ok, so here's another! and, i've gotten a few messages asking me why i gave Clary wings. well, it's because i have major plans for her and the wings in the future. but i promise this won't be like Maximum Ride. and i can tell you right now that Jace isn't going to have wings. he's too good for wings. lol
and he WILL be in the next chap, pinky promise.
now, without further adoo...
Previously...
But there he was. Standing almost directly in front of me, was none other than Magnus Bane. _
Oh. My. God.
I turned to Simon and yelled, "You brought me here? Here of all places!" His eyes widened. "Well, it was either here or die. And I wasn't going to let that happen."
Magnus snorted. "Glad to see you missed me."
My head whipped around to Magnus. "Magnus, as grateful as I am that you saved my life, you can't tell anyone! You have to forget I was here." If he told Alec, then he'd tell Izzy, and Izzy would tell...
He snorted. "Don't worry. Why would I want to hurt Alexander more than you already have?" Wait, hold it. "What are you talking about? I haven't hurt him." Hell! I haven't even seen any of them in over two years! Especially any of the Lightwoods -other than Robert.
Magnus came over and handed me a glass of water as he said, "You hurt him by leaving. You hurt him because you didn't tell him that you were having a baby. And you hurt him because you hurt his brother. Now, I'm not going to lecture you on everything because quite frankly, I'm not going to waist my breath. And, well, I'm partially on your side in all this. Although, you've been the cause of more than one fight between me and my Shadow-hunter."
I chugged my water as Simon said, "First, it's not Clary's fault if there's trouble in your relationship. Second, what do you mean you're on her side?" Magnus simply shrugs. "I mean that I think that even though leaving without telling anyone was risky, stupid, and overreacting, I believe you were in the right. In a way that is. Now, Clary, does anything hurt? Any dizziness? Nashua?"
As his fingers touched my bandages-Hold it! Where's my dress? "Uh...Where's my dress?" "Relax child. I had to remove it. But it's not like I haven't seen a women's bare chest before. Now, answer my questions." His fingers touched my wound and I winced. "Yeah. That hurt. But I'm not dizzy or anything. Where's my stele?"
By the look on Si's face, he had either lost it, or it was broken. Sighing, I say, "Broke, lost, or worse? Tell the truth Simon Lewis." His eyes widened. "How did you-? Mom thing?" I nod. He sighs. "The, um, demon took it. I think. That or it's on the floor back at the club."
Great. Just great. My stele was gone. So I'd have to let my wound heal on its own. Wonderful. I turned my head back towards Magnus. "Do you have a shirt I can borrow? Or maybe, by some chance, a stele?" He shakes his head.
I mutter, "Fudge me." Simon cocks his eyebrow. "Uh, fudge me?" "Well, since Erik made my Elliot's first word 'fuck' I've made the rule that if I hear any of the boys say fuck instead of 'fudge', I'd personally chop their dick off." I finished off with a smile.
Magnus smiled and laughs. "Finally the innocent Clarissa Fray says dick! And fuck! What a day indeed." I roll my eyes. "Yes, I do say bad words. Now, forrealz. Do you have a shirt or stele?" I'd be good with either really. My shoulders were getting cold, and my stomach was hurting.
"As much as I want you to but a shirt on and the two of you get the hell out of here so that I can continue my night, you need to stay here Clary. I'm not 100% sure that all the poison is out of your system. You should stay the night just so that I can keep and eye on you. And the wound. It'll have to heal on its own. Daylighter, you can go home now."
Simon, let's say, didn't agree to this. After lots of arguing, I finally yelled, "Shut the hell up! Both of you! Simon, I'll be fine. Magnus, be nice." So, Si said he'd pick me up in the morning, and Magnus gave him something to take out the blood stain in his car. Which, I apologized profusely for making.
After he left, Magnus put me in a guest room. As I laid in bed, I started thinking about my old life.
