there living your life. But you're also right. I want to be with you and hopefully soon we will be together. Until then you need to get out of your room and do what you used to. Maybe not flirt and sleep with every girl out there but go to parties, practice spirit….have fun."

"It seems like you're pushing me away. Like you don't want me to wait for you."

"Did you hear me say the part about NOT sleeping with anyone. I do want you to wait for me and I'm not pushing you away. But I most certainly don't want you putting your life on hold for me. It's not fair to you or me. I want you to be happy. And if this relationship is causing you to be unhappy then maybe we should take a break and when I get out if we still want to be together than we will be."

"No! I don't want that. I don't want anyone but you. There is no girl out there who understands me like you do. No girl could ever love me like you. You don't care about my money or my name. You love me for me."

"Yes I do very much so. I've never cared about your name or your money. Adrian…you are the best thing to come in my life since…"

"Since Dimitri." he finished

"Well if I'm being honest then yes. But you bring me a different kind of happiness than Dimitri brought me. His happiness had restrictions…your happiness doesn't. The happiness we share will last forever. At least I hope it does."

"Me too."

"OK. So promise me that until we get to be together you will live your life and stop putting everything on hold. I need you to be happy while I'm in here. Live your life for the both of us. And I will check in with Liss everyday. So tell her what you did and I will hear it all. I promise. I love you."

"I love you. I can't wait to hold you, kiss you, touch you."

"I know, me too. Now you better go."

"I don't want to."

"I don't want you to either but you need to before they come down here. We will see each other soon. I can feel it."

"I am holding you to that."

"Ok." Adrian left and I laid back down.