Session 8

Not long after that I broke my own golden rule about sleeping with a co-worker… it seems I made a habit of that. His name was Brian Cassidy, he was a good cop and even better in bed. You know my pager went off and we were both scrambling trying to find our own in the heap of clothes we'd left on the bedroom floor. I kissed him and as I was pulling on my robe because I had to go to work and ... it was so funny he says 'hey that was incredible' I told him not to get used to it.

You know what's funny? Elliot knew. He cornered me about it at the lockers because through the start of that case Brian and I were at each other's necks.

He looked … I don't know pissed isn't the right word but he definitely wasn't pleased so I tried to deny it but of course Elliot and I at this point could practically read each other's thoughts so there was no way I could lie to him and get away with it.

That's when he told me. That's when he said "I'm your partner for better or worse." And so I told him that I'd broken a personal rule and that Cassidy had asked to see me again and Elliot said "can you blame him?" I had goose pimples and suddenly felt like a thirteen year old with a crush. It wasn't supposed to happen, I didn't ask for any of it to happen.

You know, thinking hard about it now, it's quite shocking how much detail I remember of what happened so early on in our partnership, by this point Elliot and I had been partners for a year and a half, it flew by.

Not long after that Elliot broke my confidence by telling Munch about my Dad, the only people who knew at work were Elliot and Don, it was need to know basis but we were filling out some medical forms and as per I had to leave the father's side blank and Munch made some snide comment about me having the right idea or something so Elliot went and told him that my Dad raped my Mom.

Bless Munch, he told me he knew told me he was there if I ever wanted to talk. Even then he was like a crazed big brother to me. He even went out of his way to find some more information for me, I was obsessed with trying to find my father at the time, I'd listened to the statements, read every transcript, the lot.

We arrested Ray Gunther, he called me sweetheart and Elliot squeezed his cuffs so tight and told him to apologise to me, it was brilliant and I was there saying I didn't need an apology from that slime ball it was one of the many times we both got to play bad cop.

Anyway, after the whole thing with Munch helping me locate who he thought was my father I hunted him down, Elliot followed me, watched me while I looked at this man hanging out his window. I knew Elliot was there and I went into the car and told him that the man wasn't my father, I was near tears why I don't know but I was. He was there for me, Elliot, he really was all those years ago when he was still very happily married.

We were both stood on the Promenade at Brighton Beach not long after that just after watching this Russian guy shoot himself in the chest over someone he loved who didn't love him or something. Neither one of us knew what to say and the silence was awkward.

"Let's go home Olivia." Elliot said softly, he understood they were both in shock over what had happened.

"Some people consider death a blessing." She told him as they started to walk. "This was no blessing." She added eventually.

"What a mess." Elliot sighed.

"Blowing people's heads off because of someone's vodka induced third grade notion of tragedy." Olivia replied weakly, she couldn't wrap her head around what had happened.

"It's a load of crap." Elliot said, he really was summing it all up in as few words as possible. "And for this they come to America."

It was after that he started buying me things, you know just coffee and donuts then lunch and once he'd done it a few times I did it back too and that's just how we were for a while, a few touches here and there and buying each other coffee and lunch.

A/N: The bit where I wrote they had been partners for a year and a half when she slept with Cassidy, that's what Elliot says in the show, believe me I was watching each episode as I wrote these.