Did Izzy and Alec hate me for leaving? For not telling them about me being pregnant? And what about their mom? Had Robert told her anything? Angel, I hope not. It was never my intentions to hurt any of them, but at the time, it was just too much. The man I loved more than anything wanted me to kill our love baby. My own mother even tried to kill it herself!
Now that I'm back in contact with Simon, and I guess Magnus now, what was I going to do? I...really want my babies to know their family, but not...their father. I don't even want Jace to know what the genders are. And the best part? He'll never know I had triplets.
Magnus knocked on the threshold and said, "Mind if I come in?" He does anyway, though I don't care. And he brought me a sandwich. As he handed it to me, I winced and sat up. "Thanks Magnus. But since when do you actually have manners? The old Sparkly One would've just walked in here, thrown the sandwich at me, and probably left." It was true.
"Well, I thought that you'd be the exception just this once. Now, I'll leave you to rest as soon as you tell me everything." Did he really think that I was just going to chat like a teenage girl? But...if he promised not to tell anyone...
"I'll talk, but you gotta keep it a secret. Like, you can't tell anyone. Not Izzy, or Alec, and especially not Jace. You have to promise on your love for Alec that you won't tell anyone anything about me or my life from the time I left on, OK?" He agrees and I tell him my tale.
**Afterward**
"So let me get this straight. You have four kids, three being the result of you and Blondy's fucking like rabbits, the last a friends. And you've been living under the alias of Rowena Carter in West Virginia? And the only one who's known where you've been and everything else it Alexanders father, Robert?"
I nod. "Yep. Don't forget about the wings. And they're defiantly not bird wings. By the way, have you ever heard of it? People with wings?" He scratched his chin. "Other than angels, no. This is fascinating. Jace doesn't have wings. Do your children?" He had better mean 'your' as in mine.
"No. Are you sure he doesn't? It seemed like he would've been the one more likely to inherit qualities of angels. I mean, I can create new runes, he has the speed and strength. Magnus, what do you think this means?" Ever since Magnus told me that Jace doesn't have wings, my entire thought train froze. My theory had been that since we both had extra angel blood in us, we'd both have wings.
And why only me? There's nothing special about me. I'm not even the first angel child!
A snap of fingers in front of my face made me gasp, "What!" "Calm yourself girl. All I said was that you should get some sleep. I don't want you to pass out from exhaustion and the Daylighter to nag me about keeping you up all night."
Oh. Well, OK then. "Good night. Thanks again for saving my life Mags. I'm not sure how I can pay you back, but I will. Just tell me and I'll do it." As he walked away, he waved backwards and said, "It's on the house. Just don't go back to Hicks-ville without saying good bye this time."
"It's not Hicks-ville!" (and it's not) He yelled, "Says the chic with the accent!" I laughed and fell asleep quickly.
My dreams turned to nightmares in a matter of seconds. I was flying in the air, free as ever. The sky was blue and beautiful. Until it turned dark and began to thunder. The air was thick with evil. I wanted to turn back: to go home to protect my babies. But something stopped me.
Someone actually.
As the lightning flashed, I saw him. Though, he looked completely different then the last time I had saw him. His hair a pale blond instead of the black. Even in just the flash of light, I saw his back as coal eyes. But there was one thing that I couldn't believe that I was seeing.
On his back were gray, filthy wings with blood dripping from the tips.
"Hello dearest sister. I knew that you would return eventually. How long has it been? Ah yes. Going on three years. How have you been?" I reached for my dagger and threw it at him. He dodged. I yelled, "What are you doing here Sebastian? What do you want?"
Suddenly, he was right in front of me. His breath stunk like week old scrambled eggs as he whispered, "You're wings." Before I could respond, he hit by stomach and was behind me in the same second. I clutched my stomach in pain as his callused and brutal fingers grabbed my wings and jerked me down.
"Clary!"
My eyes shot open and my body shot up. Ah! Major regret! I looked to my left and saw Simon. "Clary! Are you OK? You were having a nightmare and-Are you bleeding? Magnus! Get your ass in here! She's bleeding!"
**After He Fixes Her Up**
"How does that feel? Too tight? Loose?" I shook my head. Magnus was re-dressing my wound while Simon went outside to clear his head. This was the second time in as many days that he had to watch me bleed and fight the eager to drink me dry.
"I'm fine. Look, I just had a nightmare and sat up too quickly. I'm fine." He looked at me skeptically, but nodded. "OK. Look, you need to take it easy, OK? You've lost a lot of blood and you need to just relax. How long are you going to stay here in New York?"
"Well, I had planned on three days. So tomorrow and the next day, then I'm going back home. Why do you ask?" The look in his eyes told me that I wasn't going to like his response. And I didn't.
"Because this needs to be looked at by a Shadow-hunter."
I pushed his hands away from me. "Oh no. don't you even think about getting any of them over here. No Magnus. I'll go back home and-" "And what? Let your kids see you bleeding? You need to stay here so that I can save you if you begin to loose too much blood. And I need a Shadow-hunters view on your situation. One of the Lightwoods would be the best because they've been treated you before. So unless you either want to risk dieing or letting your babies see their mother bleeding, you're staying here and letting me get one of the Lightwoods to help."
I gulped. He had a point. There was no way in hell I was going to let my kids see their mother bleeding. And if I did leave, there would be less of a chance that I'd live if I went home. Here, Magnus could heal me. And if I needed blood, I'm sure Alec or Izzy would help in that department.
Whispering, I say, "Fine. But Alec. Just him. And he can't tell anyone." Magnus nodded and left soon after to call him. I curled up on my side as much as I could and took beep breaths. Simon's voice carried over to me. "You OK?"
"No, I'm not. Simon, nothing's going like I planned. I was just suppose to come here to visit you. Not get poisoned. Not to come here. Not to see anyone who knew Clarissa. And you heard him Si. If I go home now, my kids will see my bleed and I might possible die. I have no choice. After two years of hiding and forming a new life, I'm forced to come back to the one that didn't want me."
Simon came over and held me as I cried. I hate it that I've put my best friend threw all of this. All I've done is hurt Simon for years. I hurt him when I chose Jace over him. Then again when I basically made him become a Vampire. When I left him after the day Jace chose himself over me and his child.
"How can you even still be here with me Simon? I've hurt you so many times. Why don't you hate me? Why don't you tell me that you can never forgive me and that you never want to see me again?" I wanted him to yell at me. Scream at me. Anything!
"Because I love you Clary. I love you so much. You're my little sister and I could never hate you. I'm always going to be with you, whether you like it or not. And now that I know where you've ran off to, I'm never going to let you get away. Don't worry about Alec. You know that I'll personally hurt him if he even dares to tell anyone that you're here. Magnus be dammed. Hell! I'll even steal his stele so that you can go back home if you want. Just tell me what I can do to see you smile again Clair-Bear. It hurt me so much to watch you in pain. Especially when you think you have to go threw it alone."
So even now I'm hurting him. What a friend I am. I'm tired of hurting people I love! Two years. Two fucking years I've been away and hurting Simon. And Alec. And probable Izzy. Well no more! I will find a way for them all to be in my kids' lives without Jace being included.
I refuse to continue hurting people, I'm tired of always crying and wishing that Jace had loved me enough to stay with me and our kids. I'm tired of waiting for the next day to somehow be different then today. And most of all, I'm tired of always being weak.
With what strength I had in me, I pushed Si away and wiped my tears saying, "I'm tired of crying Simon. I'm tired of telling my kids that everything will be OK. And when they start asking about who their father is and why they've never met their father or his family, I'm going to tell them the truth. But I will let the others know the kids.
A good mom takes care of her kids and makes sure that they're safe and loved. Hiding from people who will probably love them isn't me being a good mom. But I'll be dammed if Jace finds out that I had three kids, or their genders, or even meet them. He gave up his right to them.
Simon, you want to know what you can do to see me smile again? I need you to make me keep a promise. I'm promising to let Izzy and Alec, and even Maryse meet the kids. I'm promising that my mother, Luke, and Jace may never or will never see my children until I know that I can trust them. But they'll never be alone with them. Especially my mother.
Just help me give my kids the things they deserve and I swear I'll smile again. I'm not going to hurt anyone anymore Si. And I don't want to hurt. Help me be the adult I thought I was. Please Si?"
For a moment, all we do is stare at each other. Until he smirks and says, "You got it Fray. Now, let's go find Sparkles." This is exactly why I loved Simon and named my son after him. He knows how to make me laugh no matter what.
Simon's arm wraps around my ribs-since my waist was still hurting-and we went to find Magnus. Because his house was so big, I used my sensing ability-one of the perks of the angel blood-and figured out that he was in the living room.
As we entered the room, Magnus sighs. "Well, that went differently then I though." "What? Is something wrong?" "Alexander didn't, well...react the way I thought he would. All I did was text him saying that I had a surprise for him and to get here when he could. Which, usually means that he'd be over in half an hour or less. But he said that he has plans today and that he'd be here tonight."
And? "So what if he comes tonight? Does it make a difference?" He began to pace the floor. "It usually wouldn't. But his excuse was...off. Actually, it was a down right lie. He said that he was going to go out to Taki's with Izzy and Simon. But, seeing as Simon's here and has been, I believe something's off."
Why would Alec lie to Magnus? Simon sat me down on the couch as he said, "I'm going to call up Izzy and see if she says the same thing." I suppose he had her on speed dial because all he did was press 2 buttons and was ready to talk.
"Hey, Izzy. What's up?"-pause-"Same. What are you doing?"-another pause-"Well, have fun then. Bye." He turned to us as he placed his phone back in his pocket. "Well, there's definitely something going on. She said that she, Alec, and Magnus are going to visit Jace in Idris."
Magnus' eyebrows shot up. "What!" I held up my hand. "Hold on boys. OK, something's going on and I know just how to figure out what. But I need a stele. It was one of the runes I've created over the years. It gives the wearer something of a third eye. Though it only lasts for a bit, it can show you where or what someone is, or is doing."
At the snap of Magnus' fingers, a stele was dropped into my lap. "Use it. I want to get to the bottom of this." So did the rest of us. So, I drew the 'minds-eye' rune on my palm and focused on Izzy and Alec.
"Alec! What am I going to do?"
"I don't know Iz. But you can't really think that he's cheating on you."
"And why not! It's not like we're exclusive. But why else would he not come and see me when he got back?" She bit her lip.
Alec sighs. "Look, You said it yourself. You two aren't exclusive. Plus, didn't you break up a while ago? Like before he left on that trip?"
She stands and exclaims, "My point exactly! I asked Raphael and he said that he didn't send Simon to do anything. Why would he lie to me? I'm sure he went to go see that tramp! It wouldn't be the first time he two-timed me!"
Alec sighed. "Izzy, listen to me. You both lie to each other. You told him that me you and Magnus are going to visit Jace in Idris. But, as you can see, we're not leaving, and Jace isn't even in Idris. He's god knows where. And anyhow, you know that Simon cares about you. Why else would he have put up with you for this long? The only reason I have is cause you're my sister."
"I don't care. And so what if I lied? It's not like he'll ever figure it out. I bet you right now that he's probably fucking some blond bimbo. Dammit! I'm going over to his house right now."
She grabbed her coat and Alec sighed. "Well, if you're leaving, I'm going over to Magnus'. He said he had a surprise for me." As he put his coat on, Iz said, "But he has a new ass plug for you."
I rubbed my forehead and clenched my eyes as I spoke. "Well, Izzy thinks that Simon's cheating on her, she knows that the whole reason he left home wasn't for vampire shit, and she's going over to his house to see if he's, and I quote, 'fucking some blond bimbo'. Jace isn't in Idris either. Oh, Magnus. Alec's coming over and Iz said that your surprise for him's probably a new ass plug."
Both boys yelled, "WHAT!" Simon continued with, "How could she think that I'd fuck someone else!" Simultaneously, Magnus yells, "What I use with Alexander is my business, not hers!" Oh god! I didn't need to hear either of those statements. I jammed my fingers in my ears and yelled, "I'm not listening! La-la-la-la-la! Not listening!" Magnus' cell made us stop yelling.
"Hello my favorite Shadow-hunter. I wasn't expecting you to call."-pause- "Really? Well then, come right on over. But I must warn you, my surprise isn't for the faint of heart. And, you might want to be prepared for a blast from the pass. OK, I'll see you when you get here. I love you!" His phone shut before another word was said.
I sighed and Simon said, "So he's coming over? As in, right now?" "But of course. Alec loves surprises. Though I'm not positive how he'll react to this...Oh well! Now, Clary, you should call your friends in and tell them that you may be staying here for just a few more days. If Alexander thinks you're good to go, them by all means, go with your original plan. If not, you'll be staying here until I say so."
Have I mentioned how much I hate saying that Magnus knows best? Well, I do. With a burning passion.
((Ha-ha! I was going to end it here, but I think that I'll make it longer :D ))
"You OK Fray?"
No, I really wasn't. But I couldn't tell him that. "As OK as I can be. I just miss my kids. Like, Lucas told me that Lilly was humming and everyone thought that she was going to finally speak. But, I guess that if she does talk when I'm here, I'll at least get to see her first steps."
Simon's arm came around my shoulders. "I'm sure that if she did talk, her first word would be 'momma' or something. What were the others' first words?" I laughed and shook my head.
"Well, when Mike and I were dressing them after a bath, Elliot puts on this huge, shit eaters grin and yells 'Fuck!'. Now, you know I was freaking out. My kids' first word was a curse word!
And when I asked Mike where he learned it, Lil' Si yells 'Me!' and I fill with anger. Since, back then, Erik always said, 'fuck me' when he got ticked. Like, come on! And right before I could botch to Mikey about his brother, Melody made all the anger go away. She didn't whisper, but she softly said, 'Wuv Momma.' And then, both my boys yelled the same thing.
I think that that was one of, if not the, best moments in my life. For the first time since I had left everyone here, I felt like nothing could go wrong. To just hear them say that they loved me...made me feel like like I had done the right think by leaving."
That day was also the day that Lucas and I agreed that he'd be the Godfather to my kids. Adreona was the Godmother, but...Anyways, if anything happened to me, they'd go to him. And if that wasn't possible, they'd go to Joe, Mike, and now, Simon.
Of course, he didn't know it yet.
I looked up to his face and smiled. "Hey, I forgot to tell you something." He gave me a curious smile back. "And what might that be?" I looked back down to my lap as I spoke.
"Well, I was thinking...that if you want to-and you don't have to be...if you wanted, you can be...um, well, I was just thinking that maybe..." I took a beep breath and blurted, "Do you want to be one of the people to get the kids if anything happens to me and Lucas?"
He tensed. Oh no, he didn't want to be. "Look, forget it. It was a stupid-" I was cut off by his hand. As I looked into his face, I saw a dumbfounded smile. "Clary, I'd love to take care of the kids if you couldn't. Does that mean I'm like, the Godfather?"
"No, that's actually Lucas. But if something happened to me or him, all the kids would either go to you, Mike, or Joe. You all are actually the God-uncles. (Is that even real? Lol) So, would you be willing to take them in if something happened?" "Hell yeah!"
I loved his child like amazement.
"I hate to break up the love fest, but Alexander will be here shortly and we should figure out how we're going to tell him."
We saw Magnus leaning against the wall, staring at us. I shrugged. "Well, since I have to tell him anyways, why don't you just say 'Clary's back and I need you to look at her for me. She'll tell you everything since she's already had to tell me, Simon, and will probably have to tell your sister so that she stops thinking that Simon's fudging another girl.'"
Before another word was said, the front door opened and Alec walked into the room saying, "Magnus, I'm-"
He sees me.
And then he faints.
how'd i do? and rememeer, I'll answer your Q's if ya got them :P